Secrets and Seductions (19 page)

“Down by the Viaduct,” she said, nodding in the direction of the regenerated wharf while she rummaged in her bag for her car keys.

“Good. It’ll be safe until tomorrow. I’ll arrange for it be delivered back to the apartment in the morning.”

Her hand stilled their search. “I beg your pardon?”

“You can’t drive with such a headache.”

“I’m not sick.”

Mac ignored her. “Come on.” And with that, he clicked the opener on his set of keys. A light flashed on a silver Mercedes right beside them.

Leah rolled her eyes. “I might have known you’d have parking right outside.”

“I had it delivered while we ate. Come on. Let’s go home.”

He opened the door for her, and Leah stepped past him, angling her body so she didn’t touch him, though for a moment she wished she could give in to the overpowering temptation to lean against her husband again, let him take charge. Give in.

Silly girl!

Even thinking about relying on him was out of the question. She wasn’t going to let anyone take charge again, ever! She had too many memories, too many hurts. She had to protect herself and Charlee.

Yet the niggle taunting her subconscious reminded her she’d already let Mac take charge. He’d talked her into marriage, and how easily she’d given in to the one thing she’d said she would never do again.

Mac had talked about trust. He’d said they would divorce in six months. Would he let her go then? Would he truly help her gain guardianship of Charlee?

She had in fact put so much trust in him, a man she still barely knew. She could only pray she hadn’t made another terrible error.

Her eyes shuttered as if it would block out the nightmarish day, but the moment Mac fired the Mercedes, they flashed open. The car purred, a low rumble that bespoke its exorbitant price. “Another expensive car,” she commented for want of something to ease the silence.

“Comes with success.”

Despite her headache, his answer piqued her interest. “You’ve an impressive business record.”

“Thank you, but it’s not just me. I have a good team around me. We work hard, just like you.” His gaze diverted from the dancing headlights of oncoming traffic. “Why did you marry Curtis?”

A bubble of air blocked Leah’s windpipe, shocked at what he asked. “Of all the things you could ask me on our wedding day, Mac, that wasn’t one I was expecting.”

“Probably not,” he conceded with a slight tilt of his mouth.

“I married because I was naive and believed I was in love.”

“So that’s why what we have will work.”

“Pardon?”

“You yourself said this wasn’t a love match. And you’re older, wiser, now.”

“Gee thanks,” she said, unable to stem a slight smile.

“Well, you know what I mean. Look, Leah, I said you can trust me.”

“And I said that was a hard ask.” Leah closed her eyes then, the rush of the oncoming traffic, the glare of their headlights too much.

“True,” he answered with a light chuckle. The sound tugged at her heart. “Given the last few weeks,” he continued, “have I ever done anything that wasn’t in Charlee’s best interests?”

“That’s debatable.”

“Yeah, well, you know I love her.”

Oh, dear God. If he loved her, how would he give her up? Just like her. She loved him, and she already knew how damned hard it would be to walk away in six months.

Mac glanced at her sideways. “What exactly did Curtis tell you about me?”

“Not a lot. You hadn’t come home in a long time, and Curtis didn’t talk much.”

“About me?”

“About anything. Sorry, but you weren’t part of any conversation, really.”

“That figures. I wasn’t wanted.”

“Pardon?”

“I’m the bad boy of the family. I didn’t fit my parents’ ideas of what I was meant to do, to be.”

“To take over the Grainger family business?”

He gave her a curt nod. “Yeah, just like my brother, the Golden Boy. So, what happened to it? Last time I heard, the import business was a roaring success.”

An uncomfortable tension wormed its way through Leah. Was this somehow part of a test? “It…went,” she said, hedging her answer.

“Just like that?” he asked, his censure explicit.

“The business world has changed, Mac, you surely know this.”

“Yeah.”

“Well, your father had a hard time changing with it, and then when Curtis took over, he made some…um…bad decisions. Graingers couldn’t compete with the big box stores and their cheap imports.”

What she hadn’t told him was that Curtis had borrowed deeply on the land from bank managers and loan sharks taken in by his charismatic joie de vivre, but not one cent of the money had come within an inch of Aroha Farm or the ailing Grainger business. Curtis had thrown it all away.

Leah held back her tears, turning away from Mac’s inspection. The man seemed to be able to read her far too easily, a distinctly unsettling and frequent occurrence.

Staring out the window, she renewed her pledge for Charlee. This time it would be different. This time there was no way in hell she would open her heart. She would conquer love.

The moment the car slid beneath the still opening grille to the underground car park, Leah reached for the door and unbuckled her seat belt simultaneously. “Thank you for bringing me home.”

Mac switched off the engine and sat back. “Just doing what a good husband does.”

Dear Lord, she needed space. The cocoon of the sleek car and Mac’s powerful presence were too much testosterone. She was grateful her friend Matty had offered to have Charlee for the night, though she’d been unable to tell her friend she didn’t want to be alone with Mac.

Now she was—alone and worried she couldn’t hold out against his charm, or his kisses. She scrambled from the car and made for the bank of elevators.

Mac strode up beside her. “Leah, I’ve got to tell you something…”

She waved a hand at him and shifted from foot to foot, wishing the darn elevator would hurry. “Not now. Later.” She couldn’t listen to any more; his voice was far too sexy, the throaty timbre constantly edging beneath the armor she’d tried to surround herself with.

She wondered if she could hold out. Making love with Mac meant losing her heart.

Stay strong. Don’t give in.

The elevator arrived, and Leah stepped in. Mac followed.

“Welcome home, sweetheart,” he whispered in her ear.

