Tau zero (9 page)

"Barely. I think. Fourth quadrant." She shut her eyes and turned from him.

He took for granted that she meant the projection for dead ahead, and peered into that. At high magnification, space leaped at him. The scene was somewhat blurred and distorted. Optical circuits were not able to compensate perfectly for speeds like this. But he saw starpoints, diamond, amethyst, ruby, topaz, emerald, a Fafnir's hoard. Near the center burned Beta Virginis. It should have looked very like the sun of home, but something of spectral shift got by to tinge it ice blue. And, yes, on the edge of perception . . . that wisp? That smoky cloudlet, to wipe out this ship and these fifty human lives?

Noise broke in on his concentration, shouts, footfalls, the sounds of fear. He straightened. "I had better go aft," he said, flat-voiced. "I should consult Boris Fedoroff before addressing the others." Lindgren moved to join him. "No, keep the bridge."

"Why?" Her temper stretched thin. "Regulations?"

He nodded. "Yes. You have not been relieved." A smile of sorts touched his lean face. "Unless you believe in God, regulations are now the only comfort we have."

In this moment, the drapes and murals of the gymnasium-auditorium had no more significance than the basketball goals or the bright casual clothes of the people. They had not taken time to unfold chairs. Everyone stood. Every gaze locked onto Telander while he mounted the stage. Nobody stirred save to breathe. Sweat glistened on countenances and could be smelled. The ship muttered around them.

Telander rested his fingers on the lectern. "Ladies and gentlemen," he said into their silence, "I have bad news." Quickly: "Let me say at once that our prospects of survival are far from hopeless, judging by present information. We are in trouble, though. The risk was not unforeseen, but by its nature is one that cannot be provided against, at any rate not in our early stage of Bussard drive technology—"

"Get to the point, God damn it!" Norbert Williams shouted.

"Quiet, you," said Reymont. Unlike most of them, who stood with male and female hands clutched together, he held apart, near the stage. To a drab coverall he had pinned his badge of authority.

"You can't—" Someone must have nudged Williams, for he spluttered into silence.

Telander's frame grew visibly tenser. "Instruments have . . . have detected an obstacle. A small nebula. Extremely small, a clot of dust and gas, no more than a few billion kilometers across. It is traveling at an abnormal velocity. Maybe it's a remnant of a larger thing cast out by a supernova, a remnant still held together by hydromagnetic forces. Or maybe it's a protostar. I do not know.

"The fact is, we are going to strike it. In about twenty-four hours, ship's time. What will happen then, I don't know either. With luck, we can ride out the impact and not suffer serious damage. Otherwise ... if the fields become too overloaded to protect us . . . well, we knew this journey would have its hazards."

He heard indrawn breaths, like his own on the bridge, and saw eyes grow white-rimmed, lips flutter, fingers trace signs in the air. He persisted: "We cannot do much to prepare. A little battening down, yes; but in general, the ship is already as taut as can be. When the moment approaches, we will be in shock harness and space armor. So— The meeting is now open for discussion." Williams' hand rocketed past the shoulder of tall M'Botu. "Yes?"

The chemist's ruddiness showed indignation rather than fear. "Mister Captain! The robot probe observed no dangers on this route. At least, it beamed back no hint of them. Right? Who's responsible for our blundering into this muck?"

Voices lifted toward a babble. "Quiet!" Charles Reymont called. Though he didn't speak loud, he pushed the sound from his lungs in such a way that it struck. Several resentful glances were cast at him, but the talkers came to order.

"I thought I had explained," Telander said. "The cloud is minute by cosmic standards, nonluminous, undetectable at any large distance. It has a high velocity, scores of KPS. Thus, supposing the probe had taken our identical path, the nebulina would have been well offside at the time—more than fifty years ago, remember. Furthermore ... we can be certain the probe did not go exactly as we are going. Besides the relative motion of Sol and Beta Virginis, consider the distance between. Thirty-two light-years is more than our poor minds can picture. The slightest variation in the curves taken from star to star means a difference of many astronomical units in the middle."

"This thing couldn't have been predicted," Reymont added. "The chances were big against our running into it. Still, somebody has to draw the long odds now and then."

