When I reach for my purse, she says, “Leave it. Someone will get it back to you after it’s been searched.”
Twenty-one
THREE YEARS EARLIER
At dawn, one day after a photograph of Isaac sitting in the bar of the Intercontinental with an extremely hot and scantily dressed woman described as an “unidentified art student” appeared in the
Globe
—so much for going back to Martha—I once again boarded the Chinatown Bus and headed to MoMA. That photo was the proverbial straw. Karen Sinsheimer was going to hear the truth. Enough was enough.
Based on my last experience with Karen’s assistant, sentinel would be a better descriptor, I didn’t bother going to her office. Instead, I planted myself in front of the elevator and stairwell on her floor. Fortunately, both were off the same lobby, and even more fortunately, there was a bench. I settled myself in with the book I’d brought as a prop and waited.
As my watch edged toward one-thirty, I started to get nervous. I’d called yesterday, claiming to be Isaac’s assistant, explaining that he was coming into New York today and wanted to make a date with Karen for lunch. Later, I’d called back and canceled, patting myself on the back for the clever way I’d made sure Karen would be in. But apparently, not clever enough. She was probably sick or on some unexpected museum business off-site. Damn.
Just then, Karen strode around the corner. She didn’t notice me, didn’t even glance around, just punched the elevator button with the purposefulness of a woman without any time to lose.
I jumped up. “Karen!” I cried like someone who’d spotted a long, lost friend.
She turned with a smile ready at the corners of her lips, but when she saw me she frowned. It was clear she had no idea who I was.
I stuck my hand out. “Claire Roth,” I said. “We met at Isaac Cullion’s studio. The day you accepted
4D
for your survey show.”
She shook my hand cordially. “Of course. Claire. It’s nice to see you again. How have you been?”
“I need to talk to you. Somewhere private.”
“I’m sorry that I haven’t had time to review your work. I promise I’ll—”
“It’s not about my work, it’s about Isaac’s.” I shook my head. “No. That’s not true. I take it back. It is about my work.”
“I don’t understand.”
“And that’s why we have to talk.”
Karen’s brow furrowed. “Is something wrong? Is Isaac okay?”
“He’s fine, but I’m not sure he will be after this.”
Karen watched the elevator doors open and then close. She sighed. “We can go to my office. But I warn you, I don’t have much time and even less patience for artists’ stunts.”
“This is no stunt,” I said, as I followed her clicking heels down the corridor.
When we were seated in her office, I met her gaze straight on. “Isaac Cullion didn’t paint
4D
.”
“Of course he painted
4D
. You must be mistaken.”
“Unfortunately not.”
“I know his work. I’ve seen many of his previous pieces.”
“And
4D
isn’t his,” I insisted calmly.
Her eyes focused over my shoulder, most likely visualizing Isaac’s paintings. “Then who painted it?”
“I did.”
Her eyes snapped back to mine. “But that makes no sense. Why would you paint it?”
“He was blocked. The painting was due in a few weeks, and I wanted to help him get it started so he wouldn’t lose the opportunity.” When Karen said nothing, I continued, “He couldn’t get himself to work. He was too depressed, too down on himself. So I kept painting. We didn’t mean for it to happen. He was there with me the whole time. In his studio. Giving me tips.”
“Tips?”
“How to put my whole body behind the brush. How to scrape wet-on-wet. My style is more classic wet-on-dry. That kind of thing.”
“And he signed it?”
“It was the day before the deadline,” I said. “There really wasn’t anything else for him to do.”
“Why didn’t you say anything at the time?”
I opened my hands to her. “I was in love with him.”
Her eyes narrowed. “And you’re not now?”
“No.”
“I assume you’ve got proof?”
“The realistic and abstract hourglasses are painted in my style. Isaac only works wet-on-wet.”
“I’m sure a man of Isaac’s talent is more than capable of painting wet-on-dry if he wanted to.”
“Then ask him.”
“You want me to call Isaac Cullion and ask him if he painted
4D
? Just like that?”
I nodded, and we stared at each other for a long moment. I knew Isaac would come clean if she asked him directly. It was a matter of truth and fairness, and despite his recent behavior, his love and respect for me.
Karen broke the contact first. “Okay. Let’s do it.”
I leaned back. Exhausted, but relieved. I’d done what had to be done. I watched Karen pick up the phone and press a speed-dial button. MoMA’s got him on speed-dial. For a moment, I felt a stab of sympathy for Isaac. It was a long way to fall.
“Isaac. Karen Sinsheimer. Glad I caught you.” She listened, then said, “I’m going to put you on speaker phone. Your friend Claire Roth is here.” She pressed another button.
Isaac’s voice boomed into the room. “In New York?”
“Yeah. In my office. She’s claiming that she painted
4D,
not you, and said I should call you to verify her story.”
No sound came from Isaac’s end, but in the silence I could hear him wrestling with his conscience, struggling with anger at my audacity, sadness over what he was going to lose, relief that the lying was finally going to end.
A look of concern passed over Karen’s face. “Isaac?”
“Saac,” I said. “Tell her the truth. It’ll be better for everyone if you do. Especially you.”
More silence.
“Isaac,” Karen demanded. “Are you saying it’s true?”
Isaac heaved a huge sigh. “Karen,” he said softly, “please don’t make any trouble for Claire. Don’t hold this against her. She’s a hurt kid, lost and angry. Talented, very talented, but—”
“That’s a load of crap, and you know it,” I interrupted. “Tell her the truth. You no more painted
4D
than you painted the Mona Lisa. It’s over, Isaac. Over.”
