Sexual Desires of a Woman (9 page)

“Good morning beautiful” he said.

I can’t believe it is already 10 o’clock. I dreamt of her last night. The things she did to me, the way she made me feel. Jake has never made me feel that way, in that aspect. I feel so guilty for having these dreams about her now that I am married. This is so wrong. I should only be thinking this way about my husband. I need to stop this. I can’t see her again. I just can’t. Seeing her makes me think dirty and I just can’t think that way about a women.

It’s not me. Maybe if I just don’t see her I will be able to get her out of my head.

“Hey do you want to go to breakfast?”

“Sure honey, let me take a shower and then we can go.”

I get up to get dressed and decide to go join him in the shower. I mean, I am not into women. I have never felt that way before so it’s just a phase or something. I get in the shower and begin to lather soap on myself. Jake assists me. He always wants it. He has a very high sex drive. We go out to breakfast to a place by the beach. Hearing the waves makes me think about Sasha. I imagine her kissing me, and my neck.

“Honey, are you okay?” Jake asks.

“Yes honey I am fine just a little tired.” 

We were both enjoying our breakfast when the waitress brings someone over to our table and she sits down. It’s her. It’s Sasha.

“Hi, Brooke.” She says.

“Hey, I had a great time last night; we will definitely have to do it again.” I smile. She smiles and winks at me.

“This must be your husband. Hi, I am Sasha. She has told me about you. “She lies.

Now she is having small talk with my husband. Oh no, is he going to be able to tell about the connection between us? This can’t be good. I catch myself staring at her. She looks amazing as always; her hair in curls and a nice white dress.

I look over at Jake and he is staring at her too. He is checking her out.

But I can’t get mad, or say anything, because I am doing the same thing. I bet he is imagining us together as a threesome. He has always wanted to do that. Maybe we could do that with Sasha and I could fulfill my fantasies while fulfilling his also. Is that a good idea? What he enjoys her better than me and leaves me for her? I am so jealous. I can’t do it.

“Sasha, maybe you can come to dinner with us tomorrow night?” Jake asked.

“Well I don’t want to intrude on your honeymoon.” Sasha stated.

“You would be intruding my wife doesn’t make very many friends so we should take advantage of that while we are here.”

“Honey, why were you staring at her?” He asked me.

“I was admiring her dress that’s all.” I told him.

I felt terrible for lying and trying to cover up my actions.

“Are you sure? You stared at her for like 10 minutes straight!” he said.

What do I say to that?

“I was just admiring her outfit. She looked amazing!” I told him.

Then I gave him an evil look so he would stop asking me questions.  Sasha invited out for drinks again. I didn’t tell her no when she offered because I didn’t want to be rude. But I don’t think it’s a good idea to see her alone. I don’t want to act on these feelings because then I would never be able to forgive myself. But we could just go out as friends. She might just want something to hang out with during her stay. So I decided to go ahead and do it.

“Hey I am going out for drinks for Sasha.” I told Jake.

He smiled and said bye. I walk to the door and shut it. This is going to be an interesting night.

I go to Sasha’s room to get her for drinks. I knock on her door. “Come in!” Sasha shouts. I walk in and shut the door. I look around for her and I don’t see or hear her. So I just sit down on the couch and wait. About 10 minutes later she comes out of the bathroom in only a towel. Blood rushed my entire body. Why is she doing this? Does she keep doing this on purpose? She looks at me and winks.

“Come here, follow me.” She says to me.

Do I follow her? Do I turn around and go home? What does she want? I follow her. She takes me to her bedroom. As she is getting dressed, I can’t help but watch her. She is so sexy. She moves so elegantly. She catches me watching her.

“Do you like?”She asks.

I love it. But I can’t tell her that. I don’t know if she would be offended or worse like it. I shrug my shoulders. She walks over to me and sits down next to me on her bed. She kisses me. It makes me melt.

“Have you ever kissed a woman?” Sasha asks.

“No, I haven’t done anything with a woman.” I state

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 This makes me uncomfortable but comfortable at the same time. She stares at me and starts kissing me. We kiss passionately for a couple minutes and then she starts to kiss my neck. I flinch.

“Are you okay? If you want me to stop I will. But I think you will enjoy yourself.” She tells me.

Should I say I am not okay and go home? Should I go along with it since my body is telling me I want her? I want her bad! I kiss her softly and she starts to take off my shirt, then my skirt. We are both only in bra and thongs. I could have never imagined this happening a week ago. This is a first experience for me.

She undoes my bra. I feel exposed and vulnerable. I don’t know what to do I have never been with a woman intimately. So I just lie back and let her do what she wants with me.

“You are submissive? I love that, just going to let me do what I want to you. Well sweetie, leave it up to me and you will be coming back for more.” She winks.

