"I'd like two eggs, scrambled, bacon, hash browns, and a large orange juice." "What kind of toast?" "White. No, make that wheat." Chloe hesitated, trying to decide one last thing, then plunged ahead. "And a side order of pancakes. Please." "What?" she demanded when she noticed Kate and Julia smirking at her. "You must have some serious emergency to need all of that," Kate offered. "I'm hungry." "And you ordered to prove it," Julia quipped. True, but since she had sworn off even so much as speaking to another man again after the debacle last night, what did fat thighs matter anyway? This morning there wasn't a trace left of the woman from last night. Sensible Chloe had returned with her demure clothes and straight hair, the brush of freckles no longer covered up by makeup. If only she could wipe away her indiscretion in the hotel bathroom as easily. Well, she conceded, maybe not wipe away everything. Her body still tingled when she remembered the way the stranger had touched her. His hands on her body. But she remembered as well the sheer embarrassed horror she had felt when the hotel's maintenance man and several women crowded through the door. Women definitely didn't like being kept from the ladies' room. She shook her head. The waitress took Chloe's plastic menu, secured it in the crook of her arm, then smiled, pad in one hand, her miniature pencil posed to print the next order. Julia ordered toast and coffee, her gold charm bracelet jangling against the Formica tabletop, her nearly waist-length black hair pulled back into a stylishly sleek ponytail. Of the three best friends, Julia was the true beauty. Kate was cute with her froth of curls and hazel eyes. Chloe knew that she was plain in a respectable, squeaky-clean way. Kate glanced at her menu. "I'll have the heart-shaped pancakes, with strawberry syrup." "Off the kids' menu?" the waitress asked, surprised. Julia laughed. "No, off the sappy She's in Love menu." "So sue me," Kate shot back with a very-much-in-love smile as the waitress left. Julia laughed. "No need. You're allowed to be sappy in love." "Encouraged to be, actually," Chloe added. Kate sighed dreamily. "But enough about me. We have an emergency to discuss. Chloe, spill." Chloe drew a deep breath, wondering for half a heartbeat if this was the sort of thing she shouldn't tell anyone, including her best friends. But then she chided herself and launched into a detailed, monotone, reporterlike explanation and thorough analysis of how she felt after she failed the quiz. She recounted the feeling that she couldn't spell sex appeal much less have any. "You're saying," Julia asked, trying to understand, "that after you failed the Sexy! quiz, you decided you were going to be sexy?" Chloe hung her head. "Yes." "And that's the emergency?" "Yes. No. Well, not exactly." "This should be good." Chloe hesitated. Could she really say the words out loud? "It's not good. It's horrible. It's ... I ... I nearlyhad-sexwithastranger." Kate blinked, her coffee cup clattering in the saucer when she nearly dropped it. Julia's mouth dropped open. "Did you say what I think you said?" Chloe leaned forward, wrinkled her nose, and made a drawn out, melodramatic sound of dismay. "Yes," she moaned. "When?" Kate demanded. "Last night." "Last night? Where?" Julia was confused. "I thought you were going to the Hilton for the Heart Association reception." "I was." "Was? So you didn't go?" "Not exactly." She winced. "But I got close." Julia sat back. "Good Lord, what are you talking about?" Pressing her eyes closed, Chloe gathered her thoughts, then plunged ahead with her story. She told her friends about the unfamiliar need to be sexy. Explained about getting dressed, driving to the hotel, sitting in the car. She mentioned the wind, running into the man, falling. Then she added the last part about how she ended up in the hotel bathroom. On a sink. With a stranger. Julia went very still. "In a bathroom? Was it the same bathroom they found some man in?" "That would be my guess." "Chloe!" Julia and Kate chimed together, leaning close with wildly wicked gleams in their eyes. "You were the woman in the bathroom with some man?" Kate gasped. "It's a pretty nice bathroom," Chloe said with an apologetic shrug. "Can you believe it?" Julia stated, impressed. "Our little Chloe has done something that has all the tongues in town wagging." "Thank God they don't know it's her," Kate added. "Always Miss Practicality," Julia announced. "Someone has to be. And you know why this happened, don't you? She finally rebelled." Julia and Kate exchanged a glance, then said in unison, " 'Thank your lucky stars you were born plain-looking, Chloe love. Your gift is being smart and sensible. Don't ever let that desert you.' " Kate shook her head and smiled with a deep, caring love for her friend of more than two decades. "Sounds to me our little Chloe finally proved her grandmother wrong." Julia scoffed. "If the woman weren't already deadâ" All three made the sign of the cross. "âthen she should be shot." "Stop, stop. Grandmother loved me. She kept me after my mother diedâ" Julia and Kate sighed, then Julia continued the story they all knew so well. "She raised you, supported you, loved you after your father disappeared. Which reminds me, now that your father has found you again all these years later, is he ever going to move out of