Shadow Puppets (18 page)

He said nothing at all for a long time.

“I did not say that.”

“Of course you did,” said Petra. “It was the premise underlying everything else you said. But you don’t seem to realize that you have told this, not to an enemy, but to a friend.”

“If you are a friend of God,” said Lankowski, “why do you not obey his law?”

“But I did not say I was a friend of God,” said Petra. “Only that I was a friend of yours. Some of us cannot live your law, but we can still admire those who do, and wish them well, and help them when we can.”

“And come to us for safety because in our world there is safety to be had, while in your world there is none.”

“Fair enough,” said Petra.

“You are an interesting girl,” said Lankowski.

“I’ve commanded soldiers in war,” said Petra, “and I’m married, and I might very well be pregnant. When do I stop being just a girl? Under Islamic law, I mean.”

“You are a girl because you are at least forty years younger than I am. It has nothing to do with Islamic law. When you are sixty and I am a hundred, inshallah, you will still be a girl to me.”

“Bean is dead, isn’t he?” asked Petra.

Lankowski looked startled. “No,” he said at once. It was a blurt, unprepared for, and Petra believed him.

“Then something terrible has happened that you can’t bear to tell me. My parents—have they been hurt?”

“Why do you think such a thing?”

“Because you’re a courteous man. Because your people changed my ticket and brought me here and promised I’d be reunited with my husband. And in all this time we’ve been walking and riding together, you have never so much as hinted about when or whether I would see Bean.”

“I apologize for being remiss,” said Lankowski. “Your husband boarded a later flight that came by a different route, but he is coming. And your family is fine, or at least we have no reason to think they’re not.”

“And yet you are still hesitant,” said Petra.

“There was an incident,” said Lankowski. “Your husband is safe. Uninjured. But there was an attempt to kill him. We think if you had been the one who got into the first cab, it would not have been a murder attempt. It would have been a kidnapping.”

“And why do you think that? The one who wants my husband dead wants me dead as well.”

“Ah, but he wants what you have inside you even more,” said Lankowski.

It took only a moment for her to make the logical assumption about why he would know that. “They’ve taken the embryos,” she said.

“The security guard received a rise in salary from a third party, and in return he allowed someone to remove your frozen embryos.”

Petra had known Volescu was lying about being able to tell which babies had Anton’s Key. But now Bean would know it, too. They both knew the value of Bean’s babies on the open market, and that the highest price would come if the babies had Anton’s Key in their DNA, or the would-be buyers believed they did.

She found herself breathing too rapidly. It would do no good to hyperventilate. She forced herself to calm down.

Lankowski reached out and patted her hand lightly. Yes, he sees that I’m upset. I don’t yet have Bean’s skill at hiding what I feel. Though of course his skill might be the simple result of not feeling anything.

Bean would know that Volescu had deceived them. For all they knew, the baby in her womb might be afflicted with Bean’s condition. And Bean had vowed that he would never have children with Anton’s Key.

“Have there been any ransom demands?” she asked Lankowski.

“Alas, no,” he replied. “We do not think they wish to trouble themselves with the near impossibility of trying to obtain money from you. The risk of being outsmarted and arrested in the process of trying to exchange items of value is too high, perhaps, when compared with the risk involved in selling your babies to third parties.”

“I think the risks involved in that are very nearly zero,” said Petra.

“Then we agree on the assessment. Your babies will be safe, if that’s any consolation.”

“Safe to be raised by monsters,” said Petra.

“Perhaps they don’t see themselves that way.”

“Are you confessing that you people are in the market for one of them to raise to be your boy or girl genius?”

“We do not traffic in stolen flesh,” said Lankowski. “We long had a problem with a slave trade that would not die. Now if someone is caught owning or selling or buying or transporting a slave, or being
in an official position and tolerating slavery, the penalty is death. And the trials are swift, the appeals never granted. No, Mrs. Delphiki, we are not a good place for someone to bring stolen embryos to try to sell them.”

Even in her concern about her children—her potential children—she realized what he had just confessed: That the “we” he spoke of was not Syria, but rather some kind of pan-Islamic shadow government that did not, officially at least, exist. An authority that transcended nations.

That was what Lankowski meant when he said that he worked for the Syrian government “as often as not.” Because as often as not he worked for a government higher than that of Syria.

They already have their own rival to the Hegemon.

“Perhaps someday,” she said, “my children will be trained and used to help defend some nation from Muslim conquest.”

“Since Muslims do not invade other nations anymore, I wonder how such a thing could happen?”

“You have Alai sequestered here somewhere. What is he doing, making baskets or pottery to sell at the fair?”

“Are those the only choices you see? Pottery-making or aggressive war?”

But his denials did not interest her. She knew her analysis was as correct as it could be without more data—his denial was not a disproof, it was more likely to be an inadvertent confirmation.

What interested her now was Bean. Where was he? When would he get to Damascus? What would he do about the missing embryos?

Or at least that was what she tried to pretend to herself that she was interested in.

Because all she could really think, in an undercurrent monologue that kept shouting at her from deep inside her mind, was:

He
has my babies.

Not the Pied Piper, prancing them away from town. Not Baba Yaga, luring them into her house on chicken legs. Not the witch in
the gingerbread cottage, keeping them in cages and fattening them up. None of those grey fantasies. Nothing of fog and mist. Only the absolute black of a place where no light shines, where light is not even remembered.

That’s where her babies were.

In the belly of the Beast.

