Read Short Stories 1895-1926 Online
Authors: Walter de la Mare
We parted. I did not go back. There was no opportunity unless I had positively wrenched one out of the preposterous circumstances in which I was placed, and at instant risk of discovery. She would have bitterly resented any suggestion that I should share her confidences, however trustworthy the confidant. That was certain. I could not even send her a word of explanation or of apology. There was no address. What she thought of me during the weeks that followed I can only guess. It does not much matter now, does it?
As a matter of fact, it was only by chance I ever heard of her again. The day before yesterday there came by post, from Flora, a newspaper already a fortnight old. She had marked in it a column containing the account of a tragedy that had recently taken place ânot many miles distant from us'. She thought I might be âinterested' in it, as the people concerned, though unknown to her personally, were neighbours of hers â as neighbours go, that is, in Virginia. Interested!
There is no mistaking who these neighbours were. Having paused over its headlines, read the cutting I enclose and tell me what you think of it, and even what you think of me too if you feel inclined and have the patience. I can only assume that the one death was not self-inflicted, assume that â well, as I say, read it.
To me the worst horror of the account is not so much that my visit may have been the occasion of some fatal quarrel, but that that old, humpbacked, greying negro was all but lynched on account of it, and that he died of the shock. But not, I gather, before he had consigned his master and his miserable talisman to the abyss prepared for them. I see it, shining there through the ages with only those mouldering bones on which to waste its paradisal radiance â that eyeless skull. But there is an eye of the mind, and mine is still awake. Centuries hence, when we and all we stand for may in turn have become âprehistoric', other âhumans' may find it there. What will those humans be like, I wonder â mind and body? What will be
their
reactions to the fire and lustre and communings of the thing?
But, as I say, I am sick of the whole experience and of its faintest remembrances. It has been an inexpressible relief even to rid memory of it like this, to express it as plainly as I can. At thought of it my mind becomes liked a sucked orange. â“
Traditore
!”' Do you remember the old gentleman in
The Pavilion on the Links
?
â
Traditore
!' And yet, Why? What actually did I do or leave undone that sickens me so? What was there in this unintelligible ordeal that still eludes me?
Three or four evenings ago a friend of mine nearly suffocated me with the strains of a gramophone record. It was Alma Gluck who was singing; accompanied by a male chorus resembling molasses and rum. And the tune was:
âCarry me back to Old Virginny,
   Dat's where de cotton' [
and the words
   Â
elude me
] âgrow,
Dat's where de birds warble sweet in de
    Spring-time â¦'
 But then, I was never in Virginia in the spring-time â¦
The man in the cart, when he reached the top of the long hill up which the old mare had been steadily plodding, was rejoiced to spy against the whiteness of the road beyond the figure of a man walking. For, although he was of a taciturn disposition, and cared little for company, yet on this night he felt lonely. At times, even, he had peered timorously between the trees that overshadowed the roadway, and had started in affright when the ring of the hoofs on the frozen ground had roused some bird from sleep, and the sound of its swift flight could be heard, growing gradually fainter, till hushed in the distance. Uncanny stories had flocked up from forgotten stores of memory, and, with the creeping of his flesh, haunting fancies had come that grim shapes were gathering behind him. With a shudder at the dread thought, he had pulled the collar of his heavy coat about his ears, and so had sat, almost fearful to breathe.
But now, as he leisurely drove down the steady decline, the sight of the lonely figure in the distance restored his usual stupidity; defiantly he hummed under his breath a song brimming over with blasphemy against all midnight loiterers other than those of the flesh, to which song the mare put back her ears, and hearkened in astonishment.
As he drew slowly nearer to the traveller, suddenly a great, deep voice came leaping through the cold air, roaring out the swinging chorus of some song of the sea; the man in the cart stopped dead in his crooning, and listened in amazement to the intense happiness that rang in every note. The music in the song seemed to run in his blood â a shudder shook him from head to foot. The song ceased as suddenly as it had begun; the traveller had heard the noise of the approaching cart, and was now waiting at the side of the road till it should come up with him.
