Taking the Heat (7 page)

CHAPTER SIX

G
ABE
 
EYED
L
AUREN
 
as they shut down the library together. He'd been eyeing her all day, hoping that interacting with her would somehow help him understand Veronica better. Did Lauren know the truth? Did it even matter? It wasn't as if Gabe could ask her about it.

The girl he'd been flirting with last night was a virgin. The thought still stunned him, though he wasn't sure why. Maybe it was only that he'd assumed since college that any woman he might date was probably as experienced as he was, give or take a couple of partners.

But Veronica had never had sex. Or she'd “pretty much” never had sex.

He frowned at the shelves as he straightened a few books. What the hell had that meant? Had she said it just to drive him insane?

Clearing his throat, he watched Lauren as she shut down the computer monitors. “I saw the Dear Veronica show last night,” he finally ventured as he hit the switch on the entryway lights.

“Oh, I was having dinner with Jake's family and I couldn't make it. Was it great?”

“It was pretty amazing,” he answered, wincing a little at how accurate that assessment was. He grabbed some paper towels and helped Lauren wipe down tables in the children's section. “She's really good at doing that in front of an audience.”

“She is!” Lauren beamed at him. “You wouldn't believe how worried she was about it. But I knew she'd be great. She's good at everything. She just needs a little more confidence.”

Right. He nodded. “How long have you known her?”

Lauren shot him a curious look that he pretended not to see. “About a year. I didn't meet her until after she moved back to town.”

“Why'd she leave New York?”

“I'm not sure. You should ask her about it.” Her smile wasn't subtle.

Gabe shook his head. “I'm just curious.” He left off the “because she asked me to have sex last night.”

“Good,” Lauren said. “She's very interesting.”

That was putting it mildly. Veronica was so damn interesting, he couldn't get her out of his head. He'd thought about her all night until he'd fallen asleep. He'd thought about her all day. He'd wondered how she'd feel about their conversation once she was sober. He'd tried to figure out how he felt about it. He'd imagined what it would be like to sleep with her.

That had felt a little wrong since he hardly knew her and she was...
kind
of
innocent? But that kind of wrongness didn't exactly put a damper on sexual interest. She was pretty. She had great legs. Her smile made him happy. And she thought he was gorgeous.

Shit.

He retreated to the office to shut down the documents he'd been working on, though he hated doing it. He was just getting into the good stuff of figuring out which ebook lending system would work best with the library, but there'd be plenty of time to work on it tomorrow.

“Ready?” Lauren asked, reaching past him to grab her purse.

“Sure. I'll walk you to your car.”

She laughed over her shoulder as she hit the last of the lights and headed for the back door. “Seriously?”

“Right. I got used to working in downtown Cincinnati.”

“Well, we do have to keep an eye out for bears. And there were rumors of a mountain lion in Jackson Square last year, but I suspect old Mrs. Smith was drunk again. She does love a good whiskey sour.”

She held open the door, then locked it behind her once he was through. “Hey, guys,” she called to the three firemen sitting in folding chairs near their door.

“Jesus, Lauren!” one called. “When I said you should hire a hot new librarian, that wasn't what I meant!”

“Gabe,” she said drily, “that's William, and those other two are Henry and Elliott. I'm afraid they're a little disappointed with you.”

“It's okay,” he said. “They're probably just jealous because they can't grow facial hair.”

“Hey!” William yelled back. “We
can
—we're just not allowed to.”

“Whatever you need to tell yourself.”

The other firefighters razzed William as Gabe walked away.

“We'll work this out on the court!” William called.

“You got it,” Gabe answered, happy for the excuse to get in a little time on the fire station's outdoor basketball court. They seemed to pick up games at all hours of the morning and night, and Gabe missed the public courts near his apartment in Cincinnati.

“Night, Lauren,” he said as she headed toward her car and he set out for his apartment on foot. He was keenly aware that Veronica's building was on his way.

