Shattered Sky (46 page)

Dillon didn't know if the others screamed, for he could only hear his own as that first hand grabbed at his leg; a woman as terrified now as she had been at the moment of her death. Then there was another, and another, until their wailing voices drowned out his own. The resurrection of flesh was not a glorious process, gilded in a sacred light. It was bloody, and violent. It was like birth itself; traumatic and painful until the cry of life filled the room.

The living differentiated themselves from the dead, pulling themselves from the pit, staggering toward the light at the entrance, where Tessic's workers would clean them, and spirit them away—their lives processed with the swift efficiency that their deaths had been.

Soon the tangle of desperate arms and legs pulled the shards down, and Dillon felt something within himself give way. He felt his mind drop through a trapdoor like a snail pulling into its shell, around and around, spiraling deeper into itself, until reaching the center of his soul, where time and self mercifully vanished into sweet nothingness.

A
STEADY STREAM OF
the awakened flowed from the monument dome. They were rinsed with warm water, and wrapped in plush robes. “You've been liberated,” was all the workers were allowed to tell them. Explanations, Tessic knew, were
secondary. That they were alive was all they needed to know; enough to grapple with for now. Their names were taken down, and they were walked to the line of buses that would shuttle them three hundred miles to the Ciechanow housing complex.

After four hours the line of the awakened slowed, then stopped. Only then did Tessic go into the dome. There he found the shards lying in a vascular miasma that was not quite alive, not quite dead. A dense membrane thick with blood vessels had grown up from the pit and onto the walls; flesh that could not find its form, but was obliged to find some form. It became a womb that filled the cavity of the monument from the bottom of the pit to the apex of the dome. Some of the workers who followed Tessic in became ill, but Tessic began to pray, reciting the
Sh'ma
. It was the same prayer he had uttered when his plane hit clear air turbulence and took a five-thousand-foot dive. The same prayer he had intoned when terrorists put the muzzle of a pistol to his head, then capriciously spared his life. It was a prayer he said daily, but only on certain occasions did it become a lifeline to sanity.

Three others followed Tessic down into the center of this terrible womb, where the four shards lay unconscious, almost fully encased by the membrane, their bodies touching in what seemed a very specific way. He tore them from it, and blood spilled from the membrane. It was already beginning to peel from the walls and drop from the dome as it died. He left, carrying Dillon in his arms, focusing all his attention on Dillon's catatonic eyes, refusing to look at the dying walls of the womb, for he could swear within the veiny patterns of flesh, he could still see faces.

I
T WAS DEEP INTO
the night by the time Dillon spiraled out of himself, coming back from wherever it was he had gone.
When he did return from that void, he returned slowly, expanding his perception in increments. First he was aware of his own heartbeat. Then he felt the shape and form of his body. His extremities. Fingers and toes. He knew that he was covered in some thick fabric. A quilt, warm and comfortable.

He had never quite lost consciousness. Some part of him was aware of all that happened, because even in his state of detachment, he remembered being pulled from the pit. He remembered that he was in Tessic's private
dacha
on the outskirts of Ciechanow. He knew that five thousand had been brought back from a death camp known to have snuffed almost half a million.

And he knew that their powers had given out before the rest of the job was done.

The shards had simply shut down, emptied. Now it took a great measure of his will just to move his arm. He wanted to sleep—truly sleep, but he could not. He wondered if he'd ever be able to sleep again.

“You're back with us, then?”

Dillon pulled himself up enough in his bed to see Tessic keeping a vigil beside him.

“Is it still Monday?” Dillon asked.

“Barely. You slept for more than twelve hours.”

Dillon shook his head. “I didn't sleep.”

“No,” Tessic admitted. “Your eyes were open.”

“Where are the others?”

“Resting, like you.”

“Things didn't go the way you had expected.”

“Things rarely do. But all in perspective. Today five thousand murdered souls have a new claim on life.”

“You expected more.”

Tessic stood and paced to the window.