The driver pulled up near at hand, and eyed the stranger with some curiosity; the mare also turned her head to gaze wonderingly at him for a moment, then shook herself, till every scrap of metal on her harness rang again. The stranger startled the man in the cart when he spoke, so intent was his stare.
âHow far might it be to Barrowmere?' inquired the man on foot.
âNigh on seven mile,' replied the driver, with wonder in his brain at a man possessing the courage to walk alone at midnight through the still country lanes.
âThanks,' said the stranger shortly, in a bluff, hearty voice, then turned as if to continue his tramp.
The driver watched him a few paces. âHe's a seaman,' he muttered to himself, âand I don't make no doubt but he's going home,' after which reflection he was about to gather up the reins to continue his interrupted journey, when his whole face lit up at the brilliant charitable idea that, as he was taking much the same way as the other, he should offer him a lift in the cart. His plump cheeks grew hot with virtuous pride as he shouted, âHi! Was it Barrowmere you said?'
The man wheeled round smartly. âBarrowmere it was!' he sang out in answer.
âI be going to Barrowmere,' said the driver. âThere's room enough behind if you want a lift.'
The stranger with the joyous resonant voice strode back, and swung himself into the cart with a muscular jerk.
âP'raps you'll sit there,' said the driver, pointing with the butt of his whip to a tarpaulin-covered box at the bottom of the cart.
There the stranger sat himself down. âThankee,' he said.
A peculiar smile sped over the driver's face as he shook the reins and drove on without another word.
By degrees he grew morose and sulky. He blamed the traveller for accepting his hospitable offer.
The stranger, who was muffled to the chin in a thick pea-jacket, made a vain attempt to converse with the driver, but finding him both unwilling and witless, he turned his attention to his more pleasant thoughts. His suntanned face beamed at the thought of the meeting with his wife soon to come about, he chuckled audibly as he imagined her surprised delight, and he rubbed his hands for the twentieth time when the full subtlety of his little joke in not letting her know the day of his return was again forced upon him.
The full moon flooded the fields with light, making them appear even colder than in reality they were; a very slight fall of snow and a sharp frost had clothed the trees and hedges in a shimmering glory of sparkling white. Not a sound was in the air save the buzz of the cart's wheels, the steady beat of the hoofs, and an occasional shuddering snort from the mare. The cold was severe, at times compelling both men to beat their arms upon their bodies to restore the running of their blood.
Maybe it was the intense silence, maybe the lonely hour of the night, that oppressed the spirits; but there slowly crept over the traveller, who until now had been in so genial a humour, a stern sobriety, a vague presage of impending disaster, an unreasonable mistrust of his former jollity, so that he sat dumb and perplexed on his seat in the cart, watching the sharpdrawn shadows of the trees upon the white road flit silently by, eyeing with stealthy suspicion the burly, bowed body of the driver, and the while ardently desiring the eager arms of his wife.
The traveller got upon his feet in the cart and peered over the driver's shoulder. He could see, in the hollow ahead, the first outlying cottage of the village, and the blood surged up in his body as one by one the well-remembered landmarks of home came into view.
His heart yearned for the shelter of his house, for the kiss of the loved woman: he reminded himself of the mate of his little craft, who knew no friend in the world to give him welcome.
The driver looked back over his shoulder at the stranger, and muttered huskily, âThat be Barrowmere yonder.'
The stranger paid him no heed; at the same moment the notion had come into his head that he would get down from the cart and travel the remainder of the journey on foot; he had no mind that his surly companion should witness his meeting with his wife. So he tapped him on the shoulder. The man turned sulkily; he was bidden pull up, and obeyed with sullen tardiness. The seaman leaped out at the back, tossed a coin to the man, who pocketed it with a nod of thanks and drove on again; the peculiar smile reappeared as he muttered to something between the ears of the old mare.
âI do hope, now, he finds it easy.'
