âYou got one foot.'
José stood, limped around. âI am one out-of-shape thief.'
âThis is endless,' Ray said.
âWhat is?'
âNothin to look forward to.'
âFix for that one? Stop lookin forward. Mopey-ass woman. Are you cryin?'
âI got allergies, okay? Shut up.'
âAllergies. Sure. A'right, Ray, look, no need to panic, Papi got this all figured out. Till I'm able to run, we're gonna shape up with the Mexicans up on 179th there, by the bridge.'
âThe day workers lookin for pickup gigs? That's hard work.'
âFor hard men.' José pounded his chest, coughed, winked.
At sunrise they waited on the corner of 179th and Saint Nick with some fifty illegals, mostly Mexican. No one talked. A Russian in a flatbed pickup with
DRAGO DEMOLITION
hand painted on the side pulled up to the corner and yelled in bad Spanish he was paying three bucks an hour for hump work.
The Mexicans nodded. They didn't look happy or sad.
Ray and José were the tallest and youngest of the men, and the Russian picked them first. A friendly-looking white dude reached down from the back of the truck, gave Ray and José a hand and swung them up into the flatbed. âBreon,' he said with a wink.
â'Ey,' the boys said.
âWelcome.' The Breon cat clapped their backs, nodded that they should sit on a blanketed bench in the front of the pickup bed, reached down to help the others into the truck.
The Drago punk poked his finger at one last man, shoved back the others. âNo máz. I am need only seven. No máz!'
One of the left-back men, an old-timer, pulled a sandwich from his coat, gave it to a younger man in the truck, kissed the man's cheek. Ray watched those left behind get smaller as the truck roared away west onto the George Washington Bridge. The truck banged over a pothole, threw everybody around the truck bed.
Breon nudged Ray. âTay?'
âHuh?'
Breon unscrewed a thermos, poured tea into tiny paper cups for Ray, José and the other men, sucked in a draft of the cold wind blasting the bridge. âGargeous marnin, ay fellers?' Breon was thirty or so with a killer smile. âCrisp.'
Ray found himself smiling, looked at José, also smiling. Ray shrugged.
âWhat you thinkin?'
âI'm thinkin how you gonna lug junk all day on half a foot.'
âRay, don't worry so much, a'right? Relax?'
The Drago cat pointed to a pile of rubble in the back of the condo site, pointed to a Dumpster. âYou put
that
in
there
.
Ponga eso all'
. You gan understand me?
Comprende?
'
The boys nodded.
By lunch José was friends with everyone on the job. Drago chucked the men bananasâlunchâtalked with the construction foreman, who said, âYou wanna do this here?'
âExcept for Irish over there, they don't speak English. Irish is alright.'
âWhat do I owe you?' the foreman said.
Drago said, âSeven man times eleven hour at fifteen a head and then me at twenty-five an hour.'
âSo what is that?' the foreman said, reaching into his pocket for cash.
âSixteen seventy-five,' Drago said.
âFourteen thirty,' Ray said, his mouth full of banana.
The construction foreman took out his phone, worked it up on the calculator. âFourteen thirty.' He eyed Drago.
Drago eyed Ray.
Breon nudged Ray, nodded, smiled. âThat's a good lad.'
After lunch Drago picked José for light duty, pulling nails from two-by-fours. Ray humped junk to dusk. José waved to Ray. Ray flipped off José.
The truck dumped them at 179th with thirty-three bucks each, Drago keeping the rest. Breon said, âI give yas a lift home?'
âWe're a'right,' José said.
âYou've been limping all day, friend José. C'mon, little brother.'
They walked to a parking garage, picked up Breon's car, a black Lexus convertible, the kind you can't drive when you're making three dollars an hour. The boys stared at Breon.
âI'm a saver.' Breon winked. âHop in.' He showed them all the bells and whistles on the ride south, stereo booming rap, heated seats; demonstrated the souped-up engine with pedal-to-the-metal acceleration down Riverside. Ray smiled, looked at José. José winked at Ray. The boys clutched their stomachs, screamed laughter.
Ray threw his head back. Dizzied by the blue sky, clean wind in his hair, he thought he was as happy as he'd ever been, for a few seconds.