your house?" "Julia, my father is no trouble. I'm glad he's staying with me." "Fine, fine, not a word against Regina Sinclair or Richard Maybry. Besides, your grandmother also said that men 'lie, cheat, and leave.' I happen to agree with her on that." "Julia!" Chloe and Kate exclaimed. Julia didn't pay them any mind. She smiled and leaned forward. "Tell us every little detail about last night. What's his name? What does he look like? Are you going to see him again?" Chloe winced again, then answered the questions in the order they were presented. "I don't know. Dark hair, dark eyes. When I was dashing out the door; I didn't say goodbye, much less ask for another date. In fact, I left so fast that I forgot my purseâor rather your purse, Julia. I'll get you a new one." "I'm not worried about the purse." Julia smoothed her already smooth hair with her delicate hand, her perfect nails glittering like bright pink jewels. "I'm just trying to understand. Are you telling us you nearly had sex with a stranger for no other reason than you wanted to have sex?" Chloe knew she couldn't lie, no matter how distasteful it was. "Yes. I mean, it just hit me. I wanted to have sex. Though not with just any man. With that man. Something about the way he looked at me, or maybe it was the way his body protected mine from the wind. Or maybe because he cleaned sand and grit out of my arms and knees." She pulled back her long sleeves and held up her arms as proof, exhibiting the angry scrapes. Kate and Julia ewwed appropriately. "It was like I let go and didn't have to think because I didn't know his name and he didn't know mine and I'd never see him again." Chloe hung her head. "There it is." Julia banged her jeweled hand on the table. "Brava!" Chloe's head came up. "What?" "Good job. Though I hope you were on the verge of pulling out a condom for the main event." "I don't carry condoms!" "Then you better start if this is going to become a habit. It's a big mistake if you don't. Oh, and maybe you should borrow some of those sexy sex products that Kate used on that segment of Getting Real the day she decided to go crazy herself and be sexy." Julia tilted her head in thought. "There must be something in the air." Kate blushed, though she looked more than a little pleased with herselfâor perhaps she was just pleased with the outcome of that disastrous show. As well she should be. She ended up with the love of her life. "This is not going to become a habit!" Chloe blurted. "In fact it will never, I repeat never, happen again. There will be no sex products, and there certainly will be no big mistake!" Julia's gaze danced wickedly. "Speaking of big . . . did you get far enough along to find out if he was, you know, big?" Kate bit her lip to keep from laughing. Chloe blinked, her mouth opening and closing, unable to find words to respond. Julia and Kate glanced at each other, then laughed out loud. "She's back," they stated in unison. "What's that supposed to mean?" Julia patted her hand. "Just that our sweet Goody Two-shoes has returned, every trace of wild woman gone." "Exactly," Chloe stated. "Every trace is gone." And it was true. Her well-ordered world had returned to its normal orbit. She liked order. She liked lists. She liked knowing she had her world under control. And she wasn't about to throw all that away for a few minutes of fleeting sexual satisfaction with a man who had rugged good looks and strong hands that had drifted over her skin as if he had touched her many times before. A shimmer of longing ran through her at the memory. Maybe if she saw him just one more time . . . Absolutely not. She nodded firmly, making her feel in more control already. It was always that way when she was with the girls. It had been Kate and Julia who had taken her under their wings after her mother died. The state had sent her to live with her grandmother, a wonderful but exacting woman who had loved her with a rigid discipline. After Regina Sinclair died, she had left Chloe her house, a sense of self-worth, and a strict code of ethics. That was a year ago, her vivacious grandmother's sudden death leaving her saddened and surprised to be without her. But Chloe hadn't been alone for long when the father she had never really known had had a heart attack. The hospital had called her at her father's request, and as soon as he was discharged, he had moved in with her. As he had recovered his health during the past six months, they had lurched along, trying to find common ground. He was a charming man, wonderful and happy. But she didn't know how to bridge the polite distance that stood between them. She worried about him, and while she didn't know him that well, she felt a deep yearning to have him in her life. "Well," Julia said, breaking the silence. "Chloe has confessed her delicious sins, we have cheered her on, but now we have no choice but to get to the office. Trey Tanner should be there anytime now." They paid the bill, then hurried across the street to the low brick building that housed KTEX TV. Oversized satellite dishes that had yet to be replaced by smaller, newer ones beckoned in the parking lot like concave moons. A billboard with Kate's likeness ran along the side of the building. Getting Real with Kate had become a success. Ratings had been good. They were on their way back to regaining their standing. Or so