Sno Ho (14 page)
Authors: Ethan Day
"I'm afraid if you leave right now, I'll never see you again,"
Wade grumbled as his finger tapped against his bicep.
I smiled at him and shook my head at such nonsense as I walked over to him. "You don't strike me as the type of guy who'd allow something like that to happen." I tossed my coat over the arm of the couch and wrapped my hands around his neck, leaning in for a kiss. I took note of the fact that while 124
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he did kiss me back, his arms stayed folded and tightly secure to his body.
"Damn it, Boone," Wade whispered as we separated. "I don't want to be something else you never finish."
"Um, ouch!" I said, laughing a little despite the stinging effect his words had on me. "Well, I don't want to be your next goal—that new thing you decide you have to have, or the next hurdle you pursue with all your gold medal might."
Wade smiled and let his arms fall to his sides. "We certainly have that whole 'guilt your boyfriend into getting your own way' thing down." I laughed as he ran his hands up my arms. "Would it help at all if I said I honestly think I've fallen for you?"
"I'm not leaving because I'm afraid we don't like each other enough." I leaned into him, my nose in the nape of his neck as I took a deep breath. "I need to know it's real and tactile. That we haven't just gotten carried away, lost in the fact that we most obviously crave one another. I need to know it runs deeper than what we have on the surface."
"Well, how the hell are we supposed to discover that if you run away, Boone? Hell, I miss you already, and you haven't even left yet."
"Fuck, Wade, please. I don't want you to be another guy I waste a few more years of my life on, discovering after the fact that it was all heat and no substance."
"Jesus!" Wade pushed me back a bit. "Who's the silver tongued devil now?"
"That came out wrong, I'm sorry. I didn't mean it like..."
"I think you know damn well that isn't the case here."
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"I think your right, but can you please just give me six months?"
"I can't see you for six months?" He stood there looking stunned, like I'd just slapped him across the face.
"No, I'm saying that, just lets...do the long distance thing for six months. If we both still feel the same way at that point we can talk about trying something...more permanent."
"One month," Wade said, causing me to laugh.
"This isn't a negotiation," I said, kissing his chin.
"Three?"
"Six months," I said, giving him my no B.S. look. "It's not like it's winter 24/7 here and I only work three days a week at the hospital. We can see each other every week if we want.
New Mexico isn't that far away."
"When are you going to write if we're wasting all our time traveling?"
I looked over his face, loving him for actually caring about something like that. "I'll squeeze it in somehow."
"I think this is stupid," Wade said in a 'for the record' way.
I started to snuggle back into him. "I like being your stupid."
"Fine," Wade said, taking me by the shoulders and holding me back. "I'll agree to six months if you'll agree to moving here—with me," he added, as if I might try to pull some kind of fast one on him, "at the end of those six months."
I shook my head, trying not to laugh over the fact that he still seemed to be under the pig-headed impression this was a negotiation. I nodded in agreement, knowing that there'd be no power on this earth that could keep me away if I was still 126
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this crazy about him by then. Wade smiled like he was the one who'd just come out on top in this little arrangement. I decided not to ruin it by telling him I had no issue with having him on top.
Within moments our mouths were once again together, and Wade was swallowing my body up in his arms. It wasn't long after, that my hand was down the front of his jeans massaging his hard-on. We were just beginning to get the fires really boiling when the shuttle began honking its horn—
announcing its untimely arrival. Wade didn't let go immediately, holding me to him while we continued to make out. He hadn't showered and the stubble from his chin had been deliciously digging into the skin around my mouth. I'd probably have a full-on erection the entire trip home, but I couldn't seem to make myself give a damn.
Wade tried to run off and throw on shoes and a shirt so he could help me out to the van, but I told him I could manage.
He helped me on with my coat, fastening the buttons for me as we continued to kiss. When he finally pulled away Wade looked over my face before finally letting out a little sigh.
"What about those?" Wade nudged his head toward my skis which were propped up in the corner.
I smiled at him and shrugged. "Dude, you so totally still owe me some lessons."
Wade let out a deep groan. "You do actually want me to continue to like you, right?"
"As if you have a choice," I said, grinning from ear to ear as I leaned into his neck and inhaled deeply.
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The horn went off a second time and Wade gave me that wink as he pulled away. The man sure knew how to work a wink, I thought, feeling my legs turn to jelly as Wade opened the door, allowing me to stumble out into the cold air, bags in tow.
The driver hopped out to help toss the bags into the back.
I looked back this time, as I felt the van begin to pull away from Wade's house. He was waving good bye from the front door, and I kept my eyes plastered to him until the shuttle rounded the corner. I turned back around facing forward in the seat. I could feel the stinging behind my eyes begin as the flurry of emotions swept through my body. I felt the tear begin to run down my cheek, and I started to laugh, deliriously happy by the intensity with which I was already missing him. I silently prayed that it would never go away.
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About the author
Ethan Day lives in Missouri. He is currently single but always looking for that special someone that makes his heart skip a beat. He was the youngest of four children and the only boy.
After a few stints in college, he eventually signed up for a Creative Writing course. He took the class because there were no tests. For once his scholastic laziness paid off, and he found an outlet for all the fantasies running amuck in his head. It was love at first write, and he's been doing it off and on ever since.
Visit Ethan on the internet at:
www.ethandayonline.com
groups.yahoo.com/group/EthanDay/
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gay, lesbian, bisexual and transgender community and those questioning their sexual orientation and gender identity. It is an outgrowth of the Gay & Lesbian National Hotline, which began in 1996 and now is a primary program of The glbt National Help Center. It offers several different programs including two national hotlines that help members of the glbt community talk about the important issues that they are facing in their lives. It helps end the isolation that many people feel, by providing a safe environment on the phone or via the internet to discuss issues that people can't talk about anywhere else. The glbt National Help Center also helps other organizations build the infrastructure they need to provide strong support to our community at the local level.
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