Something Rich and Strange: Selected Stories (13 page)

At the least a broken arm or leg, Jesse knew, and tried to think of an injury that would make things all right, like a concussion so that the ranger forgot what had happened, or the ranger hurting bad enough that shock made him forget. Jesse tried not to think about the snapped bone being in the back or neck.

The van’s back doors closed from within, and the vehicle turned onto the logging road. The siren was off but the beacon drenched the woods red. The woman ranger scoured the hillside with binoculars, sweeping without pause over where Jesse was. Another green park service truck drove up, two more rangers spilling out. Then Sheriff Arrowood’s car, silent as the ambulance.

The sun lay behind Balsam Mountain now, and Jesse knew waiting any longer would only make it harder. He moved in a stupor of exhaustion, feet stumbling over roots and rocks, swaying like a drunk. When he got far enough, he’d be able to come down the ridge, ascend the narrow gorge mouth. But Jesse was so tired he didn’t know how he could go any farther without resting. His knees grated bone on bone, popping and crackling each time they bent or twisted. He panted and wheezed and imagined his lungs an accordion that never unfolded enough.

Old and a fool
. That’s what the ranger had said. An old man no doubt. His body told him so every morning when he awoke. The liniment he applied to his joints and muscles made him think of himself as a creaky rust-corroded machine that must be oiled and warmed up before it could sputter to life. Maybe he was a fool after all, he acknowledged, for who other than a fool could have gotten into such a fix.

Jesse found a felled oak and sat down, a mistake because he couldn’t imagine summoning the energy to rise. He looked through the trees. Sheriff Arrowood’s car was gone, but the truck and jeep were still there. He didn’t see but one person and knew the others searched the woods for him. A crow cawed farther up the ridge. Then no other sound, not even the wind. Jesse took the knapsack and pitched it into the thick woods below, watched it tumble out of sight. A waste, but he couldn’t risk their searching his house. He thought about tossing the pistol as well but the gun had belonged to his father, his father’s father before that. Besides, if they found it in his house that was no proof it was the pistol the ranger had seen. They had no proof of anything really. Even his being in the gorge was just the ranger’s word against his. If he could get back to the house.

Night fell fast now, darkness webbing the gaps between tree trunks and branches. Below, high-beam flashlights flickered on. Jesse remembered two weeks after his great-aunt’s burial. Graham Sutherland had come out of the gorge shaking and chalk-faced, not able to tell what had happened until Jesse’s father gave him a draught of whiskey. Graham had been fishing near the old homestead and glimpsed something on the far bank, there for just a moment. Though a sunny spring afternoon, the weather in the gorge had suddenly turned cold and damp. Graham had seen her then, moving through the trees toward him, her arms outstretched. Beseeching me to come to her, Graham had told them. Not speaking, but letting that cold and damp touch my very bones so I’d feel what she felt. She didn’t say it out loud, maybe couldn’t, but she wanted me to stay down there with her. She didn’t want to be alone.

Jesse walked on, not stopping until he found a place where he could make his descent. A flashlight moved below him, its holder merged with the dark. The light bobbed as if on a river’s current, a river running uphill all the way to the iron gate that marked the end of park service land. Then the light swung around, made its swaying way back down the logging road. Someone shouted and the disparate lights gathered like sparks returning to their source. Headlights and engines came to life, and two sets of red taillights dimmed and soon disappeared.

Jesse made his way down the slope, his body slantways, one hand close to the ground in case he slipped. Low branches slapped his face. Once on level land he let minutes pass, listening for footsteps or a cough on the logging road, someone left behind to trick him into coming out. No moon shown but a few stars had settled overhead, enough light for him to make out a human form.

