Taxi to Paris (31 page)

I laughed. "I'm not denying it," I said cheerfully. I loved her! She was so dashingly temperamental.

"So you have gone insane!" It sounded genuinely triumphant.

"I love you," I said softly. "If that's insane, then I'll be happy to be crazy my whole life."

For a moment, the line was silent. "They're beautiful," she replied then, just as softly.

"I hope so. I picked out every one myself."

"Every single one?" She was dumbfounded.

"Of course. How could I have left that to someone else?" Her voice was already waking the desire in me. And it was still such a long time until evening.

"You are crazy," she asserted tenderly.

"We'd better stop," I requested as sensibly as possible. "This is already heading in the direction of phone sex."

"Will you come see me today?" she asked without transition.

"If you want." I still wasn't sure what that meant.

"I do," she confirmed quickly. She was determination itself. Extremely unusual. Was she going to make that her routine now? She'd carried it through since yesterday, anyway. "When are you finished?"

"Around seven." Shivering with desire for her, my feelings rebelled, but I had to acknowledge the reality of the head-high stack of paperwork on my desk.

"You can't be serious," she protested.

"I am." I had to hold my ground this time. I couldn't just keep dropping everything whenever she turned up, much as I wanted to. My work was piling up and deadlines were drawing near. I tried to explain that to her. "You should see my desk sometime."

Obviously, that didn't interest her in the slightest. "Then I'll come in," she announced enthusiastically.

"Not again!" I almost raised my hands in an instinctive defense reaction, but I needed at least one of them to hold onto the receiver. I tried to reason with her again. "You know that's not possible."

"No, no," she contradicted. "This time, I won't be put off. Either you're on my doormat by four o'clock, or I'm at your office." She sounded absolutely determined.

"Here in my office on the doormat?" I couldn't help imagining that and teasing her with it. "That would be a new one."

She laughed. "Now you're starting the phone sex."

I admitted it. "I'll come earlier," I promised. "But I don't know if I'll make it by four o'clock."

"Don't come too late," she whispered sensuously. "I'll be waiting for you."

"My God," I sighed. "I wish I were there already."

"So do I." I could feel her impatience pressing through the receiver. "Until then. I'll water the roses in the meantime." She paused. "I'm thinking of you." She hung up.

I kissed the telephone receiver and said," I'm thinking of you, too."  Then I put it back in its cradle. I seemed pitiful to myself as I stared at the plastic handle.

I held out until five. When I entered her apartment, she greeted me with a long kiss. My knees went weak. Astonishingly, however, she let me go. She pushed me away from her. "Sit down." It wasn't a request - more like an order given in a polite tone. "I'll make you some coffee."

She seemed decidedly housewife-ish. "Have you got a pair of felt slippers for me as well?" I asked, irritated.

She looked back over her shoulder. "Not yet," she said. "But I can get you some, if you'd like." She appeared to mean it seriously.

"For heaven's sake!" I was stunned. This reception didn't quite match my expectations. "What's up with you?"

She switched on the espresso machine and came back to me. I was still standing there in a daze. She poked me in the nose with her finger. "I like it when you come home from work tired and I can take care of you. I've never had the chance to do that," she explained in answer to my question.

She pushed me onto the couch. I let myself fall. "Just don't let this become a habit," I objected. "I'm so lazy, we'll end up spending our evenings cosily in front of the TV if they start off this way."

She leaned across me and caressed my cheek sensually with her lips. Then she sought out my mouth and kissed me anew. "I know how to prevent that," she said, laughing softly. She stood up. "Besides, I don't have a television, and neither do you as far as I know."

"Yes I do. In the basement," I contradicted.

"And there it shall stay." She laughed again. "At least as long as I'm making the program." She was definitely doing that. I had no idea what this was all supposed to mean.

She went back into the kitchen and brought me my coffee. She sat next to me on the sofa, like the first time I came to her. She crossed her legs exactly as she had back then. Only today, she was dressed. Independent of that, I felt my desire for her. I took the coffee cup and drank. Across the rim, I watched her. Her arms lay casually on the back of the sofa. She looked back at me and caught my eye.