âLike bein roller-coaster drunk,' José yelled over the wind. âWe're over here.' He pointed to a city housing building off Riverside.
Breon skidded in front of the tenement. âNice workin with yas. Here.' He gave them a box of cookies.
âNah, that's a'right,' José said.
âTake 'em, please. And take my number.' He handed them a card, winked, drove off. His card had a number, no name, no address.
âWe live here now, huh?' Ray said.
âI don't want him knowin about Ten Mile.'
âHe's real nice. I like him a ton.'
âMe too,' José said. âBut drivin that ride, he's one to watch out for.' He waved to Breon, rounding the corner. â
Damn
, that is one hot car.'
âHot-lookin orâ'
âBoth.'
Sunday morning came a perfect day, spring's messenger. They hung at the bridge but no one came by looking for day workers. On the walk home the air was sweet with tree bud, melting snow, cheap perfume rising off the necks of girls not wearing jackets to show off their spring clothes. José wasn't wearing a jacket either. He took off his shirt.
âJesus,' Ray said.
Back at the stationhouse José got the TV going, Ray cleaned. âYou can't help me clean for half an hour?'
âI don't mind the mess.'
â
I
do.'
âThen
you
clean it.'
Ray chucked his dish towel. âI'm bored. You bored?'
José was lost in his Grand Theft game. âHuh?'
âToo nice a day for a man to stay inside the house. Let's do somepin.'
âNailed him! Damn, son, you see that head shot! I am gettin so good at this level, I'm gonna be in level nine by nightfall! Hooooooo! I can't believe it! I can't
believe
it! My talent frightens me sometimes.'
Ray grabbed his board, headed out.
âWhere you goin?' José said.
Ray eyed José. âHaircut.'
José sighed, nodded. âHad to happen sometime.'
âYou comin?'
âNot unless you got a extra bulletproof vest.'
Ray kicked his board down the street, the melting ice running rivers to the gutters, wiped out face to pavement in front of Yolanda's Braid Palace. Covered in slush he slumped into the shop like a man marching himself to the electric chair. From the look of the line of punks in there, forget about the braids, the business was haircuts for horn-dogs now.
Yolie saw Ray in the doorway, his do-rag lost in the fall from his skateboard, his long red hair standing off his head like match flame in a windstorm. She dropped her shears, put her hands to her mouth. She was shaking. âAmor.
Qué pasó
? Oh mi amor. What happened to you?'
Ray nodded. âMissis Yolie.'
Yolie shook her head. She turned to the chairs doubled up with horny teenagers, clapped her hands for them to git. âVayan,' she said. Even when she was upset, her voice was soft. âEverybody out. Yolie closing early today.'
âThat ain't fair,' and âThis is
bull
shit,' and âC'
mawn
, man,' came back at her.
She shooed them out the door. They filed out, giving Ray kill you eyes. A defiant pipsqueak in a booster seat hung back in the barber chair.
Yolie glared at him, crossed her arms, tapped her foot.
The scrawny kid squeaked to Yolie's tetas, âI ain't hardly just sat down.'
âEasy, Junior.' Yolie took the kid's chin in her hand and raised it and the little squeaker's eyes away from her breasts. âTomorrow, you first on line.' Yolie spun the barber chair and helped the pipsqueak down from it. The kid backed out of the shop, tripped backward up the steps. Ray chuckled. He remembered what it was like being a goddam kid.
Yolie flipped the sign to
CLOSED
, locked the door, glared at Ray, tapped her foot.
âSorry,' Ray said.
âWhy?'
âLike, because I feel badâ'
âWhy did you
disappear
? There's only one reason gonna get you out of this one.'
âIt's that,' Ray said.
âYou couldn't call me, amor? You couldn't let me know? Amor, amor, amor, I don't know what to do with you.'
Ray gulped. âHow's the Enrique franchise doin, ma'am?'
âI sold it to a muñeca in Brooklyn. Sure, now you're disappointed.' She rattled off in furious Spanish at him for a minute, wore herself out, pulled him into a hug, stroked his hair. âLeave it long, amor. We braid it and bead it.'
âNah, it's gonna get hot, ma'am. Spring comes, a man needs short hair.'
