Shadowplay (30 page)

“Why?” I whispered.

“It’s one reason I had to find you. Because you might be ill. You might be dying.”

And Maske, Cyan, and Drystan walked back into the parlor to see me fainting into a boneless heap on the floor.

 

I dipped in and out of consciousness as they took me back to the Kymri Theatre. Up in the loft, Drystan removed my coat and shoes. I was in his bed rather than my own. I stared at the ceiling, focusing on my body. Was I ill? I did not feel as though I was dying. Not so much as a cold had troubled me. I did not know what Doctor Pozzi meant, and I did not know if I could trust him. But I needed answers.

And I had now fainted or nearly fainted three times, when before that, I’d never fainted in my life. A tiny corner of my mind wondered if he was right.

Drystan came in, visibly relieved when he saw I was awake.

“What happened?”

“The Royal Physician.”

He frowned. “What about him? What did he do?”

“He’s Doctor Pozzi, the man who gave me to my parents. And he was the second client of Shadow Elwood.”

“Styx.”

“Yeah.”

“What does he want?”

I told him.

“Are you going to go?”

“Do I have any choice?” He didn’t threaten me, but if I didn’t go, he knew who I was, where I worked, where I lived.

I rubbed my temples. I decided not to tell him what Doctor Pozzi had said about my health. I had no proof. And, truth be told, I could not say “I might be dying” aloud.

“Do you want me to come with you?” he asked.

I nodded. “Not into his house, but if you were nearby, it would be a comfort.”

“Of course.” He settled into the bed, wrapping an arm around me.

“Considering how often we’re sleeping in each other’s beds, maybe we should push them together.”

He made an affirmative noise against my hair. “Tomorrow. Can’t be bothered tonight.”

“Agreed.”

The strong, steady beating of his heart lulled me to sleep.

 

 

24

LADY’S LONG NIGHT

 

“The Cruel Prince and the Wooden Staff,” Hestia’s Fables.

 

The low gong of the doorbell tolled.

“I’ll get it!” I cried, bounding down the stairs from the loft and dashing to the door. I dampened my enthusiasm long enough to check through the peephole that it was the guest I was expecting.

Earlier that afternoon, I had waited for Cyril at the spot I mentioned in my note, breaking into a smile when I saw him walking up the path of the park toward the fountain where I stood. We hadn’t spoken properly since he’d come to the circus and tried to convince me to go home. He knew I was wanted by the law, but I hadn’t been able to properly explain. So over a cup of coffee I’d told him about what really happened the night R.H. Ragona’s Circus of Magic fell. Grief and guilt still hit me in the stomach. I would never forgive myself for the mistakes I had made. I would never forgive myself for Aenea, and for the clowns I hurt.

He’d understood, as I’d hoped he would, though I could tell he hurt for me, and realized that I was, in many ways, a completely different person from the sister he had climbed trees with. He in turn told me about what happened at home – that mother drank more than ever and might be coming to Imachara for the “ladies’ spa”, the polite phrase for the Fir Tree Hospital for Women, which had two wings: an asylum and a treatment center.

“Is this my fault?” I gasped.

Cyril hesitated. “You may have been the catalyst, but it’s not your fault. They knew what they planned to do to you, and they’re the ones who chose to lie. Mother and Father haven’t been getting along for some time now. It’s her idea to go – to make sure she’s better before she grows any worse.”

He didn’t try to convince me to come home with him again – he knew that home was broken. I decided to invite him around to the Kymri Theatre for Lady’s Long Night, for levity and to put him at ease about my new life. Hopefully. I knew I could trust him with it – if there was anyone I trusted, it was Cyril, the brother who’d always been there for me.

Now, I threw open the door, dragged Cyril into the hallway and embraced him. He hugged me back. The others came into the foyer to greet us, and then gaped at me.

I wore a dress of cheap muslin. It felt strange to have skirts swishing around my ankles again. I bought it on the sly a few weeks ago, and decided that having my brother come to visit on Lady’s Long Night was as good an excuse as any to dress up. I had even attempted a hair style with my shorn locks, though it ended up looking more like Lily Verre’s, with bits escaping the pins and falling into my face.

“It’s my sister!” Cyril exclaimed. “She’s all grown up.”

“I could still beat you in a fight and you know it.”

“Oh yeah?”

“You know it. I’ve more muscles now.” I strove for composure. “Cyril, these are the friends I live and work with. Well, you’ve already met them after a fashion. Jasper Maske is the head magician and our teacher. Cyan led the séance and is a magician, and Drystan is also a magician and, um, my good friend.” I trailed off, blushing. Drystan’s eyebrows rose, but he smiled. I fought the urge to shuffle my feet like a shy child.

“Pleased to make your acquaintance, Lord Laurus,” Maske said, shaking hands.

“Please, call me Cyril.”

Cyan gave my brother an approving look from the top of his head to his toes.

Hey!
I thought at her.
You have your sailor.

She sent me a smirk, but kept her face pleasant as she held out her hand to Cyril. “Lovely to meet you. Again.”

“You’re not as frightening today.”

She laughed. “I’m glad.”

I shot a look at Drystan, who also gave me a smirk.

“Come in,” I said, playing the host. “Are you going to spend Lady’s Long Night with us?”

“If you’ll have me. I told Mother and Father that I was going to the cathedral with Oswin.”

“Wonderful! How is Oswin, by the way?” I asked as I led him to the kitchen while Maske made a pot of coffee.

“He’s good. Engaged to Tara Cypress. They’ll marry when he finishes university.”

