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Authors: Daniel Abraham
Shadow and Betrayal (86 page)
Sinja nodded, taking a pose that expressed his understanding. Otah smiled, and wondered what memories the commander carried with him. From the distance in his eyes, it couldn’t all have been blood and terror. Something of it must have been worth keeping.
‘You’ve decided, then,’ Sinja said. ‘Amiit-cha was thinking he’d need to speak with you about the issue soon. Things will be moving in Machi as soon as the mourning’s done.’
‘I know. And yes, I’ve decided.’
‘Would you mind if I asked why you chose to stay?’
Otah turned and let himself down into the room. He took two bowls from the cabinet and poured deep red wine into both before he answered. Sinja took the one he was offered and drank half at a swig. Otah sat on the table, his feet on the seat of the bench, and swirled the red of the wine against the bone white of the bowl.
‘Someone killed my father and my brothers.’
‘You didn’t know them,’ Sinja said. ‘Don’t tell me this is love.’
‘They killed my old family. Do you think they’d hesitate to kill my new one?’
‘Spoken like a man,’ Sinja said, raising his bowl in salute. ‘The gods all know it won’t be easy. As long as the utkhaiem think you’ve done everything you’re accused of, they’ll kill you first and crown you after. You’ll have to find who did the thing and feed them to the crowds, and even then half of them will think you’re guilty and clever. But if you don’t do the thing . . . No, I think you’re right. The options are live in fear or take the world by the balls. You can be the Khai Machi, or you can be the Khai Machi’s victim. I don’t see a third way.’
‘I’ll take the first. And I’ll be glad about it. It’s only . . .’
‘You mourn that other life, I know. It comes with leaving your boyhood behind.’
‘I wouldn’t have thought I was still just a boy.’
‘It doesn’t matter what you’ve done or seen. Every man’s a child until he’s a father. It’s the way the world’s made.’
Otah raised his brows and took a pose of query only slightly hampered by the bowl of wine.
‘Oh yes, several,’ Sinja said. ‘So far the mothers haven’t met one another, so that’s all for the best. But your woman? Kiyan-cha?’
Otah nodded.
‘I traveled with her for a time,’ Sinja said. ‘I’ve never met another like her, and I’ve known more than my share of women. You’re lucky to have her, even if it means freezing your prick off for half the year up here in the north.’
‘Are you telling me you’re in love with my lover?’ Otah asked, half joking, half serious.
‘I’m saying she’s worth giving up the sea for,’ Sinja said. He finished the last of his wine, spun the bowl on the table, and then clapped Otah’s shoulder. Otah met his gaze for a moment before Sinja turned and strode out. Otah looked into the wine bowl again, smelled the memory of grapes hot from the sun, and drank it down. Outside, the sun broke through, and the green of the trees and blue of the sky where it peeked past the gray and white and yellow clouds showed vibrant as something newly washed.
Their quarters were down a short corridor, and then through a thin wooden door on leather hinges halfway to wearing through. Kiyan lay on the cot, the netting pulled around her to keep the gnats and mosquitoes off. Otah slipped through and lay gently beside her, watching her eyes flutter and her lips take up a smile as she recognized him.
‘I heard you talking,’ she said, sleep slurring the words.
‘Sinja-cha came up.’
‘What was the matter?’
‘Nothing,’ he said, and kissed her temple. ‘We were only talking about the sea.’
Cehmai closed the door of the poet’s house again and started pacing the length of the room. The storm in the back of his mind was hardly a match for the one at the front. Stone-Made-Soft, sitting at the empty, cold brazier, looked up. Its face showed a mild interest.
‘Trees still there?’ the andat asked.
‘Yes.’
‘And the sky?’
‘And the sky.’
‘But still no girl.’
Cehmai dropped onto the couch, his hands worrying each other, restless. The andat sighed and went back to its contemplation of the ashes and fire-black metal. Cehmai smelled smoke in the air. It was likely just the forges, but his mind made the scent into Idaan’s father and brother burning. He stood up again, walked to the door, turned back and sat down again.
‘You could go out and look for her,’ the andat said.
‘And why should I find her now? The mourning week’s almost done. You think if she wanted me, there wouldn’t have been word? I just . . . I don’t understand it.’