"Should I change clothes?" she asked. She laughed when she saw my dismayed expression. "I mean so you can enjoy the situation as much as you did then." She knew exactly what she was doing!

"Stop that," I pleaded uneasily. "You know I don't like that."

"But you remembered it." In contrast to me, she obviously felt comfortable enough to be amused by this.

"You were unbearably sweet." She positively reveled in the memory. "I knew right away that you were in love with me."

"I must've stared at you like an idiot." I was still deeply embarrassed by the memory.

"Stared, yes. Like an idiot, no," she corrected.

She controlled the situation sovereignly. I almost felt like I had then. "I didn't like it very much, by the way."

The thought of it alone drove me to react with a measure of annoyance. "It was terrible."

"Being my client?" She was serious now.

Where was she going with this? She never brought up this topic herself.

She bent over and took a rose from the vase, which she'd placed on the coffee table. She smelled it. "I didn't have these then." She looked at me. "I've hardly ever gotten red roses before." She laughed, overwhelmed. "And never this many!"

I couldn't possibly imagine that. During the course of her adult life, there must have been masses of people who fell in love with her, men as well as women!

"The first time I got red roses, I was seventeen," she explained unexpectedly, her attention still absorbed in the flower in her hand. "From a man." She laughed contemptuously. "And of course he wanted something in return!"

She didn't say if she'd given him what he wanted. I really didn't want to know, either.

She looked at me again. "Then I didn't get any for a very long time. Until a couple of years ago." This time, she didn't say from whom. She continued, "And now from you."

That was really very little for a woman like her!

She stretched out her arm and tickled my cheek with the rose petals. She caressed me up to my ear and then back down to my lips. She caressed them as well. The scent of the rose under my nose was intoxicating, although the whole room was filled with it. The rose petals were soft and satiny on my lips. I plucked one with my lips and held it tight. She kept the rose in her hand, leaned over, and laid her arm across my shoulders. She tickled the nape of my neck with the rose. She leaned into me. She put her lips on the opposite side of the rose petal. Our lips touched very lightly. Barely a whisper. I moaned nonetheless. She pulled the petal and, at the same time, my mouth in with her lips until she could kiss me. Our tongues played with the petal. She pushed it into my mouth and I passed it back until I could no longer bear the stimulation. It appeared to go the same way for her. She pushed me back onto the sofa and lay down on top of me. She set the rose down next to us and removed the petal from my mouth. "We won't be needing that anymore," she breathed, soft and erotic.

I reached my hands down to her waist and began to undress her. When I felt her bare skin, I pushed my fingers around to the front and unbuttoned her pants. She moaned deeply. I stroked her belly between us. "Wait," she commanded. I didn't move. She straddled my thigh and rubbed against me. She came fast and furious.

I hugged her when she collapsed back on top of me. "I'm sorry," she remarked after taking a moment to catch her breath. "That wasn't what I wanted to do."

"Was it good for you?" I asked tenderly.

"Yes." As usual, she admitted it only reluctantly. "But..."

"Then everything is fine." I squeezed her tighter. "Everything is fine," I repeated soothingly.

"You're going to make me cry." She had her head next to me on the couch cushion so I couldn't see her face.

I rubbed her back. "Then do it. It won't hurt anything."

"Yes it will!" she argued with unexpected violence. She leapt up sharply, stuffed her shirt back in her pants, and pulled up the zipper. "And nothing is fine!" She was having a hard time with the button. She let her hands drop and looked at me in utter desperation. "I can't even get my pants on right!" She was ever so close to tears, but her pants were definitely not the reason.

I sat up. "Come here," I told her. She came over, and I fastened the button. I pulled her down onto my lap. "So what's the matter?"

"I can't do my job anymore," she explained. I had thought this might have something to do with that. "At least temporarily," she qualified immediately.

I would have to see if this was temporary!

She turned slightly in my lap and looked at me. "You're happy about that, of course," she threw at me angrily.

