Sora's Quest (32 page)

This is a battlefield at war,
he thought, and looked down at Sora's fragile form. She had lost a lot of weight from the last time he had carried her, long before the swamp. He hadn't noticed before; hadn't cared to.

Burn followed on foot. He could run almost as fast as the horse. The giant Wolfy carried Dorian's body slung over one shoulder.

Finally they entered a wide clearing in the woods, covered in low grass and pine needles. At its center was a log cabin. The horse slowed to a halt in front of the house. The building was much larger than he had expected, two stories high, dozens of windows, two or three chimneys—yet it appeared quaint and welcoming. Light shone from inside.

The Healer dismounted from the horse and whistled. She was answered immediately by the soft patter of footsteps. A small man came running around the building, the light shining off his bald head. He was old and hunched, with long goblin ears, a jutting nose and drooping eyes.

"Cameron? Take the horse into the stalls,” she directed. “Then could you heat up what remains of the pork? Our guests will be hungry.”

The man nodded hastily and made a lunge for the reins, but the Healer caught his wrist. "Cameron! Cameron, listen, take the horse into the stalls, gently, do you understand? Gently."

The man, who was obviously simple-minded, nodded solemnly and took the reins. At the same time, Burn stepped up to the side of the horse and pulled Sora from Crash's arms.

Crash was reluctant to let go. He dismounted from the horse, leaping to the ground. Then Cameron led the beast toward the stalls.

The Healer walked towards the house, opening the front door. “He was brought to me a few years ago, knocked silly from a fall off a horse,” she said over her shoulder. “Cameron survived the wound, but was never quite right after that. His family asked me to look after him. We've since become quite comfortable.”

She let her patients enter first. "Burn, take the girl down those stairs and through the first door on the right. You can place her on the wooden table.” Her eyes slid to Dorian's body, which was still slung over the mercenary's shoulder, cold and limp. “You can place him in the next room.”

Burn nodded and stepped into the house, Crash following closely.

Inside, the cabin was warm and bright; hand-woven rugs on the floor and paintings on the walls. Vases filled with wildflowers, lanterns strung on chains, a broad fireplace and ornate furniture. Obviously the Healer did quite well for herself—he wasn't surprised. Healing was a rare art and took countless years to master. Apprenticeships were hard to come by, so skilled Healers were few and far between. She probably had visitors from all over the countryside at her door, perhaps even those who lived in the foothills and mountains.

The house was cluttered; most available surfaces were covered with trinkets and candles. “Gifts from my patients,” she commented, following Crash's gaze. At the end of the front room was a short step down. They entered onto the stone floor of a large kitchen, filled with copper and brass pans that hung from assorted shelves. A massive stove. Lots of floor room.

The Healer paused here, opening her cupboards and collecting a series of glass vials filled with unidentifiable liquids. Crash was a poisons expert, but these were much the opposite—naturally brewed anesthetics, disinfectants and medication.

Then she led him back to the staircase where Burn had descended. At its base, it emptied into another hallway, this one below-ground and branched off into several rooms. They passed through an oak door, already ajar. Crash could hear the Wolfy shuffling beyond it, laying Sora out on the wooden table.

The small room was well-lit by perhaps a dozen lanterns. The walls were lined with drawers and shelves. Countless jars were packed full of herbs, roots, teas, cotton swabs, antidotes, rolls of gauze. Many of the jars were unlabeled. Several clumps of plants hung from the ceiling, drying. The assassin only recognized a few.

Burn laid Sora out on the examining table and stepped back, his face pale and drawn. Crash stared at her body as well. She was completely still,; he couldn't even tell if she was breathing. He wondered if she was already dead. She seemed smaller than he remembered, miniscule on the large table.

The Healer began removing Sora's shirt, then paused. She looked up at them. “I think the patient would appreciate some privacy. When I'm done, you can come back in and take her upstairs." She looked pointedly at the assassin. "Out. Both of you."

Crash and Burn filed out of the room silently, each at a loss for words. They sat on a bench in the hallway. Every couple of seconds they glanced at the silent door. Eventually, the Wolfy got up and started pacing. Crash watched him, his body exhausted yet filled with a nervous, twitching energy.

Finally he sat back and closed his eyes, trying to rest, though he knew it would be impossible. Every time he sat back, he saw flashes of the battle, the wraith's dark, foreboding hood, the stench of magic and blood. He shook his head, trying to clear it, but there was nothing else to think about. There were no fond memories to summon, no better times.