If he took a right at the next street, he'd miss her place by one block. He could walk home, go for a run, relax with a book afterward. And be distracted the whole time that she might be waiting to hear from him.

He'd promised her, after all. He didn't have to take her up on her...request, but he did have to get in touch. Tonight or tomorrow or at her next performance.

The idea of leaving it until next Thursday tightened his shoulders into such painful knots that Gabe went straight through the intersection and headed toward Veronica's apartment. Hell, the most likely outcome was that she didn't remember anything and he could try to forget the whole thing, too.

“Yeah, right,” he muttered. Still, at least he wouldn't have to wonder if she was worrying.

And there was the chance that she remembered every detail and wanted to pick up where they'd left off.

He took off his tie, freed the top button of his shirt and rolled up his sleeves as if he were preparing himself for an arduous task. Two more blocks and he was at her condo building. He turned up her walk and then knocked on the door without giving himself time to think about it.

The nearest window was sealed up tight, but he could see light through the peephole in the door. He waited a few moments, listening for the sound of footsteps, then rang the doorbell.

Still nothing. The street was quiet out front. He leaned closer, trying to tell if the faint sound of movement he'd heard was coming from her place. Nothing. He was turning to leave when he saw the light in the peephole flicker to dark for a split second. He squared his shoulders, trying to think what he'd say when she opened the door.

She didn't open the door.

He frowned. Leaned closer. Lifted his hand to knock again, but he let his knuckles hover just above the wood.

“Veronica?” he called. She didn't respond. “It's Gabe. Gabe MacKenzie. From last night.”

There was a soft sound, like a breath or the brush of fabric. He waited for the lock to click open. It didn't.

“Are you okay?” he asked. “Veronica?”

“I'm fine,” she finally said through the wood.

His tight shoulders relaxed. “Good. I thought you might be a little hungover.”

“Yes,” she said, her voice more muffled now. “A little.”

“Are you up for talking?”

The wood stared silently at him.

He winced and lowered his voice. “Listen, Veronica, it's no big deal.”

The lock finally clicked. The door swung in. He was startled to see her without her heels again, inches shorter than he expected her to be. She looked different in other ways, too. Younger, really, her blue eyes naked of makeup and her face a little paler. She crossed her arms snugly over the plain gray T-shirt she wore.

“We don't need to talk,” she said.

“Are you sure? I did make you a promise.” He offered a smile, but she only cringed.

“I'm sorry about last night,” she said. “Like, really,
really
sorry.”

“Hey, it's okay. Honestly.”

“No, it's not. But we don't ever need to talk about it. You're not going to tell anyone, are you? Because if you did, I could—”

“Hey.” He started to reach toward her, but the tight way she was holding herself made him hesitate. “I'm not going to tell anyone. Why would I?”

“I don't know.” One of her shoulders rose in a shrug. “Because I'm living a lie. Because it's funny. Because it's so fucking weird.”

“Jesus, Veronica. That's crazy. I don't think it's funny or weird.”

“It's a little funny,” she insisted. “You know it is.”

He thought of her confession and ducked his head to hide a smile. “Okay, I admit I'm intrigued by the ‘pretty much' part.”

She groaned, but when he glanced up at her, he noticed that her hands had relaxed. She wasn't gripping her arms nearly as firmly now.

Gabe leaned against the door frame. “I haven't said a word to anyone and I never will. I swear.”

“Okay,” she said, squeezing herself tight again. She looked tired.

“I just got off work. I'm starving. Have you eaten?”

She shot a look toward her kitchen. “Kind of.”

“Kind of? Is that like ‘pretty much'?”

“Shut up,” she said, pouting a little now. He noticed that her lips were full and pink even without lipstick.

“Come to dinner. We can have a drink and talk.”

“Nope. I never want to have a drink or talk again.”

“Food, though?” he pressed. “Food sounds good?”

Her head dropped. She took a deep breath. “I'm not even dressed.”

“You look dressed to me.”

“I'm wearing yoga pants and a T-shirt.”

