Spiral of Bliss 03 Awaken (34 page)

Maggie gasps. The crowd stirs. Radcliffe frowns.

“To what are you referring, Professor Hunter?” he asks.

“Miss Hamilton allegedly had an affair with Professor Butler.” Frances sounds almost triumphant. “Given that he was her advisor, it was a breach of university regulations on both their parts. Miss Hamilton has very poor academic credentials, and appears to have attempted to find another way to graduate from King’s.”

“That’s not true!” Maggie cries, turning to point an accusing finger at me. “He’s the one who has stopped me from finishing my thesis because he wanted—”

“I wanted you to do your work,” I interrupt.

“Excuse me, Chancellor.”

We all turn again as there is another rustle from the crowd, one of the spectators standing. Ben Stafford pushes past a row of people to reach the microphone, nudging Frances aside.

“Ben Stafford, Office of Judicial Affairs,” he says. “I must unequivocally state that any case or claim from Miss Hamilton involving Professor West was determined by me personally to be entirely unfounded.”

“We know, Mr. Stafford,” Radcliffe replies. “Our purpose here is—”

“I understand that this hearing is intended for further investigation,” Stafford interrupts, “but given Miss Hamilton’s poor academic record and her relationship with Jeffrey Butler, it’s clear that she was motivated by revenge toward Professor West. Therefore, may I please request that the board
dismiss and permanently close
their investigation of such a case?”

Behind me, I hear Liv’s intake of breath. Under my locked defenses, a faint flicker of hope comes to life.

“I would further suggest,” Frances adds, slanting another narrow glance at Maggie, “that we no longer devalue King’s University by allowing Miss Hamilton to remain a student here. She is responsible for this entire fiasco. If she does not withdraw from the university herself, I strongly recommend that the board consider expelling her.”

Maggie takes a step back, her eyes darting from Frances to me to the board, as if she’s a trapped animal seeking escape. Radcliffe and the other board members exchange glances.

“And,” Frances adds, “I’m quite certain the faculty and students of the Department of History would provide statements about Miss Hamilton’s conduct and lack of academic ability. Perhaps Jeffrey Butler would too.”

Maggie goes sheet-white. “He was my advisor! He would never say anything against me. And my father has donated buckets of money to this university, so if you think—”

“What I think,” Frances replies tartly, “is that you are a spoiled little girl and a liar who never deserved to be admitted to King’s University.”

A stunned silence falls over the room. The board members shift in their seats and reach out to cover their microphones as they lean toward each other with low whispers.

Maggie’s face goes red with anger and shame.

“I’ll sue you,” she snaps, whirling to glare at me. “All of you. None of you protected me from a professor who tried to blackmail me into sleeping with him!”

“Is that what Jeffrey Butler did?” Frances asks, smoothly deflecting the attention away from me. “Interesting that there is video evidence suggesting otherwise.”

Now the crowd stirs with a few gasps of horrified amusement.

Maggie backs up, gripping her bag. “That’s a lie.”

“If you want to sue, then we’ll ask the Office of Judicial Affairs to investigate further,” Frances snaps. “Is that what you want? You can’t hide behind your father anymore. As a matter of fact, you don’t have anywhere to hide.”

Maggie backs up another step, her bag clutched to her chest like a shield. And then, with a strange flash of fear, her gaze darts over the crowd and lands on the person sitting behind me.

I move forward instinctively to put myself between Maggie and Liv, to protect Liv from whatever venom Maggie might spit at her. Then I stop and turn to look at my wife.

Liv is watching Maggie, her expression calm but her eyes dark with a combination of anger and pity. Exactly the way she had looked at her mother.

The air seems to crack between Liv and Maggie. Then Maggie whirls on her heel and hurries from the room, slamming the door behind her. Hushed whispers rise.

All the breath escapes my lungs. Liv looks at me and nods toward the board members and Frances. I turn back to them and try to refocus.

“All right,” Radcliffe says, his voice loud and somewhat irritated. “We will address the matter of Miss Hamilton at a later date, as clearly some questions need to be answered. Now the issue at hand is Professor West’s misconduct and possible crime. You were recently arrested, Professor West, is that correct?”

