Authors: Sandra Waugh
Our arrival was ignored. Only a few nearest the doors turned briefly to see who entered. But at the far end of the table, the most enormous man I'd ever seen was rising from his seat and waving us forward. “Come down! Come down!” he boomed.
Laurent and I worked our way along opposite sides of the table; people shifted down the benches to make room. “Eudin,” our host bellowed over the din when we reached him. “Captain of Gren Fort.”
Up close the captain was even more impressive, wider than he was tall, with a thick beard that ringed a blinding, full-toothed smile. He radiated strength, exuberanceâ¦and risk. His body was studded with welts and scars. I was fascinatedâ¦a little horrified.
“You have felt your share of swords.” I pointed as I reached him. “And axes.”
“A curious greeting!” Eudin's laugh was deafening. “Could be a worse showing for one my age.”
I looked at Laurent. “Three score and ten,” Laurent murmured, and my jaw dropped.
“Welcome to you!” Eudin shouted. He turned first to Laurent and gripped forearms with him like old friends, then turned to me and took my face between his huge hands like an elder might pat the cheeks of a child. “Welcome, Evie Carew.” He beamed, then said under his breath, which was hardly a whisper: “We'll keep your Guardianship to ourselves here, eh? What the clan does not know will keep them safe. Best not to know where the treasure is hidden, I say!” He gestured for us to take our places on the bench, announcing, “We neither wait nor stand on ceremony for guests. Just tuck in.”
I looked down the table at the feastâfowl and fish, mostly, things that did not require space to herd. But the vertical gardens and the abundance of water provided a bounty: greens (the spinach that Lill had been so disdainful of among them), varied squash, and roots. There were fruit jellies, sweet and savory sauces, and bread with fresh honey. Hard cider and ale spilled from wet-beaded flagons. I touched my finger to one of the pitchers; 'twas icy cold. “Chilled in the lake, our beverages!” Eudin said proudly when he saw my interest. “We sink the casks and draw up what we need!” Both were favorites, I guessed, looking at his florid cheeks and double set of tankards.
Plates and knives were produced from somewhere and shoved over to us. Then there was a general rumble as people began passing things, heaping our plates, making me laugh at the ordered
dis
order. Someone sloshed cider into a cup and plunked it in front of me. Then everyone turned back to the revelry.
“Eat,”
the captain directed, and I did. I gorged. Mouthfuls of bliss. I could not stop, not even in the spirit of regret for those who suffered beyond this fort. Food, drink, companyâ'twas a privilege to have any and all, and I glowed from being so sated. There was near as much pleasure in this meal as the last solstice feast in Merith. And I remembered, then, Raif sitting next to me, our hands touching as we passed platters or reached for wine. It was sharp, that memory, but brief. For I was aware too of the Rider who sat across from me, aware of his hands as he tore a heel of bread or lifted his cup, aware of the smile that showed him amused again that I wolfed my meal.
I turned back to my plate, very daintily speared a piece of fish with my knife.
“Now, my friend, what news?” Eudin asked Laurent beneath the din. “Do not save detail,” he added. “Better we talk honestly in a crowd. A quiet place begs for eavesdroppers.”
“The good news first,” Laurent said. “Tarnec has its queen once more.”
Eudin nodded and raised his tankard in salute to that. “Guardian of Life returns her amulet and reign begins anew. May all the amulets be restored; may she reclaim the Balance and hold it long.”
The fish fell off my knife. My cousin, the Guardian of Lifeâshe was also
queen
of Tarnec? I pictured the castle hanging over the cliff, from where she nearly threw herself in her attempt to reach me. Lark was queen of that realm.
What a journey you've had,
I'd told her. But, truly, I'd had no idea.
Laurent caught my expression. “The Life Guardian is always queen,” he said gently. “She has found her home.”
Home. I couldn't dispute it, but it stung to think home would nevermore be our cottage, our village. I wanted to keep the image intactâof Lark roaming the fields with her dog, Rilegânot to imagine her bound up by crowns and thrones.
Eudin was nodding, pleased. “So the queen is returned, and already you've found the next Guardian.” He flicked an eye to me, then said to the Rider, “Let us hope this bodes well for a quick end to the trouble. Two Guardians proved so quickly.”
