Skins (3 page)

‘What about the women?'

‘They're me sisters.'

Manning turned to him and pursed his lips. They were black at the corners.

‘They taken?'

‘Jansen's got one of them.'

‘And the other one?'

‘She's married.'

January 1886

I want to speak to you. To tell you what happened after you left. I had a daughter. Called Mary, after you. I heard you died somewhere in Sydney. I had lost you before then though. I wish we could go back to the island. We didn't know that it would change everything. Since then the years have stretched thinly like a rubber band pulled tight. The days are shorter and harder. I want to spring back to the beginning.

I am alone. Except for George. He is my fourth husband. He never comes into my room. He listens on the landing. There is no one left. Our sisters, Henrietta and Caroline, married and left with their husbands. I have not heard of them for many years now. And our parents and our brothers are dead.

Do you remember the day we sailed? When I close my eyes I hear the swell of the sea slapping the side of the boat as the breeze pushes us along. I see too the long dark tentacles of cloud stretching across the sky and smothering our sun.

Middle Island 1835, Dorothea Newell

Dorothea knew it would be safer on the mainland than on some island in the middle of nowhere. Not that it made any difference. She and her sister Mary would have to do what everyone else did.

She saw how every time the swell rolled around the point and broke over the wreck of the
Mountaineer
, the sea claimed a little more of the damaged vessel. She felt heavy with dread at the thought of leaving the narrow beach, defined by smooth, steep rock on either side, in a small whaleboat. The natives had been friendly, showing them the freshwater lake behind the sandhill and how to dig for the root of an edible reed. But Captain Jansen wanted to leave. He said there were too many of them for the whaleboat to make it to the Sound. They would leave for an island where there was a sealer's camp. It was to the east not far from the coast. Jansen said the sealer had a large whaleboat and supplies and he could help them return to the Sound. Dorothea watched his mouth open and close as he spoke. She felt like a wooden doll that was being worked by an unseen hand. Her sister too was stultified by fear. They watched the men load the whaleboat with casks of water and what was left of the hard biscuit. The kegs of flour and brandy that had been taken from the wreck before the tide came in were placed in the middle and slightly to the front of the boat for balance. Two men went back up the beach for the sail, which had been their shelter in the corner of the bay. She and her sister were told to get in. They helped each other. The sail was pulled up the mast and they rowed past the steep headland and out into the open sea where the canvas caught the wind.

The boat slid into the deep troughs of the swell. It was like being in a valley of the sea where at the bottom there was no horizon. Dorothea's stomach felt as though it was full of foam. She wondered if the whaleboat would come up the other side before a wave curled over the stern and pulled them in. After a while she closed her eyes, feeling the moisture seep into her skin. If the sea chose to take her, would she die from the cold or would she have to drown? The boat came up the other side and her eyes opened and fixed on a rock somewhere along that hazy line that separated the sea from the sky. She realised that in three days of sailing she had barely moved except when they hauled up on the beach at night. The rock loomed larger. It was in the middle of a strip of grey land. There was a white beach to one side. The whiteness was bright after so much blue and grey.

Dorothea took the rough hand of the young man without looking at him. She held her skirts above her ankles and clambered over the side onto hard sand. Her fingers were stiff from clutching the rough timber of the boat and it was an effort to straighten her legs. She tried to moisten her lips with her tongue but it stuck to her teeth. Her sister stumbled as she was helped from the boat. Dorothea took her arm to help her and to steady herself. They both shivered as they walked a little way up the beach. Mary started to weep hot tears that drew lines down the salty veneer of her face. She glanced over her shoulder at the black man by the boat. His stare was steady, his eyes blank but hard beneath his heavy brow. She looked to the younger man and saw the sickly smile in his eyes as they shifted with excitement from her to her sister. She had never seen anything like them before: the big man with his shiny black skull and broad frame draped in animal skins, and the young one, lank hair falling to his shoulders and strips of trousers flapping around his ankles. Her eyes watered and she looked away, blinking against the shimmering figures that moved across the sand. She squeezed her sister's hand but her grip had lost its strength.

Mary began to breathe quickly.

‘I need something to drink.'

Dorothea released her. She looked into her sister's face seeing the sweat on her forehead even though they faced the wind. Exhaustion was smudged beneath her eyes. The black man had his back to them, talking to Jansen. When she approached, Jansen draped his arm across her shoulders.

‘My love,' he sniggered.

‘Is there any water? My sister is poorly.' Her voice was flat.

She could feel the sealer's dark eyes upon her. He smelt like a fox.

‘Follow the edge of the rock. There's a well at the back.'

He pointed to the corner of the beach where the sandhill sloped into a low ridge towards the granite. A clump of wattle grew there and behind it was stubby bush, coloured red and gold and green.

