Seeker (51 page)

She noticed the design carved into the pommel. It was not an animal. It was three interlocking ovals. It was a carving of an atom. Quin’s heart began to beat more quickly.

“Why?” she asked.

“It is my choice,” the Young Dread said. “The gift is not permanent. But this athame’s power does not solely belong to me. You will take it for a while. I have a debt to pay, and business with the other athame.”

“John has it.”

“Yes. John has it,” the girl agreed. Then she put out a hand, as a modern person would upon being introduced. “You are Quin,” she said. “I am Maud.”

“Maud,” Quin repeated, shaking the girl’s hand. The name fit. “I’m pleased to meet you, and sorry to say goodbye.”

“Not goodbye,” Maud replied. “We will meet again. Soon. Be sure of it.”

Something about the way the girl said this was not entirely pleasant, as though the next time they met, they might or might not be on the same side. Then Maud, the Young Dread, the fifteen-year-old girl who was nothing like a fifteen-year-old girl, was gone, weaving through the crowd in the direction John Hart had been running.

Quin returned with the ambulance, and the medics swarmed over Shinobu. When they’d loaded him into the vehicle, she took a seat beside him, with Fiona next to her. She gripped Shinobu’s hand tightly. He was unconscious, but she could feel his warmth and the steady beat of his heart.

It had taken her too long to realize that he was half of her, as she was of him. It had been that way since they were nine years old. She would not be whole until he was out of danger.

As they pulled away from the chaos, Quin could feel her own future lining up clearly in front of her. At one side of her waist was the athame, at the other her whipsword. On her left wrist was the brand that marked her.

Without turning away from Shinobu, she spoke.

“What am I, Mother?”

The answer was obvious, but still, Fiona took a moment to respond, as though made uneasy by the words she would say.

“You are what you were always meant to be,” she said carefully. “You are a Seeker.”

“Yes,” Quin agreed.

John had taken the leather journal. But Quin had studied it again as they’d prepared to come to London, and she knew some of what it held. There were ten images drawn in sequence, and among these had been a fox and an eagle. The fox was John’s athame, the eagle Shinobu’s—the one that had been destroyed. And there was a diagram of three interlocking ovals—that was the athame hanging at Quin’s side. That left seven other symbols. If each one represented another athame, and each athame belonged to a separate family …

Catherine, and many others, had been gathering knowledge for a long time, and the book was a trail a Seeker could follow … But to where?

Quin looked out the back window of the ambulance. The streets were getting quieter the farther they traveled from the crash site. London was growing dark around them.

“I am a Seeker, as we were in the beginning,” she said. “What do I seek? The truth. The beginning and the end. Our knowledge began somewhere, sometime. And one day it will end.”

Before they’d left Hong Kong, Quin had taken pictures of every page of the leather journal and each folded piece of vellum tucked within it. The pictures were safe, a complete copy, waiting for her. And now she had an athame as well, one that no one would be trying to steal, at least for a while.

“Seekers have lived long before you, and they’ll continue to live long after you die,” Fiona murmured. “We don’t have a choice in that, Quin.”

It was like a chant, the way her mother said it, or like a prayer she’d been taught as a girl. Quin imagined generations of Seekers all saying the same thing, all assuring their children and their children’s children that they could survive anything, that their power over life and death would last until the end of time. That killing whomever they chose to kill was within their rights.

“No,” Quin said, lacing her fingers through Shinobu’s. “We have a choice. I’m going to put an end to it. Starting with John.”

I
S IT THE END OR
SIMPLY THE BEGINNING
?

F
IND OUT IN

TRAVELER

S
PRING
2016

My first instinct is to take all the credit for this book. Is that done?

I feel sure that you, the reader, don’t need to know about the desk-pounding, karate-chopping conversation in which my agent, Jodi Reamer, lectured me with great passion about how
my own character
would or would not behave in a certain situation. I wanted to say, “Jodi, I don’t want to tell you how to do your job—scratch that, I totally want to tell you how to do your job. I created these characters. I’m like a god in this universe. A god!” Actually, it wasn’t so much that I “wanted to say” that, but that I really did say that, or some slightly less brave version of that.

Unfortunately, you begin to realize that you may be the creator in the universe of your book, but you’re not the only one who lives there. And an agent who is willing to take up residence in your world so thoroughly that she gets
ferociously angry
with you when something doesn’t seem right is absolutely priceless. An agent like that is like the best friend you’ve known since grade school, who stops you from taking drugs or sits you down to have a serious discussion about your unfortunate choices in hairstyles. She makes the world of your book better, and she makes you a better creator in that world. So, um, you know, (cough), thanks and all that, Jodi. I did pay for dinner once, so we’re probably square.

Krista Marino, if you’re reading this (that’s a joke—as my editor, I know you
have
to read this), you are an entirely different sort of creature. I’m pretty sure you fight on the side of good, but you’re so very
quietly devious. Devious! You pretended to let me talk you out of several notes, but somehow
I ended up doing all of them anyway
. How did that happen? Voodoo? Hypnotism? Or was it that you gave me the space to realize that your note-giving ability is a subtle superpower? Sure, it’s not all flashy and in-your-face like flying or telekinesis, but it’s equally potent.

You secretly moved into the universe of my book and furnished a house there for yourself before I’d even signed with Random House. I showed up in the world of
Seeker
to do a new draft and you were already standing there, glancing at your watch and tapping your foot like, “Where have you been? I’ve been waiting for ages.”

So, you know … thanks and everything.

This is getting a little easier.

Thank you, Barbara Marcus. You left me such a nice message back when this all began. Please don’t tell anyone, but I kept that message on my phone and I listened to it from time to time when the book was giving me trouble.

Thank you, Beverly Horowitz, for teaching me about the publishing business. I love your simple explanation that “Everything about a book is the result of a decision.” And in that vein, I want to thank those very talented decision makers on the Random House team who gave shape and life to this book:

Thanks to Alison Impey for giving
Seeker
its marvelous cover, which seems to glow with an inner life of its own. Thanks so much to John Adamo, Kim Lauber, Stephanie O’Cain, and Dominique Cimina for figuring out how to get
Seeker
into the wide world. And thanks to Judith Haut for all your support and enthusiasm.

Thank you to my children, to whom I have already dedicated this book, and who therefore don’t really need to be mentioned a second time, especially since they are constantly distracting me from writing.
But they keep me on my toes and fill my life with love and adventure, and those are very important when working through complicated and sometimes violent plots.

Thank you, Sky Dayton. I may be naming you last, but I want to give you the most profound thanks. It would really be far too personal to name all the ways in which you make my life better. Luckily, you already know.

Arwen Elys Dayton spends months doing research for her stories. Her explorations have taken her around the world to places like the Great Pyramid at Giza, Hong Kong and its many islands, and lots of ruined castles in Scotland.

Arwen lives with her husband and their three children on the West Coast of the United States. You can visit her at
arwendayton.com
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