Steamlust (26 page)

“Please, feel free to participate in any way you desire.” Hardwick’s eyes glitter, fever bright.

It is tempting to walk around, if just to escape the proximity of these three people. Ruiz has settled close enough that his heat and scent enfold me, reminding me although I had thought him part of my past I now must admit he has never been far from my thoughts. I am fighting desire and hurt, for I had dreamed when he came to collect on my debt what he wanted would be
me
, not a lover lost to Hardwick’s machinations.

Pain stabs at my chest, forms a cold ball in my belly. I won’t survive the night if I cannot master these emotions. Locking them away takes all my will.

“Ruiz expressed an interest in attending,” I send Hardwick another meaningless smile, “for he heard no one surrounds himself with more beautiful women than you.”

The caw of a crow, his laugh is harsh and disturbing. “And surely you concurred?”

“Of course,” I force amusement into my voice, holding his yellow-tinged gaze with ease of long practice in the art of dissembling, “’Tis a well-known fact.”

“I am glad you think so. Come, Angelique, sit up. Interesting as I am sure the view of your arse is, I would display you in a better light.”

Like an automaton she rises, shuffling on her knees to face him, the ruby-clad collar around her neck flashing like wet blood. On direction she spreads his legs and turns to sit, the back of her head against his thigh, her gleaming hair a waterfall over his sickly flesh. I should not look, but having never seen her naked, I do, allowing myself to follow the contours of throat and peach-tipped breasts, slim torso and flaring hips. Downy hair shades the juncture of her thighs and I long for her to open, reveal her sweet cunt, so I can carry the memory forever.

I look to her eyes, longing for the remembered softness of her gaze, the hint of laughter and lust, even though I know it to have been a lie. She is expressionless, and the breath sticks in my throat—the heat of the enclosed room and stench of sex suddenly overwhelming.

The urge to run makes me turn away, pretend interest in the antics of two women sharing a floor fucker of immense length and girth. They are laughing, one trying to mount the phallus while it is already switched on, while the other holds her friend’s
labia open, trying to align her properly with the up-thrusting cock. They are probably slaves but I envy their freedom and familiarity, affection and unselfconscious touching.

When last have I enjoyed another’s body, freely given, with no thought of what gains could be had from lying with me?

With shrieks of laughter the women achieve penetration, the one on top bouncing about for a few moments before settling deeper onto the juddering phallus, taking half its length. It stretches her almost comically and laughter wells within, until I see her obvious delight. When her friend presses an open-mouthed kiss to the wet flesh between her thighs, making her moan with pleasure, heat floods my belly and, for a moment, I allow myself to dream…

Ruiz stirs beside me, and I glance over to see him also watching the women, a distinct bulge forming at the front of his breeches. Like me, is he imagining us fucking, me on top, with Angelique’s tongue dancing from my clitoris to his sac, back and forth, until the combined power of our coming together and her caresses drive us both to dizzying completion?

He turns, and although he is impassive I read concentrated desire in his hooded eyes. The heat shimmering beneath my skin travels inward, shudders through my veins and drips, like the finest wax, down into my cunt. Should any other man stir these feelings in me, I would take him to my quarters and fuck him until he begged for mercy, secure in my ability to walk away thereafter. But Ruiz would be the one to leave, and I don’t know if I could bear it.

Yet there is something in his eyes that will not release me—a promise or a dare—and he shifts almost imperceptibly closer. My hands almost itch with the need to touch and I clasp them together on my lap so as not to give in. Hardwick’s voice murmurs but, still captured by Ruiz’s darkening gaze, slowly
giving in to my heightening desire, I ignore it.

“Your grace, master suggests I offer myself to you and Captain de Cortez for your pleasure.”

Angelique’s whispered words are a dash of iced water, and I look down to where she kneels before me, head bowed.

“Do anything you like, your grace, barring penetration.” Hardwick is goading me, and rage rises with each of his words. “That privilege is mine alone.”

Without thought I reach out and lift her chin. Emotionless and quiescent, her face reveals nothing, but in her cerulean eyes is a shimmer that can only be tears and, as I watch, her lips quiver in an ephemeral cry of pain before firming once more.