Engaged. So strange. Once, there had been talk of Oswin and I… but that would never happen now.

“Hah, he got into university?” I tried to make light of it. “Can’t believe he passed his exams.”

“It was a near thing.”

We lapsed into silence as Maske poured the coffee into our cracked cups. I stirred my customary sugar and milk into it, but Cyril kept his black. My brother looked about with unabashed curiosity at my new surroundings.

Drystan kept sneaking glances at me.

“What?” I asked, resisting the urge to pat my hair.

“You look different.”

“You’ve seen me in a dress before.” I smoothed my hands down my skirts. “What, do I look silly?”

“Not at all,” he said with a smile that warmed me straight through.

Normally, people exchanged presents right before they went to sleep on Lady’s Long Night, but we opened ours before going to the cathedral, since Cyril would make his way home straight from there. We passed our wrapped parcels around. Cyril brought little presents of sweets for Maske, Cyan, and Drystan as well as me. He also gave me a stash of coins, which I protested but was secretly grateful for, and he brought some of the possessions I had left home without – some of my old Ephram Finnes novels and a new one to go with them, a blank leather-bound diary, my half-filled sketchpad, and my music sheets for the piano. I ran my fingers along my old possessions, half smiling. They were familiar, yet they did not feel as though they belonged to me at all.

Cyan gave me a preserved dragonfly cocoon from Temri, painted a bright blue and lined with gilt paint. I thanked her with a nod. I gave Cyan a pot of gold eye paint I had seen her linger over at a marketplace, and to Maske I gave – well, a mask. It reminded me of him, the Maske of Magic, made of black velvet embroidered with six-pointed stars, the thin crescent of a moon curling over an eye. He said that if we won the duel, he’d wear it for his first performance.

Drystan and I exchanged gifts last. He had been the most difficult person to find a present for. In the end, I gave him a small flute that sounded a bit like an owl’s call, for he used to sometimes borrow Sayid’s instruments and play at the fireside at the circus. I bought him the nicest I could afford, with little vines carved into the wood and colored with green enamel. His face lit up when he opened the case and I flushed with pleasure that he liked it.

When I opened his present, I felt as though I had offered him a lowly trinket. He gave me a necklace that was somehow neither masculine nor feminine, but just right for me. It was long enough that I could hide it underneath my clothing and was made of thin metal rectangles strung together. Each had an Alder word engraved on them, like “luck” and “faith” and “goodness” and… “love”.

I blinked so that the others would not see the tears that marred my vision. Drystan seemed to understand. He put the necklace on me and it settled under my clothes. We finished our drinks and the cold metal of the necklace warmed against my skin.

We made our way down to the Celestial Cathedral as dusk fell. It was the night of the Penmoon, and so all of the Penglass glowed blue, tingeing the snow around us. I steeled myself against its wordless call. I tried to recall the glyph I had seen in the vision of Anisa and Matla, but though I could recall the general shape, the rest eluded me. Did Cyan remember? There were so many more secrets inside of them, I was sure of it, but perhaps it was for the best I didn’t remember. I had enough mysteries.

On the long promenade that led down to the Snakewood Palace, floats draped with white fabric fluttered in the winter wind. Snowflakes danced from the clouds. We bustled through the crowds until we found a good view of the parade. Men and women dressed as Chimaera – angels, dragonkind, mermaids, and others – waved as the floats moved down the boulevard. They wore all white, as though frosted, the blue light of Penglass settling on them like a shawl.

Music drifted through the streets. Imachara was fragmented lately, with the rising Forester protests, but at that moment, any animosity faded away as the citizens listened to the flute music rising and falling with the whistle of the wind, mesmerized by the slow waving of the false Chimaera.

After the parade had made its way back to the Snakewood Palace, we went to the Celestial Cathedral, our feet sliding on the frosty pavement. It was the largest cathedral in the city; its spires of white and dark marble some of the tallest in the city.

I did not consider myself particularly religious, but there was something about sitting on a pew under such a high manmade ceiling, and seeing the monumental religious figures in the stained glass that made me feel so small. I liked the near silence, but for the low murmurs of a few prayers, or the shuffle of feet. Like holding one’s breath.

The High Priest trundled onto the stage, awkward in his heavy white and gold vestments. He led the people in prayer, and I mumbled the verses along with the countless others around me. I lifted my eyes to the windows, wondering if the Lord and Lady heard our prayers.

The priest finished his sermon, and relinquished the stage to the choir. Two dozen men and women in dark blue robes embroidered with stars lifted their faces toward heaven and sang, their sweet voices reverberating throughout the cathedral. Drystan’s hand found its way into mine. They sang of love of the night and the day, and how the darkness made the stars and moon shine that much brighter.

When the last note faded, the silence was absolute.

And then it shattered.

A keening wail echoed about the chambers, so loud that I clapped my hands to my ears. All the gas lights outside on the street and inside the cathedral extinguished, leaving only the glass globe chandelier bathing everyone in an unearthly glow. Outside, a loud voice asked all to gather around.

My hand still clasping Drystan’s, I filed out with the others. Faces were tight with worry. Curiosity drove us forth.

Timur, the leader of the Foresters, stood on a makeshift podium in the square outside the Celestial Cathedral opposite the Royal Palace – the same square where Foresters had protested in the autumn. He waited, arms open, for us to gather below.

“Friends, welcome. I thank you for joining us on this most special occasion. The Long Night of the Lady.” He gestured at the moon. “I apologize for interrupting your festivities. But the Long Night of the Lady marks a new beginning. The night grows shorter. The light wins against the battle of darkness, snow melting into the life of spring.”