Slice (The Elledge Family #1) (33 page)

“You two are so weird. Just talk to one another. Staring is weird.” She locked her door. “Do you want to eat and watch a movie first?”

“I don't know what I want.”

“I know that.” Lydia turned the movie on and smiled. “You will have to say something to him one day you know that don't you?”

“I said hi.”

“I mean you will have to talk to him about everything or you will never truly heal.”

“Thank you Dr. Phil.” I bit into the pepperoni pizza. “I guess we can start The Hunger Games.”

“Good, I was hoping that would be your answer.”

The movie flew by. My hormones took control every time someone died and I cried like a newborn baby most of the movie. I barely touched my food and half way through the best scene I vomited it up by the end. “I will never watch that again.”

“You are pregnant.”

“I am not.” I paused. “I don't know.”

“Well, the movie is over and you need to go ahead and fold on the test. I can't wait anymore and I think I know the results. Step in there and pee on all these sticks...”

“Do you have a cup?”

“I don't.” She stood up. “I will go into the battlefield and get one if you promise to still be awake when I return?”

“Scout's honor, I will be here waiting.”

She stepped out of the room and I read the instructions. My life could be about to change for the better or worst. If I was not pregnant, there was a voice screaming inside of my head that said to leave him alone. And then there was still a voice screaming if I was. I twiddled with my fingers. My eyes were glued to the door for five minutes. Did she have to make the cups or something? Finally, she returned and locked the door.

“Go piss on the stick.”

“What took you so long?”

“Your ex-boyfriend wanted to come talk. I told him no. And then he cursed me and I cursed him and Mark stepped in and cursed us both. Got to love having brothers.” She handed me the foam cup and shrugged her shoulders. “He said that he would be here in ten minutes rather I wanted him in here or not. So get the test over with and we can decide what we are going to do.”

“Dear God,” I walked into her bathroom and looked myself in the mirror. My hands shook. I peed and then washed my hands. I dipped three tests into the cup and set them down. My feet were unsteady as I walked back to the room. “I can't read the test.”

“It hasn't been one minute yet.”

“I know. I just want you to read them.”

“Are you sure?”

“Yes,” I whispered. “Everything can change in the next minute Lydia.”

“I know.” She hugged me. “Just breath.”

There was a huge urge for me to cry. I fanned my face and then placed my hand on my head. At the moment I couldn’t picture Lucas being with me. I could only see red for him and even more for Persephone. “Go check it.”

“Okay, just breathe. You should know that no matter what this test says I am here for you.” Lydia hugged me and smiled. “And if you aren’t pregnant you still need to go down there and talk to him.” She turned on her heel and walked into the bathroom. Everything around me slowed. Time, my breaths even the audio from the television seemed to drag as she grabbed the napkin that held the test. She peered up at me and nodded. Her eyes welled as a small smiled covered her face. “I'm an auntie!”

“You're lying!” I shrieked. I shot up from the bed and made my way over to her quickly.

“I am honest. Every last test says the same thing… One word PREGNANT.”

My tears ran over leaking onto my shirt like someone had turned on the faucet. Lydia wrapped her arms around me. “I'm pregnant!” I yelped in a mix of emotions, fear, relief and happiness.

“Go tell him, please.” She wiped her face. “You need to.”

“I don't know if I can do that.”

“You can.” Lydia opened the door. “And you need to do it now.”

      
How could an eighteen-year-old have more sense than me? I exhaled. The last thing I wanted to do was to look him in the face and take him back. It shouldn’t be that easy for him. I took the test from her and walked down the stairs. “Luke.” I said.

His eyes met mine and he paused. “Cypress.”

“We should talk.” I sobbed. “Like now.”

He was up the stairs and in front of me before I could think. My hands shook and I was certain that my face was a complete red mess. “What’s the matter?”

Mark sat uncomfortably on the edge of his seat and stared at Lydia. “What did you do?”

“I have done nothing,” she moved as she wiped more tears from her face. “But you are an asshole Lucas. I’ve told you this so many times. But I mean it. She loves you so much and you still found a way to fuck things up.”

Lucas blatantly ignored everything that she had said. His emerald eyes were locked on mine. “Cypress, what is it? What's wrong love?”

“I don’t know how to say it.” I placed the pregnancy test in his hand and covered my mouth to hide another sob. Everything that had been locked up for the past month wanted to escape and it had become hard to hold it back.

Lucas’ eyes widened. “What is this?” He flipped the test over and then looked at Lydia. “Whose is this?”

“Why are you looking at me? You would be the last person on my mind if it were mine.” Lydia snapped as she pushed passed him. “Asshole.”

“Mine.” I said. “It's mine.”

“Oh fuck,” he dropped the test and pulled me closer to him. His tatted arms wrapped around my body and it felt warm and right. It seemed as if the world had gone back to normal for a split moment. “You're pregnant?” he whispered.

“Yes. I took ten tests.”

“Oh baby.”

“Little sis, let's get some ice cream. And leave them to talk.”

Lucas

The door closed to Lydia's bright room and she looked at me. There is so much pain in her I could barely stand to look. “I don't know where to start,” I said. “I can only apologize.”

“I am stuck in between happy and petrified.” Cypress sniffled.

“I know.”

“Can I trust you?”

“Yes, I swear to it.”

“I mean about everything. I am about to bring a child in this world. And now everything looks so weird. I'm sick because I have a child growing inside of me. I am no longer one person. I will never be one person again.”

“What can I do?”

“Start from the top… what happened with her?”

“Persephone?”

“Yes.”

“She came to my office and she was naked. I didn't want her. But I wanted her to leave me alone.”

“So you fucked her?”

“That was weakness...” I whispered. “But I fixed it. She will never be around again. I swear.”

“How do you know?”

“I can't tell you.”

