The Blizzard (7 page)

“We will, we will. Sleep tight.”

Taisia Markovna emerged from behind the curtains, walked over to the guests, squatted, and looked under the table.

“It’s somewhere…”

“A handsome woman,” the doctor thought all of a sudden.

Squatting and looking under the table with her marvelous, cloudy eyes, she awoke his desire. She wasn’t pretty, that was particularly noticeable now, when the doctor saw her face from above. Her brow was a bit low; her chin heavy and tilted downward; all in all her face adhered to the typically crude peasant model. But her carriage, her white skin, her buxom bosom, rising and falling, aroused the doctor.

“There it is.” She reached under the table and bent over.

Her hair was woven into a black braid, and the braid wound round her head.

“A delicious woman the miller has…,” the doctor thought, and suddenly, ashamed of his thoughts, he gave a tired sigh and laughed.

The miller’s wife stood up; smiling, she showed him her little finger with the thimble on it.

“There you go!”

She sat down at the table:

“He likes to drink out of my thimble, though we have glasses.”

And indeed—on the miller’s table, amid the little plates, there was a little glass.

“I c’d go to sleep now,” Crouper said with a hint of complaint in his voice as he turned his tea glass upside down.

“Go on, love.” The miller’s wife took the thimble off her finger and placed it upside down on the overturned glass. “There’s a pillow and a blanket atop the stove.”

“Mighty grateful, Tais’ Markovna.” Crouper bowed to her and climbed up on top of the tile stove.

The doctor and the miller’s wife remained alone at the table.

“So then, you do your doctoring in Repishnaya?” she inquired.

“Yes, in Repishnaya.” The doctor took a gulp of tea.

“Is it hard?”

“Sometimes. When people are sick frequently—it can be difficult.”

“And when is the sickness greater? In winter?”

“Epidemics happen in the summer, too.”

“Epidemics,” she repeated, shaking her head. “We had one about two years back.”

“Dysentery?”

“That’s it. Something got into the river. The kids swimming took sick.”

The doctor nodded. There was clearly something about the woman sitting opposite him that excited him. He looked her over furtively, a bit at a time. She sat calmly, a little smile on her face, and regarded the doctor as if he were a distant relation who’d stopped by when he saw the lights on. She didn’t seem particularly interested in the doctor and spoke with him the same way she did with Crouper and Avdotia.

“Is it boring for you here in winter?” asked Platon Ilich.

“A bit.”

“Summer’s probably fun, no?”

“Oh, summer…” She raised her hands. “Summer is bustling, something every which way you turn.”

“People bring their grain to the mill?”

“Of course they do!”

“Are the other mills far from here?”

“Twelve versts, in Dergachi.”

“So there’s plenty of work.”

“There’s plenty of work,” she repeated.

They sat in silence. The doctor drank tea, the miller’s wife played with the end of her kerchief.

“Should we watch the radio?” she suggested.

“Why not,” said the doctor, smiling.

He really didn’t want to say goodnight to this woman and go upstairs to sleep. The miller’s wife rose and took a knitted cover off the receiver, picked up the black remote control, returned to the table, turned down the lamp wick, sat back down in her chair, and pressed the red button on the remote. The radio clicked and a round hologram with a thick number “1” in the right corner appeared above them. Channel 1 had the news: a story about the reconstruction of the automobile plant in Zhiguli; another about a new single-occupancy sledmobile with a potato-fueled engine. The miller’s wife switched to Channel 2. A regular church service was on. The miller’s wife crossed herself and glanced at the doctor. He stared indifferently at the middle-aged priest in raiment and the young deacons. She turned to the last channel, Channel 3, the entertainment channel. They were showing a concert, as always. First, two beauties in sparkling traditional headgear sang a duet about a golden grove. Then a jolly, broad-faced fellow, winking and clucking, sang about the cunning intrigues of his indefatigable, atomic mother-in-law, causing the miller’s wife to laugh a few times, and a weary smirk to appear on the doctor’s face. Then the young men and girls began a long dance on the deck of the
Yermak
, a steamship sailing down the Yenisei River.

The doctor dozed.

The miller’s wife turned the set off.

“I can see you’re tired,” she said, rearranging the scarf, which had slipped off her shoulder.

“I’m … not … the least … bit … tired,” the doctor mumbled, shaking off his stupor.

