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I got up and went to the table, slowly sorting through the food. Jackson walked back and deliberately dropped the basket. I bent down to help him pick up the clothes.

“Are you okay?” he whispered and grabbed a pair of fishnet tights. “I wasn’t expecting to see you at that house.”

“I know,” I told him and reached out for his hand. I laced my fingers through his and squeezed his hand. Our eyes met, and my heart ached, wanting to be closer to Jackson. Even though he was right in front of me, I missed him. “Nate brought you back for more reasons than to do housework.”

 
“What?”

“It hit me when I saw Zane’s face when you guys picked me up. He knew it would upset you to see me. He knows that you like me, and he likes hurting you so…”

“I did wonder why he came with,” he said and bent forward to scoop up more clothing.
 

I swallowed hard and shook my head. “He will use me against you.”

“I know,” he admitted. He looked up at me, giving me a small, hopeful smile. I pushed my hair away from my face.
 
“You can’t let them know you have feelings for me. No matter what. You can’t let them have that advantage over you.” We stood, and I noticed Rochelle watching us in the mirror. “I’ll come back when I can,” he whispered and hurried up the stairs.
 

I opened a container of yogurt and picked up a spoon. I went back to Phoebe’s cot and tried to feed her. She ate about half before she let her eyes close. My lip quivered, and hot tears burned in my eyes. I set the yogurt down and took her hand in mine, pressing it to my forehead.

“You’re gonna be okay,” I soothed. “You have to be.”

“I’m cold,” she said hoarsely.
 

I got up and took the blue fleece blanket off my cot and tucked it around Phoebe. Something was familiar about her symptoms, but I couldn’t recall what was causing it. The splotchy skin, the constant fatigue … I was sure it was some sort of sexually transmitted infection.

“Is she okay?” Lily asked, her blue eyes wide with fear. She was holding a makeup brush in one hand.

“She won’t be for much longer,” I admitted and felt a lump of vomit rise in my throat. “She needs to see a doctor.”

Lily turned to Rochelle. “I told you. Please, Rochelle.
Please
,” she begged.

Rochelle finished applying her eyeliner before she even acknowledged Lily. “He will never listen.”

The brush dropped from Lily’s hand. “You have to try again!” She stuck her hand out. “Look at her!”

Rochelle closed her eyes, causing fat tears to roll down her face, streaking the thick makeup she had layered on. “Okay. I’ll ask.”

I had a feeling I knew who she was talking about. “Zane?” I asked.

“Yes,” Lily answered. “If she can just get him to get a prescription like he did for you, she’ll be fine, right Addie?”

I narrowed my eyes. “Prescription?”

“From Dr. Jerry,” Lily said as if I should know. When she saw my blank expression, she went on to explain. “He’s the doc who gives Nate our birth control pills. He’s one of Rochelle’s clients.”

“Oh,” I said, at a loss for words. I let out a breath. “Do you think you can get something, anything, for Phoebe?”

“I’ll try,” Rochelle told us. Her voice was level, but I could see that just the thought of asking Zane something terrified her.

“Thank you,” I said sincerely and turned my attention back to Phoebe. She slept while Lily and Rochelle finished getting ready. Rochelle’s heels clicked on the wooden steps. She paused at the top and knocked on the door. A few seconds later, it opened, and she and Lily were ushered out of the basement to begin the day’s work.

I did my routine of pacing around the basement and straightening my cot. My skin under the ankle bracelet was dry and itchy. I scratched at it until it became red.

 
I sat at the card table with my head in my hands, staring at the broom closet’s door. It taunted me, reminding me of my first few days as a captive.
 

“Addie?” Phoebe croaked. I stood up so fast, the metal folding chair fell to the ground.

“Yes,” I answered right away.

“Can you bring water?” she asked.

“Of course.” I hurried to fill up a plastic cup with icy water and bring it to her. She took small sips but finished the entire thing. She ran her hands through her messy hair and sat up.

“Feel better now,” she told me with a smile. “No worry.”

“I do worry. You’re my friend.”

She patted my arm. “Friend.”

“Yes,” I said with a half smile.

 
She took a deep breath and looked around as if she just realized we were alone. “You like Jackson,” she stated.

I didn’t even try to deny it. “I do.”

