Authors: Faith Baldwin
“No, no,” cried Lynn suddenly. Childishly, her hands were at
her ears. “No, don't tell meâanything more!”
“But I think I must,” Sarah said.
“No, itâisn't necessary.” Lynn found herself on her feet, standing and facing Dwight. “Why?” she asked, and again, “
Why
?”
He said soothingly, as one speaks to a child, “Darling, you would never have known, from me. What Sarah's motive isâ” He shrugged. But he knew her motive. He said, “Don't look at me like that. It happened to long agoâit was over, so long ago. We were young and lonely andâ”
“Butâ
Sarah
?” She couldn't understand it, couldn't reconcile it. Sarah, her mother's friend, Sarah who had taken her in, given her her chance, been kinder to her than Heaven. She said brokenly, “If it had been anyone else butâSarahâI wouldn't have cared, why should I? I'm not, after all, a child.” Nor was she; at that moment she was entirely adult. “But to treat Sarahâlike that!” She turned from him definitely, went down on her knees by the side of Sarah's chair and looked up into a face that was no longer calm, into eyes no longer steady. “It must have hurt you terribly to tell me. Iâoh, Sarah, how
could
he?”
Her head was on Sarah's knees. The older woman touched the satin-soft hair with her long capable hand. She said, shaken, “Don't cry for me, Lynn. As David says, it was over long ago. If you had cared for him I should have been silent, you would never have known. But you don't care for him, Lynn; you love Tom. I had to show you how little you care forâDavid. If you had cared you wouldn't have turned to me, thought first of me.”
Dwight asked, after a moment, “Lynn, will you come hereâto me?”
She rose unsteadily and walked a few steps toward him. His hands went out to her, pleading, eager, ardent. She shrank away perceptibly. These were the hands that had known Sarah, intimately and in love; the hands that had betrayed her. Sarah was her friend. She cried out, “Don't touch meâdon't
dare
to touch me!”
Empty, defeated, his hands dropped to his sides again. He said sharply, “Lynn, you are being very foolish. Granted that I
treated Sarah badly, many years ago; it has been, I thought, forgiven, has been, I hoped, forgotten. We have been good friends since.” He appealed to the other woman, “Is that not so, Sarah?”
“I have been your friend,” she answered evenly.
“Sheâshe bears me no grudge. Look, Lynn, you know, you must have known that there have been other women in my life. You are modern enough, woman enough to understand that. I'm not a boy, to bring you first love, first passion.” He stumbled over that a little, loathing, fearing that verity. “But I bring you something worth so much more. Last love, love that will endure. For the rest of my life.”And, as she made no movement towards him, as her young, soft face hardened to a premature aging and her eyes remained hostile, he cried out helplessly, “Oh, for God's sake, Lynnâthis is beyond all reason! Toâto repudiate me, for something which happened almost before you were born, for a moral scrupleâ”
He stopped, a little appalled. He had belonged so utterly to her generation a short time before. Not any longer. She said, “It's not a moral scruple. It's
Sarah
. Can't you see that makes all the difference? When I think, when I try to realizeâ” She fled back to the other woman, eyes warm for her, lips warm, arms about her. “Sarah, you've been so
unhappy
!”
“Not for a long time,” Sarah told her. “And now perhaps you'd better go, David.”
He looked at Lynn, but her eyes were averted from his own. He put his hand on the doorknob. He said, “I'll come back.”
No one spoke. The door opened under the pressure of his fingers. Tom, racing past, down the hall, toward the elevators, stopped, wheeled, and flung himself into the room. He said, “Oh, no, you don't! You stay here!”
There was a moment of utmost confusion. Sarah stiffened a little in her chair and sighed as a man sighs who is in the last extremity of fatigue. Lynn cried, “
Tom
!Ӊincredulously. He looked like nothing on earth.
“We'll have this out!” he said.
“You'll excuse me,” Dwight commented coolly, “if I say I don't care to stayâany longer.”
