Speak Now (4 page)

“Can I pick you up?”

“I doubt it, I’m no lightweight, but you can try that tomorrow. Go around behind the building and come in from the south entrance. Less traffic and closer to several restaurants.”

Choosing to ignore Cara’s dig at the curves he found attractive, Jonathan nodded then raced for his door. His card key slid in and released the lock. He turned the knob and waited with her, forty feet or more away, until the elevator arrived, opened, and then closed, taking her out of sight. Inside his room, he slipped the key into his pocket and sighed. “Jonathan Lyman, this is much too soon and incredibly irresponsible.”

His voice reached his heart, but his heart laughed and cried, “I don’t care.”

Sun glinted against the steel and glass insurance building as Cara strode from the side door. Each step toward the parking lot
ignited doubts about her hair, her clothing—even her jewelry. As she walked across the asphalt, her beige silk pants and ivory top suddenly felt too simple, as if she’d gone for the repressed librarian effect.

Cara shook off her insecurities and smiled as Jonathan stepped from the car and hurried to meet her. The appreciation in his eyes preceded his “Wow!” by mere seconds.

“Eloquent as ever, Jonathan.”

He held the car door open for her. Just before he closed it, he leaned in and murmured, “Mmm hmm.”

She laughed as he jogged around the back of the car and slid behind the wheel. As he backed out of the parking spot, a loop on her purse caught her attention. She flipped the strap back and forth, a frown forming. “I think the leather is cracking,” she murmured to herself.

“What?”

Still absorbed in the frustration of a favorite purse wearing out before she’d had it long enough to break it in, Cara repeated herself without glancing his way. “The loop for the strap on my purse is cracking. I just don’t understand it.”

“Leather shouldn’t crack—not good leather.” He reached over and rubbed the leather between his thumb and forefinger. “Old?”

“Less than three months.”

“I’d take it back. That
looks like good leather—not cheap.” He pulled into an empty parking space on a side street.

Cara glanced around her. “Whoa… The Fiddleleaf Café? I’ve wanted to come here for ages, but they’re always packed.”

He led her to the hostess desk of the café and gave his name. As the hostess led them to their table, Jonathan said, “Perhaps you just need to call…”

Warmth tinged her cheeks, but Cara chose to ignore the slight embarrassment. “Show off.”

“A man has to try…”

A server brought a bowl of fruit and small plates as he stopped to take their drink order. Cara speared several pieces of fruit and dropped them on her plate before perusing the menu. “Have you eaten here?”

“No, but my mother likes it. She recommends the turkey wrap. She says that they actually use Turkish spices in it—cumin, sumac, and mint I believe. It comes with a…” He found the item on the menu before continuing. “—there. Red lentil soup and the salad has no lettuce—it’s more like a salsa.”

“Sounds delicious. I had thought about the Californian, but wow. It’s hard to decide now.” She peered over the menu. “What are you ordering?”

“The Turkey. I want to be able to tell Mom that I liked it—or didn’t.” He leaned forward. “Get your Californian and take a bite of my dishes. Win-win.”

As they waited for their food, Cara glanced around the restaurant,
taking a moment to watch the other diners. Servers rushed to and fro, bringing plates, removing plates, refilling water glasses, offering more fruit, and leaving tickets at tables before greeting new guests. In the corner, a strange scene played out. Cara nodded in the direction of the table. “Look over there.”

Jonathan followed her gaze. “What?”

“They’ve been like that since we got here. He’s working on that laptop, going through all those papers. She’s just chatting at him from time to time while she eats her fruit.” Understanding dawned. “Oh, look at that. Oh, that’s too cute.”

“What?”

“Look at him. He’s done. He hasn’t taken a bite since we got here.”

“So he’s a fast eater.”

She shook her head. “No, she came in just after us. He stayed for her to eat. He hasn’t said a word to her. I don’t even think he greeted her when she sat down.”