“I see how he look at you. He like you too.”

I felt my heart skip a beat. “I think he does.”

“You more than think,” she teased and nudged me with her elbow. She swung her legs over the cot and stood. Her hand flew to her forehead and she moaned in pain. “Head hurt.”

I stood. “This should help,” I told her and hopped over the cot and reached under my pillow, extracting a handful of little white pills. I picked off a few pieces of fuzz and hair and gave her two. She put them in her mouth and swallowed them dry. I closed my eyes in a long blink and refused to think about how unhealthy she was.

CHAPTER THIRTY-FOUR

I WAS ALONE once again. Around the time the sun had set, Phoebe had been summoned upstairs to work. I was wearing Jackson’s sweatshirt with the hood pulled up over my head. I couldn’t stop thinking about him, and I missed him so much it hurt. I hated that we were in the same house, so close together but separated by one locked door and lots of threats.

He was in the kitchen, or at least I thought it was him. I was able to tell the difference in Nate, Zane, and Jackson’s footsteps. Zane was a fast walker and often took his shoes off when he was in the house. Nate, on the other hand, kept his on. Usually dressed for business, his dress shoes clicked on the hardwood floors. Jackson shuffled his feet and moved slowly. I assumed it was his way of silently protesting being forced to work.

Whoever was in the kitchen clanked dishes around. I heard water running, and the pipes shook when the dishwasher started. It was definitely Jackson. I got up, holding my arms out in front of me and shaking my hands so that the long sleeves fell back, and crept toward the stairs. I was halfway up when someone unlocked the deadbolt.
 

I froze, heart pounding in my ears. I grabbed the railing. It was Jackson. It had to be. My fingers tightened around the splintering wood as the oval doorknob turned.

“Shit!” Jackson swore and jumped back, almost dropping the laundry basket full of clean clothes he was holding. He immediately winced. “I wasn’t expecting that.”

My heart continued to beat faster, but not from fear. “I knew it was you up there.”

“Really?” Jackson asked and looked behind him before slipping down the stairs. “How?”

I ungracefully walked backwards down two steps before turning around and jogging down the rest of the way. “Who else washes dishes?” I asked ruefully.

“True,” he agreed.
 

I stopped at the base of the stairs and turned around. “What happened?” I asked and felt a stab of sickness. I took the laundry basket from him, set it down, and carefully touched a tear in Jackson’s gray shirt. The edges were soaked in blood.

“Zane,” he huffed and shook his head.

“You’re still bleeding.” I brought my fingers away, showing him the blood.

He shrugged and winced again. I put my hand over the cut on his left shoulder. “It’ll stop eventually.”

I pressed my lips together and shook my head. “I hate this.”

“It’ll be okay,” he promised me and took my hands in his. Blood smeared against his skin. “Somehow, it has to be okay.”

“I almost believe that,” I whispered and let my head rest against his chest. I wrapped my arms around his waist and closed my eyes. “At least let me wash the blood off,” I said and pulled away from Jackson. He nodded and sat on the cot. I grabbed a clean washcloth and wet it from the shower. I pulled the neck of his long sleeved t-shirt down and gently blotted at the blood.

“Thanks,” he said, unmoving.

I pressed the cloth over the wound. He had so many scars. I slipped my hand inside his shirt and ran my finger over a jagged pink line of scar tissue that ran across the right side of his chest. “What is this from?”

Jackson put his hand over mine, feeling the scar. The he curled his fingers through mine. “Broken glass. Five years ago.”

I removed the washcloth from his shoulder and dropped it on the ground. “What about these?” I asked and pushed up his sleeve. I traced five straight scars on his right forearm.

“Razor blade. A few months ago.”

“And this?” I asked, pressing my lips to another rough patch of healing skin on his neck. Jackson’s arms wrapped around me.
 

“Fire poker,” he whispered. “Right out of the fire.”

I kept my lips against his skin and reached under his shirt, running my hand up the horrible, thick scar on his side. I had seen the particularly nasty mark the night I learned Jackson’s true nature. Before I had the chance to ask about it, Jackson put one arm around me and used the other to cup my face. He gingerly turned it in and kissed me. I stopped thinking about scars and focused on how warm and wonderful Jackson’s skin felt. I pulled myself closer to him, pressing my lips harder against his. I ran my fingers through his dark hair and leaned back, bringing him with.