“You'll stay,” Tom contradicted. He was not quite himself, Lynn thought, her heart contracting. He's been drinking. He had not been, save of the heady wine of violence.
“Look here, you,” said Tom, and addressed Dwight. “Somehow, you found out that there was something going on at the bank. I don't know how; it doesn't signify. So then you went to Rawlson, and got all the dope you needed. And you've made money on his tip. You'll make more, I guess. That doesn't concern me; I don't care how much jack you make or how you make it. What does concern me isâLynn. Lynn thought I'd tipped someone off and was getting my whack. Well, I didn't. You did. I got it out of Rawlson.” He looked with satisfaction at his knuckles. They, too, were bruised. “I'll say he worked for his money! He didn't tell meâuntil I made him. But before you goâyou seem to be in a hurryâperhaps you'll be good enough to tell Lynn and Miss Dennet that I didn't have anything to do with this stock manipulation.”
Dwight said clearly, “No, you didn't. You're too much of a fool. I'm not.”
The door shut behind him.
“Well!” said Tom, and looked from Lynn to Sarah, who were staring at him in silence. “Well, that's that!” He felt idiotic. His fine high fervor had passed. He was let down. “I must look like the devil,” he said, after a moment.
The spell that had been on Lynn's limbs relaxed and released her and she flashed into life. She sprang to her feet and ran to him, putting up her arms. “Tom are you
hurt?
Did he hurt you?”
“Who? Bob? Not as much as I hurt him.” Tom told her grinning. “Hey, what are you crying for? I'm all right,” he assured her.
“I'm not crying, I'm laughing. Yes, I am crying, but just because I'm happy.” She was close in his arms now, she was saying, “Tom, please forgive me,
please
â”
Sarah got out of her chair and walked stiffly toward the door. She was terribly stooped. She said dimly, “Everything's all right now.”
But they did not hear her; nor her going.
Tom put Lynn in a chair and managed to occupy the same chair himself. She said, “All these days and nights, I've been waiting; hopingâhoping you'd come back, Tom. I was ready to take you back, if only you'd come, even if you had done it. I'd gotten so I didn't care. Butâbut I would have believed you, if only you'd told me again.”
“I was an ass,” he agreed amiably, “flinging myself out like that. Of course everything looked pretty black, against me. Dwight? How the hell he caught onâ”
She said, and it hurt her terribly to say it, “It was my fault. Down there in the country, I told him. I put it to himâas a caseâa hypothetical caseâto see what he'd think. Butâ” She stopped, remembering.
“Then howâ” asked Tom, bewildered.
“He asked Sarah later, quite casually, if you had any close friends in the bank. He'd known I'd meant you, of course. Iâadmitted it. Sarah told him, yes, you went around with Bob Rawlson. The rest was easy.”
“Too damned easy. He's cleaned up; there's no doubt of that. If it gets about it won't be healthy for him around here. I mean, people will sort of give him the Bronx cheer And Rawlson will lose his job.”
“He's going abroadâDavid Dwight, I mean.”
“He'd better. And stay there too. The climate should agree with him.” He shook her, a very little. “Youâdon't care, do you? About his going, I mean? You see, I saw youâat that Jap place tonight.”
“Tom, you didn't! No, I don't care. I never want to see him again. Tom, were you really at the Cherry Blossom? You saw me?”
“With these old eyes. I was up there with Erickson, supervising the broadcast. I came back to town and went right to Sarah. I wasâcrazy, I tell you. I thoughtâall sorts of things. Sarah headed me off. She questioned me on the bank business, sent me to find Bob and get the truth out of him, told me, that is, to find out if he'd blabbed to anyone. So I did. I came back. I couldn't help it, no matter how late it was, to tell her. You could
have knocked me over with a coupling pin when Bob did come across, spitting teeth and bloodâoh, sorry,” he said hastily, as Lynn shivered. “I saw Dwight's car outside. Spoke to his man. Saw him coming out of here. Came in, and found youâand Sarah. Boy, she's a corker,” said Tom sincerely, “If it hadn't been for Sarahâ”
“Oh, poor Sarah!” said Lynn, remembering.