“You’re tired, tired.” She rose. “Your eyes are shutting. It’s time for me to get some sleep, too.”

The doctor stood up. Despite his bleary drowsiness, he didn’t want to part with the miller’s wife.

“I’ll go out for a smoke.” He took off his pince-nez, wiped the bridge of his nose, and blinked his swollen eyes.

“Go ahead. I’ll get everything ready.”

The miller’s wife left, her skirts rustling.

“She’ll be upstairs,” the doctor thought, and his heart pounded. He heard two snores—one slight, Crouper, from the stove; the other, from behind the curtain, sounded like the chirr of grasshoppers.

“Her husband’s asleep … A drunken swamp rat. No, a watery drunk! A mill pond drunk!”

The doctor burst out laughing, took out a
papirosa
, lit it, and left the room. Passing through the cold, dark mudroom entrance, he bumped into something and had trouble finding the door to the courtyard; eventually, he pulled back the bolt and stepped outside.

It was windy, but the snow had stopped and the sky was clear; the moon shone through tufts of dark clouds. “It’s settled down,” said the doctor, puffing on his cigarette.

“We could even leave now.” He walked to the middle of the courtyard, mounds of snow crunching underfoot.

But his heart was pounding, sending jolts of hot longing through him.

“No, I’m not going anywhere…”

“Tomorrow!” he said decisively. Clenching his
papirosa
between his teeth, he walked over to the woodpile and relieved himself.

A dog barked in the cowshed.

The doctor quickly finished smoking and tossed the
papirosa
in the snow.

“Does she usually sleep with her husband on the bed behind the curtain? Where else would she sleep? So big and white, and next to her he’s like some child’s doll.”

He stood, taking in the invigorating, frosty air, and looking up at the stars that twinkled between the moving clouds. The moon peeked out and illuminated the courtyard: the storehouse, a shed, snow-capped haystacks—everything gleamed in the fresh, new-fallen snow, in myriad snowflakes. The snow-dusted courtyard and the frigid calm exuded by the wood, which, once upon a time, people had shaped and nailed together into these buildings—all this only intensified Platon Ilich’s desire. The contours of the immobile woodshed, filled with hundreds of frozen birch logs and kindling, all doomed to a brilliant death in the stove, seemed to tell him: in that house there is something warm, alive, trembling, on which the whole human world rests and upon which all its woodsheds, villages, sleds, cities, epidemics, airplanes, and trains depend. And this warmth, this femininity, awaits your desire, your touch.

Shivers ran down the doctor’s spine; he shuddered, shrugged his shoulders, exhaled, and went back into the house. Passing through the entryway, he felt for the door to the kitchen, opened it, and was immediately met with another dusky darkness. The lamp wasn’t burning, but there was a candle on the table.

“I made the bed for you upstairs,” called the voice of the miller’s wife. “Goodnight.”

Judging by the voice, she was already lying on the bed behind the curtain. Crouper and the miller were still snoring. Adding to the racket was the chirp of a real cricket, responding amusingly to the miller’s cheeps.

The doctor heaved a sigh, not knowing what to do. He wanted to ask the miller’s wife something, find an excuse to stay, but then he quickly realized how ridiculous it would seem, and, all in all, how stupid and vulgar his thoughts were. He was suddenly ashamed.

“Idiot!” he cursed himself. “Good night.”

“Don’t kill yourself on the stairs. Take the light,” came her voice, barely audible, from the darkness of the main room.

The doctor took the candle from the table and went silently upstairs. The staircase led to the attic directly from the entryway; the steps were narrow and creaked under the doctor’s boots.

“Idiot. A regular idiot!”

Upstairs there were two rooms: in the first were woven baskets, chests, boxes, strings of onion, garlic, and dried pears. The garden aroma was soothing. The doctor passed that room; the door to the other one was ajar. He found himself in a small room with a dark window, a bed, a little table, a chair, and a small dresser. The bedclothes were turned back.

The doctor set the candle on the table, closed the door, and began to undress.

“Beddy-bye, the calf’s asleep.” Noticing a clay cow on the windowsill, he remembered the children’s rhyme.

“What a strange family … Though perhaps it isn’t strange, but quite normal for the times. And they live well, prosperously … For how long? How old is she, I wonder … thirty?”