“Maybe they’re mad at each other—or he’s mad at her.”

Cara watched him for a moment and then shook her head once more. “No, I don’t think so. I don’t un—wait, he’s leaving. Look.”

The man closed his laptop and slid it into a briefcase. The papers
dropped into a file and disappeared into the case as well. He grabbed a jacket—a deep but bright blue—and stood, pulling it on. With his collarless shirt, the effect was decidedly European in Cara’s estimation. Her breath caught as he smiled at his lunch companion. His hand reached for the check. Hers covered it just before he could slide it off the table. His hand hovered as if daring her. She pulled hers back and speared another piece of cantaloupe.

A sigh escaped as Cara watched him turn, without a word, and leave. “I wish I knew what just happened.”

“Maybe he’s…” Jonathan fumbled for the right word. “What do you call people who can’t speak these days? I imagine ‘mute’ is socially incorrect now.”

“Speech impaired? I don’t know.” She pointed at him as he paid the check. “Looks to me like he can talk.” She strained to listen but couldn’t hear a word. “Did you notice his blazer and that shirt? There’s something almost European about him. Maybe he doesn’t speak English.”

Their food arrived before Jonathan could reply, something that, Cara suspected, didn’t bother him in the least. As they ate, they said little. Cara watched closely, trying to discern whether their lack of conversation had more to do with the delicious food or because their non-verbal communication proved sufficient for both of them. Never had she met anyone so eloquent without words and so comfortable without conversation.

Eventually, Jonathan set his plate aside and leaned back in his chair, his hands folded in his lap. “You are a chameleon.”

“In what way?” Cara speared another watermelon cube and cocked her head, trying to decide if such an assessment was good or bad.

“You adapt to your environment. Saturday you were elegant and festive, yesterday you were casual and carefree, and today you’re professional and a bit sophisticated.”

“So,” she amended, “my clothing is chameleon-like.”

“Your personality too, but you know that.”

Something in the way his hands shifted made her look deeply into his eyes, searching for something. She found it. “Stop it.”

“What?”

“Trying to carry on a conversation when you’d rather just ‘be.’”

Caught in actions she suspected he hadn’t truly planned, Jonathan met her eyes, guilt masking his face. “I am sorry.”

“Me too. If you won’t be you—the real you—I won’t waste my time trying to get to know you.” She looked at him more closely and smiled. “That’s not really it, is it? It was a way to try to get me going, wasn’t it? You want me to talk. What do you want to know?”

“Start with boyfriends, job, and your goals. I intend to listen and be fascinated.”

Cara speared the last bite of her salad. “Start with boyfriends? How many do you think I have?”

“My preference is for zero, but—”

“Ding, ding, ding! The man is a winner. Hand him his prize.” She chewed the salad and thought about how to answer the question. Then she saw his eyes and laughed. “You’re bad. I wasn’t offering myself as an option.”

“One must try.”
He signaled for a refill on her drink before he said, “So tell me about your previous boyfriends.”

“Well, my last boyfriend was three years ago. He dumped me after I go
t back to my seat at graduation.” At his raised eyebrows she added, “We were seated in alphabetical order. Laas then Laban.”

“In your seat?”

She tossed a cherry tomato onto his plate. “You eat it. I can’t stand the way they explode in your mouth. I think bugs must be like that. Ew.” Once he accepted the tomato, she continued. “Yep. He got back to his seat, leaned over and said, ‘It’s been a great three years. Have a good life,’ and I never heard from him again.”

“You expected a proposal.”

“We’d talked about it,” she admitted. “I didn’t expect anything then, but sometime over the summer, yeah.”

Something in his expression kept her talking. “No, there’s been no one since. There’s a mission church in Rockland that we do things with once a month
, and there’s a guy there—Matt,” Cara paused, feeling foolish for talking about other men with one she found so appealing. “I’ve always thought he was a great guy, but he seemed immune to women. Not true, though, because he got married not long ago to a girl from Wyoming or someplace like that.”

