We Siberians were in a precarious situation at the time: we had just been in a fight and we had to keep quiet for a while, otherwise â from what the disciplinary unit guys had said â they would split us up and send us to different cells, where we had a serious chance of ending up in the shit. So, while Fish was plunging his genitals into Marina's mouth in front of his whole escort and other idiots who had gone to enjoy the show, we sat on our bunks fuming with rage because we couldn't even afford to give him a thrashing.
We could hear the Little Thieves' shouts of encouragement:
âGo on, pansy, eat it all!'
âThat's the way, Fish, make him swallow the fish!'
âOpen that mouth wider and I'll stick mine in too!'
We soon realized that a lot of people wanted the same treatment from Marina. Marina's weak voice could be heard whispering in an obviously feminine tone which was disgusting to hear:
âNo, boys, I did it to him because I like him, but that's enough . . .'
But there was no stopping the crowd now.
âWhat are you talking about? Open your little mouth, darling! There's a good girl, go on like that, or I'll break that pansy nose of yours!'
âYeah, that's the way, suck it hard! Then it's our turn!'
You could hear the moans, and now and then the cries, of those who were reaching an orgasm. Marina coughed and spat. Others shouted at him cruelly:
âNo spitting, you queer! You've got to swallow, or I'll smash your face in!'
That poor devil, Marina. He sounded pitiful; he was crying, and in a thin voice, like that of a seriously ill man who hasn't got the strength to breathe, he begged:
âPlease, I can't do any more, let me be! I'll suck you all off later, but let me rest, please . . .'
âLater's no good, you queer! If you're tired, lie down on the bunk, but face down!' Fish wouldn't let up.
One of our group was about to go and give him a beating, but we stopped him; we couldn't afford to get into trouble again. We were forced to witness that disgusting scene. None of us looked, but we could hear it all perfectly well; we were only a few metres away from the scene of the rape. We heard them throw Marina onto the bunk, while someone said in an obviously proud voice:
âLet me through! I'm going to be the first to fuck him in the arse!'
A moment later Marina gave a kind of cry, but then started sighing, just like a girl making love. The bunks moved; the movement passed from one bunk to another and reached ours like a gentle knocking; it made us wild with rage, that swaying; if only we could have, we'd have torn them to pieces, every one of them.
A voice said:
âCome on, boys, let's take turns at sticking it in his mouth, too, or he'll relax too much, the queer!' And everyone laughed and joked, and Marina again started begging, and promising to suck them all off later, and do anything else, if only they'd leave him in peace for a while. But no one was listening to him. Again there were moans, again the cries of boys coming in his mouth, again Marina coughing and spitting, coughing and spitting.
Then someone gave him the first slaps in the face, and he started screaming. They squeezed their hands round his neck and continued to rape him. Now and then they slackened their grip and he started coughing and spitting again, and also trying to say something, but he couldn't, because he had a fit of coughing. Everyone was whooping with joy; they were pleased. Fish said to the others:
âWell? How do you like my girl? She's mine! Tonight she's free to you, but from tomorrow you'll have to pay me! Otherwise you'll have to just wank yourselves off!'
This madness had begun at about nine in the evening, and it went on all night. The guards didn't come even once to see what was going on. The rapists took turns: they would go away for a rest and then start all over again. They joked among themselves:
âHey, boys, are you sure he's still alive?'
âWell, the important thing is he's still warm . . .'
âHe's alive â just look at him sucking away!'
By about six in the morning the party was over.
Everyone was laughing and joking; Marina was lying on his bed, motionless; now and then you would hear him sob and whisper something in his girlish voice.
Three days later he was picked up again by the guards.
But first Fish had a good talk with him, to make sure he wouldn't report him to the disciplinary unit.
âMarina, if you talk I'll kill you with my own hands . . . Keep quiet and behave yourself and no one will touch you again; no one will come and see you except me. Me or anyone who pays me. Understand? Without me, they'd fuck you in every hole, like the other night!'
Fish thought he'd been convincing, and as soon as Marina had left the cell he started arranging with his friends who would be the first to screw him when he got back.
A few hours later six men from the disciplinary unit arrived, with Crocodile Zhena himself. They called out by their surnames all the boys who had taken part in the rape. Panic spread among the Little Thieves. Someone said:
âI didn't do anything! I was there, but I didn't do anything.'