I could hardly contest that. "Yes, on the one hand," I answered truthfully. "But on the other hand, I'm sad because you're sad."

"I'm not sad!" She almost jumped out of my lap in protest. "I'm not sad at all. But in the foreseeable future, I don't know how I'm going to make a living!"

I had a brainstorm. "You could marry me," I joked.

"Oh, yeah!" Now she was really mad. "And buy you felt slippers!"

"I didn't mean it quite that literally." I tried helplessly to calm her down a little. I still felt like this was a piece in which I had a role to play but didn't know script.

"What?" She reacted even more angrily than before. "You don't really want to marry me at all? Why did you propose, then?"

Now I was completely baffled. "No," I contradicted, absolutely confused. "I would marry you right away if I could and if you wanted. But until the activists and lawyers battle that one out, I'm afraid we'll just have to live in sin."

She calmed down a little. "I see," she said. She must really be turned inside out!

"But I earn enough money for two." If she wanted to discuss this topic, we could certainly list off the alternatives. Why not? I looked around. "Although I couldn't offer such luxury."

"You don't need to." She seemed absent. "I'll sell the apartment."  She got up from my lap and paced across the room with long steps, back and forth, back and forth. "Or I could always sell the apartment in Paris," she thought out loud. "I could certainly live off that for awhile."

She owned two apartments and she was worried about her future? "I think I should quit work and marry you instead." I was dazed enough to do it.

She looked at me, deep in thought. "This apartment won't fetch much."  She spoke like a bookkeeper. "It's not even all the way paid for."

It pained me already to think that she might have to give up the Parisian apartment, but I asked anyway. "But the apartment in Paris must be worth a fortune."

"Yes, probably," she remarked without paying much attention to me. "I don't know exactly."

"You don't know? But didn't you buy it?" I was more than astonished.

"No," she answered absently, as though she were somewhere else in her thoughts and didn't wish to stop concentrating on it. "I inherited it."

"Inherited?" Was her brilliant French, then, perhaps her mother tongue? "Are you French?"

"No." She looked at me more clearly now and stopped her pacing. "No, unfortunately not. A client left it to me." She set off again, more slowly this time.

"A client?" Perhaps I'd chosen the wrong career after all! "What... how...?" I didn't know how to ask.

She understood right away what I meant. "She died two years ago and left it to me."

Just like that? Any old client? A luxury apartment in Paris? I couldn't imagine that. Then something else occurred to me. "Two year ago," I mused thoughtfully.

She stopped abruptly. "You notice everything, don't you." That didn't sound especially flattering. "Yes, you're right. She was the last woman before you with whom I..." She broke off, as though she'd already said too much. She turned away from me and stood there. She propped one arm up with the other and held her forehead in her hand. Something about that bothered her dreadfully.

Just a client? I knew that couldn't be true. With a client, she never would have let herself fall that far. "You were a couple," I concluded suddenly.

"No!" She raged. Love seemed to be just about the worst thing one could accuse her of. "She was only a client." I could see that she was fighting hard for control.

"She must have been more to you than that," I argued, convinced. "If she left you an apartment."

"She paid me. So she was a client." She was obstinate.

There had to be something to my claim. Otherwise, she wouldn't have felt such a strong need to deny it. "How long were you together?" I asked, undiscouraged.

"We weren't together!" Now she finally exploded. "I always had my own apartment."

With that, she involuntarily confirmed my original assumption. The more vehemently she denied it, the more I was convinced it was so. "She must have loved you very much."

"Yes, yes!" Her unwilling protest became more and more strongly defensive. "She probably thought it was love."

"And you didn't love her?" In any case, she certainly wouldn't have told her, the way I knew her.

A long silence indicated that she still wasn't sure about it, or didn't want to be. "No," she said finally.

"What happened?" The silence continued for awhile. I could do nothing but wait until she told the story.

"She was older than I was - much older. She went and fell in love with me." That was easy! She turned halfway toward me and folded her arms across her chest.