Jesse moved quietly up the logging road. Get back in the house and you’ll be all right, he told himself. He came to the iron gate and slipped under. It struck him only then that someone might be waiting at his house. He went to the left and stopped where a barbed-wire fence marked the pasture edge. The house lights were still off, like he’d left them. Jesse’s hand touched a strand of sagging barbed wire and he felt a vague reassurance in its being there, its familiarity. He was about to move closer when he heard a truck, soon saw its yellow beams crossing Sampson Ridge. As soon as the pickup pulled into the driveway, the porch light came on. Sheriff Arrowood was on the porch, one of Jesse’s shirts in his hand. Two men got out of the pickup and opened the tailgate. Bloodhounds leaped and tumbled from the truck bed, whining as the men gathered their leashes. He had to get back into the gorge, and quick, but his legs were suddenly stiff and unyielding as iron stobs. It’s just the fear, Jesse told himself. He clasped one of the fence’s rusty barbs and squeezed until pain reconnected his mind and body.

Jesse followed the land’s downward tilt, crossed back under the gate. The logging road leveled out and Jesse saw the outline of the homestead’s ruined chimney. As he came closer, the chimney solidified, grew darker than the dark around it, as if an unlit passageway into some greater darkness.

Jesse took the .32-20 from his pocket and let the pistol’s weight settle in his hand. If they caught him with it, that was just more trouble. Throw it so far they won’t find it, he told himself, because there’s prints on it. He turned toward the woods and heaved the pistol, almost falling with the effort. The gun went only a few feet before thunking solidly against a tree, landing close to the logging road if not on it. There was no time to find the pistol, though, because the hounds were at the gorge head now, flashlights dipping and rising behind them. He could tell by the hounds’ cries that they were already on his trail.

Jesse stepped into the creek, hoping that doing so might cause the dogs to lose his scent. If it worked, he could circle back and find the gun. What sparse light the stars had offered was snuffed out as the creek left the road and entered the woods. Jesse bumped against the banks, stumbled into deeper pockets of water that drenched his pants as well as his boots and socks. He fell and something tore in his shoulder.

But it worked. There was soon a confusion of barks and howls, the flashlights no longer following him but instead sweeping the woods from one still point. Jesse stepped out of the creek and sat down. He was shivering, his mind off plumb, every thought tilting toward panic. As he poured water from the boots, Jesse remembered his prints led directly from his house to the ginseng patch. They had ways of matching boots and their prints, and not just a certain foot size and make. He’d seen on a TV show how they could even match the worn part of the sole to a print. Jesse stuffed the socks inside the boots and threw them at the dark. Like the pistol they didn’t go far before hitting something solid.

It took him a long time to find the old logging road, and even when he was finally on it he was so disoriented that he wasn’t sure which direction to go. Jesse walked a while and came to a park campground, which meant he’d guessed wrong. He turned around and walked the other way. It felt like years had passed before he finally made it back to the homestead. A campfire now glowed and sparked between the homestead and the iron gate, men hunting Jesse huddled around it. The pistol lay somewhere near the men, perhaps found already. Several of the hounds barked, impatient to get back onto the trail, but the searchers had evidently decided to wait till morning to continue. Though Jesse was too far away to hear them, he knew they talked to help pass the time. They probably had food with them, perhaps coffee as well. Jesse realized he was thirsty and thought about going back to the creek for some water, but he was too tired.

Dew wet his bare feet as he passed the far edge of the homestead and then to the woods’ edge where the ginseng was. He sat down, and in a few minutes felt the night’s chill envelop him. A frost warning, the radio had said. He thought of how his great-aunt had taken off her clothes and how, despite the scientific explanation, it seemed to Jesse a final abdication of everything she had once been.

He looked toward the eastern sky. It seemed he’d been running a week’s worth of nights, but he saw the stars hadn’t begun to pale. The first pink smudges on the far ridge line were a while away, perhaps hours. The night would linger long enough for what would or would not come. He waited.

H
is eyes sweep the clearing cut through the woods that is all the evidence that a dirt road lies beneath the snow. It had been raining that morning in Charlotte. Only when the bus groaned and sputtered into the high mountains above Lenoir did the first snowflakes flutter against the windshield like moths, sticking for a moment, then swept away by the wipers.

He swings the duffel bag across his back, wincing when the helmet’s hard curve bangs his shoulder blade. He steps off the two-lane hardtop that leads to Boone, walks across Middlefork Bridge, the pool below muddy, its edges iced, then onto the snow-hidden road that leads home. His right hand clasps the jacket lapels tight against his neck as he begins the two-mile walk up the mountain.