Often, in the lonely stretches of night, I wondered if her slavery was of necessity or choice. Did she thrive on his twisted possession, devoted to a man whose cock cannot rise without mechanical assistance and whose altered flesh is, by design, horrific?

Perhaps it is a falsehood to believe I have found the answer, but now I know what I must do, and the decision leaves me relieved and resolved.

“Perhaps I shall indulge, just a little,” I say, and my fingers drift down toward Angelique’s breast. It is a delicate game I play, and it must be timed to perfection. “She is a delicious morsel, although…” I slant a brief glance at Ruiz. “…I had my heart set on rather more substantial delights tonight.”

Fixated on watching my fingers slip down to her collarbone and rise again, Hardwick hesitates, licks his lips and, in the silence left by his lack of response rises a sudden cacophony of moans and sighs, as if the entire room climaxes at once. A flush stains his sallow cheeks and his hand twitches convulsively.

“No need to deny one pleasure for another, your grace.” The rasping voice quivers with excitement. “Here you can safely indulge both.”

Agonizing laughter wells in my chest and is suppressed. If only he knew how much I wished I could. But even with the possibility laid out before me I will not chance the exposition of yearning such an encounter would create.

Cupping Angelique’s breast, feeling her nipple tighten against my hand, I turn to Ruiz. In his eyes lie too many questions and I avoid them by twining my other arm around his neck, urging him closer, letting my lips soften in mute invitation. There is a moment of resistance, and then he surges forward.

The first commanding touch of his lips, his almost feral growl, causes desire to become a molten army marauding through my blood, twisting in my belly, flooding my cunt. Accepting the hard thrust of his tongue, the soft yielding of Angelique’s flesh beneath my hand, I am slave and master, seducer and seduced and, with this dichotomy, complete.

Ruiz deepens the kiss, thrusting his tongue between my lips, demanding my response. I freely, joyously give it as Angelique moves closer, parting my legs so as to nestle between them. Only the silk of my gown separates our bodies, and I feel the brush of her fingers on my calf just as Ruiz slips his hand into my bodice.

I am lost, as though broken from the tether of my life and floating away—a casualty of a hurricane-force wind. Not even the now-vague memory of Hardwick’s presence can lessen my pleasure at being surrounded by the touch and scent of the two people I love best. Lust is the physical manifestation, the only one I dare express, but my heart sings to have received this one chance to experience their attentions.

Forcing myself to break away is the hardest action I have ever taken, but if I do not I will forget all in their arms, and my plan will go awry.

Pulling back, I look across at Hardwick. His gloating, lascivious stare causes a chill to trickle down my spine.

“Indulge me, Hardwick. Let me see the mighty cock I have heard so much about.”

Ruiz stiffens and a shiver cascades through Angelique as at Hardwick’s barked command the cloth is whisked away. Only years of training stop me from recoiling from the sight of the monstrous appendage lying between his stringy thighs.

Red and lived, flaccid it is at least a foot in length, bulging with implanted rings and studded with knobs, some with sharp, squared-off edges. With a movement of his hand a pump springs to life, and the phallus begins to rise, not stopping until it stands, like a hideous caricature of all that is depraved, a full fifteen inches into the air.

Angelique presses closer, the frantic beat of her heart a match for my own.

“
Madre de Dios,”
Ruiz murmurs, horror deepening his usually almost imperceptible accent, and I tighten my fingers on his nape in warning.

“Magnificent,” I breathe, hoping Hardwick doesn’t notice the underlying revulsion, or the motion of my hand on Angelique’s breast. “Let me see it in use.” Looking down at Angelique, I order her to him with a gesture of my head. “Go.”

“
Geliefde…”

I do not understand the word, but the plea in Angelique’s whisper, in her eyes, is almost my undoing. There is no way to reassure her. All I can do is briefly squeeze the tender flesh still nestled in my fingers and gesture once more. “Go, now.”

Ruiz moves, whether to stop her or to pull away from me, I cannot tell. I hold him still and although the pain in Angelique’s eyes slices through me, I nudge her urgently with my knee. Finally, just as I am close to losing my composure, she turns and crawls to Hardwick.