He drew his dagger instead, intending to clean it, but he could only stare at the blade. It was long and ornately curved, decorated with fragile filigree toward the hilt. The pummel was twisted into the form of a snake, jaw open, fangs gleaming.

He had killed countless times with this knife. The only thing he had kept from his homeland. He hesitated now, watching the light glint from its surface. Unexpectedly, he remembered that night in Sora's manor, slinking along the rafters of the ballroom, waiting for a distraction great enough to finish the job. Goddess, he had killed her father! A man who had been far from innocent, but few men truly were. He didn't judge his kills—didn't weigh their acts like a tipping scale, considering their good deeds against the bad. No, he hadn't even known the man—hadn't cared about the daughter, who tripped and fell at her own Blooming.

He had only thought about the coin, about Volcrian's hatred, about how long he could run before he was caught.

And now she would die.

What did you expect?
He had been raised as an agent of destruction.
It is what we are,
his mentor had taught.
The unseen tempest. The impartial earthquake.
Death did not judge, and neither did he.

Yet somehow, Sora was different.
I should be the one who is dead.

His lip curled, staring at the knife in disgust. He shoved it back into his belt, a silent vow twisting in his gut.
It's over,
he thought.
I'm out.

Eventually Burn's steps came to a halt. He sat down again, the bench creaking slightly under his weight. After a moment, he said very quietly, "We will need to give Dorian a proper burial."

Crash's eyes opened, their green light rekindled. He hadn't thought of the thief. The cold body in the next room might as well have been a piece of wood. Was that what Burn had been pacing about—funeral rites? "Time means nothing to the dead," he grunted. "Dorian can wait."

Burn frowned calmly. “Perhaps. But I can't."

"Then bury him yourself.”

The mercenary was silent for a long moment. “I suppose you
would
say that,” he muttered darkly. “I'm not fooled, assassin. You may think you are removed from us—that you have come to terms with your own mortality—but I still had to drag Sora out of your arms.”

Crash didn't know what to say to that.

Burn sighed softly. “After Sora is awake, then we will worry about Dorian."

Crash refused to answer, knowing for the first time that he couldn't trust his own voice. Silence was better than betraying oneself. Didn't the mercenary understand? He cared about the girl—maybe, partially, why not—but it was only because she was still alive. If she had been killed in the fight, would he have fussed over her empty body?

No, of course not. What did it even mean—to be buried? That was only a comfort to those who mourned, who grieved. No help to the ghost, no second chance for the soul.

But a tinge of guilt entered his thoughts. He had caused the thief's death, too.

He turned his face away from Burn and stared at the wall. His thoughts left a bitter taste in his mouth.
Sora is just a girl,
he thought angrily.
She will either live or die, just like anyone else.
How long was this going to take? If the Healer didn't come out soon, then he might just knock on the door and let himself in. There was nothing sacred about a healing space. He had a right to know the truth.

As he fought with himself on whether to move or not, the door opened.

The Healer was wiping her hands on a cloth, and Crash could see blood on it. His stomach did a tiny flip, though he had seen plenty of blood before. He didn't linger on the reaction.

She turned to look at them; she appeared older now, weary. “We will have to wait it out,” she said. He thought he might have heard a tremor in her voice, a slight weakness. “There's nothing more I can do. But she's young; she has a good chance at recovering. There is no infection, so that's a good sign; it's mostly blood loss. Burn, can you take her upstairs to the first bedroom on the left?"

"Of course," the Wolfy said, and went into the room immediately. Crash was too relieved to follow, though he didn't admit it to himself. A moment later Burn came out with Sora in his arms, covered in a long white sleeping gown.

The assassin stood up to go with them, but the Healer—looking far too much like Sora—gave him a firm glare. She motioned for him to come with her into the room. Crash had half a mind to ignore her, but a twinge in his side told him not to. His wounds were minor, but having a Healer nearby was a rare opportunity. So he followed her and sat down on the wooden table.

The woman shut the door and turned to him. "Take off your shirt. I'm assuming your shoulder bothers you?"

Crash didn't hesitate. He lifted his shirt to reveal the stab wound on his right shoulder, where the Panthera had landed a blow. The woman took a bottle of clear liquid and dabbed a cloth into it. She wrung it out and clamped it over the wound without warning—for good reason, too, as it burned like hell.

The gash began to foam. In amazement, he saw dirt and other toxins begin to bubble out, purged from his body. His face paled in pain, but he didn't make a sound. She did this a few more times to other small scratches, her eyes traveling over his scar, then she took out a needle and a thin length of white thread.

