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“All true.” Lucy nodded. “He’s well equipped for the places they send him, but still, you never know …” She picked up her wineglass and swirled the last bit of liquid around. “My mom worries that he’ll be in a bad situation someday and that he’ll be the one who saves everyone else but doesn’t get out alive himself. Even a cat only has nine lives.”

“Has he told you that he’s used up a few?”

“He tells Danny things, but he won’t tell me much. He’ll just say he’s in Africa, for example, but he won’t say that the country he’s in is in the midst of political turmoil and that villages are being annihilated and women and children murdered and raped and that he’s having a hard time keeping the lid from blowing off.” She stared at her glass. “I get all that from the news. I always hope to God my mom isn’t watching the same broadcast.”

“Where is he now?”

“He didn’t really say. Just sort of hemmed and hawed and talked past it. Which worries me as much as it worries Mom,” she admitted.

“Maybe he didn’t want to say too much in front of your mother,” Clay suggested. “Maybe you could give him a call when you get back to California.”

“I thought about that.” She nodded. “That’s probably what I’ll do.”

Clay looked down at his plate and was surprised to find he’d eaten pretty much everything on it.

“Wow,” he said. “I didn’t realize how hungry I was.”

“Me either. I haven’t eaten this much in … I don’t remember the last time I ate so much.” She laughed. “Oh, yes, I do. Last night. Huge dinner last night.”

“Christmas dinner, right.”

“I’ll need two seats on my flight back home.” She touched her napkin to her lips then folded it and placed it on the table.

“Which is when?”

“Sunday.”

“That’s great.” He grinned. “That means we get to do this again.”

“I think your email called for ‘dinner,’ not ‘dinners,’ ” she reminded him.

“A technicality.” Clay saw their waitress approaching. “Luce, do you want dessert? They still make the best cheesecake in town. It’s amazing stuff.”

“The best, is it? Sounds like we’ll have to get the inn’s new pastry chef to up her game,” Lucy replied good-naturedly. “But thank you, no. If I ate one more thing …”

“Just the check, please, Candace,” Clay told her.

She brought the bill and he paid it. At the coatroom, he picked up Lucy’s jacket and held it as she slipped her arms in. It was the closest he’d been to her all night, and for just a moment, he caught the scent of her hair when she flipped it out from under her collar. She smelled faintly of flowers and sunlight, even on this wintry night.

“Looks like the rain has stopped,” he said when
they stepped outside. “Want to take a stroll along the pier?”

“Wouldn’t hurt to try to walk off a bit of dinner. It really was a treat, Clay. Thanks so much.”

“My pleasure.” He took her hand and tucked it under his arm. “I waited twenty years for this date—and don’t break my heart by insisting this wasn’t a date, all right? Play along with me if you must. But don’t say—”

“I wasn’t going to. And for the record, it’s the best date I’ve had in a long time.”

“Now you’re just being nice. But I’ll take it.”

“No,” she insisted. “Really. It’s a pleasure to be with someone you’ve known all your life. Not at all like a first date with someone you’ve just met.”

“Ha! You said first date. The implication being that there will be another.”

“Yeah, well, don’t let it go to your head.” In the dark, he could see that she was smiling.

“This is what I think of when I think of the Bay at night,” she went on. “The moon reflected on the water, that gentle, rhythmic sound of the waves lapping against the side of the boats. I love that sound. I’m glad they weren’t all put in dry dock.”

“Most of the boats you see still in the water will be heading south through the Intercoastal Waterway within the next week or so.”

She stopped and took a deep breath. “It smells like winter in Maryland. It smells like snow.”

“It’s in the forecast.” He stopped when she did, and followed her gaze as it swept across the marina. Without thinking, he leaned down and kissed her on the cheek. When she turned toward him, his lips caught
hers full-on in a kiss that neither of them was expecting. She tasted of lemons and wine, and he knew that he would never again taste either of those things without thinking of this moment. Her lips were warm in spite of the cold, and soft, and he couldn’t help but kiss her again.

“I’ve been wanting to do that for real since we were in seventh grade,” he whispered. “Remember when you wanted me to practice kissing with you so that you’d know what to do when you went to that dance with Kevin?”

She laughed. “I do remember.”

“After we practiced, I tried to think of some way to disable Kevin so that he couldn’t take you. I was so jealous that he was going to get to kiss you for real while I only got to practice.”

“Seriously? That bothered you?”

“Made me crazy.”

“I guess I should have told you then …”

“Told me what?”

“That I never did kiss him.” She took his hand and started toward the parking lot.

“Damn. And here I’ve held a grudge against him all these years.” He realized he was smiling, realized, too, how silly after all this time that it still mattered somehow. “Why didn’t you kiss him?”