“We had help.” Laurent said it without emotion, but there was a tightening of his mouthâsomething I now recognized.
“Why does having help make you angry?” I asked.
“Because we shouldn't have had it.” Laurent turned to Eudin. “I do not believe such ease bodes well. The Breeders know we were loaned the books of Fate; they'll simply wait for us to find the Guardians and then make their move. And if the return of the first amulet was a brilliant win for Tarnec, why offer the next amulet in such plain sight unless they want it easily found? So, no, I do not trust this freedom with which we travel.”
“Freedom!” I laughed. “There were wisps, and swifts, and soldiers in all directions. How do you call it freedom? Certainly it wasn't ease!”
“Those were minor obstacles, comparatively.” Laurent shrugged. I scowled at that.
But Eudin agreed with the Rider. “We've had message doves from Heran. They've seen disturbances on the Myr foothills, raids on the outposts. Breeders are slinking their way overland, summoning their worst.” He lowered his voice more. “Not just Troths. They thinkâ”
“I know what Heran thinks.” Laurent stopped Eudin from telling, throwing the smallest warning nod in my direction. “It isn't enough that Troths have run through Merith and Crene and Bern and Littlefen and however many more. Now Tyre is on the prowlâthey are stealing entire communities, not just the slave-aged.” He cast an eye to make sure no one was listening. “They've sent scouts. They are not far.”
“Aye, no secret, we've killed a few.” Eudin nodded, grim. “And since Tyre is eager, so does Dorgrun seize opportunity. Those sod dwellers will scavenge the land in Tyre's wake. They both amass armiesâalready we've had reports of skirmishes to the north.”
I was shifting in my seat, unsettled by how businesslike they discussed conflictâpast or impendingâLaurent and Eudin reeling off names of whole villages and cities like a scattering of individuals, and leaving some things unspokenâfor my sake, annoyingly. “How many come to fight?” I asked.
“One, a thousand, tenfold that⦔ Eudin took half his ale in one swallow, then smacked the tankard on the wood. “For you it does not matter.”
“How
not
?”
He leaned close. “It only takes one to change fate, to start a war. You shake your head, young lady, but the source of upheaval is what you must focus on, not the hordes that follow. Take out the source by finding the amulet.”
“And if I don't find the amulet, what happens? The Breeders of Chaos win?”
Laurent made a noise and Eudin glanced at him, then shook his head. He said to me, “You will find your amulet, Guardian. If the Breeders win 'twill be because of what happens to the amulet once you've found it.”
“I return it to Castle Tarnec,” I said flatly.
The large man laughed and sat up with a slap to his knee. “
Aye.
Be it that quick for all the Guardians!”
“What else would there be to do but return it?”
“You have a choice, Evie,” Laurent said. “You may also destroy it.”
I snorted, but Laurent was serious. “You might have the best intentions, but beware how the Breeders manipulate. Yes, they toy with the amulets, bring upheaval to Nature. There are earth rifts and drought. They can suck the air from a room or lash out with flameâ”
“They've done all of this?”
“Here and there. This dearth of rain is the most widespread.” Laurent leaned forward. “But all of that is just
toying,
Evie; I told you. They cannot truly hold or use the amulets; they just take pleasure in seeing how the upheavals distress us and turn us upon each other.” He touched my cup as I reached for a swallow, holding it. His eyes were dark blue. “Ultimately, the Breeders need you to claim your amulet so that you may destroy it.”
“But I wouldn't!”
“Masters of manipulation,” he said, low and grim. “You wouldn't even know you had until it was too late. And if any of the amulets are destroyed, then the upheavals are permanent. Chaos unleashed.”
A breath of cold flicked the back of my neck. Save or destroy. The Rider had said that before, but not that a Guardian could destroy without knowing. He wasn't just reminding, he was warning me. I found myself nodding, as if I had to promise.
“So.” Laurent softened then and leaned back. “Beware the Breeders' intent. For if the shell is here as we think, isn't that a bit simple?”
Eudin broke in, “Do not scare our girl, Rider.
Let
it be that simple. We can manage the rest.”
I turned to Eudin. “Manage means battle.”
He grinned. “What else? The amulets are not for negotiation.”
