The Beam: Season Two (80 page)

Natasha made a noise that Isaac had all but forgotten — a noise so odd it was almost disruptive, shattering the aura of suspended disbelief. It was a bona-fide giggle.
 

“Should we go inside and watch the show?” she said, her high-heeled feet moving after his clumsy lead.
 

Isaac pulled her closer. “No.”
 

She paused, kicked her heels away, and resumed moving on her bare feet, now closer to Isaac’s height. She settled her head in the hollow of his neck, cheek on his shoulder. Her breath was warm against his skin. “Then what do you want to do?”

Isaac almost wanted to smile and sigh, but he couldn’t. The moment was sweet. But for some reason, it hurt. So instead he said, “I just want to keep dancing.”

Chapter 9

The room was composed and civil, for a group on the verge of a meltdown.

Leo, with the help of the village group heads, had spread word about the meeting, implying without stating that Leo had a solution to the settlement’s unspoken truth. They’d been rationing without rationing, cutting down on Lunis consumption without being expressly commanded to. No one had really discussed the shortage, but it had buzzed and hovered through every mind nonetheless. It felt like a bubble had surrounded them, and that the first person to say “shortage” would pop it for everyone.

Still, every jittery, bloodshot eye in the group knew what the meeting was about. It was why everyone had arrived on time, dropping whatever they’d been doing to calmly file into the meeting hall. There were smiles and nods all around, and murmurs and small talk permeated the air. But it was obvious to Leo, as he moved to the room’s front, that the smiles were forced and the chatter was more idle than usual. They were all holding their composure close, trying to make themselves into gentle Earth people through brute will. Leo felt what they must be feeling and couldn’t help but admire their fortitude as he watched them settle into the chairs. But his admiration was fragile, like the room’s mood. One mention would trigger an inevitable chain reaction — just one expression of pessimism or discontent. Self-delusion was either an Organa strength or failing, but Leo wasn’t sure which.
 

Scooter climbed the small wooden podium ahead of Leo, his massive frame making the boards squeal. In a more official, District Zero-style meeting, Scooter’s position might have been called “emcee” or even “sergeant at arms,” but among Organa he was simply the meeting head. He set the tone, established what was about to happen (without blowing the punch line, of course) and introduced the one person in the village who, more than anyone, needed no introduction. It was all empty ritual, like so much about humanity, Leo realized. No matter how different people tried to be, they couldn’t help what they were.

Leo was glad for Scooter’s presence. Next to Leah (who was still in the city, lucky girl) he was Leo’s closest village confidant and right hand. He’d informally kept the peace so far in various Lunis spats, and his size had already quelled the crowd’s mood in the meeting hall tonight. Scooter was friendly and gentle, and everyone knew it, but thanks to his dominant bearing, he had no trouble settling every debate he stepped into. Scooter knew the moondust supply was about to run dry, and to his credit trusted Leo to solve it. Whether that showed Scooter’s faith or his naive, mooselike stupidity, Leo couldn’t decide.
 

“Okay, listen up,” said Scooter, walking up behind a wooden lectern. “Leo wants to talk to us, and without saying too much to bust his nuts ahead of time, I’ll just say it’s important stuff. You’ve probably already figured out what it’s about, but you’d do well to not decide anything in advance. Leo has been our granddad forever. He started this group. We’re here because we believe in him and because once upon a time, he gave us all the answers we were looking for. He knows better than most of us about things that concern us all. I got into Organa in part because I don’t like doing what other people tell me to do and because I like making my own rules, but this place still has a few statutes, laid down not to control us but to help us hold the peace. So keep your hands in your laps and your minds open for a bit so you can really hear what Leo has to say. You’ll get your chance to speak later, same as always, but Leo says his bit first, no interruptions.”
 

It would have been natural for Scooter to ask the crowd for their agreement after his remarks, but he didn’t. Scooter wasn’t a bully and never tried forcing his will on others — except when warranted, fair, or necessary. Right now it was all three, and everyone in attendance seemed to see it without the unnecessary beating of dead horses.
 

Scooter flicked his left hand toward Leo, suggesting he take the stage. It was almost an introductory gesture, but the Organa didn’t stand much on ceremony. Leo watched Scooter leave the podium and sit in the front row as he moved forward. A moment later, he found himself staring out at a sea of wide eyes and desperate blooming need.

“Let’s get this out of the way.” Leo cleared his throat, trying to summon a confidence he didn’t quite feel. “The village’s supply of Lunis is running low.”

Chatter cracked the crowd’s veneer.
 

Scooter stood, turned, and raised his huge arms. “Quiet down!”
 

They did, at length, and Scooter sat.
 

Again, Leo cleared his throat. “You knew that already. There’s not one among you who hadn’t figured that out, so hold your indignation. Yes, officially, we’re low. We have to…”

A thin man stood in the back. He was wearing a blue shirt that draped his frame more than hugged it, like a blanket. “Including the reserves?” he said.
 

Scooter looked back. The man sat.
 

“Yes,” said Leo.
 

Chatter resumed, lower this time.
 

“I have an idea about how to solve our problem,” said Leo, raising his voice above the others, causing them to still, “but before I go into it, I want you to stop and consider something. Really think about it, too; don’t just humor me. Okay? Ask yourself why you came to Organa in the first place.”
 

A few dozen of the crowd’s tired eyes blinked, surprised. A woman pressed her palm to her forehead and squinted hard, as if pushing through a migraine’s spell.