“Next time there will be. Today you flexed your muscles. You were bound to exhaust yourself. This is how we build ourselves up. Next time you'll be twice as strong.”

“This isn't a marathon.”

“I think that perhaps it is.” Tessic crossed the room to a familiar device Dillon hadn't noticed in the room before; two canisters of colored sand.

“The Dillonometer.”

“When we brought you here,” Tessic said, “the sands took half an hour to differentiate. Now it's down to five minutes. Tomorrow it will be back to ten seconds—maybe even less.” He let out a confident sigh. “You see? You have recovered quickly. The Majdanek dome was only an auspicious beginning.”

He waited for Dillon's reaction, but when Dillon gave him none, he said, “Maddy should be back soon. Shall I send her in?”

Dillon shifted in his bed—feeling every joint, every tendon. “What makes you so sure I want to see her?”

“Do not be so hard on her,” Tessic said. “You owe her your life a dozen times over.”

“I know that.”

“She is in love with you.”

Dillon looked away from him. “I know that, too.” After what his mind had been exposed to that day, he didn't know why sorting out his feelings for Maddy should seem such a monumental task. He
did
care for Maddy deeply; this girl who had the strength to fire into his face to save him; this girl who threw away all that she had to be a companion to him, longing for a syntaxis of their own that would never come.

“I don't want her to see me like this,” Dillon said. A blanket escape, he thought, from having to think about it any further.

But Tessic replied, “She's seen you worse.” He turned to
leave, but before exiting, he turned back to Dillon, and smiled as if in admiration.
What's to admire?
thought Dillon.
Right now I'm a helpless lump on a featherbed.

“I know you don't feel it yet, but this day in Majdanek has made you stronger. It has given you stamina. Soon you'll have enough stamina to face Birkenau.”

Dillon had never been a student of history, but he knew that when people spoke of Auschwitz, they really meant Birkenau; Auschwitz's back-factory of death. Dillon closed his eyes, feeling his lids weighty as a sunset.

M
ADDY WENT IN AT
about midnight. She expected—almost hoped—she'd find Dillon asleep, but his eyes were already fixed on her when she cracked the door.

“You missed the first game of our little World Series,” Dillon said.

She stepped in, her ambivalence preceding her. “I was in the outfield,” she told him. “I was in Ciechanow, making sure everything went smoothly when the buses arrived.”

“And did it?”

“Like silk.” And in that, there was no exaggeration. For eight hours she had helped to supervise the handing out of apartment keys and groceries. Four people per apartment, one bag per person, families kept together when possible. These refugees were not ones to look this mysterious gift horse in the mouth. “Three buildings are at 100 percent occupancy.”

“A hundred and nine to go,” said Dillon.

“At least at this site.” She leaned forward and kissed him gently on the lips. He didn't return it, and she couldn't tell whether it was a judgment on her, or if he was simply too weak. She found her spirit wilting and it angered her that her feelings for him could affect her so.

“I suppose not everything can go like silk,” he said. When she looked at his eyes, she could tell he had just read her. But why should she care? What could he learn now that he didn't already know?

“I never thought I'd get caught in that old romantic loophole,” she said, “wanting what I can never have.”

“I never thought of you as a romantic,” said Dillon.

“No. Until recently, I thought of myself as a realist.”

He tried to smile, but it came out slim. “I guess now you're a surrealist.”

She looked at him a moment more and then shook her head quickly, trying to break the spell he cast even at his weakest moments. “Here we are in the middle of undoing the greatest crime in recorded history and I'm going on about broken hearts.” She stood from the edge of the bed. She had no illusions about her purpose in his life anymore. She was nothing more than a facilitator. She trusted that her disciplined mind would force her to accept this, and if not, she'd simply endure the pain like a good soldier. “Winston and the others are in the living room, warming themselves around the fire. You should join them. As I'm not quite so superhuman, I'm going to bed.”

“You can stay here,” Dillon offered, but it came out as an offer of mercy. Lukewarm compassion.