"This is a special kind of silk—I grow it myself. It's made from silkworms and plant fibers. It will dissolve on its own in about three weeks," she said, mindlessly threading the needle. Crash nodded, looking down at her eerily familiar face, watching her deft hands. Sora had thinner fingers, he observed.

Then she knelt toward his shoulder, ready to pierce the flesh. She glanced up at him. “This might...tickle just a bit.”

Crash nodded wryly, appreciating her humor. Then the needle pierced his skin, once again without warning. He hardly felt it. He watched her hands at work, weaving in and out of the wound, sewing it together inch by precious inch. She was careful and thorough, taking her time, her face drawn with concentration.

After twenty minutes, the Healer finished. Crash flexed his shoulder, feeling the gash strain against the stitches. He was mildly surprised. She was better than he had originally thought—far better than he had seen before, and he had visited quite a few Healers. Some could hardly mix cold medicine, working out of horse stalls or other unsavory places. No, this woman was quite experienced.

Crash looked back at her. Her blue eyes gazed at him steadily, a small smile on her lips. Then she spoke abruptly. "So does that tattoo on your arm mean anything," she asked, "or is it just a decoration?"

Crash raised an eyebrow. He glanced down at the green snake wrapped around his forearm, coiling up his wrist, twin fangs dripping poison. Usually he had his shirt on, so it was covered. "My namesake," he murmured.

"Viper?"

"Yes."

"Ah. I thought so." The woman grinned. "An assassin indeed."

Crash's eyes flashed, immediately suspicious. But the Healer only laughed, deep and throaty. She sounded so unlike Sora that he began to relax.

"It's obvious," she answered the unspoken question. "Your kind always have those silly tattoos."

He was absolutely shocked. He had been impressed by the woman's knowledge of the Cat's Eye, but now he was speechless. Not many came close enough to an assassin to learn such things. What else did she know? And could he trust her?

"Now tell me, Viper—or Crash, as you seem to prefer," she said, and handed him back his shirt. Then she turned and stared him in the eye, her expression far from friendly. "How do you know my daughter?"

Chapter 17

Sora was floating in a black space.

Every now and then, the murmur of voices brushed the edge of her hearing, but they were mere echoes, small stars in the milky backdrop of her mind. Peace flowed through her. For the first time in weeks, she felt completely safe.

Then the darkness lightened to a shade of gray and finally to a soft white. She began to lose that fragile peace, fraying at the seams like delicate lace. Her mind stirred, rippling. Disgruntled, Sora finally accepted that she was waking up. With a small groan, she welcomed back her senses with reluctant arms.

She opened her eyes and looked above her. At first she thought she was still dreaming. A white, flat surface drifted overhead, too low and flat to be clouds. A ceiling. Her heart jolted, remembering the Catlins, her frantic race through the swamp. Had she finally been captured? Where were her companions? She listened, half expecting a vicious beast to tower above her bed.

She tried to sit up, but it was impossible. Her body felt as weak and limp as a rag doll. She couldn't even raise her hand.

She tried to remember where she was, but it was like losing her place in a book, becoming lost in the middle of a conversation.

Something is missing.
She glanced around the room again, at the hardwood floors, scuffed and warped over countless years, small knots raised in the wood. At the crosshatch window on the opposing wall, the glimpse of tall pine trees beyond. Rafters overhead. A vaulted ceiling, like the inside of a wood cabin.

It took her a long moment, but when the memories finally came back, they were crystal-clear, full of color. She let out another groan, and this time felt the pressure of a bandage against her ribs. Her wound ached with each breath, each twitch of her muscles. She placed a gentle hand on it, wincing.

Was she really still alive? Her last waking thoughts had been of the acceptance of death. Sora raised her hands in front of her face, an action that took a peculiar amount of effort. Each limb felt leaden, full of sand. Finally her fingers were in sight and she blinked in surprise. She had been planning to pinch herself, but this was almost as good.
Goddess! My fingernails are clean!
Then something else occurred to her.
Who cleaned them?

"Welcome back," a voice said from somewhere beyond her line of sight.

Sora didn't have to see the person to know who it was. A weak smile spread across her lips.

"You had us worried for a while. You even made an impression on Crash." Burn loomed over her bed and grinned down at her. From this position, he seemed impossibly tall, far too large for the room. He, too, was clean and wearing fresh clothes.

Where were they? How much time had passed?