From all accounts, there is a ritual Hardwick employs with
each sexual encounter. He feels no sensation below his neck and now depends on degradation and pain to find his twisted form of satisfaction.

Belly writhing in agony, I watch Angelique straddle his lap and reach between them to grasp the dreadful appendage, her fingers unable to meet around its girth. Even from this distance I see her trembling. She offers him her right breast and my heart lurches.

“No,” Hardwick says, turning his head, voice thick with lust, “The other one. The one she touched…”

With seeming reluctance Angelique angles her left breast to his mouth. The purplish tongue darts out, circling her nipple before he fixes his teeth on the tip and closes his lips around it.

Angelique cries out, and again Ruiz makes as though to rise.

“Wait,” I murmur, “wait.”

Angelique lowers herself toward his cock. Still retaining the grip on her nipple, Hardwick pulls, painfully stretching her breast in a bestial tug-of-war. My entire body stiffens in anguished suspense as the tip of the phallus settles between her thighs.

Hardwick gasps, releasing Angelique, as the poison I put on her nipple takes effect. Eyes widening until it appears they will pop from their sockets, his neck arches impossibly back. Foam bubbles to his lips and, with a cry of alarm, Angelique scrambles backward, losing her balance and falling before Ruiz can catch her. Attendants rush forward, screams break out around the room. I swiftly rise and shout for the guards stationed outside the door.

No one stops us when we leave, although Ruiz carries Angelique’s still form in his arms. I pause only to remove the collar from her neck and throw it to the floor. Once outside I lift my skirts and run, Ruiz beside me, racing death back to my apartments.

The skin around Angelique’s lips is blue, her breathing so shallow fear clamps around my chest. I force the antidote into her mouth, rub her throat until she swallows, Ruiz crouched beside us the entire time. After giving orders to and dismissing my staff, we wait, unable to leave her side until her color normalizes and she takes a full, deep breath. Without conscious thought I reach for Ruiz’s hand, and the heat of his strong fingers steadies me.

Her eyelids flutter and Angelique begins to shiver.

“Bring her through to the bedroom.” Is that my voice, so tremulous and faint? “A warm bath will help.”

Ruiz carries her and lowers her into the tub, uncaring of the soaking he receives. The tenderness on his face as he strokes her cheek is almost my undoing, but I force back the tears and sponge water over her shoulders, trying to avoid looking at the bruises forming on her poor, battered breast.

Finally her eyes open, the confused, unsure gaze tracking from his face to mine.

“
Geliefde,”
she whispers. “What…?”

“I’m sorry,” I can hardly get the words out past the choking relief, “I hoped it wouldn’t affect you, but could think of no other way.”

“Way…?”

“Poison,” Ruiz murmurs. “Although how she managed it, I don’t know.”

I show them my ring, the secret compartment beneath the seal and residue of powder inside. “I hoped it wouldn’t enter your body through the skin, but couldn’t be sure, so I only put it on one nipple.” The memory of her offering Hardwick the other breast flickers through my mind, and I falter, unable to continue.

“And Hardwick?”

“Dead,” satisfaction is patent in Ruiz’s voice.

“You’re free,” I add, although a band tightens with sickening force across my chest.

Angelique closes her eyes for a moment and when they reopen they’re shimmering.

“Free? To do whatever I desire?”

She looks back and forth between us and both Ruiz and I smile, nodding. Reaching out to us, she uses our hands to rise and gathers us against her warm, wet body.

“Then take me from here to the bed over there,
geliefde,”
she says in a voice that fairly rings with joy, “And prove this to me.”

Over her head I meet Ruiz’s gaze, see in it something that makes my heart leap and the familiar heat uncoil deep inside. And as though in the throes of my most dearly held dream, I hear myself say, “Yes.”

Urgency, near desperation grips me, as though in disbelief of reality. Part of me wants to go slowly, savor the sensations, the contrasts between Angelique’s softness, Ruiz’s strength, but I’m afraid something will interrupt, come between us.

So I won’t let them linger over the removal of our clothing, and I frantically touch his muscular chest, her tender belly. And I cannot stop kissing them, one then the other, taking Angelique’s lips with open-mouthed fervor, ceding to Ruiz’s masterful demands.