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“Really?” enquired Captain Forster, listening with nervous attention. Herr Scholtz, however, was speaking very slowly, as if out of consideration for him.

“Yes,” said Herr Scholtz. “Of course during the war it was out of bounds for both of us, but now …”

The Captain suddenly interrupted: “Actually I’m very fond of it myself. I come here every year it is possible.”

Herr Scholtz inclined his head, admitting that Captain Forstels equal right to it was incontestable, and continued, “I associate with it the most charming of my memories—perhaps you would care to …”

“But certainly,” agreed Captain Forster hastily. He glanced involuntarily towards Rosa—Herr Scholtz was speaking with his eyes on Rosa’s back. Rosa was no longer humming. Captain Forster took in the situation and immediately coloured. He glanced protestingly towards Herr Scholtz. But it was too late.

“I was eighteen,” said Herr Scholtz very loudly. “Eighteen.” He paused, and for a moment it was possible to resurrect, in the light of his rueful reminiscent smile, the delightful, ingenuous bouncing youth he had certainly been at eighteen. “My parents allowed me, for the first time, to go alone for a vacation. It was against my mother’s wishes; but my father on the other hand …”

Here Captain Forster necessarily smiled, in acknowledgement of that international phenomenon, the sweet jealousy of mothers.

“And here I was, for a ten days’ vacation, all by myself—imagine it!”

Captain Forster obligingly imagined it, but almost at once interrupted: “Odd, but I had the same experience. Only I was twenty-five.”

Herr Scholtz exclaimed: “Twenty-five!” He cut himself short, covered his surprise, and shrugged as if to say: Well, one must make allowances. He at once continued to Rosa’s listening back. “I was in this very hotel. Winter. A winter vacation. There was a woman …” He paused, smiling. “How can I describe her?”

But the Captain, it seemed, was not prepared to assist. He was frowning uncomfortably towards Rosa. His expression said quite clearly: Really, must you?

Herr Scholtz appeared not to notice it. “I was, even in those days, not backward—you understand?” The Captain made a movement of his shoulders which suggested that to be forward at eighteen was not a matter for congratulation, whereas at twenty-five …

“She was beautiful—beautiful,” continued Herr Scholtz with enthusiasm. “And she was obviously rich, a woman of the world; and her clothes …”

“Quite,” said the Captain.

“She was alone. She told me she was here for her health. Her husband unfortunately could not get away, for reasons of business. And I, too, was alone.”

“Quite,” said the Captain.

“Even at that age I was not too surprised at the turn of events. A woman of thirty … a husband so much older than herself … and she was beautiful … and intelligent…. Ah, but she was magnificent!” He almost shouted this, and drained his glass reminiscently towards Rosa’s back. “Ah …” He breathed gustily. “And now I must tell you. All that was good enough, but now there is even better. Listen. A week passed. And what a week! I loved her as I never loved anyone….”

“Quite,” said the Captain, fidgeting.

But Herr Scholtz swept on: “And then one morning I wake, and I am alone.” Herr Scholtz shrugged and groaned.

The Captain observed that Herr Scholtz was being carried away by the spirit of his own enjoyment. This tale was by now only half for the benefit of Rosa. That rich dramatic groan—Herr Scholtz might as well be in the theatre, thought the Captain uncomfortably.

“But there was a letter, and when I read it …”

“A letter?” interrupted the Captain suddenly.

“Yes, a letter. She thanked me so that the tears came into my eyes. I wept.”

One could have sworn that the sentimental German eyes swam with tears, and Captain Forster looked away. With eyes averted he asked nervously, “What was in the letter?”

“She said how she hated her husband. She had married him against her will—to please her parents. In those days, this thing happened. And she had sworn a vow to herself never to have his child. But she wanted a child….”

“What?” exclaimed the Captain. He was leaning forward over the table now, intent on every syllable.

This emotion seemed unwelcome to Herr Scholtz, who said blandly, “Yes, that was how it was. That was my good fortune, my friend.”