“Yes, sir.”

“For disorderly conduct and fighting?”

“Yes, sir.”

“Excuse me, Chancellor.” Kelsey stands and pushes her way toward the microphone. “Kelsey March, associate professor, Department of Atmospheric Sciences.”

Radcliffe sighs. “Yes, Professor March?”

“I was present at the time of the incident, Chancellor,” Kelsey says. “It was the opening of Mrs. Olivia West’s café, and if I might say, it was a lovely event before Edward Hamilton’s assault on Professor West ruined it for everyone.”

“Professor West was assaulted?” one of the other board members asks.

“Violently.” Kelsey nods. “We all witnessed it. Verbal abuse, then a physical attack. It’s a wonder Professor West didn’t sustain more serious trauma.”

“Is that true, Professor West?” Radcliffe asks me.

“Uh… there was yelling and fighting, yes, sir.”

“And Edward Hamilton incited the fight by attacking Professor West first,” Kelsey adds. “Everyone saw it.”

I look at her in surprise. Even though my mind had been black with rage that day, I’m pretty sure I attacked Hamilton first in a full-body tackle.

Then I remember that he poked me in the chest before the real fight began. Though I don’t know if anyone can really define that as an
attack,
I am suddenly and intensely grateful to Kelsey.

“The facts,” Radcliffe continues, glaring at us all from beneath his heavy eyebrows, “are that Professor West has had difficulty with Maggie Hamilton for the duration of his employment at King’s University, which culminated in a very public and violent—”

A sudden noise arises from the back of the room, the main door clicking open. A rustle of people enters. We all turn to see what the commotion is about.

I can only stare as at least forty of my students file into the room, backpacks slung over their shoulders, and march down the central aisle to stand in front of the board. There are so many of them that I’m edged out of the way and wind up near the side exit door.

“Excuse me, Chancellor Radcliffe.” Jessica Burke pushes her way to the front of the crowd to reach the microphone.

The chancellor rolls his eyes. “Yes, miss?”

“My name is Jessica Burke. I’m one of Professor Dean West’s PhD students. We’re all students of Professor West’s, both graduate and undergraduates.”

She indicates her compatriots, several of whom wave at the board members.

“May I speak, Chancellor?” Jessica asks.

“It appears you already have, Miss Burke,” Radcliffe replies dryly.

“Thank you.” Jessica clears her throat and unfolds a piece of paper. “We are here to stand in full support of Professor Dean West. As students who were admitted to King’s University based on our academic excellence, we can unequivocally state that Professor West is an outstanding scholar, mentor, advisor, and teacher. He has challenged us in our scholarship, guided us in our research, and believes in our ability to be both strong, innovative students and citizens of the world.”

I feel a few of the students glance at me. My throat is so tight it hurts.

“Is Professor West guilty of a crime?” Jessica asks, her gaze sweeping over the board members. “The answer is yes.”

The crowd stirs with murmurs of surprise.

“Professor West is guilty of blackmail when he insists his students turn in their best work before he’ll give them a good grade.

“Professor West is guilty of insider trading when he puts students in touch with his colleagues in the United States and Europe so they can expand their research skills and be considered for career positions.

“Professor West is guilty of plagiarism when he copies his personal articles and quotes critical papers to help his students with their research.

“Professor West is guilty of fraud when he expects his students to know all the facets of history, yet only tests us on some of the material.

“And all of Professor West’s students agree that he is most assuredly guilty of boring us to death when he gets started talking about the economic history of Cistercian monasteries,” Jessica adds.

Appreciative laughter rises from the crowd. I look at Liv, who is swiping her eyes with a tissue.

“But as far as we are concerned, all professors should be guilty of such crimes,” Jessica concludes. “Professor West is a true scholar, a supportive and innovative mentor whom we all admire and respect beyond measure. And if anyone…
anyone
… believes that Professor West is not an immense asset to this university and the community… that would be the real crime.”

Jessica steps back from the microphone. The group of students begins to applaud, a resounding noise that grows to a thunderous pitch when the rest of the crowd gets to their feet and joins in.

I close my fingers around the back of a chair. The room is a blur.