“Are you sure?” he asked so quietly I could barely hear him.

“Yes,” I breathed and pulled him close. He was so careful and gentle and I wasn’t afraid. His eyes were wide and he trembled slightly. He was nervous. He exhaled and put his lips to mine, starting off slow. He opened his mouth and waiting, pulling back. I moved my hands to his face and brought him to me, deepening the kiss. Then he suddenly stopped kissing me.

“Adeline,” he said and moved his face away just enough to be able to see me. There was a light in his dark eyes and he gazed down on me, looking as if he had just found the thing he had been searching for his entire life. “I think I love you.”

The breath caught in my chest. My heart swelled, and I smiled. “I think I love you too.”
 

Jackson’s entire face lit up and he gave me one of his rare smiles, the kind that erased the years of sadness and torture from his eyes. I slowly ran my fingertips down his back. He put his lips back on mine and kissed me again. I wanted him closer, so close our hearts pounded against each other’s. I hooked my arms under his and leaned back, letting him know what I wanted. He let me pull him onto me with ease, carefully keeping his hips off of mine so only the upper half of his body was against me.

Jackson froze. “Is this okay?” he asked, afraid he went too far too fast.

“Yes,” I whispered and put my hands on the small of his back. “It’s perfectly okay. I can’t explain it, Jackson,” I started. “But it’s different with you,” I said. “It just feels
right.
I want you. I want this.”
 

“I do too,” he said with a smile. My heart fluttered when he lightly put his lips to mine, giving me a soft kiss. I pulled him close, wanting more.

The floor creaked above us. We both froze. Jackson slowly turned his face towards the stairs, as if he was afraid he would see Nate or Zane standing there.
 

“You should go,” I whispered.

“Yeah,” he agreed but rolled to the side, wrapping his body around mine. I moved around on the small cot being careful not to accidentally push Jackson over the edge until I faced him. My head rested right under his. I hooked my leg over his and he pulled me into a tight embrace.

“I wish you could stay. I want to fall asleep in your arms,” I whispered. “I feel safe when I’m with you.”

“I’ll do anything to keep you safe,” he told me and kissed my forehead.

I carefully touched the wound on his shoulder. A sticky scab was starting to form. I traced my fingers down his shoulder and wrapped my hand around his bicep over the spot where a bullet ripped through his skin. “Does it hurt?” I asked.

“It feels weird,” he said. “My muscles feel tight around it, and the skin is tingly but has no feeling at the same time. Weird.”

I closed my eyes and listened to his heartbeat. “What would happen if they found you with me?”

I could feel Jackson shake his head. “Kill me. Seriously.” I buried my head against his chest. Cold fear pulsed through me, causing my nerves to prickle. “But we won’t get caught,” he added, sensing the terror that plagued me.
 

He couldn’t promise that, but I wanted to believe it.

“What if we do?” I pushed myself up onto my elbow. “Jackson,” I said frantically. “No, we can’t. You can’t. I don’t want you to die.” I shook my head so quickly it caused my hair to fall into Jackson’s face.

He reached up and gently tucked my hair behind my ear. “Addie, I’d rather live one day with you than a hundred without. You’re the best thing that’s ever happened to me.”

Jackson put his hand on my shoulder and I was able to relax. I laid back down and let out a breath. “But then I’d be alone.”

“You have Phoebe,” he reminded me and began rubbing my back. “You’ll be okay … somehow.”

I pushed his hand away. “Stop it!”

“Stop touching you?” he asked, his face falling.

“No. Stop acting like you’re going to die!”

“Addie,” Jackson said, his tone clearly telling me that he thought it was all too possible.

“No!” I shook my head again and squeezed my eyes shut, forcing away tears. Jackson sat up, crossing his legs. He pulled me to him. “Don’t say it.”

The front door opened and closed, sending a rattle throughout the old house. Jackson tensed and quickly disentangled me from his arms and climbed off the cot. I groaned in frustration. I didn’t want Jackson to leave.

“The basement door isn’t locked,” he told me. I nodded, knowing how important it was for him to rush upstairs. “I’ll come back,” he promised.