Telander stiffened. "I did not recognize you, Constable," he said.

Reymont flushed. "Captain, I was trying to expedite matters, so some snotbrains won't keep you here explaining the obvious till we smash."

"No insults to shipmates, Constable. And kindly wait to be recognized before you speak."

"I beg the captain's pardon." Reymont folded his arms and blanked his features.

Telander said with care: "Please do not be afraid to ask questions, however elementary they seem. You are all educated in the theory of interstellar astronautics. But I, whose profession this is, know how strange the paradoxes are, how hard to keep straight in one's mind. Best if everyone understands exactly what we are meeting. . . . Dr. Glassgold?"

The molecular biologist lowered her hand and said timidly: "Can't we—I mean—nebular objects like that, they would count as hard vacuums on Earth. Wouldn't they? And we, we are just under the speed of light, gaining more every second. And so more mass. Our inverse tau is about fifteen at the moment, I believe. That means our mass is enormous. So how can a bit of dust and gas stop us?"

"A good point," Telander replied. "If we are lucky, we will pass without too great hindrance. Not entirely. Remember, that dust and gas is moving equally fast with respect to us, with a corresponding increase of its mass.

"The force fields have to do work in it, directing the hydrogen into the ramjet system and diverting all matter from the hull. This action has its reaction on us. Moreover, it will take place extremely rapidly. What the fields can do in, say, an hour, they may not be able to do in a minute. We must hope that they can, and that the material components of the ship can endure the resultant stresses.

"I have spoken with Chief Engineer Fedoroff at his post. He thinks probably we will not suffer grave damage. He admits his opinion is a mere extrapolation. In a pioneering era, one learns chiefly by experience. Mr. Iwamoto?"

"S-s-sst! I presume we have no possibility of avoidance? One day ship's time is about two weeks cosmic time, no? We have not a chance to go around this nebu—nebulina?"

"No, I fear not. In our own frame of reference, we are accelerating at approximately three gravities. In terms of the outside universe, however, that acceleration is not constant, but steadily decreasing. Therefore we cannot change course fast. Even a full vector normal to our velocity would not get us far enough aside before the encounter.

Anyhow, we haven't the time to make the preparations for such a drastic alteration of flight pattern. Ah, Second Engineer M'Botu?"

"Might it help if we decelerated? We must keep one or another mode operative at all times, forward or backward thrust, to be sure. But I should think that deceleration now would soften the collision."

"The computer has not made any recommendations about that. Probably the information is insufficient. At best, the percentage difference in speed would be slight. I fear ... I think we have no choice except to—ah—"

"Bull through," Reymont said in English. Telander cast him a look of annoyance. Reymont didn't seem to mind.

As discussion progressed, though, his glance darted from speaker to speaker and the lines between mouth and nostrils deepened in his face. When at last Telander pronounced, "Dismissed," the constable did not return to Chi-Yuen. He pushed almost brutally through the uncertain milling of the rest and plucked the captain's sleeve.

"I think we had better hold a private talk, sir," he declared. The choppiness he had been losing was back in his accent.

Telander said with a chill, "Now is hardly the time to deny anyone access to facts, Constable."

"Oh, call it politeness, that we go work by ourselves instead of bothering people," Reymont answered impatiently.

Telander sighed. "Come with me to the bridge, then. I'm too busy for special conferences."

A couple of others seemed to feel differently, but Reymont drove them off with a glare and a bark. Telander must perforce smile a bit as he went out the door. "You do have your uses," he admitted.

"A parliamentary hatchet man?" Reymont said. "I fear there'll be more call on me than that."

"Conceivably on Beta Three. A specialist in rescue and disaster control might be welcome when we get there."

"You're the one who's concealing facts, Captain. You're pretty badly shaken by what we're driving into. I suspect our chances are not quite as good as you pretended. Right?"

Telander looked around and did not reply until they were alone in the stairwell. He lowered his voice. "I simply don't know. Nor does Fedoroff. No Bussard ship has been tested under conditions like those ahead of us. Obviously! We'll either get by in reasonable shape or we'll die. In the latter case, I don't imagine it'll be from radiation sickness. If any of that material penetrates the screens and hits us, it should wipe us out, a quick clean death. I saw no reason to make

worse what hours remain for our people, by dwelling on that possibility."