Chloe had thought. She wondered if there was something Julia wasn't telling her. "Julia, you didn't answer my e-mail regarding this Trey Tanner," Chloe said. "He's only here to analyze the station, right? He's not like someone from that horrible Prescott Media who takes obscene pleasure in gobbling up stations that have hit rough spots?" Security buzzed them into the building. Because the station was small, they had to enter directly into the ware-houselike space that housed the main set. Julia pressed her finger to her lips unnecessarily. Which made Chloe's heart step up its beat. What was going on? By the time they had made it through another doorway and they could talk again, Chloe felt a low bead of panic start to build. Julia turned to Chloe and Kate, her expression professional and businesslike. "I need this to go well." The seriousness of her tone instantly got their attention. "Is something wrong, Jules?" Kate asked. "Is the station okay?" Julia scoffed, but the lightness was forced. Chloe's panic grew. "Of course everything is okay," Julia added with a strained smile. "I just felt it necessary to bring in an outside opinion. And I've heard great things about Trey Tanner." "I've never heard of him," Kate said. "Well"âJulia shifted her weightâ"not many people have. But he comes highly recommended. I would appreciate it if both of you would sit in on the meeting. With my father gone, you're the only two people I trust. I'll meet you in the conference room." Abruptly Julia turned and headed toward her office, her stiletto heels clicking against the tile. Kate and Chloe exchanged a glance. "I thought things around here were getting better," Kate said. "They are." Or were they? The Boudreaux family let her run the station, but they had always kept the books themselves. "I guess we should go in and meet this Trey Tanner." "I'll meet you there," Kate said. Chloe headed down the hall, stopping briefly in her own office to store her purse and retrieve a pen and a pad of paper. Then she made her way to the conference room. But when she turned the handle and glanced through the top portion of the door that was made of glass, her heart went still, her blood froze in her veins, and she thought maybe, just maybe, she was going to pass out on the floor. "Oh, my God," she whispered.
THREE
She couldn't breathe. "Surely not," she said. "It can't be." Two men stood in the conference room, talking, their backs to her. They both had dark hair and large builds. But one of them made her think of the man from the Hilton bathroom. "Please, please, please no," she pleaded softly. "Please no what?" Julia asked, coming up behind her. Kate arrived next, glancing at her watch. "I like a man who believes in being on time. Trey Tanner gets points from me. Who's with him?" The two men turned around, and Chloe's knees nearly buckled. The stranger she had nearly had sex with stood there with a quiet ease. "Yum," Julia stated. "They're cute if you like rugged, manly alpha males." Chloe looked on with her heart pounding and a strange traitorous tingle fizzing through her body like champagne bubbles. He appeared every bit as commanding as he had last night. Handsome in a way that was all about self-assurance and power. And he was here! Oh, my God, he's here! Panic mixed with a heady rush of awareness. She wanted to throw her arms around him, but at the same time she wanted to melt away into the terra-cotta tile floor. With a nearly silent groan, Chloe started to turn away, intent on sending a message in with Lucy, the receptionist, that she was suddenly, unavoidably, detained. But her groan wasn't silent enough. Julia cocked her head and grabbed her arm. "Showtime," she whispered. Great, great, great. Okay, she told herself, don't panic. She could do this. Besides, today her hair was straight, her bangs were down, the freckles across the bridge of her nose were blazing with not a speck of makeup in sight. What were the chances that he'd even recognize her? With a sound that was a cross between a growl and a whimper, Chloe rummaged around in her jacket pocket for her oversized glasses, pushed them on to be on the safe side, tucked her chin close, and entered the room behind Julia and Kate. She clutched her notepad protectively to her chest and felt her hair swing against her cheeks like curtains in a way that she hoped hid her face. Julia walked to the head of the table. "I'm Julia Boudreaux, and this is Kate Bloom Chapman from our hugely successful Getting Real with Kate . And this is Chloe Sinclair, our station manager." The other man, not the one from last night, reached out and shook Julia's hand. "I'm Ben," he said simply. Julia tugged away with a start, her lips parting as if his touch had surprised her. She blinked, then blinked again, and shook her head. But then the odd moment passed and Julia was back to her normal self. Chloe's best friend looked the man up and down, then said, "I figured you weren't Trey Tanner. From my e-mails with him, I didn't think that he would show up wearing jeans to an important meeting." Ben raised a brow and actually laughed, completely unperturbed by Julia's surprisingly biting remark. Chloe sat down quickly, and she would have sworn she felt the other man's eyes on her. She realized with a sinking heart that he was probably remembering her that very second. Just as she