“WhyâHere, not going to spill over again, are you?”
She would not tell him why. She never told him.
“Tom,” she asked, “can you ever forgive meâfor getting you into this mess? For telling David Dwight?” She said suddenly, in perfectly honest astonishment. “And I thought I was such a good business woman, so closemouthed; so loyal. But I was just a fool, because I thought him kind and wise, thought I could trust him.”
“He was wise all right!” Tom grinned. It didn't matter. Nothing mattered. Lynn wasâhis own.
“Butâhow can you
trust
me?” she wailed. “Tom, I'll go to Mr. Norton, I'll explain, I'll tell him everything.”
“Lord, don't! He might offer me my job back,” said Tom, “and I'm nuts about my present one.”
“But you do forgive meâfor doubting you?”
“Sure I do,” he said uncomfortably. “Anyone would have doubted me. Talk about circumstantial evidence. And it was a lot my fault, not coming back and making you see reason. With a club if necessary. Treat 'em rough, that's my motto from now on. I'm good at thatâand at making people see reason,” he told her gaily and caressed gingerly his bruised knuckles.
Lynn said, “Mr. Norton should know. Rawlson's there âandâ”
“Forget it,” ordered Tom. “How much do you love me?”
“So much that I'll marry you, any time you want!” she told him.
She was not uncertain of retaining her position: she trusted Sarah to see her over that difficulty; and besides, the bank no longer talked of letting the married women employees go since business had grown better.
“There's room for us both here, till the lease runs out.” She looked around the little room and tried unsuccessfully to fit Tom and his great height and breadth into it as a permanent picture. She laughed shakily.
“You're so darned
big
,” she complained, “but we'll manage. We'll go on working, both of us. And saving. And some day, we'll get a place of our own.”
“You're darned right, we will. We'll get married tomorrow,” he exulted, “and look here, Lynn, you needn't be worried about my job. I mean, I'm making good. I've been talking to âem up there about some of my ideas. They're going to let me take a crack at the research laboratories. I've got a keen slant on things, I thinkâI've been working on an idea, it has to do with sending out more than one program over the same wire. It would save âem money. Theyâthey've been darned decent to me. The sky's the limit if I hit on anything that will make for progress. I'll work! And gosh, Lynn, how I love it!”
“I know you do. Sometimes, I think, more than you do me.”
“It's different,” he said absently. Her heart contracted again. She would always share him with his work; he had, in a genuine sense, the creative mind, the mind that is curious and constructive and eager and visionary. She thought proudly, I wouldn't have him any different.
“We'll get married tomorrow! I have to wire home and see if they'll come on for it. I think they will. Mother and Father, I mean; I couldn't be married without them,” she told him.
“Then we'll wait,” he agreed, “but not long. Mother and Fatherâthat sounds pretty darned good to meâThey must be swell, Lynn, or they'd never had youâand Sarahâshe's family too. And Hank and Slimâwe'll have a regular wedding party,” he planned boyishly. He looked down at her and grinned, “Going to ask Dwight?” he wanted to know.
She shook her head.
“He wouldn't come,” she said soberly, “even if I did; as if I'd ask him, afterâeverything.”
“I suppose he wouldn'tââWedding bells are ringing for Lynn-ie but not for Lynnie and me,'” sang Tom, off-key. “See
here, youâyou didn't fall for him, just a little bit, did you?”
She said, “No,” definitely. She added, “Although I did go out with him, Tom, quite a lot afterâafter we quarreled. I wasâlonely.”
“Sure, I understand. But he was crazy about you,” said Tom. “You needn't deny it!”
She did not. She said nothing. She was to make no comment on the subject of David Dwight as long as she lived. Not even, when a year or more had passed and Tom, picking up a newspaper, chortled, “Well here's a hell of a noteâyour old boy friend Dwight gets himself all married to an English show girl, aged nineteen. How's that? Feeling sort of low, Lynn?”