“Throw on a hoodie and you've got a look. Let's go.”

She finally cracked a smile, though she tried to hide it. Gabe ducked down and met her eye. “Come on. You've got to eat.”

She shook her head. “I wasn't planning on leaving the house today.”

“Why?”

She groaned and rubbed a hand over her face. “Because I didn't want to take the chance I'd run into
you
.”

“Well, shit, I really screwed that up. No wonder you didn't want to see me. I've ruined everything.”

“You're a dork,” she muttered, but this time there was no hiding her smile. Her eyes crinkled at the edges and her gaze rose to his. He suddenly remembered the way she'd leaned close and whispered the word
fucking
to him the night before.

Gabe stood straighter and cleared his throat. “What sounds good? Mexican?”

“Oh, God, yes.”

“Mexican is always good after a hangover. Come on. My treat.”

Despite what he thought was an inspiring tone, she still stared doubtfully at him for quite a while. He wasn't sure why he felt so invested in getting her out for dinner, but he wasn't going to give up.

“I look like shit,” she finally said.

“You're beautiful,” he answered.

Her face flickered in a brief frown, but she hid it quickly. “Whatever. I'm starving. Let's go before I change my mind.”

Gabe stopped himself from raising a fist in triumph.

She slipped on flip-flops, took a hoodie from the closet by the door and grabbed her keys. Her toenails were painted bright blue. Gabe knew it was a bad sign that he found that impossibly cute.

They headed toward a place four blocks away that even Gabe already knew was the best Mexican in town. She had her arms crossed tight again, pushing her breasts up in a way that caught Gabe's eye.

Damn. There was no way to pretend she hadn't told him what she'd told him. She clearly wanted to forget, but Gabe might need electroshock therapy to shake last night loose.
Are you sure you won't stay?
He was afraid she'd never ask that again.

When they reached a busier street, Veronica pulled her fleece jacket on and tugged up the hood as if she was hiding.

“No one else knows,” he said in a stage whisper.

“I know,” she sighed, “but I'm supposed to have my shit together. I'm not supposed to be the depressed, hungover girl who hides in her house in old yoga pants all day. I really can't believe I'm dressed like this in front of you, of all people.”

“Me? Why? My hobbies are basically sweating in the woods, reading in my underwear and nerding out on my computer. Flannel shirts and workout gear make up about fifty percent of my closet.”

“Fine, but you're just...” She waved a hand up and down his body just as she had the night before. “Whatever. I told you last night.”

“Sure, but I thought that was the alcohol talking. Are you saying you really think I'm beautiful?”

“Please don't tell me you're going to bring up every word I said last night.”

“Not every word. But that one was pretty good.”

“Like I'm the first girl to call you beautiful,” she muttered.

Gabe laughed. “I swear to God, you're the first. And probably the last. So let me enjoy it.”

Her face was pink with embarrassment, but she was smiling as Gabe reached for the door of the restaurant and waved her in. “How about a margarita?” he asked with a wink.

“You're a monster,” she answered, not even looking at him as she breezed past.

“Sorry.”

Service was quick, one of the benefits of living in a tourist town during the off-season. The full-time residents could eat cheap and fast at even the best restaurants because they were dying to get people in.

They both ordered quickly. Gabe got a beer, but Veronica stuck with water. “Lots of water,” she explained to the waiter. She glared at Gabe when he smiled.

“I'm not laughing at you,” he explained. “I'm laughing with you.”

“I don't think I've quite reached the ‘this will be funny someday' point.”

“Wrong. You already pointed out how funny it was,” he said before he popped a chip into his mouth. “God, they've got great salsa.”

She took a bite and closed her eyes. “They really do.”

“This is so much better than anything I could find in Ohio.”

When the waiter brought his beer, Gabe took a long draw before sitting back in his chair. Veronica looked much more relaxed now. And pretty as hell. She'd pushed the hood off when they'd entered the restaurant and her hair was a little...askew. But he liked it. She looked touchable. Flawed. Fuckable.