“Matt?
Hmmm… Matt. What does Matt do?”

“Welding, I think. Some kind of metal work.”

As the expression on Jonathan’s face spoke for him, Cara shook her head. “Why not? He’s a good man, worked hard to get certified and get a good job; he loves the Lord. What else really matters?”

“Let’s walk.” He paid the bill and they
strolled away from the restaurant. Occasionally his hand would take her elbow and steady her against the jostling of the crowds on the sidewalk or rest at the small of her back as he guided her around a corner, but otherwise, they walked apart.

“I am not out of his league. I think that’s a terrible thing to say.”

“I wasn’t really thinking that—”

She paused on a bench near the City Hall fountain and sat down in the shade of the trees. “But you were. I find Matt a
ttractive because of who he is, not because of his lack of position in Rockland society.” A snicker erupted. “That sounds so old-fashioned.”

“I don’t understand what you mean.”

Her eyes met his. “Not everyone can be one of
the
Lymans.”

His smile sent a ripple of emotions through her—ones she
had not prepared to experience, much less evaluate so soon. She read a new question in his eyes.

She gave him a slow smile. “You know the answer to that. It’s not nice to even ask.”

Jonathan leaned near and whispered low, “I just want to hear you say it.”

Cara’s eyes met his and held their gaze for some time. She finally
sighed and forced herself to answer him. “Okay. Yes. I find you and your personality attractive, too. Why do you think I’m here risking my job by being,” she turned to read the enormous clock on the old building. “A minimum of five minutes late from lunch?”

He stood, offering his hand, but she took it and led him to another bench—one in the sun. “I don’t want to go back yet.”

His surprise amused her. Basking in the afternoon sun, Cara leaned back on her hands as they rested on the bench, her strawberry hair spilling down her back in silky waves, crossed her ankles, and closed her eyes. She felt his eyes on her and kept silent, allowing him his observation until curiosity overcame her. She opened her eyes and smiled at him. “Will I do?”

A blush stole up Jonathan’s neck. “I’m sorry—”

“Don’t be, I have a feeling you’ve come to a flattering conclusion. I’m the antithesis of the woman you loved, so I find that remarkably complimentary.”

“How did you know?”

Her green eyes sent him a sidelong glance. “Jonathan, if you weren’t satisfied with what you saw, you wouldn’t have kept looking.”

Eyes closed again, she continued to bask in the sun. After a moment or two, she said softly, “Go ahead. It doesn’t bother me.”

After a moment’s hesitation, Jonathan swung one leg over the bench, straddling it, crossed his arms, and continued his study of the picture she presented. After another minute passed, Cara sighed, answering his unasked question. “Yes and I pay too much to keep it that way. It’s my vanity and my vice.” She paused and then smiled. “Go ahead. We’re about as public as you can get. There’s no need to worry about ‘losing our character’ as the old books would say.”

His deep chuckle sent a new slow smile to her lips, followed by a sigh as he slipped his fingers through her hair. “It’s a vanity you deserve.”

“I take it you approve.”

Clearing his throat, Jonathan returned her smile as she opened her eyes. “Let’s just say I think it’s best if I keep my hands to myself.”

She stood abruptly and glanced at the clock again. “I do need to go.”

They walked the several blocks back to his car.
With each step, she mulled his comment over in her mind. What would a hands-off relationship be like? Then again, what kind of relationship could they hope to forge in just a week? As he opened her door, Cara caught his eye, glancing first at his hand. “I know you’re right, but I wish you weren’t.”

At the Mayflower Building, Jonathan pulled into a parking place and turned off the car. Without looking at her, he sighed. “I go home at the end of the week.”

“Brilliant commentary on the obvious.”

His hands gripped the steering wheel harder, turning his knuckles white. “It’s crazy, premature, and irresponsible, but—”