“When was that?” enquired the Captain hungrily.

“I beg your pardon?”

“When was it? What year?”

“What year? Does it matter? She told me she had arranged this little holiday on grounds of her bad health, so that she
might come by herself to find the man she wanted as the father of her child. She had chosen me. I was her choice. And now she thanked me and was returning to her husband.” Herr Scholtz stopped, in triumph, and looked at Rosa. Rosa did not move. She could not possibly have failed to hear every word. Then he looked at the Captain. But the Captain’s face was scarlet, and very agitated.

“What was her name?” barked the Captain.

“Her name?” Herr Scholtz paused. “Well, she would clearly have used a false name?” he enquired. As the Captain did not respond, he said firmly: “That is surely obvious, my friend. And I did not know her address.” Herr Scholtz took a slow sip of his wine, then another. He regarded the Captain for a moment thoughtfully, as if wondering whether he could be trusted to behave according to the rules, and then continued: “I ran to the hotel manager—no, there was no information. The lady had left unexpectedly, early that morning. No address. I was frantic. You can imagine. I wanted to rush after her, find her, kill her husband, marry her!” Herr Scholtz laughed in amused, regretful indulgence at the follies of youth.

“You must remember the year,” urged the Captain.

“But—my friend—” began Herr Scholtz after a pause, very annoyed. “What can it matter, after all?”

Captain Forster glanced stiffly at Rosa and spoke in English, “As it happened, the same thing happened to me.”

“Here?” enquired Herr Scholtz politely.

“Here.”

“In this valley?”

“In this hotel.”

“Well,” shrugged Herr Scholtz, raising his voice even more, “well, women—women, you know. At eighteen, of course—and perhaps even at twenty-five”—here he nodded indulgently towards his opponent—“even at twenty-five perhaps one takes such things as miracles that happen only to oneself. But at our age—?”

He paused, as if hoping against hope that the Captain might recover his composure.

But the Captain was speechless.

“I tell you, my friend,” continued Herr Scholtz, good-humouredly relishing the tale, “I tell you, I was crazy; I thought I would go mad. I wanted to shoot myself; I rushed around the
streets of every city I happened to be in, looking into every face. I looked at photographs in the papers—actresses, society women; I used to follow a woman I had glimpsed in the street, thinking that perhaps this was she at last. But no,” said Herr Scholtz dramatically, bringing down his hand on the table, so that his ring clicked again, “no, never, never was I successful!”

“What did she look like?” asked the Captain agitatedly in English, his anxious eyes searching the by now very irritated eyes of Herr Scholtz.

Herr Scholtz moved his chair back slightly, looked toward Rosa, and said loudly in German: “Well, she was beautiful, as I have told you.” He paused, for thought. “And she was an aristocrat.”

“Yes, yes,” said the Captain impatiently.

“She was tall, very slim, with a beautiful body—beautiful! She had that black hair, you know, black, black! And black eyes, and beautiful teeth.” He added loudly and spitefully towards Rosa: “She was not the country bumpkin type, not at all. One has some taste.”

With extreme discomfort the Captain glanced towards the plump village Rosa. He said, pointedly using English even at this late stage, “Mine was fair. Tall and fair. A lovely girl. Lovely!” he insisted with a glare. “Might have been an English girl.”

“Which was entirely to her credit,” suggested Herr Scholtz, with a smile.

“That was in 1913,” said the Captain insistently, and then: “You say she had black hair?”

“Certainly, black hair. On that occasion—but that was not the last time it happened to me.” He laughed. “I had three children by my wife, a fine woman—she is now dead, unfortunately.” Again, there was no doubt tears filled his eyes. At the sight, the Captain’s indignation soared. But Herr Scholtz had recovered and was speaking: “But I ask myself, how many children in addition to the three? Sometimes I look at a young man in the streets who has a certain resemblance, and I ask myself: Perhaps he is my son? Yes, yes, my friend, this is a question that every man must ask himself, sometimes, is it not?” He put back his head and laughed wholeheartedly, though with an undertone of rich regret.