“Order!” Radcliffe shouts, banging his fist on the table. “Order, please!”

The crowd quiets down, people resuming their seats under Radcliffe’s glare.

“Thank you, Miss Burke,” Radcliffe says curtly. “Now I will confer with my colleagues in private before coming to a resolution.”

After he announces a short break, I approach my students to extend thanks that will never be enough and gratitude that is boundless. I shake Stafford’s hand and hug Kelsey. It’s a half hour later when the board members return, and Radcliffe orders everyone to be seated.

I sit down next to Liv, who has composed herself after a crying jag that left her red-eyed, blotchy-faced, and smiling from ear to ear.

“This hearing was convened in order to investigate Professor Dean West’s misconduct,” Radcliffe says, shooting me a glare. “In order to protect both our faculty and students, it is critical that we take accusations of wrongdoing very seriously and carry out thorough investigations.”

The room grows quiet.

“However,” Radcliffe continues, “Mr. Stafford of the Office of Judicial Affairs, a dedicated man who is approaching his fifteenth year of employment at King’s, has spent a great deal of time investigating the matter. And given the development with Miss Hamilton, the board of trustees is fully prepared to accept Mr. Stafford’s recommendation and permanently close any such case against Professor West.”

The tightness in my shoulders loosens. Applause begins to echo against the walls of the room. Radcliffe slams his hand on the table.

“Quiet, please,” he orders. “I am not finished. Professor West must account for his arrest by issuing a public apology and stating that the incident had nothing to do with King’s University.”

He shoots me a glare. I nod in agreement.

“Also,” Radcliffe continues, “in light of the students’ testimony… such as it was… and the fact that the members of the board were sorry to receive Professor West’s letter of resignation in the first place, we would ask that he reconsider leaving King’s University and remain in his position as professor of Medieval Studies in the Department of History.”

Disbelief fills me. Cheers erupt from the crowd. Radcliffe holds up his hand for silence again.

“With the understanding, Professor West,” he adds, still glaring at me, “that you will report to the board of trustees once a month for the next year so that we can supervise your conduct.”

Kelsey pushes the microphone at me. I stand and approach the table.

“Understood, Chancellor,” I say, my voice hoarse.

“You have two days to rescind your resignation, Professor West,” Radcliffe says. “This hearing is officially concluded. Thank you all for your time and… so-called attention.”

Noise fills the hall as the spectators push to their feet, voices rising in animated chatter. A wall of people closes between me and Liv. I spend the next hour thanking people and accepting their congratulations.

“We just heard about Jeffrey Butler and Maggie, with some unpleasant video evidence,” Frances murmurs to me when the crowd disperses. “Her father has declined to press assault charges against you because he’s scared shitless of the publicity. Pardon my French.”

“So it’s over?”

“It’s over.” She squeezes my arm. “Welcome back, Dean.”

“Thank you, Frances. For everything.”

After the hall is almost empty, I finally turn to my wife. She’s waiting on the bench, and her smile is like the sunrise.

“I knew it,” she says, coming to hug me. “I knew it couldn’t end any other way, not for you.”

Only when my arms close around her am I able to take a deep breath.

“Are you all right?” I ask, resting my hand on her stomach.

“I’m exhilarated. Thrilled. Proud of you and proud that I was right.”

I look at her brown eyes, the thick frame of her eyelashes, the curve of her cheekbones and shape of her mouth. All those details that I treasure like air. Our history together flashes through my mind, and the truth falls into place.

“All these years, I’ve been wrong,” I tell her.

“About what?” Liv asks.

“I’m not afraid when I’m with you. I never have been. In fact, being with you gives me a courage I didn’t know I had. You show me what I can be.”

“No. I just know what you
are.
”

I lower my head to kiss her, feeling that shift inside me again, the great settling of the earth’s plates, the stars and planets rotating in harmony with a thousand feelings. Gratitude, hope, happiness, surrender. Peace.

And there is a distinct sense of freedom, like whatever bonds lashed me to the ground have suddenly broken. I feel lighter.

I tighten my arms around Liv, knowing that in years to come I’ll have to
let go
in ways I’ve never imagined. And somehow, that will be okay because my wife will always anchor my heart.