We watched the scene with interest.
When the warder had finished reading out the names on the list, the disgusting voice of Crocodile Zhena rang out:
âWell, are we all here? March, in single file!'
So we saw them leave the cell. For two days we heard nothing. Expectation hung in the air; nobody mentioned it, but many were worried about what might have happened.
During the night of the third day, when we were all asleep, the doors opened and the Little Thieves came in. The guards forbade us to get up and, sticking our heads out from the bunks, we tried to see what state they were in. When the doors closed, the groans started. Some of them cried, others talked out loud, saying senseless things.
I noticed that the first thing many of them did was to take a towel and go to wet it under the tap. Then I saw two of them pass between the bunks: they were holding the wet towel under their pants, against their backsides. Some of them started to quarrel about the toilet:
âLet me through, let me through! I can't wait any longer, I'm bleeding . . .'
Our boys laughed:
âLook at the fucking queers run!'
âThey wanted to fuck him in the arse, didn't they? Well, if you give it you've got to take it . . .'
âYeah! What kind of queer would you be otherwise? A semi-queer?'
âHey, look at that one! They certainly gave him a good buggering!'
âHe deserved it, the bastard, the fucking pansy . . .'
Our Filat White got up from his bed and shouted out:
âYou're all contaminated! Go and sleep in the corner by the door! It disgusts us to have you anywhere near us!'
None of the Little Thieves dared to talk back, they were scared; they must have really been through it. They picked up their things and obediently moved into the corner by the door.
âHey, look at that, a migration of queers!' said another of our group. And we all laughed.
The next day, putting together the rumours that were going round and the scraps of conversation between the Little Thieves, we reconstructed the whole story. Crocodile Zhena had taken them down to the first floor, to the room that was used for meetings with relatives: a large bedroom, with a number of beds, where visiting parents could stay for a day and a night with their children. There they'd been raped for two and a half days by Crocodile Zhena's friends, who had also filmed the whole thing with a videocamera. It was said that they had rammed a bottle into Fish, and consequently lacerated his anus, and those of a few others, till it bled.
From that moment Fish became a kind of shadow; he moved around the room silently and always looked at the floor. He went to the toilet at night, and by day tried never to leave his bunk.
The Little Thieves mainly took advantage of boys who were defenceless and frightened. Usually they took them, by threats or force, into their âblack corner', a block of bunks on which they lived, and there performed the most sophisticated and terrible tortures in front of the others.
They raped someone almost every day; afterwards they would beat the boy up and make him dance on the floor stark naked, with a paper tube stuck up his anus. First they would set fire to the tube, then they would tell the poor bastard to dance. That ritual even had a name: âcalling a little devil out of hell'. Every torture had a name, almost always a humorous one.
âThe battle with the rabbit', for example, went like this: the poor bastard in question was stood in front of a wall on which there was a drawing of a rabbit wearing boxing gloves, and he had to hit it as hard as he could. They would all shout âGo on! Harder!' at the tops of their voices. The victim would hit the wall and in a few minutes his hands would be a bloody mess. Then the others would force him to hit the wall with his head and his legs, threatening him:
âGo on, you pansy, what are you scared of? It's only a stupid rabbit! Hit it harder â with your leg, with your head! Hit it, or we'll rip your arse open like a rag!'
And the poor devil would be exhausted, then they'd force him to throw his whole body at the rabbit, but usually he would collapse before then, and pass out from the pain. Then they would leave him there on the floor, saying:
âYou're a wuss, a sissy! You're useless! You let a rabbit beat you up, do you realize that? When you come to, we'll make you into a pretty little girl!'
That was how the Little Thieves sowed fear and chaos among the inmates.
Another torture was âthe flight of Gagarin': the victim was forced to throw himself off the highest bunk holding his feet with his hands, forming a kind of ball with his body. Sometimes they would wrap a towel round his head to âprotect' him at the moment of impact, but nevertheless this torture would end with broken bones, and the hapless victim would go straight to hospital.
Then there was âthe Ghost': they would force someone to go round with a blanket over his head for a couple of days. Anyone could go up to him and hit him at any moment, and he had to reply every time:
âI can't feel a thing, because I'm a ghost.'