And the man of the sea was trudging slowly along the country lane towards his home; he was rejoiced to be free from his unfriendly companion; his good spirits began to return to him; when, on a sudden, the piteous, wailing howl of a dog struck upon his ears â terror seized upon him for a moment, so that he gasped for breath and trembled as he walked. Bitterly he cursed the land; he vowed he would carry his wife away to the sea and never touch England again.
With almost unwilling footsteps, he approached the bend in the road where his cottage would come into view; every tiny twig in the hedgerows was its own self in glass, not a cloud obscured the living heavens, only the pitiless, cold stare of the moon upon all and the silence of death. It ate into the heart of the man as he walked; he feared greatly, though he knew not why nor what manner of thing he feared. With bated breath, he turned the corner; there lay his home, peaceful under the white moonlight; but his surprise was great at seeing the cart he had journeyed in at a standstill before the little rustic gate. The man, apparently, had entered the house, for the horse was standing with hanging head, its reins tied to the gate-post, awaiting its driver. He walked quietly towards the house, with that strange misgiving at his heart. When he reached it, he feared to enter. He looked into the cart; the box he had used as a seat had gone. He made a weak attempt to laugh his fears down, but failed miserably.
The windows facing the roadway were in pitch darkness; no sign was there that life was within. The seaman crept with muffled footsteps to the back of the house, and there rose into the night again the desolate howling of a dog. He leant over the rough wooden rail and called softly. The dog â his dog â whined joyously, straining at its chain to welcome its master.
He leapt over the low fence; the idea crossed his mind that he was using his own house like a thief in the night. He paused for a moment, perplexed at the sudden beam of light which had dazzled his eyes. He glanced up to discover whence it came; the curtains had been drawn across one of the windows, but had not met, thus leaving a narrow space through which the bright rays of light were streaming out upon the night from within â it was the window of his bedroom.
With fitful breath he crept over to the dog, and fondled it for a while, but still keeping his eyes fixed upon that lonely beam of light. The dog licked its master's hand in unrestrained joy at his return.
And there came into the man's mind a fervent desire to look in through that window. He struggled with himself to restrain the impulse, and to knock boldly at the door, but his wild forebodings and fears of unknown evil conquered him. He looked round for some means by which he might reach the window.
A large tree grew a few yards from the house, a bough of which jetted out towards the window; he remembered that, when he had lain awake on summer nights gone by, he had heard it tapping against the pane. With reluctant steps, he crawled to the tree, clasped a projecting knot, and began to climb the weather-worn trunk. With much labour he scrambled on till at last he reached the bough that ran out towards the house. His hands were numb with the frost and cold. Slowly he crept on, trembling and panting. One last painful effort, and he lay on the branch, with his face toward the window, the light beaming out into his blue eyes.
Gradually he grew accustomed to the glare; he saw plainly into the room.
He saw the bed shrouded in a white sheet; he saw the mother of his wife, kneeling at its head, bend over and gently lift the sheet; he saw the still, pallid face of his dead wife; he saw the driver of the cart pass across the rift between the curtains, carrying the coffin on which he had sat in his joyous ride to his home. A rush of blood blinded his eyes and sang in his ears; he clawed madly at the bough of the tree with his stiff fingers. As he swung in the air, his breath shook him, his teeth chattered and bit into his tongue. He heard with strange distinctness the whispering voices of the night, the stealthy movements in the little room; he saw all things as he stared.
Gradually his clutching fingers relaxed; the whole firmament seemed to reel. In his struggling flight through the air his skull struck and cracked against a bossy branch; his body turned limply, and fell motionless upon the turf beneath.
The dog crawled nearer, shivering and dismayed: it licked the bloody hand of its master, then threw up its head to give tongue to a long-drawn howl of terror.
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First published in
The Sketch,
7 August 1895, âby Walter Ramal'; revised for publication in Beg (1955), but omitted at the galley-proof stage; later published in
Eight Tales,
ed. Edward Wagenknecht, Sauk City, Wisconsin, 1971. The late revised version has been used here.