“I’m sorry Claire brought you into this, Karen,” Isaac continued in the same soft, even tone. “It’s personal, never should have involved you. I decided to work on my marriage, and she’s been having a tough time with it. Jealousy. You know how it is. Do me a favor, just let her go home and forget this ever happened.”
“Forget it ever happened?” I jumped up and yelled into the speaker. “That’s just what you’d like to do. But you can’t and neither can I!”
Karen waved me back into the chair. “I’ll call you later,” she said to Isaac. “Let me handle this from here.”
I sat down, devastated. I’d tossed the dice and lost the gamble. Isaac was a lying bastard, and I was an idiot. An idiot who had just destroyed her fledgling career.
When Karen hung up the phone, she turned to me with a confused, almost sad, expression on her face.
“He’s lying,” I said, without much enthusiasm. Karen was clearly going to believe Isaac-the-Great over a lowly graduate student.
When she didn’t correct me, I sat up in my seat.
“The hourglasses . . .” she mumbled to herself.
I didn’t move, didn’t breathe.
Finally, she asked, “Ever hear of Han van Meegeren?”
“Who?” I had no idea who Han van Meegeren was or what she was talking about.
“Never mind,” she said. “It doesn’t matter. The thing is, I’m going to give you the benefit of the doubt here. Let you prove yourself.”
“Prove myself?”
“I want you to paint another
4D
.”
Twenty-two
The two guards lead me from the dayroom, each with a hand clenched around an elbow. I look back at Kimberly, and she mouths the words, “Stay calm.”
Which isn’t easy, as I’m being physically escorted by two armed guards through a maze of corridors and locked doors to who-knows-where. I keep asking them what’s going to happen, where they’re taking me, do I need a lawyer. But I get no answers.
“You can’t put me in a cell,” I declare with authority. “I’m innocent, innocent until proven guilty. And I’m not guilty. Not close to guilty. Those kids are just trying to save their own asses.”
Silence except for the sound of our shoes on the tile floor.
“I have an appointment,” I say, as if this is going to make them let me go. Markel’s coming over to check my progress on
Bath II.
“A business meeting I can’t miss. Very important. And I can’t go in a cell. I’m kind of claustrophobic. I could get sick or, or . . .”
The younger of the two finally takes pity on me. “We’re not putting you in a cell.”
Instead, I’m led into a dimly lit, narrow room with a desk and two chairs. It must be for lawyer visits. Or interrogations. I look for a two-way mirror, but there isn’t one. The only window is in the door, and it’s crisscrossed with wire mesh. The empty walls are the usual rotting-vegetable green. I look at the guards, hoping they aren’t going to leave me in here by myself.
“Someone will be in to talk to you soon,” the younger guard says. They quickly exit, closing the door with a snap behind them.
I immediately try the handle; it’s locked. I look through the meshed window; all I can see is the cinder-block wall across the corridor. Was it only minutes ago that I was overseeing the mural with the boys?
The room smells like cheap cologne mingled with stale sweat, and the odor is making me nauseous. Underpaid lawyers. Scared, stupid boys. And now me. Locked in. The air is overheated, and the walls are tight. I begin to sweat.
I pace. There’s no reason to freak out. Reggie and Xavier are clearly lying, and the authorities will pick up on that in a second. Eight steps across. Four down. This is just standard operating procedure. It’s a drug bust, after all. This has nothing to do with me or any presumption about my guilt. Just procedure, that’s all. SOP.
Eight steps across. Four down. They had to separate me from the boys. Take precautions. Search my purse to make sure there really aren’t any drugs. A chill runs through me. Are they going to search me? The phrase “body cavity” flashes through my brain in neon letters.
No. I can’t go there. Can’t let this get the better of me. I glance up at the weak bulb above my head, and the ceiling appears to shrink, to press down on me. Think of something else.
Markel will be at the studio by five. He’s curious about the whole baking process, and I promised him a demonstration. That means I have to do some painting in order to have something to bake. I have to get out of here. What will he think if I’m not there? That I’ve double-crossed him?
Can’t go there either. Eight steps across. Four down. Pace and count. Someone will be here any minute.
But it’s almost an hour before there’s a knock at the door. By that time, I’m really sweaty, actually on the verge of throwing up. And despite the overly warm room, I’m very cold. I hug myself as I watch the door open, hold my breath.
When I see that it’s Kimberly and that she’s holding my purse and smiling, I surprise myself and burst into tears.
A
S
I
RIDE
the bus home, I’m mortified by my overreaction to the situation. Kimberly explained that it was immediately obvious to everyone that Reggie and Xavier were lying, that I was never a real suspect. Obvious to everyone but me. There will be an inquiry, and I probably won’t be able to come back to Beverly Arms until it’s over, but it’s just the system, the way it has to be done. She said to think of it as the process necessary to clear my name. I wondered why it was necessary to officially clear the name of an innocent person, but I didn’t ask.
And she was perfect, offering me tissues and telling me how sorry she was, that she would have responded in exactly the same way under similar circumstances. But still. I’m thirty-one years old, and there I was, blubbering like a baby over what turned out to be nothing. Something I should have recognized as nothing right from the beginning.
When I get home, I stumble into the shower. I have less than two hours before Markel shows up. The shower cleans the sweat and the odor of fear from my skin, but it does nothing to wash away the residual emotions smoldering inside my body. Once I start painting though, the feelings disappear. I’m well beyond the middle-range colors, and it’s easy to slip into the zone as I work with the breadth of oranges that dominate the bottom right-hand side of the painting and then weave their understated way throughout the entire image, pulling it together from bottom-right to top-left as green pulls from top-right to bottom-left.