It is good to see snow, good to be cold again. He wonders how many times he’s made this walk in his head the last two years. Six hundred, seven hundred? Those nights he had lain in his tent, his bare chest covered with sweat, listening to the loud insect whir, the chatter of sniper fire and the occasional mortar round not far enough away, on those nights the only way he’d been able to fall asleep was to imagine he was here at the foot of Dismal Mountain. He knew the ocean had streams the same way land did.

He’d imagine one drop of water that had made its way from his home in North Carolina to the green waters of the South Pacific. He would follow that drop of water to its source, back around the tip of South America to the Gulf of Mexico, then up the Mississippi to the Ohio, then east to the New River, then Middlefork, then here at the foot of Dismal Mountain where the creek that began on his family’s land became part of a river. In his mind he would pass his uncle’s farmhouse, crossing over the creek the road followed all the way up the mountain. Sometimes in those walking dreams he would step off the dirt road and fish, for on those long, tropical nights he always imagined it was summer and he sweated as he walked or fished up the mountain toward home. He never made it all the way back. Somewhere between what his grandfather called the Boone toll road and his family’s farmhouse, he would fall asleep.

Snowflakes cling to his lashes. He shakes them free and clasps the jacket collar tighter around his throat. It is getting dark and he looks at his wrist, forgetting his watch is gone, lost somewhere between the Philippines and North Carolina. He passes the meadow where he and his Uncle Roy used to rabbit hunt, then his uncle’s farmhouse, the tractor that has not been used since June rusting in the barn. No light comes from the windows, his aunt probably staying with her daughter until warm weather.

He steps onto the bridge, beneath him the slow, deep run that always held a trout. The snow muffles his footsteps. The wind is dying, not even a whisper now, and the world is as quiet as the moments after the Japanese sniper fired at him from the tree. He remembers the man he shot and killed, the man who would have killed him had he aimed six inches lower.

He had not heard the shot, only felt the blow as the bullet hit his helmet. He fell to the ground, his face looking up straight into the face in the tree. It was as if they were underwater, everything silent and in slow motion. He watched the Japanese soldier eject the spent shell, take a bullet from his ammo belt. Then he raised his own rifle, still dazed, the rifle wavering in his hand as he emptied his clip. The Japanese soldier let the rifle slide from his hands, then fell through the branches, the thud as he hit the ground the first sound he’d heard since the bullet hit his helmet. He turned the Japanese soldier over and saw a small, silver cross dangling from a chain. He was surprised. Peterson, the medic, who’d been to college, claimed the Japanese only worshipped their emperor. But he should have known better than believe Peterson, who didn’t even believe in God.

The front of the uniform was soaked with blood but the Japanese soldier was still alive. He was talking, his words strange and rapid like bursts of machine gun fire, but he could tell the man was saying the same thing, over and over. Maybe the man was cursing him for taking his life. But he didn’t think that was it. There was no tone of anger or defiance. Perhaps the Japanese soldier was forgiving him, maybe even asking forgiveness for trying to kill him.

By this time the rest of the squad was beside them. Peterson kneeled and jerked open the soldier’s shirt and peered in.

“What’s he saying?” he asked Peterson.

“Hell if I know,” Peterson replied, standing up. “He probably wants water. Most dying men do.”

“I’ll go back to camp and get some,” he said.

“Don’t bother, Hampton,” Peterson said. “He’ll be dead by the time you get back.”

And he was.

“Here,” Peterson said, raising a palm toward him that held the cross. “Your kill. If you don’t want it Vincetti does.”

He opened his hand and let the silver slide into his palm.

“I didn’t check his pockets or his teeth,” Peterson said. “You can do that but I’d hurry up. He’s already starting to stink.”

Peterson and the rest of the squad walked across the clearing to where a canopy of palm trees offered more shade.

He stayed, kneeling beside the Japanese soldier, his back to the other men. The man’s mouth was closed. He wedged his fingers between the teeth and pried the man’s mouth open enough to slip the cross under the man’s rigid tongue. He closed the mouth and joined the rest of the squad.