“Why are you here? Is it because of the drugs? Stop, and really think! None of us are here because we wanted to do dust all day, did we? If so, I’m sorely disappointed. I settled this village to make a difference in the world. None of you have been around as long as I have, as a reformed rejuvenation addict, so let me tell you something that most of you only know from history: This world cannot survive humanity unchecked. We evolved too fast. Our abilities and intelligence as a species outstripped our capacity to ask why — or
if
. We just
did
. And for a long time, it was merely troubling, but the balance seesawed back and forth, with human advancement alternately causing damage and then repairing what it had done. We polluted then created solutions to handle the pollution. We changed the climate then thought —
thought!
— we’d reversed that change.
 

“You know all of this, of course, but I
lived through it.
What most of you studied, I saw firsthand. Organa was an answer — a group dedicated to turning away. To conscious and conscientious moderation. Humanity constantly drifts toward an easier life, and sometime over the past hundred years, it became more important, for most people, for life to become easier than to respect nature’s way. So when you joined us, you should have been asking yourself, ‘Is it right to stop and accept a more difficult life if it means keeping the balance?’ We have our initiatives, yes, but mostly, until now, in the Organa most of you know, we have simply lived. Or, to play with the words, ‘We have lived simply.’ Organa, at heart, hasn’t been about action. It has been about
existence
. Self-denial in the pursuit of a better life. We moved away, and some of us came and went into the city, and some of us were more orthodox than others, and some of us occasionally cheated. I know that many of you have handhelds. I don’t care! What matters is that you came here to take steps that others weren’t willing to because you believe that humanity’s default is wrong. You are not here to change the world, but to change yourselves. And that, in time,
en masse
, may change the world.”
 

Leo paused to assess the crowd’s mood. He was giving a hyped-up, idealized version of the Organa mission statement. It wasn’t strictly true, even today, that Organa wasn’t trying to subvert the modern world through hacker efforts like Leah’s. But the moment was desperate for drama, so Leo chose his arguments and gave the crowd what they needed. Panic was an emotion, and only emotion was strong enough to conquer emotion. Leo had a place to steer them, but doing so required a sense of unity and of strength. If they were here because they’d once sought self-denial, then denying themselves full doses of Lunis for a little longer should be easier — and congruent with their most closely held identities.
 

“You didn’t come here to take dust!” said Leo. “Remember
that
when you fear a shortage. When you begin to fret about not having enough. We are Organa because we believe in conscious choice, not because Organa is a fashion. Dust is part of our culture, but only as an accelerant. A booster. We say, ‘Moondust will show us truths that The Beam cannot,’ and in a way, it’s true. It shows us real life. It shows us the way that humanity is meant to be! But once you move beyond addiction, are you here for the drugs? Or are you here because you
believe?”
 

Leo raised his fist, and to the crowd’s credit, a few followed his lead with fists of their own. Two or three shouted their belief, but the response was still falling well short of Leo’s hopes. When he’d rehearsed this speech, he’d imagined a more enthusiastic reception. He needed them fired up if they were to face what was coming. He needed fist-pumping emotion. He needed the recognition that they were more than conformists wearing uniforms of the disenfranchised. Now more than ever, Leo needed the sense of individualism and righteousness Organa was supposed to stand for in order to claim its due.
 

But instead of growing in fervor, the crowd merely stirred. The few raised fists fell moments after realizing they were the only ones saluting.

After a few seconds, a woman stood. She had blonde hair tied back in a ponytail and large earrings dangling from each ear.

“How low is the dust supply?” she asked.

“Low, but under control,” Leo lied.
 

“I think we need numbers,” she said. “Break it down. How many people for how many weeks?”
 

“Weeks?” said a second voice. A thin man across the room looked shocked when eyes turned toward him. He seemed to retreat then continued without standing. “I heard it was down to days.”
 

“Days?” said a new, panicky voice. Before Leo could turn to see who it was, others began speaking from every direction.
 

“How
many
days?”
 

“What about the emergency reserves? Surely we have an emergency stash, right? We can’t just be depending on…”
 

“Of course not. That would be stupid. How much is in the…?”
 

“Are we that low, Leo? Tell the truth!”
 

“Quiet!”
Scooter bellowed, standing. His face was angry for a moment then softened into its usual vacant docility. The crowd stopped yammering and froze, hands up, half-standing, some fully standing. It was enough of a window for Leo to take a step forward, but not quite enough to speak. An older man near the back beat him to it.

“We trusted you to handle this all for us, Leo,” said the man. His tone was lecturing, almost I-told-you-so.
 

At the front, Leo said, “You are all always free to find your own supplies rather than relying on…”
 

“It’s not like you get it for free!” Scooter yelled. He probably thought he was helping, but instead gave the hecklers a present. Some chattered about village dues — essentially maintenance taxes — and reviving the tired argument that a base Lunis dose should be provided as part of their coverage because dust was an Organa need, same as mowed grass and waste management.
 

“Easy, Scooter,” said Leo. “I’ll handle this.”
 

“Doesn’t sound like you’re handling shit!” said the blonde who’d spoken earlier. She was answered by several murmurs of agreement.
 

“Hang on, hang on,” said Leo. “The village is its own thing, separate from all of us, and it’s up to every individual member of the group to…”
 

“You have to let us know!” said a new woman, younger than the first. “It’s not easy to get into the city, you know! We rely on the dispensary having what we need when…”
 

“I pay my dues!” said a man with blue-streaked hair.
 

“Dues don’t cover Lunis!” said the woman. Then, just as quickly as she’d hopped onto Leo’s side, she hopped onto the other, turning an angry face toward front. “That’s our only store for it, Leo! What are we supposed to do, get on the fucking mag train and roll to DZ station? We’re Organas!”
 

“You’re human beings!” Scooter yelled. “Should he spoon-feed you, too?”