‘She’s a woman. You’re a man.’
‘Your point being?’
The andat didn’t reply. It might as well have been a statue. Cehmai probed at the connection between them, at the part of him that was the binding of the andat, but Stone-Made-Soft was in retreat. It had never been so passive in all the years Cehmai had held it. The quiet was a blessing, though he didn’t understand it. He had enough to work through, and he was glad not to have his burden made any heavier.
‘I shouldn’t have been angry with Maati-kvo,’ Cehmai said. ‘I shouldn’t have confronted him like that.’
‘No?’
‘No. I should have gone back to the Master of Tides and told him what Maati-kvo had said. Instead, I promised him five days, and now three of them have passed and I can’t do anything but chew at the grass.’
‘You can break promises,’ the andat said. ‘It’s the definition, really. A promise is something that can be broken. If it can’t, it’s something else.’
‘You’re singularly unhelpful,’ Cehmai said. The andat nodded as if remembering something, and then was still again. Cehmai stood, went to the shutters, and opened them. The trees were still lush with summer - the green so deep and rich he could almost see the autumn starting to creep in at the edge. In winter, he could see the towers rising up to the sky through the bare branches. Now he only knew they were there. He turned to look at the path that led back to the palaces, then went to the door, opened it, and looked down it, willing someone to be there. Willing Idaan’s dark eyes to greet his own.
‘I don’t know what to do about Adrah Vaunyogi. I don’t know if I should back him or not.’
‘For something you consider singularly unhelpful, I seem to receive more than my share of your troubles.’
‘You aren’t real,’ Cehmai said. ‘You’re like talking to myself.’
The andat seemed to weigh that for a moment, then took a pose that conceded the point. Cehmai looked out again, then closed the door.
‘I’m going to lose my mind if I stay here. I have to do something,’ he said. Stone-Made-Soft didn’t respond, so Cehmai tightened the straps of his boots, stood, and pulled his robes into place. ‘Stay here.’
‘All right.’
Cehmai paused at the door, one foot already outside, and turned back.
‘Does nothing bother you?’ he asked the andat.
‘Being,’ Stone-Made-Soft suggested.
The palaces were still draped with rags of mourning cloth, the dry, steady beat of the funeral drum and the low wailing dirges still the only music. Cehmai took poses of greeting to the utkhaiem whom he passed. At the burning, they had all worn pale mourning cloth. Now, as the week wore on, there were more colors in the robes - here a mix of pale cloth and yellow or blue, there a delicate red robe with a wide sash of mourning cloth. No one went without, but few followed the full custom. It reminded Cehmai of a snow lily, green under the white and budding, swelling, preparing to burst out into new life and growth, new conflict and struggle. The sense of sorrow was slipping from Machi, and the sense of opportunity was coming forth.
He found he could not say whether that reassured or disgusted him. Perhaps both.
Idaan was, of course, not at her chambers. The servants assured him that she had been by - she was in the city, she hadn’t truly vanished. Cehmai thanked them and continued on his way to the palace of the Vaunyogi. He didn’t allow himself to think too deeply about what he was going to do or say. It would happen soon enough anyway.
A servant brought him to one of the inner courtyards to wait. An apple tree stood open to the air, its fruits unpecked by birds. Still unripe. Cehmai sat on a low stone bench and watched the branches bob as sparrows landed and took wing. His mind was deeply unquiet. On the one hand, he had to see Idaan, had to speak with her at least if not hold her against him. On the other, he could not bring himself to love Adrah Vaunyogi only because she loved him. And the secret he held twisted in his breast. Otah Machi lived . . .
‘Cehmai-cha.’
Adrah was dressed in full mourning robes. His eyes were sunken and bloodshot, his movements sluggish. He looked like a man haunted. Cehmai wondered how much sleep Adrah had managed in these last days. He wondered how many of those late hours had been spent comforting Idaan. The image of Idaan, her body entwined with Adrah’s, flashed in his mind and was pressed away. Cehmai took a pose of greeting.
‘I’m pleased you’ve come,’ Adrah said. ‘You’ve considered what I said?’
‘Yes, Adrah-cha. I have. But I’m concerned for Idaan-cha. I’m told she’s been by her apartments, but I haven’t been able to find her. And now, with the mourning week almost gone . . .’