“Tessic gave me the best bedroom in the place,” Maddy told him. “Even better than yours.”

Maddy retreated to her room, thankful for her mental and physical exhaustion, for it hammered her into sleep and kept her from dwelling on the things she could not change.

T
HE FIREPLACE GLOWED AN
eerie bluish-green, and the logs were not consumed by the flames. Dillon found Michael, Tory,
and Winston around the fire, drinking from mugs as if this were some sort of cozy retreat—but the worn looks on their faces were anything but cozy.

Winston saw Dillon first as he entered the room and threw him that we-should-not-be-here kind of gaze.

“Don't say it,” Dillon said.

“I ain't saying nothing,” Winston answered, too tired to sublimate his Alabaman drawl. “I'm just gonna sit here and sip my egg nog and pretend like it's Christmas.”

Dillon got close to the fire to find its blue glow gave off no warmth. Instead, what little warmth there was came through the furnace vents around the room. This cold could not be kept outside. Dillon glanced out of the window. The fog was cotton dense, and showed no sign of lifting. A mirror of Michael's state of mind.

“At first,” said Michael, “I thought Tessic was bringing us to lower Manhattan.” The fog outside grew a bit dense. “It scared me to think so big. But Tessic thought bigger.”

Dillon couldn't help but think that was also somewhere in Tessic's plans. Where others saw sacred ground, Tessic saw opportunity.

“At least Okoya will know where to look for us now,” Dillon said.

“How can you be sure he's even looking?” Tory asked.

“I doubt that Okoya is biting his nails in Texas,” Dillon said. “And no matter how much of a media blackout Tessic tries to impose on this, Okoya will know where we are—and remember we're closer to the island of Thira than we were two days ago.”

“You have a thousand reasons to stay, don't you, Dillon?” Michael grumbled. “A thousand reasons why we should keep dragging up the dead.”

“You say it like it's something terrible. It's not like we're bringing back empty shells—these people are coming back complete, in perfect health, and with their souls intact. What we're doing is incredible! It's
important
.”

“It's immoral!” Tory moved closer to the fire. “Hell, everything we do is immoral because we're unnatural.”

“No we're not,” Dillon insisted. “We're just a side of nature that's rarely seen.” He watched Tory rub her arms for warmth, but now the flames had turned from blue to green and were actually drawing heat from the room. Dillon knew it was his presence. As his own power recovered, the logs were unburning, adding to Michael's chill.

Wintston put down his mug with a shaky hand. “We're outside of morality now.”

“Careful, Winston,” Tory warned. “We put ourselves above morality before, and you know what happened.”

“Not
above
morality,” he explained, “outside of the framework entirely. I mean, is bringing back people who never should have died an ultimate justice, or an ultimate wrong? Morality's got no answer for the things we do. It's got no answer for
us
.”

Michael spat out a resigned laugh. “And you know what they did to the last person who brought back the dead.”

Dillon shivered at the thought. There was a time a year ago that he might have felt up to the comparison, but not anymore. “I don't want to be crucified or worshiped.”

“Oh, I think we're gonna catch ourselves a whole lotta both,” Winston said.

“Yeah,” added Michael. “I'm sure a thousand years from now they're going to have whole universities and seminaries devoted to studying every stupid little thing we did.”

Tory paced to the nearest heat vent, giving up on the fire.
“Can we not talk about a thousand years from now and just get through today?”

“You have to understand how it is for Tory and me,” Michael said. “For both of us, the disaster at Hoover Dam is just a few days old. We never had time to recover from that, and now we're in the middle of this. I don't know about Tory, but we're working on my last thread of sanity here.”

“I wouldn't worry, Michael,” said Winston. “You gotta have a mind to lose it.”

“Yeah, yeah, so I hear.”

“I feel like everything's resting on Okoya and I don't like it,” Tory said. “ ‘Is Okoya going to find us?' ‘Is Okoya going to show us what we're supposed to do?' The more wired in he becomes, the more likely he'll turn on us again, trying to use us like he did before.”