"It's good to see you," she mumbled. Her lips felt numb, clumsy. She could feel her wound strain against her stomach muscles. It was a strange, unexpected sensation.

"How are you feeling?" the mercenary asked.

"All right," she murmured. "Just a little hard to...move." She tried to sit up, but a jolt of pain cut through her. She winced.

Burn frowned in concern. “Well I can tell you one thing,” he said somberly. “You're stuffed full of pain killers. I'm surprised you can even feel the bed.”

Sora grinned wryly. She doubted any amount of poppy extract could numb this wound.

A new voice entered the conversation. "You were badly injured. You shouldn't move."

Burn turned to the doorway, his expression not exactly welcoming. "Finished sulking, have you? Pay your respects to our little heroine. She saved our lives."

"I know," was the sour response.

Sora wasn't particularly thrilled by Crash's tone. He sounded in a bad mood.
Not that I'd recognize him in a good mood,
she thought. Still, she didn't want him to leave. It was comforting to have familiar faces nearby—no matter how ornery.

But wasn't someone missing? Where was the fourth member of their party, the one she had chatted with the most? Dorian?

For a moment she waited—maybe he would come in next? Her mind dug back through the memories, shifting and searching. She saw the wraith, dissolving like mist. The fierce wind. The pain in her gut. The images were foggy, as though she had read of them, secondhand, in a book.

When had she seen Dorian last? Back in the fields....The wraith had attacked them, yes, she remembered now....Its sword had plunged downwards. The thief had thrown himself in front of Burn. Blood had sprayed the grass.

She suddenly felt sick. Her heart plummeted. She almost choked. "Dorian!" she gasped. "Where is he? What happened?"

Burn stared down at her.

She met his eyes, trying to stay calm. "Tell me," she said. It sounded hysterical, even to her own ears.

His expression turned dark, like a light snuffing out. Those long, delicate ears twitched. The silence grew. Anxiety and fear clawed at her. Dorian...
he can't...he can't possibly be....

"He's gone, Sora," the Wolfy whispered.

"G-gone?" she echoed, searching for any other explanation. "What do you mean, gone? Gone where? I don't...." But she did understand. She remembered what had provoked her necklace, what had caused her to act. She didn't want Burn to continue; saying the words out loud would make it more real, more inescapable.

Should I be crying?
she wondered. She tried to summon tears. Tried to raise some sort of response—a scream, a tantrum. But she felt numb. Full of cotton.

“Burn....” she said quietly, scared by her own lack of response.

His giant hand reached down and stroked her head. “Give it time,” he said.

Sora closed her eyes, trying to forget the screech of the wraith, the look on Dorian's face before he died, the way his body had fallen to the ground.

When she opened her eyes again, Burn was gone. She didn't know how much time had passed, certainly no more than a minute. She turned her head, trying to see around the room, but it was hard to move her stiff neck.

"We buried him a short ways from here," Crash said, causing her a jolt of surprise. She thought he had gone. “We were waiting for you, but you have been unconscious for more than a week.”

His shadow fell across the bed. She looked up at the assassin, curious. Why was he here? He was clothed in his usual black, though the shirt and pants were patched and clean. Her eyes followed the scar from his shirt collar up to his face.

"Is that supposed to make me feel better?" she said, a wry quirk to her mouth.

"No," was his blank reply. "The body was rotting."

She glared up at the assassin, irritated by his tone, at his ambivalence.
Heartless bastard. I wish he'd just go away.

"Is that all he was?" she asked, averting her eyes and speaking to the wall. "A rotting body? I'm sure that was a huge inconvenience." Her voice choked slightly. "He died trying to save us."

Silence. Then, "You're the one who saved us," Crash murmured.

His words didn't mean as much as they should have.
But I couldn't save Dorian. I hesitated. It's my fault.
Something cracked, and Sora's eyes filled with tears. It was all her fault. Dorian might still be alive if she had acted quicker.

"There's nothing more you could have done,” Crash said, as though reading her mind. His eyes drifted over her face, watching her closely. She hated that look. It made her feel vulnerable, naked, weak and exposed.

“You say that,” Sora murmured. “But I should have acted quicker.”

“If you have to blame anyone, blame Volcrian,” the assassin replied.

Or I could blame you,
Sora thought bitterly, but she kept it to herself. No, this wasn't the assassin's fault. None of them could fight the wraith. Only her Cat's Eye. And she had waited too long.