‘You’ve been looking for her, then?’
‘I wished to offer my condolences. And then, after our conversation, I thought it would be wise to consult her on the matter as well. If it were not her will to go on living in the palaces after all that’s happened, I would feel uncomfortable lending my support to a cause that would require it.’
Adrah’s eyes narrowed, and Cehmai felt a touch of heat in his cheeks. He coughed, looked down, and then, composed once again, raised his eyes to Adrah. He half expected to see rage there, but Adrah seemed pleased. Perhaps he was not so obvious as he felt. Adrah sat on the bench beside him, leaning in toward him as if they were intimate friends.
‘But if you could satisfy yourself that this is what she would wish, you’re willing? You would back me for her sake?’
‘It’s what would be best for the city,’ Cehmai said, trying to make it sound more like agreement than denial. ‘The sooner the question is resolved, the better we all are. And Idaan-cha would provide a sense of continuity, don’t you think?’
‘Yes,’ Adrah said. ‘I think she would.’
They sat silent for a moment. The sense that Adrah knew or suspected something crept into Cehmai’s throat, drawing it tight. He tried to calm himself; there was ultimately nothing Adrah could do to him. He was the poet of Machi, and the city itself rode on his shoulders and on Stone-Made-Soft. But Adrah was about to marry Idaan, and she loved him. There was quite a bit Adrah might yet do to hurt her.
‘We’re allies, then,’ Adrah said at last. ‘You and I. We’ve become allies.’
‘I suppose we have. Provided Idaan-cha . . .’
‘She’s here,’ Adrah said. ‘I’ll take you to her. She’s been here since her brother died. We thought it would be best if she were able to grieve in private. But if we need to break into her solitude now in order to assure her future for the rest of her life, I don’t think there’s any question what the right thing is to do.’
‘I don’t . . . I don’t mean to intrude.’
Adrah grinned and slapped him on the back. He rose as he spoke.
‘Never concern yourself with that, Cehmai-kya. You’ve come to our aid on an uncertain day. Think of us as your family now.’
‘That’s very kind,’ Cehmai said, but Adrah was already striding away, and he had to hurry to keep pace.
He had never been so far into the halls and chambers that belonged to the Vaunyogi before. The dark stone passageways down which Cehmai was led seemed simpler than he had expected. The halls, more sparely furnished. Only the statuary - bronze likenesses of emperors and of the heads of the Vaunyogi - spoke of the wealth of a high family of the utkhaiem, and these were displayed in the halls and courtyards with such pride that they seemed more to point out the relative spareness of their surroundings than to distract from it. Diamonds set in brass.
Adrah spoke little, but when he did, his voice and demeanor were pleasant enough. Cehmai felt himself watched, evaluated. There was some reason that Adrah was showing him these signs of a struggling family - the worn tapestry, the great ironwork candleholders filled with half a hundred candles of tallow instead of wax, the empty incense burners, the long stairway leading up to the higher floors that still showed the marks where cloth runners had once softened the stone corners and no longer did - but Cehmai couldn’t quite fathom it. In another man, at another time, it would have been a humbling thing to show a poet through a compound like this, but Adrah seemed anything but humble. It might have been a challenge or a play for Cehmai’s sympathy. Or it might have been a boast.
My house has little, and still Idaan chose me
.
My house has little, and still Idaan chose me
.
They stopped at last at a wide door - dark wood inlaid with bone and black stone. Adrah knocked, and when a servant girl opened the door a fraction, he pressed his way in, gesturing Cehmai to follow. They were summer quarters with wide arched windows, the shutters open to the air. Silk banners with the yellow and gray of the Vaunyogi bellied and fluttered in the breeze, as graceful as dancers. A desk stood at one wall, a brick of ink and a metal pen sitting on it, ready should anyone wish to use them. This room smelled of cedar and sandalwood. And sitting in one of the sills, her feet out over the void, Idaan. Cehmai breathed in deep, and let the air slide out slowly, taking with it a tension he’d only half known he carried. She turned, looking at them over her shoulder. Her face was unpainted, but she was just as lovely as she had ever been. The bare, unadorned skin reminded Cehmai of the soft curve of her mouth when she slept and the slow, languorous way she stretched when she was on the verge of waking.
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