Usually they hit him with something hard, preferably the tea kettle, with a bag of sugar inside it to make it even heavier. Once in a cell near ours they killed a boy by hitting him too hard on the head. The next day, during the recreation hour, they boasted about it in the courtyard; I heard them with my own ears say, laughing:
âThe ghost was too weak.'
The staff let all acts of violence between juveniles pass as accidents. There were an incredible number of boys who âfell out of their bunks in their sleep'; many of them died, some were left permanently disabled.
Nobody dared to tell the truth.
We Siberians were opposed to any manifestation of sexual perversion, bullying and unmotivated violence, so whenever one of us saw that the Little Thieves were about to torture someone, we would start a serious fight, which sometimes ended very badly.
In our cell the Little Thief who dominated all the weaker ones was a really sadistic bastard nicknamed âBulgarian'. He was the son of a Black Seed criminal and the younger brother of a
Blatnoy
. Bulgarian was quite a thin little boy, more or less like me, except that I did gym and was quite active, whereas he smoked and was always loafing around, so he looked like a little mummy. His skin was a very strange colour, like that of patients suffering from hepatitis, so we Siberians called him âYellow', not âBulgarian'.
When Bulgarian arrived in our cell the Little Thieves started telling stories about him, to build up the legend. For a week his name was always at the centre of every conversation â Bulgarian here and Bulgarian there â and everything in the world was either him or in some way connected with his legendary figure. We Siberians said to each other:
âAnother bastard, for sure. Let's just hope he's not a troublemaker . . .'
Two weeks after his arrival, Bulgarian managed to pick a quarrel with the Armenians, calling them âBlack Arses' (that's what the Russian nationalists often called anyone who came from the Caucasus and had a darker skin); he shouted that he would use his connections in the criminal world to have them all killed. He was a clown, a spoilt child, who had clearly never seen anything apart from the view from his father's knees, which he had never got down from until he went to prison.
The Armenians told us about the incident, and we assured them of all our support in the event of a fight, guaranteeing the support of the Siberian community outside the prison as well. We knew that sooner or later the situation between us and the Little Thieves would lead to a war; we were just waiting for the right moment and, above all, an opportunity. They would have to make a mistake, because if we wanted to go through with it and have the backing of our elders, we would have to give them a serious reason which was approved by the Siberian criminal law. This too made us different from them. The Little Thieves could pick on anyone who didn't belong to their community, infringe the rules of behaviour or do other far more serious things, and they were always supported by the people of Black Seed: confident of their protection, they stopped at nothing. We, by contrast, had a very strict law: any mistake that was made, any insult to a person considered honest by our community, had to be punished. No one, neither a relative nor a friend, would dream of protecting someone who had broken the law.
So we were just waiting for Bulgarian and his gang of bumboys (as we called them, because of their propensity for homosexual rape) to show their ugly faces and stir up some trouble, which we would then use as a pretext for mincing them up like raw meat. But those bastards exceeded all our expectations.
One day our family was gathered around the âoak' (that's what they call the table bricked into the floor which is found in every cell). According to an agreement, the families, or âbrigades' (as the groups of those who modelled themselves on Black Seed were known) were allowed to gather around the oak for a certain length of time. In every cell it was different, but usually you stood at the oak to eat, at mealtimes. The stronger ones stood around the table first; they would eat, chat and then leave the table free for others who were weaker than them but stronger than those who came after them. Most of the inmates didn't even stand at the table, but would eat on their bunks, otherwise they wouldn't have had time to eat their meal. Eating at the oak was a kind of privilege; it emphasized the power of the group you belonged to. In our cell we were the first to eat at the oak, together with the Armenians and the Belarusians. In all there wasn't room for more than forty people at the table, but we managed to squeeze sixty of us in. We did this to show the others that our alliance in the cell was superior to everyone else. The Little Thieves who were in the same cell as us couldn't stomach this, because they felt they were in second place but couldn't do anything about it; what's more, the Little Thieves in the other cells were always ribbing them about it. But to attack us would have been like committing suicide, so one day they found an excuse for not eating at the oak any more: they started to say that the table was tainted, that someone had washed it with the floor cloth and that therefore, according to their rules, they couldn't even touch it with a finger now. It was a lie, a story they'd thought up so as not to lose their dignity entirely.