remembered him. Trey Tanner. What were the chances that the man Julia had hired to help them would turn out to be the man from the bathroom? Chloe mumbled her greetings. "Is something wrong with your voice?" This from Kate, whom Chloe saw out of the corner of her downcast eyes looking at her oddly. "I think I'm getting a cold." Chloe sniffed for effect. Kate cocked her head. "In the last five minutes?" Chloe stared at the pad and pretended to write. Julia turned to the other man. "You must be Trey Tanner." He was still staring at Chloe, and his brow furrowed in confusion. Chloe braced herself for what he would say next. "It's you!" "I never thought I'd see you again!" "I was crushed when you ran out on me like that!" "You are the most stunningly beautiful woman I have ever met and I can't live another second without you." "I'm sorry, but there seems to be a mistake," he stated, that same deep, rumbling voice washing over her senses. "I am from Prescott Media, but I'mâ" Chloe's head jerked up. "What?" she blurted. Every eye in the room turned to her. She tossed her pen down on the pad. "Did I hear you correctly? You're from Prescott Media?" He hardly looked at her. In fact, it hit her then that he hadn't been staring at her. And he wasn't all that happy about having been interrupted. Not only had he not been on the verge of exclaiming his admiration and love, but as it turned out, he hadn't even recognized her! Chloe realized with a rush of relief that she was safe. He didn't recognize her! Followed quickly by a disgruntled, He didn't recognize her! Her brows slammed together. She couldn't believe it. Was she so pathetically ugly without makeup that he didn't even notice a resemblance? A part of her brain realized that she was being irrational. She should be rejoicing at her luck. But that other part, the one that had obviously sent her to the party dressed up in the first place, was insulted. She lifted her chin a notch. Surely he just hadn't seen her well enough. How could he not recognize her? She might look a bit different this morning, but they had shared a passion that she was sure was the sort that people wrote about in songs, in books, in movies. A passion that meant he should recognize her soul. Okay, so she'd been reading too much lately. But really, he should at least think she looked familiar. "I'm sorry for the interruption," Julia said, glaring at Chloe. "I know that your time is valuable." Chloe barely listened as Julia rushed on with ridiculous platitudes and gushing appreciation for him coming all the way to El Paso to meet with them. Raising her chin another notch, Chloe pushed the paper and pen away from her with a noisy swish. But still Trey Tanner didn't notice her. She even pushed back her hair, drummed her fingers on the table, then in a fit of completely and utterly immature foolishness, she whipped off her glasses. All that was missing was a Ta da! To no avail. In fact the only person in the room who seemed aware of her at all was Kate, who kept glancing at her as if at any minute she might sprout a second head. Which might not be a bad idea since then maybe one of them would ring a bell in this Trey Tanner. Trey Tanner. From Prescott Media! Her frustration turned to anger. How could Julia have done this? "As I was saying," he stated firmly, cutting Julia off. Chloe snorted. "You were saying that you're from Prescott Media, home of that corporate cutthroat and modern day robber baron Sterling Prescott." That got his attention. It got the other man's attention as well. Ben actually chuckled. Julia whirled around to face him. "Who exactly are you? Ben, you said. Just Ben. Like Cher, I suppose." Ben whistled appreciatively, not in the least cowed by Julia. He simply smiled and made a big production of saying, "Yep, it's Ben. I'm Trey's younger brother, Ben Tanner. Yes, Ben Tanner, here to be inspired by his big brother's greatness. Though, Trey"âhe turned to the other manâ "next time you talk to your bossâSterling, isn't it?âyou might want to mention that he has one bad reputation here in El Paso." Chloe watched as Trey looked like he would strangle the younger man. Then she turned to Julia. "How could you?" she asked plaintively. "How could you have invited Prescott Media into our station? It's like inviting a fox into the henhouse." "Chloe, please," Julia implored. She laughed uncomfortably. "I'm sure that you're wrong about Prescott Media." "Wrong? Haven't you read the articles? Trey Tanner works for a hard, cold butcher of a man who is as notorious for snatching up stations for a fraction of their worth as he is for being reclusive. Can you imagine how awful and hated Sterling Prescott must be that he can't even show his face?!" Ben seemed to choke on his amusement. Trey got defensive. "The last I heard, it was legal to make a profit in the United States." "Great, justify lowball offers and hostile takeovers with the American flag. Though why am I not surprised that you'd defend your boss. What's the saying? An underling doesn't fall far from the tree. " The man's jaw worked. Chloe turned to Julia. "Kick him out now while you still can. I bet you money he is here with a lowball offer in that fancy briefcase of his. He'll leave you with nothing. And forget the fact that the rest of us won't have a job." The reality made her heart go still. But she couldn't think