"But what was that...thing?” she asked, a shudder passing through her. She could still feel its presence, a menacing shadow hiding between the floorboards, just out of sight. Her hand went to her necklace, remembering how she had destroyed it, trying to take comfort. “Was it a...a ghost? A demon?"

"Volcrian has many powerful spells,” Crash finally said. “He uses blood to create monsters, servants. Most use animal sacrifices...but there are spells that require human blood, too. They call it black-blooded. Any spell that requires one of the races is forbidden...especially those that raise the dead.”

Sora frowned. “Raise the dead?”

“Yes....” Crash's gaze dropped to the sheets. “That wraith was alive, once. In some ways, it still was when it attacked us. Perhaps the Cat's Eye is not as useful against such things.” Crash met her eyes. “He's growing desperate.”

Sora's eyes were wide. “So...so that wraith was a dead soul....”

“Brought back from the underworld. Yes.”

“That's...that's terrifying.” She blinked the tears from her eyes, remembering the fierce battle, Dorian's final moments on the field. A sudden fire lit within her—hatred. It was like a knife in her gut, far worse than her father's resentment or her fear of Crash. She knew it with absolute certainty. She hated Volcrian, loathed him, wanted him dead. She hoped that he would never find them. That he would perish somewhere in the mountains, lost and starving, eaten alive by wolves.

She shook her head. It was sickening, consuming. She didn't want to feel it, but the hatred was rock-solid in her gut.

"I could have done something," she finally said, unable to hold back the bitterness. She needed to confess. “I should have acted sooner. Saved him. It was in my power.” Her throat closed painfully.

Then Crash did something unexpected.

He sat down on the bed, his hand landing close to her face, gazing down at her intently. For reasons unknown, Sora felt her breath catch, her chest constrict peculiarly. She wanted to look toward the wall, the ceiling, anywhere but those moss-green depths. It was like staring into a forest pond, algae grown across its surface, the glimmer of her own reflection.

"Listen to me,” Crash said quietly. His voice was soft and rich, and her heart fluttered at the sound of it. “Only the future matters, Sora. Guilt is an illusion, a way of lingering on the past. You can't change what happened." He held her eyes, carving himself into her mind. "You are alive. That is what you should worry about. Your thoughts can torture you—but not the dead. They've moved on.” And he touched her head softly, as though proving a point. “Let it go.”

Sora couldn't speak—frankly, was having trouble breathing. Poignant words for an assassin, but they were not reassuring. Let what go? Her guilt? Her regret? Impossible. Dorian was gone forever—how was she supposed to let
that
go?

And what would an assassin know about grief? He didn't seem to care about killing her father, about the countless other victims he had murdered. Or did he think she had forgotten? She choked suddenly, full of anger, of inexpressible sorrow.

She closed her eyes, trying to hide her pain; she didn't want him to see her anymore, exposed and vulnerable. But one tear escaped and ran down her cheek.

His finger traced its path across her skin.

Then there was a knock at the door.

Crash's head snapped up. He stood up quickly. The door opened as he moved away from the bed. Sora watched him disappear out of her line of sight, and for a moment, she didn't want him to leave....

"Good morning, Crash," a woman's voice said from somewhere out of sight.

The assassin didn't respond, but she could feel it when he left the room. There was a gentle click as the door shut.

Footsteps approached her bed. Sora knew she was about to lay eyes on the person who had nursed her back to health. She fidgeted a little nervously.

The woman came into view and stood in the exact spot where Crash had been a moment before. Sora looked up. Her eyes widened. She was momentarily breathless.

"Hello," the woman said softly.

Sora couldn't speak.
By the Wind Goddess!
She looked up at the woman's face and felt like she was staring into a mirror. Aside from the subtle marks of age, the woman looked almost exactly like her. In fact, the resemblance was so uncanny, she could have been Sora's older sister, aunt, or maybe even....

No, it's impossible!

"Who...who are you?" she choked out. Once again she felt close to tears, but for an entirely different reason. This was too much.

"Sora," the woman said slowly. “I think you know who I am."

She shook her head, unable to admit it even to herself.

“My name is Lorianne. I am a Healer in the village. And...this might sound strange, but...I think I am your mother.”

My mother?

Sora wasn't sure what she felt—disbelief, to be sure. Maybe a little nausea.

“You can't be my mother,” she blurted out. The words tripped over her tongue. She could barely regain her breath. “My mother is gone...I mean, she left me a long time ago...it's impossible.”

“Impossible for a girl who wears a Cat's Eye?”