Reymont scowled. "You overlook a third chance. We may survive, but in bad shape."

"How the devil could we?"

"Hard to say. Perhaps we'll take such a buffeting that personnel are killed. Key personnel, whom we can ill afford to lose ... not that fifty is any great number." Reymont brooded. Footsteps thudded in the mumble of energies. "They reacted well, on the whole," he said. "They were picked for courage and coolness, along with health and intelligence. In a few instances, the picking may not have been entirely successful. Suppose we do find ourselves, let's say, disabled. What next? How long will morale last, or sanity itself? I want to be ready to maintain discipline."

"In that connection," Telander responded, cold once more, "please remember that you act under my orders and subject to the articles of the expedition."

"Damnation!" Reymont exploded. "What do you take me for? A would-be Mao? I'm requesting your authorization to deputize certain trustworthy men and prepare them quietly for emergencies. I'll issue them weapons, stunner type only. If nothing goes wrong—or if something does but everybody behaves himself—what have we lost?"

"Mutual trust," the captain said.

They had come to the bridge. Reymont entered with his companion, arguing further. Telander made a hacking gesture to shut him up and strode toward the control console. "Anything new?" he asked.

"Yes. The instruments have begun to draw a density map," Lind-gren answered. She had flinched on seeing Reymont and spoke mechanically, not looking at him. "It is recommended—" She pointed to the screens and the latest printout.

Telander studied them. "Hm. We can pass through a slightly less thick region of the nebula, it seems, if we generate a lateral vector by activating the Number Three and Four decelerators in conjunction with the entire accelerator system. ... A procedure with hazards of its own. This calls for discussion." He flipped the intercom controls and spoke briefly to Fedoroff and Boudreau. "In the plotting room. On the double!"

He turned to go. "Captain—" Reymont attempted.

"Not now," Telander said. His legs scissored across the deck.

"But—"

"The answer is no." Telander vanished out the door.

Reymont stood where he was, head lowered and shoulders hunched

as if to charge. But he had nowhere to go. Ingrid Lindgren regarded him for a time that shivered—a minute or more, ship's chronology, which was a quarter hour in the lives of the stars and planets—before she said, very softly, "What did you want of him?"

"Oh." Reymont fell into a normal posture. "His order to recruit a police reserve. He gave me something stupid about my not trusting my fellows."

Their eyes clashed. "And not letting them alone in what may be their final hours," she said. It was the first occasion since their breach that they had stopped addressing each other with entire correctness.

"I know." Reymont spat out his words. "There's little for them to do, they think, except wait. So they'll spend the time . . . talking; reading favorite poems; eating favorite foods, with an extra wine ration, Earthside bottles; playing music, opera and ballet and theater tapes, or in some cases something livelier, maybe bawdier; making love. Especially making love."

"Is that bad?" she asked. "If we must go out, shouldn't we do so in a civilized, decent, life-loving way?"

"By being a trifle less civilized, et cetera, we might increase our chance of not going out."

"Are you that afraid to die?"

"No. I simply like to live."

"I wonder," she said. "I suppose you can't help your crudeness. You have that kind of background. What about your unwillingness to overcome it, though?"

"Frankly," he answered, "having seen what education and culture make people into, I'm less and less interested in acquiring them."

The spirit gave way in her. Her eyes blurred, she reached out toward him and said, "Oh, Carl, are we going to fight the same old fight over again, now in what's maybe our last day alive?" He stood rigid. She went on, fast: "I loved you. I wanted you for my life's partner, the father of my children, whether on Beta Three or Earth. But we're so alone, all of us, here between the stars. We have to give what kindness we can, and take it, or we're worse than dead."

"Unless we can control our emotions."

"Do you think there was any emotion . . . anything but friendship, and wanting to help him get over his hurt, and—and a wish to make sure he did not fall seriously in love with me—with Boris? And the articles state, in as many words, we can't have formal marriages en route, because we're too constricted and deprived as is—"