“Didn’t want to.” Lucy shrugged. “And don’t look so smug …”

He was still laughing when they reached the car. He unlocked her door and opened it, ignoring the fact that she’d reached for the door handle at the same time. When he slid behind the wheel, she’d already fastened her seat belt. He started the car and drove up
Kelly’s Point Road to Charles Street, where he stopped for the light.

“So are you going to tell me what it was that I did that ended our friendship back in high school?” he asked.

“I never thought our friendship ever really ended, Clay,” she said softly.

“You shut me out for all these years,” he reminded her. “You’ve said more to me tonight than you did through the last three years of high school.”

When she didn’t respond, he added, “Okay, this may not be a very manly thing to say, but it really hurt that you just stopped talking to me. I know I must have done something that upset you or hurt you, but I’ve never known what it was, and it’s bothered me all these years.”

The light turned green, and he made the right turn.

“So I have to ask: What was it that I’d done back then that kept us from being friends all these years?”

“It wasn’t something you did, Clay. It never occurred to me that you’d think that you’d done something.” She spoke so softly that he could barely hear her words. “I’m so very sorry that you thought it was you.”

“Then what was it?”

He turned into the inn’s drive, and followed the lane to the back of the building. He stopped the Jeep near the back door and shifted into park. In the dark, he heard her breathing, ragged and uneven.

“Something happened that summer that changed me. It had nothing to do with you, and everything to do with me.” She looked across the console, her eyes wide and haunted. “I am more sorry than I can say
that I shut you out. You were the one person I could always depend on—you didn’t deserve the way I treated you. It’s embarrassed and shamed me all these years because you had been such a good friend to me, always, and I treated you unfairly and unkindly. Thank you for not holding it against me, for giving me a chance to tell you how much I’ve regretted my actions.”

Before Clay could react, Lucy jumped out of the car and disappeared through the double doors into the lobby.

What, he asked himself, was that all about?

He sat outside the inn, watching to see if the lights went on in her old room, the corner room on the second floor, but the windows remained dark. He eased the car toward the no parking sign, and sat in the silent car, wondering what the hell had just happened.

The lobby was lit only by the lights on the twelve-foot-tall Christmas tree that stood in one corner and the lamp on the reservation desk, though Lucy was pretty sure there’d be no late or unexpected arrivals that night. Other than the good-natured chatter of the kitchen’s cleanup crew—one of them loudly singing along to Lady Gaga’s “Born This Way” on the radio—there didn’t seem to be much activity in the inn. Lucy paused at the foot of the steps that led to the second floor and the family’s quarters. She didn’t fancy another night lying in bed staring at the ceiling, fighting sleep for fear of the nightmares returning. If she went upstairs now, she’d be expected to join everyone who was still awake while they watched the news in their shared family room and surely she’d be subjected to interrogation by her mother about her date with Clay.

She wasn’t up to either—nightmares or interrogations—so she walked down the hall into the darkest part of the inn, to the library, where she’d always found peace. The white lights were still lit on the tree, though all of the candles were extinguished. Lucy
took off her boots then curled up in the leather chair and tried to sort through the evening.

The good news was that she’d finally been able to voice a long-overdue apology to Clay for the way she’d treated him so many years ago, and that he hadn’t pushed for any further explanation than what she’d offered, which, in retrospect, had been none at all. Why, she wondered, had it taken her so long to have gotten even that much out? Whatever else might have happened, Clay was still her friend, quite possibly the best friend she’d ever had. She hadn’t realized how much she’d missed his friendship until she’d sat across the table from him that night and the years seemed to drift away. At his core, Clay hadn’t changed much at all: his humor and good-natured earnestness had always been part of his personality, and as always, his enthusiasm—for his farming, his prospective brewery—had made her smile. Clay was a man who loved life, embraced it, and she was smart enough to realize that her life had been richer when he’d been a part of it.

And then there was that kiss—a lifetime in the making if you didn’t count those practice kisses back in seventh grade. She smiled in the dark and wondered why
that
had taken so long, too. It had come as such a surprise that her normal defenses never had a chance. But that was okay. There’d been such an air of fate about the entire night—including the kiss—that she hadn’t felt the alarm she usually felt when someone got too close.

Now if she could only work up the courage to tell him the rest of the story, to speak the words she’d
never said aloud to anyone, maybe some part of her might be free.

“I was raped, Clay,” she whispered to the empty room. “That summer? I was raped …”

Lucy carried a stepstool to the library to reach the star on the top of the tree and remove the top tier of ornaments. Her mother was there waiting for her, staring out the window, the boxes for the ornaments laid out on the table.

“You look as if you’re having deep thoughts.” Lucy set the stool next to the tree.

“I was just thinking about Vanessa,” Grace told her.