“You do not fear it?”
“Fear battle?” A guffaw. “â'Tis what Breeders would hope! Have us cower before them!”
Then Eudin shouted to the table at large: “Heads up, ye of Gren Fort! Do we fear battle?”
A rousing shout of
“Nay!”
followedâyoung and old, women and men alike. The captain beat his tankard on the slab, beginning a chant quickly taken up by all:
“Chaos and Gren: their loss, our win! Chaos and Gren: their loss, our winâ¦!”
Over and over they shouted and drummed until the table shook and the walls rang with victory. I put my hands to my ears; Laurent looked over at me, raised a brow to say,
See, Healer? Allies of the Keepers can be as aggressive as any Breeders' bane.
I yelled to Eudin, “Is there no other way? Not everyone is as prepared as you! There are those villages that don't even have weapons!” I looked at Laurent. “You said that not everyone should carry the burdenâ”
“That's notâ” Laurent started to object, but Eudin jumped in: “Nor should you!”
“But we
do
!” I cried. “We all must help. You speak of cities mobilizing to conquer and things from the Waste creeping in to destroy. How can you think a hundred people from Gren Fort can stop this? It is
all
our burden!”
Eudin laughed out loud. “We are
not
but a hundred swords, young Healer!”
“Evie,” Laurent said. “No one is asking you to fight.”
“It's not for me; I do not speak as a Healer. Merith, my villageâwe⦔ I swallowed. I could hardly bear to think of my friends in Merith trying to wield weapons again. “We don't know how to fight. We cannot fight. And there are more like us as well.”
Laurent half smiled. “You are the lucky ones.”
“Says the man with horse and sword!” Eudin snorted. “Lucky is the Rider!” He reached over and patted my shoulder. “There is no shame for your Merith friends. There must be some who travel life unweighted by the knowledge that Chaos lurks in a simple shift of power.”
Like Lark and I were before, I thought. Unweighted. When we looked at the world with wonder, not fear. 'Twas the way I still wanted toâwhy I couldn't help arguing that it should be other than it was.
I wondered what Lark had thought when she learned of all this darkness. I wondered if she'd missed Merith as much as I suddenly did; I wondered if she was afraid.
I wasn't afraid; I was sad.
Eudin was still watching me. He chuckled. “Do not be so severe in your thoughts. 'Tis not all doom. There is always choice, there is always hope, there is always sanctuary in the worst of places. Remember that as you travel.”
I frowned at him. “Now you too are warning me for a purpose. You mean as I look for the amulet.”
His laughter boomed. “I do not frighten you, my lady, do I?”
“I do not frighten.”
“Exactly! And so here you are.” He drew us in and spoke low, “And now to task: the Rider says that you believe your amulet hidden within a waterfall.”
“Of which you have many,” I said. “But I cannot claim it is here for certain.”
“How did you perceive its hiding place? Was it in a vision?”
“I cast a spell.”
That surprised him. “It is said that the amulets speak to their Guardians, that they reveal themselves when ready.”
I shook my head. “What I saw I manufactured.” I looked then to Laurent. “I forced the reveal. So perhaps all of this is wrong and I am not ready.”
Laurent did not protest, and I worried suddenly that he agreed that it was done wronglyâthat it was a rushed mistake, this touching of marks and claiming of Guardian and Complement. Hadn't Eudin just said that we needed to be thoughtful in the choices we made? It had been a messy business with the wisps, and Laurent had fallen, and what if he too impulsively forced the bond seeking? What ifâ
Eudin insisted, “Your birthmark was proved. The verse claimed you as well.”
“But I do not
feel
anything. There should be a bond, no? Something more than a spell's hallucination.” It was a disappointing thing to admit aloud.
Laurent murmured, “Perhaps you have not taken the time to listen.” He said to Eudin, “The lady has had a rough time of it. We've worked our way here through a number of challenges”âhe winked at meâ“easy that they were. Perhaps we should give the Guardian a chance for silence.”
I'd
been
silent, I thought. I'd spent the afternoon alone; I'd spent nearly two months alone. But Laurent was looking at me, a brow raised as if he knew that thought and challenged it. And maybe he was right. Maybe I'd been in silence but had not listened.