Although they couldn't see the camp from the beach, they could make out a track around the wattle where thin gold leaves blanketed the ground. They followed his directions, keeping to the edge of the granite as it went inland. The bush was on their left and grey-black lumpy rock striped with shallow gullies on their right. Their feet trampled dried-up plants that hadn't survived the summer and dry yellow lichen which clung tenaciously to life at the base of the granite. Just when they were beginning to think the track led nowhere, they glimpsed something through the trees and caught the familiar smell of a smouldering hearth. A gap in the wattle turned into a path to a large timber and stone hut, which was built on the edge of a thicket of tall paperbark trees. They came to a wall and followed it around to the other side where they were surprised to discover that attached to the building was a shelter like a verandah which opened out into the clearing. Bedrolls and piles of skins were kept underneath it. A door at one end led to a kitchen. At the other end was an entrance to a storeroom that contained barrels and skins. From the rafters hung dead animals: wallabies, geese and a large lizard. A big paperbark tree and a tall eucalypt with a straight smooth trunk sheltered the clearing. Beyond both trees the ground sloped sharply upwards. It was the sandhill that hid the hut from the eyes of anyone on the beach. It was a well-built hut, better than their house at the Sound. And it was so sheltered. Not a whisper of wind stirred below, although the tops of the trees shook now and then with the occasional gust.

They remembered the sealer had said the well was around the back. From where they had been standing on the beach, he must have meant the side of the hut that faced inland. So they walked around the hut, alongside the kitchen wall and then to the stone fireplace and chimney that jutted out from the corner of the south-facing wall and into the paperbark thicket. A path of hardened black sand wove in and out of the pale trunks of the trees and through them they glimpsed the ring of granite rocks at the end of it. They lifted the wooden cover. Leaves of the canopy above were reflected in the well's still depths.

The water was soft and icy in their cupped hands. So sweet, it trickled down the sides of their mouths and wetted the fronts of their gowns. Mary splashed her face and tried to rub the salt from her skin. A rush of wind rustled the leaves above. There was a muffled booming sound of distant surf crashing on rock, and the haunting, echoing call of a bronze-wing pigeon. Dorothea undid her bonnet and her shawl. Her clothes felt oily and damp. She took the pail from her sister and filled it as full as she had the strength to carry, then tipped it over her head. Gasping, she grinned at Mary through a dripping veil, her thick brown hair loosened and falling about her face. She handed her sister the pail.

‘Tis cold,' said Mary but took it anyway.

Although their features were similar, Mary was slighter in build and her hair was dark. They were both thin, their skin drawn tightly across their cheekbones. When they were soaked, Dorothea noticed a track leading through the trees and followed it into the sunlight. The track led them to the granite rock without going back to the hut. It took them further south past another small clearing to their left where there was a dome-shaped dwelling and the charred remains of a small fire. There was also a small garden enclosed by a brush fence. Sheltered from view, they lay down to rest. The heat of the rock radiated through their skin and into their chilled aching bones. They gave in to it. Soon the silence was broken only by their gentle breathing, the scurrying of little lizards through the debris at the base of the rock, and the insistent but intermittent buzz of an insect.

‘Dorothea.'

As the sound left Mary's mouth it seemed to linger in the air for a moment.

‘Mmm.'

‘What are we going to do?'

Mary rolled onto her side and looked at her sister who lay on her back, eyes closed to the sun.

‘Don't know.'

‘How are we going to get back?'

‘Don't know.' Dorothea sighed and sat up, blinking as her eyes adjusted to the brightness of the afternoon light.

‘He's not going to take us.'

‘Who?' asked Dorothea.

‘The sealer.'

Dorothea shrugged and said: ‘Perhaps there'll be a trader.'

‘That could be months.'

‘There'll be ships that pass here.'

‘Do you think so?'

Dorothea paused and took a deep breath in an attempt to stave off a sick feeling at the bottom of her stomach. ‘We'll get back to the Sound,' she said.

‘In that boat?'

‘Look, the thing is we're here. We didn't drown. We have each other. Jem's with us and you have Matthew.'

‘He's a savage.'

‘Who? Your husband?' She smiled briefly.

‘No, that man, the sealer.'

‘They're all savages,' muttered Dorothea.

Mary sighed and looked down at the rock, flicking the pale green lichen with her fingernail.

‘Matthew's alright. At least he doesn't hit me.'

A pigeon burst noisily from the undergrowth. They both jumped.

Dorothea watched her sister as she lowered her head onto her knees and she remembered the night Matthew had come to their house at the Sound. He called out from the doorway that he had bread and cheese and grog. From her place by the fire she had wondered what the occasion was. She came into the room for entertaining, pushing aside the piece of canvas that hung in the doorway. Mother was sitting unsteadily on her stool, as she seemed to do more often, scattering snuff over her knees. Matthew was standing inside the door, jiggling the coins in his pocket. He said he had money for a gown. Father took the bottle from him and broke the bread and cheese. He filled two glasses with glowing amber and they swallowed together. She fetched Mary and Henrietta and they stood with their backs against the wall. He would choose Mary.