She starts to kiss me. She then heads for my nipples. She licks and sucks. It feels amazing. Bite. Wow that is a great feeling of rush emotion. It feels completely different with a woman. It’s like she is more in tuned what I want and what feels the best. She then goes down. She begins to lick and suck. I get a rush of pleasure. She is two times better than my husband. It doesn’t even take me 3 minutes to orgasm. But she wasn’t done. She keeps going and going. She makes me feel better than I have ever felt in my life. Why have I never been with a woman? They are amazing. It likes she knows exactly where to touch me and what to do with me to bring me ultimate pleasure. She keeps licking and kissing me. This is a different kind of pleasure. I guess because it’s with a woman and being a first time experience it makes it intense and suspenseful. An hour later, she is done.

“Okay, I think that’s enough pleasure for tonight, get some rest.” She says as I pass out.

What did I do? Jake is going to kill me. How did I end up sleeping over here? What am I going to tell him? He’s probably worried. I need to get home to him. Sasha is still asleep. She looks so cute when she sleeps. I get up and try to find my clothes without waking her up. Where did she throw them? Finally found them. As I get dressed, I look back at her one last time.

“Honey I am so sorry. I didn’t worry you did I?” I asked.

He said, “No I figured you would turn up this morning.”

He wasn’t even worried? That’s not like him at all. I told him that we were out late and we had a lot to drink so we just crashed at her room. I think he believed me and didn’t suspect a thing. I can’t help thinking about last night. It was amazing. I haven’t felt that good ever. But I think it was considered cheating. I always promised myself I would cheat on Jake. What I am going to do now? Do I tell him? Keep it a secret? It’s like a drug. I am now feigning for more. But we only have three days left here. What am I going to go when we have to leave?

Am I considered a bi-sexual now after last night? I don’t know what to consider myself anymore. I know I enjoyed it A LOT.

This honeymoon was supposed to be bringing me and Jake closer together but instead it is making me doubt myself with him. Why did it come to this? I should have never gone to her house last night. I should have stopped myself. What am I going to do now? Jake invited her out to dinner with us tonight.

How am I going to be able to sit in the middle of them and act like nothing is going on? I am going to have to prepare myself for this.

I find myself just going to sleep to forget about all of it. I need an escape for right now.

“Wake up; we are going to be late for dinner with Sasha. We don’t want to be late.” Jake said.

My worst nightmare is to be with both of them at the same time. There is no way I am going to be able face both of them without feeling guilty. Maybe I can fake sick and get out of it. So I lay in bed. Jake comes in and checks on me.

“Are you okay?” he asks.

“I am not feeling good. Why don’t you go to dinner with her?” I say.

“Okay then, love you,” he says and walks out the door.

He accepted that way too easily. Why would I tell him to go to dinner with her by himself? That’s so stupid of me. What if she tells him? He will leave me!

I have to stop this. I get up and get dressed. I head out to the restaurant.

I get there and they are nowhere to be found. So I go down to the beach thinking maybe they went walking and talking. They are nowhere to be found around here. Where would they have gone?

So I decide to go back home and see if he is at home. Nope. He surely wouldn’t have gone to her room would he? So I run over there. I don’t knock because the door is unlocked. “What are you doing?” I yell. I walk in and see Sasha and Jake kissing.

"Honey, come join us." He gestures to me to come towards him.

What is going on? He is secretly seeing her behind my back. Wait, I was doing it too. So I can't be upset about it. I can't be a hypocrite.

"I knew that you were attracted to her and she told me about the other night. She asked my permission and I told her it was fine. We have talked about this. I knew that you wanted this and I am not going to keep you from fulfilling your fantasies. I knew you would end up coming. Come over here." He said.

So he had this planned all along? He is sneaky. He is right though. I have always wanted to be with a woman just to see what it is like. I walked over to Jake and Sasha and sat down on the bed.

"So, I am not sure how this is supposed to go. This feels awkward." I told them.

"We are going to do it like this. Sasha will only perform on you and I will only perform on you. She is a lesbian. She does not like men. So you don't have to worry about that. She is just very infatuated with you and so am I." he told me.

I liked this. I couldn't stand the thought of another woman touching my husband like I do. That is my job and my job only! I kissed Jake and then Sasha pulled me away and started kissing me.

While she was kissing me, Jake undressed me.  I was sitting there completely naked in front of Sasha and Jake who wouldn't take their eyes off of me. I got up and undressed Jake and got on my knees. I wanted to thank him for letting me experience this. Even though, most men would kill to be in his shoes right now. I put his erection in my mouth and starting sucking and I saw Sasha come down beside me. She lay underneath me and starting licking my sweet spot.  It is hard to focus on Jake when I am receiving this attention also. I tried as long as I could to pleasure Jake but I couldn't focus.

Jake pulled me up and pushed me back on the bed.

"I am going to let Sasha pleasure you and then I will. You are the focus of attention tonight not me." he said with a wink.