about that now. "Can you deny that is what you're here to do?" she demanded of the man. He looked murderous, his hands flattened on the fine wood tabletop, throwing frustrated glares at Ben each time he chuckled gleefully. "I assure you that you are mistaken about Prescott Media," Trey Tanner stated. "But take Prescott out of the equation for the moment." He leaned forward, every inch of him rippling with that commanding power as he launched into a discussion about media trends, local versus national programming, ad rates, and the decline in advertising revenue in all media. Yada, yada. Chloe barely heard over the anger, frustration, and yes, fear that she felt. She, Chloe Sinclair, who was notorious for her copious note taking and list making, only stared at her pad of paper. But she couldn't help the situation if she didn't concentrate. For the next fifteen minutes, she forgot last night. She became absorbed in the information he spilled out with the ease of an expert. Mr. Expert. Yeah, right , she thought ungraciously, not to mention unfairly. Everyone stopped and stared at her. She cringed. "Did I say that out loud?" Julia looked at her with an astounded glare. "Yes, Chloe. You did." "Sorry." "Yes, she's terribly sorry," Julia gushed uncharacteristically. "No need to apologize." He turned to Chloe. "Ms. Sinclair, isn't it?" "Yes." "If you have something to share," he said, a warrior's calm settling through him, "I'd like to hear it. I'm always open to alternate interpretations of what is going on in the media today." He sat back and studied her with a bone deep detachment. He really didn't recognize her. "Well, it's just that you are talking about KTEX as if we are in terrible shape." He didn't respond. "But we aren't." He still didn't say anything, which made her feel the need to defend her stance even though he hadn't contradicted her. She had seen other people fall into this trap, start talking and talking as if they couldn't stop themselves. "KTEX has turned a corner after the success of Getting Real with Kate . And with a few more well-thought-out programs, we can turn around completely. I resent you speaking of the station as if it's already in the grave." "Fair enough." He reached down into his briefcase, pulled out a file, opened it, then extended a set of papers. Chloe glanced over them and sniffed again. He had spelled out clearly what she already knew but hadn't wanted to face. The reality of television was that they were dependent on advertising revenue. Not only were ad dollars down across the board for all venues, but television had been hit especially hard. For an independent station like KTEX, it was even more disheartening. But Chloe wasn't about to concede defeat. Instead she felt the need to push hard to discredit him. "This might be true, but we have already begun our turnaround. We increased our revenue by eighty-three percent during Getting Real ." "True. But that was only during the single episode where you showcased a mini-golf tournament," he clarified. "That's finite programming. Nothing that solves your larger issues." "Meaning?" Kate said, worry in her voice. The man looked directly at Kate. "Meaning that El Paso is cut off from most other cities. You don't have much in the way of bleed factor. El Paso is a good 250 to 300 miles away from any other city of significant size. Tucson, 316 miles to the west. Albuquerque, 267 miles to the north. And going east, Dallas-Fort Worth is twice that distance, with more cactus than people between here and there." "Cacti," Chloe said glumly. He looked at her hard. "I stand corrected." But on the bigger picture, she knew he was right. Texas wasn't like many states that were built with towns running together, making it hard to tell where one ended and another began. In Texas, the minute you left the El Paso city limits, you didn't see much more than those cacti and the occasional small town, like some sort of holdback from the days of the wild wild west. Unless they bought another station in another city of significant size, KTEX's audience was here, and that was pretty much it. "But a population of nearly eight hundred thousand is nothing to sneeze at," she countered. "No question. But given the geography, it's finite." "Las Cruces isn't so far away. And we have Juarez right across the border." "Las Cruces is a small market. As to Juarez, do you plan to start broadcasting and advertising in Spanish?" She hated that he was right. He looked at some of his notes. "Based on the information I have here, you have to turn things around quickly, or you'll be too far in the red to realistically pull out." "Many companies operate in the red at one time or another," Chloe added defensively. "We will pull out of this. We have time. Don't we, Julia?" All eyes turned to Julia, but she didn't respond. Lucy knocked on the door. "I'm sorry to interrupt, but the conference room has been reserved for eleven o'clock, and they're here." Kate turned to Julia. "Reservations for the conference room?" Julia stood up from her place at the head of the table, the men following suit. She smiled tightly. "I think we are done here for now. Mr. Tanner, Lucy will show you to my office. I'll meet you there momentarily." With that she was gone. In apparent shock, Kate stood, then extended her hand. "It was nice to meet you." Then she disappeared as well.