“You better start talking.” She snapped.

“I threatened her.” The truth was exposed. “I told her not to come around us anymore.”

“With what? What did you threaten her with?”

“A knife Cypress.”

“You pulled a knife on her?”

“Yes,” I paused. “I didn't know what else would work on her.

She burst into laughter. “I can't believe you did that to her. She must have been scared?”

“She was terrified. I just wanted her to go.”

“You know she could have you thrown in jail for that?”

“She wouldn't. I would kill her.”

“That shit scares me.” She touched her forehead. “You sound so sincere when you say that you will kill someone. That is not how it is supposed to go. You have anger issues.”

“I know.”

“Have you ever killed anyone?”

I leaned against the wall. “Do you want the truth?”

“Tell me everything you think I should know now.”

“I think about it frequently. But I have never killed anyone. If I wanted to kill someone I would just do it.” It was not entirely a lie. I had learned to control myself ever since Luther. The playing in the blood thing had been an overkill. I had to lay low. Unless I wanted to really spend the rest of my life behind bars.

“Don't… look its we now. We have a baby.”

“'You need to set up appointments and start your vitamins.”

“Don't just yet, please. Give me some time to get used to us again. We can't just hop on this ride with no ticket.”

“I love you Cypress. I can't take another night alone. I have been grieving and self-medicating trying to find a way to numb it. There is nothing that can heal the pain. I am sorry. I made you suffer and you didn't deserve it. You are more than right. I will do whatever I have to do to make sure that it never happens again. But I cannot take another night away from you.”

I touched her shoulder gently and she moved back “Lucas.”

“I'm sorry.” My voice pleaded with her. “Please I'm sorry.” I pressed my hands to my face. “Love me back.” I felt like there was nothing else in the world that I needed more than this. I needed her to love me back.

“Lucas.”

“Try please, I can't make my love for you die. I can't. I've tried everything to try and get over you and everything I do leads me back to you. I am better with you. I am in love with you. I want you. So you have to love me back.”

“I can't stop it.” Cypress yelled. “Do you not think that I love you back!” Her tiny hands collided with my chest and she pushed me away from her.

“Then show me…” I slapped my face. The sting of the pain was nothing compared to what I had been through without her. A kill wasn't even enough to make losing her okay. “I've been killing myself slowly for your touch. I just want you to touch me… Please.” My hands pleaded for me as the soothed her face caught her tears.

She turned her back towards me. “You cheated on me and I was there for you in every way.”
      
“I know.”

I brought her close to me and the familiar scent of her overwhelmed me. My hands explored her body, remembering how everything used to be. My eyes closed and everything returned to the state of normalcy. I touched her through her leggings. My fingers traced her labia and her head fell back onto my shoulder. I turned her around to face me. “Never again, I swear.” I whispered.

“Okay,” her voice was breathy and lost in whatever was about to happen. I guided her to the bed, knocking everything to the floor and she laid back. It felt like everything was new to me again. I hadn't felt her beneath me in more than a month and I wanted to savor everything about her. “You are so beautiful.” I admired her smile and slid her leggings off and threw them to the ground.

“Lucas… tell me again.”

“You are beautiful.” I whispered. I slid my hands into her underwear, pushing a finger pass her lips into her fully. She was so tight. I sucked my finger and the taste of her was sweet. I pushed two fingers into her and look down on her as she bucked her hips off of the bed. My dick flinched at her reaction and I withdrew removing her shirt and releasing her breast. They were larger from the last time I had seen her.

“Your tits are huge.” I added with a smirk.

“I know they are like two huge balloons. Be careful… They're...”

I bit down on her nipple and watched her mouth form an O as she ran her fingers through my hair. I circled my tongue around the tip of her nipple lightly and relished in the moans that escaped from her. I gripped her other one and pinched it between my fingers. A sharp sigh escaped from her as she whispered a stream of profanity. I missed her dirty mouth. I slapped her thighs playfully and made my way to her mouth. Her tongue crashed into my mouth as our mouths locked together. She gripped my hair, sending a pleasurable pain down my back. “Did you miss me?”

“More than you will ever know.” She answered.

“Good.” I moaned. Her hands eagerly tried to set my dick free. I unbuckled my pants and pushed them to the floor. My dick ached to be inside of her. “I'll be gentle.”

“Don't be.” Cypress added.

I lifted her leg up and turned my head at her. “My wish is your command.” I pushed into her slowly. She was so tight there was a chance two strokes could get me there from anticipation. I relished the moment as her face went from calm to painstakingly filled with pleasure. I thrust into her slow grinding my hips deep into her. The sound of our skin slapping against each other echoed throughout the rooms and then her moans and shrieks of pleasure joined. She pulled my hair again and it added to the buildup that had started. I flipped her over so that she was on top and gripped her breast. She rotated her hips on me slowly anchoring herself in my chest and closed my eyes in pleasure. I loved the way she felt on me. She had total control, I was her slave and all she had to do was command me. Cypress had her eyes closed and her mouth open as she ground on me slowly rubbing her clit against me. I sat up with her still in my lap and placed my hands on her back. She gasped as I filled her deeper and pounded into her with no remorse.

She cloaked her arms around my neck and I couldn't stop. My strokes became longer and her pants came with each one. She was there. I could feel her whole body as it surrendered to me fully. I laid her back on the bed and anchored myself on my knees going deeper as she finally found her release and watched her come in a shrill scream as usual. A grin emerged on my face and I bit my lip. “I missed that sound.” I dove into her relentlessly the sweat that grazed her body now covered mine and we were filthy and I loved every second of. My back twitched at every entry of her until the tingle made its way to my dick and finally I came inside of her. I thrust into her a few more times getting everything that was left in me, out. And she watched with a goofy smile on her face. “What?”