The car came to a stop at a simple platform. The underground road went on, to destinations Petra did not bother trying to guess. For all she knew, the tunnel ran to Baghdad, to Amman, under the mountains to Ankara, maybe even under the radioactive desert to arise in the place where the ancient stone waits for the half-life of the half-life of the half-life of death to pass, so pilgrims can come again on haj.

Lankowski reached out a hand and helped her from the car, though she was young and he was old. His attitude toward her was strange, as if he had to treat her very carefully. As if she was not robust, as if she could easily break.

And it was true. She was the one who could break. Who broke.

Only I can’t break now. Because maybe I still have one child. Maybe putting this one inside me did not kill it, but gave it life. Maybe it has taken root in my garden and will blossom and bear fruit, a baby on a short twisted stem. And when the fruit is plucked, out will come stem and root as well, leaving the garden empty. And where will the others be then? They have been taken to grow in someone else’s plot. Yet I will not break now, because I have this one, perhaps this one.

“Thank you,” she said to Lankowski. “But I’m not so fragile as to need help getting out of a car.”

He smiled at her, but said nothing. She followed him into the elevator and they rose up into…

A garden. As lush as the Philippine jungle clearing where Peter gave the order that would bring the Beast into their house, driving them out.

She saw that the courtyard was glassed over. That’s why it was so humid here. That’s how it stayed so moist. Nothing was given up to the dry desert air.

Sitting quietly on a stone chair in the middle of the garden was a tall, slender man, his skin the deep cacao brown of the upper Niger where he had been born.

She did not walk up to him at once, but stood admiring what she saw. The long legs, clad not in the business suit that had been the uniform of westerners for centuries now, but in the robes of a sheik. His head was not covered, however. And there was no beard on his chin. Still young, and yet also now a man.

“Alai,” she murmured. So softly that she doubted he could hear.

And perhaps he did not hear, but chose that moment only by coincidence, to turn and see her. His brooding expression softened into a smile. But it was not the boyish grin that she had known when he bounded along the low-gravity inner corridors of Battle School. This smile had weariness in it, and old fears long mastered but still present. It was the smile of wisdom.

She realized then why Alai had disappeared from view.

He is Caliph. They have chosen a Caliph again, all the Muslim world under the authority of one man, and it is Alai.

She could not know this, not just from his place here in a garden. Yet she knew from the way he sat in it that this was a throne. She knew from the way she was brought here, with no trappings of power, no guards, no passwords, just a simple man of elegant courtesy leading her to the boy-man seated on the ancient throne. Alai’s power was spiritual. In all of Damascus there was no safer place than here. No one would bother him. Millions would die before letting an uninvited stranger set foot here.

He beckoned to her, and it was the gentle invitation of a holy man. She did not have to obey him, and he would not mind if she did not come. But she came.

“Salaam,” said Alai.

“Salaam,” said Petra.

“Stone girl,” he said.

“Hi,” she said. The old joke between them, him punning on the meaning of her name in the original Greek, her punning on the
jai
of
jai alai
.

“I’m glad you’re safe,” he said.

“Your life has changed since you regained your freedom.”

“And yours, too,” said Alai. “Married now.”

“A good Catholic wedding.”

“You should have invited me,” he said.

“You couldn’t have come,” she said.

“No,” he agreed. “But I would have wished you well.”

“Instead you have done well by us when we needed it most.”

“I’m sorry that I did nothing to protect the other…children. But I didn’t know about them in time. And I assumed that Bean and you would have had enough security…no, no, please, I’m sorry, I’m reminding you of pain instead of soothing you.”

She sank down and sat on the ground before his throne, and he leaned over to gather her into his arms. She rested her head and arms on his lap, and he stroked her hair. “When we were children, playing the greatest computer game in the world, we had no idea.”

“We were saving the world.”

“And now we’re creating the world we saved.”

“Not me,” said Petra. “I’m no longer a player.”

“Are any of us players?” said Alai. “Or are we only the pieces moved in someone else’s game?”

“Inshallah,” said Petra.

She had rather expected Alai to chuckle, but he only nodded. “Yes, that is our belief, that all that happens comes from the will of God. But I think it is not your belief.”

“No, we Christians have to guess the will of God and try to bring it to pass.”

“It feels the same, when things are happening,” said Alai. “Some
times you think that you’re in control, because you make things change by your own choices. And then something happens that sweeps all your plans away as if they were nothing, just pieces on a chessboard.”

“Shadows that children make on the wall,” said Petra, “and someone turns the light off.”

“Or turns a brighter one on,” said Alai, “and the shadows disappear.”

“Alai,” said Petra, “will you let us go again? I know your secret.”

“Yes, I’ll let you go,” said Alai. “The secret can’t be kept for long. Too many people know it already.”

“We would never tell.”

“I know,” said Alai. “Because we were once in Ender’s jeesh. But I’m in another jeesh now. I stand at the head of it, because they asked me to do it, because they said God had chosen me. I don’t know about that. I don’t hear the voice of God, I don’t feel his power inside me. But they come to me with their plans, their questions, the conflicts between nations, and I offer suggestions. And they take them. And things work out. So far at least, they’ve always worked. So perhaps I am chosen by God.”

“Or you’re very clever.”

“Or very lucky.” Alai looked at his hands. “Still, it’s better to believe that some high purpose guides our steps than to think that nothing matters except our own small miseries and happinesses.”

“Unless our happiness
is
the high purpose.”

“If our happiness is the purpose of God,” said Alai, “why are so few of us happy?”