The Captain did not speak for a moment. Then he said, in
English, “It’s all very well, but it did happen to me—it did.” He sounded like a defiant schoolboy, and Herr Scholtz shrugged.

“It happened to me, here. In this hotel.”

Herr Scholtz controlled his irritation, glanced at Rosa, and, for the first time since the beginning of this regrettable incident, he lowered his voice to a reasonable tone and spoke English. “Well,” he said, in frank irony, smiling gently, with a quiet shrug, “well, perhaps if we are honest we must say that this is a thing that has happened to every man? Or rather, if it did not exist, it was necessary to invent it?”

And now, said his look towards the Captain, and now, for heaven’s sake!—for the sake of decency, masculine solidarity, for the sake of our dignity in the eyes of that girl over there, who has so wounded us both—pull yourself together, my friend, and consider what you are saying!

But the Captain was oblivious in memories. “No,” he insisted. “No. Speak for yourself. It did happen. Here.” He paused, and then brought out, with difficulty, “I never married.”

Herr Scholtz shrugged, at last, and was silent. Then he called out, “Fräulein, Fräulein—may I pay?” It was time to put an end to it.

Rosa did not immediately turn around. She patted her hair at the back. She straightened her apron. She took her napkin from one forearm and arranged it prettily on the other. Then she turned and came, smiling, towards them. It could at once be seen that she intended her smile to be noticed.

“You wish to pay?” she asked Herr Scholtz. She spoke calmly and deliberately in English, and the Captain started and looked extremely uncomfortable. But Herr Scholtz immediately adjusted himself and said in English, “Yes, I am paying.”

She took the note he held out and counted out the change from the small satchel under her apron. Having laid the last necessary coin on the table, she stood squarely in front of them, smiling down equally at both, her hands folded in front of her. At last, when they had had the full benefit of her amused, maternal smile, she suggested in English: “Perhaps the lady changed the color of her hair to suit what you both like best?” Then she laughed. She put back her head and laughed a full, wholehearted laugh.

Herr Scholtz, accepting the defeat with equanimity, smiled a rueful, appreciative smile.

The Captain sat stiffly in his chair, regarding them both with hot hostility, clinging tight to his own, authentic, memories.

But Rosa laughed at him, until with a final swish of her dress she clicked past them both and away off the terrace.

G
oing to the shore on the first morning of the vacation, the young English boy stopped at a turning of the path and looked down at a wild and rocky bay, and then over to the crowded beach he knew so well from other years. His mother walked on in front of him, carrying a bright striped bag in one hand. Her other arm, swinging loose, was very white in the sun. The boy watched that white naked arm, and turned his eyes, which had a frown behind them, towards the bay and back again to his mother. When she felt he was not with her, she swung around. “Oh, there you are, Jerry!” she said. She looked impatient, then smiled. “Why, darling, would you rather not come with me? Would you rather—” She frowned, conscientiously worrying over what amusements he might secretly be longing for, which she had been too busy or too careless to imagine. He was very familiar with that anxious, apologetic smile. Contrition sent him running after her. And yet, as he ran, he looked back over his shoulder at the wild bay; and all morning, as he played on the safe beach, he was thinking of it.

Next morning, when it was time for the routine of swimming and sunbathing, his mother said, “Are you tired of the usual beach, Jerry? Would you like to go somewhere else?”

“Oh, no!” he said quickly, smiling at her out of that unfailing impulse of contrition—a sort of chivalry. Yet, walking down the path with her, he blurted out, “I’d like to go and have a look at those rocks down there.”

She gave the idea her attention. It was a wild-looking place,
and there was no one there; but she said, “Of course, Jerry. When you’ve had enough, come to the big beach. Or just go straight back to the villa, if you like.” She walked away, that bare arm, now slightly reddened from yesterday’s sun, swinging. And he almost ran after her again, feeling it unbearable that she should go by herself, but he did not.