He recalled her calm hands, the ring on her pinky finger, and the look of her dark-brown eyes.

“
Guten Abend, schöne Müllerin
…,” he said aloud, recalling Nadine’s beloved Schubert. He took off his shirt.

“One should never abandon one’s principles. As in chess, one should not stoop lower than the floor and make forced moves. Coercion is not the way to live—the palliatives of work are more than enough. Life offers choice: one should always choose what comes naturally, what will not cause you to regret your own lack of willpower later in life. Only epidemics leave you no choice.”

Remaining in his underclothes, he removed his pince-nez, placed it on the table, blew out the candle, and climbed into the cold bed. Upstairs, as always, it was chilly.

“A good night’s sleep.” The doctor pulled the blanket right up to his nose. “And leave bright and early tomorrow. As early as possible.”

There was a soft knock at the door.

“Yes?” The doctor raised his head.

The door opened and a burning candle appeared. The doctor picked up the pince-nez from the table and put it to his eyes. The miller’s wife entered the room inaudibly, barefoot; she wore a long white nightgown and her colorful shawl around her shoulders. She held the burning candle in one hand and a cup in the other.

“Forgive me, I forgot to leave you water. Our ham’s so salty, you’ll be wanting a drink in the night.”

She leaned over, and her loose hair fell from her shoulders to her breasts as she set the cup on the table. Her eyes met the doctor’s, her face as calm as ever. She blew out the candle and straightened up. And remained.

The doctor tossed his pince-nez on the table, threw back the blanket in one movement, stood up, and embraced her warm, soft, large frame.

“There we go…,” she said softly, putting her hands on his shoulders.

He drew her toward the bed.

“I’ll close the door…,” she whispered in his ear, and his heart pounded like a hammer.

But he didn’t want to let her go. He pressed against her body and his lips found her neck. The woman smelled of sweat, vodka, and lavender oil. In one movement he tore off her nightgown and grabbed her by the butt.

Her bottom was big and plushy and cool.

“Oh…,” she murmured.

The doctor threw her back on the bed; trembling, he began tearing off his underclothes. But neither the clothes nor his hands would obey. “Damn…” He pulled hard and a button flew off and rolled across the floor.

Having managed to get one leg free of his hateful underwear, he fell on her and spread her smooth, plump legs roughly with his own. Her legs opened obediently and bent at the knees. In an instant, trembling and panting, he entered the substantial body, which gave itself to him. She moaned and embraced him.

He grabbed her by the round, sloping shoulders he had admired at the table, made a few spasmodic thrusts, and couldn’t contain himself: his seed flooded into her.

“Sweetheart.” She pressed her head to his with a calming movement.

But he could not calm down. He did not want to calm down. He squeezed her, and began to push, as though racing to catch up with the desired body slipping away from him. Her legs opened wider, letting him in, and her warm hand slid down his back and grabbed his rear. The doctor’s movements were brusque. He seized the woman in his arms and dug his fingers into her. His backside trembled and squeezed tight in time with his movement. As if to calm it, the woman’s hand began to press down gently. The doctor panted noisily into her neck, and his head shuddered.

“My sweetheart.”

She pushed down on his buttocks, sensing the fury of the contracting muscles.

“My sweet…”

Her hand soothed him, as if to say with its every move: there’s no hurry, I’m not going anywhere, I’m yours tonight.

He understood the language of that hand; the convulsions left his body and he began to move more slowly, rhythmically. With her left hand the woman lifted his hot head and brought her lips to his parched, open mouth. But he didn’t have the strength to respond to her kiss. He took intermittent, greedy breaths.

“My sweet…,” she exhaled into his mouth.

The doctor had her; trying to stretch out the pleasure, he obeyed her delicate feminine hand. Her body responded to him, her wide hips squeezed his legs in time with his movement: they opened and squeezed, opened and squeezed. Her ample chest rocked him.

“My sweet,” she exhaled into him once again. And her breath seemed to sober him up. He answered her kiss, their tongues meeting in the hot darkness of their bodies.

They kissed.

Her hand stroked and calmed him. Understanding that the man was ready to enjoy her for a long while, the woman gave herself to him utterly. A moan began in her large, heaving breast. And she allowed herself to be helpless. Her breasts and hips trembled.