âAmor, amor. Ay. Where you living now?'
âWe're fine, ma'am.'
âSo the José is still alive too, eh?' She combed back Ray's hair with her fingers. âI think you got taller. Your eyes too, something new there.'
âDon't cry, ma'am.'
Yolie hurried away to the stairs. âTrini, what you doing up there, amor?'
âHomework,' Trini yelled down.
âYour friend is here.'
âMy friend?'
â
Su ángel. Ha vuelto.
'
âWho, you meanâohmygod.' The ceiling shook with the sound of running feet. âJosé?'
âNo,' Yolie said. âThe other one.'
âRaymond,' Ray whispered. He saw Trini's feet at the top of the stairs.
âTell him to go away,' Trini said.
âAmor, come down here,' Yolie said.
âI got
home
work, T'a. I don't have
time
to waste onâ'
Yolie smacked the railing. â
Trini, ven aqu' ahorita.
'
Yolie went upstairs to let them work it out on their own.
The warm air rolled through the shop window, but Trini still wore her winter sweater. Her hands were cold as she forced Ray's head forward and drove the buzzer over his scalp. âI would've visited, you know.'
âThe visiting room, it ain't like the movies. It's sadder and louder.'
âI know sad and loud.'
âNot like this.'
Trini pulled Ray's head back and cranked the buzzer. âNot even a letter.'
âI know. That was bad.'
âBad? I'm liable to dig the brains out of your head with this here clipper. How many weeks I'm going down to the godforsaken shack there, peeking in the windows for y'all, joint is empty, the dogs gone. Thought y'all died or something, ran away. I didn't know what to think. I'm like, why'd they ditch me? What've I done? What, I stink or something?'
âYou stink beautiful, like coconut bubble gum plus salt.'
âShut up. Tt, see what you made me do?' Trini put a tissue to Ray's scalp where she'd scraped it. âI smell like
salt
?'
âSalt's my favorite smell.'
âSalt doesn't smell.'
âHow's your cousin?'
âI hate you.'
âWe figured we only knew you for a monthâ'
âFive weeks. A lot can happen in five weeks. A lot did happen. I'm not just talking about your bato friend there, the dawg, I'm talking you and me. We could talk, you know? Or maybe that was just me. Maybe I thought we were friends. Maybe I'm stupid.'
âTrini, yo, sorry. For real. I didn't know you, you know, felt like that.'
âY'all were just messin with me, I guess. Y'all boys, I'll never understand a one of you. I should go nun myself right now and get it over with. Hold still.'
âSure, just maybe could you go a little easier with that clipper there? No? Okay, I don't mind. I'll bleed to death for the causeâwhoa. I gotta be hemorrhaging after that one.'
âI wish we never met.'
Ray watched Trini in the mirror. She was a full woman. She had a perfect butt. âYou think your aunt would go out with me?'
Trini spun the chair to face Ray. âRaymond, are you okay?'
âMe? Like, whaddaya mean?'
âI mean, like, after jail and all. I don't like to think about it. What they do to you in there.'
âNah, nah, hell, it was nothin. It's not as bad as the movies.'
âYou just said it was worse.' She took off her sweater.
Ray saw her underwear just above her jeans when her shirt came up with the sweater. He forced his eyes away, couldn't help himself, peeked again, but by now Trini had pulled down her shirt.
âWe still friends?' he said.
âNo, and you turn your head again while I'm clippin and I'll make you van Gogh.'
âHow was I supposed to write you to tell you I got pinched for car theft after I just promised you, like, I wasn't thieving anymore? I was embarrassed.'
âBeing embarrassed is better than being thoughtless.'
âWell, even if you ain't friends with me anymore, I'm still friends with you.'
âYou can't do that. You can't be friends with somebody if they don't wanna be friends back.'
âOh, don't worry. I won't bother you. You won't even notice me. I'll just be friends with you in my heart is all.'
Trini stopped shaving his head. âWhat?'
âNothin. I'm fifteen now.'
âSo?' She started buzzing his scalp again.
âY'all probly turned seventeen, huh?'
âStill sixteen.'
âCool. I'm catchin up.'
âYou make me so mad.'
âOuch. José misses you.'