Chapter Eleven

Leah tried to sleep and failed. Instead, she’d spent the last few hours tossing in bed, going over the day in vivid detail. Magically, her headache disappeared the moment she stepped inside the apartment, but she’d been left with a sadness that wouldn’t dissolve. Tonight was supposed to be her wedding night, and despite her avowal of no sex, she wanted Mac beside her. With her. But it had to be her choice.

On bare feet, trepidation pitted against excitement in her chest, she walked from her room to Mac’s.

The curtains hadn’t been drawn, and the full moon bathed his room in a swathe of golden-hued moonbeams. A prickly indecision heightened in her chest as she stood silent, watching him. Her heart hammered a thousand-fold. This was a mistake. It was stupid to break her own rule, to give in.

But there was no way on earth she could stay away from him. Not tonight. Tonight she would forget about her rule.

“Leah?” Her name on his lips sounded soft and gentle and tugged at her heart.

Leah exhaled a sigh. There was no going back now he’d seen her. However, she said nothing. One heartbeat passed. Then two. Feet gliding over the luxurious carpet, she walked toward him, aware of the increasing surge of her excitement. Her nipples pebbled beneath her robe, and her lips parted. She wasn’t even close to him yet, but she could almost feel his mouth on hers.

She found her voice, albeit haltingly. “I…I came.”

“So I see.” He pushed himself up the mattress so that his head and shoulders rested against the velvet-buttoned headboard. The sheet barely covered his hips, and she could see the rise and fall of his chest.

When he reached over to switch on the bedside lamp, jagged panic cut across her thoughts. Her hand clamped over his. “No. Leave it off.”

“Why?”

“It’s easier if it’s dark.” She didn’t move her hand from his and welcomed his warmth. “Easier to tell you,” she added. In the dark she couldn’t see his rejection. And he couldn’t see her desperation.

“Tell me what?”

Leah held her breath, and then the words rushed as if unleashed from a chasm deep down inside her. “I’ve changed my mind,” she said with a sureness that surprised her.

“About?”

“I want to revoke the rule.”

“The no-sex rule?”

She had expected jubilation or at least satisfaction that she’d come round to his way of thinking, but even in the shadowed room, she witnessed his obvious distrust. Her throat thickened, and she snatched her hand away. “You’re not making this easy.”

“Ditto, sweetheart. I've had a hard on since…” Mac winked. “Well, forever.”

Leah resisted the temptation to let her gaze travel down to that part of his anatomy and see for herself.

“This was meant to be our wedding night,” he reminded her.

She cleared her throat. “That’s why I’m here.”

“Who for?” His tone held a hint of warning, and Leah fidgeted with the edges of her robe.

“You and me.”

“Really? Yet you’ve made it quite clear you didn’t want to marry me.
You
wanted to call it a business deal. So I’m sorry if you’re horny. When you want me for me, Leah, when you accept what we have for what it is, that we enjoy each other’s bodies and you want me without imposing strictures, then….”

“You want me, Mac,” she reminded him.

“I do, but you made the rules. Go take a cold shower. I have.”

This wasn’t working. She had to do something.

Finally, she allowed herself to look, and her gaze slid down Mac’s length in one easy glide. Her mouth curled upward, her confidence boosted by the power she finally understood she had. She would seduce him.

In slow motion, she untied the belt on her robe, and the edges of the garment fell aside. Mac’s breath hissed, the irregular throb of a pulse point at the base of his throat clearly visible in the soft moonlit glow.

She slipped the robe from her shoulders, down her arms, baring her breasts, delighted as her actions drew a ragged groan from Mac.

“Woman.”

She could do this. “Tell me, Mac. How much do you want me?”

The robe pooled at her feet, and his gaze roamed across her nakedness, arousing her without a single touch. She craved that touch.

Offering a silent prayer she hadn’t destroyed the one thing she knew about him—that he desired her more than his ability to resist—Leah leaned over him, lips touching lips. His warm breath passed from him to her.

“You sure about this, Leah?”

She pulled back a fraction, her heart singing with all the pent-up love and emotion she’d denied she felt for this man but knew to be true.

He cared enough to ask if she was sure. Surely that meant he cared for her a little bit?

Love? Maybe not. But caring was a start.

“I’ve never been more sure of anything in my life, Mac Grainger. Now, are you going to make love to me?”

His broad smiled was worth a thousand wishes. “You betcha.”

Days and nights passed in a blur. While Leah found her routine hadn’t altered much—she would drop Charlee at kindergarten and then spend hours working the aisles of her grove alongside Howard’s pickers—it was her nights that had definitely changed.

They were spent in Mac’s arms. Touching. Holding. Making love. Some said that marriage didn’t change a relationship, that marriage was only a piece a paper, a formality. For Leah, it felt better, more special. But that, she believed, was because it was with Mac. He made all the difference in the world. He’d made her not frightened anymore of marriage. He’d erased Curtis.

The word
love
had slipped into her conscience too. She loved him. But she kept it a secret.

Mac wined and dined her. They visited art galleries and attended the latest shows, enjoyed picnics in the park with Charlee and sailed the gulf islands in his super yacht.

That he played with Charlee filled her with joy and renewed hope.

He’d said he wasn’t Curtis. Surely this proved it.

But most of all, he made love to her. He had changed, softened a little.

Did that mean he finally believed her and not Curtis? Or perhaps he believed
because
of their loving?

Sex, Leah. It’s sex. Not making love. Not even love
. Correction: for her it was all about love, but for Mac…Leah wasn’t sure. She couldn’t but think that, perhaps, he was using her as a way to keep Charlee close.

The same way you’re using him?
Her smile faded, a sadness saturating her excitement, and she shook her head.

Don’t get hurt.
She had to remember love didn’t enter this equation on Mac’s side. She had to be careful, take it slow and guard her heart. But that was already a lost cause.

Neither said a word about Curtis or his accusations. It was as if by not uttering those words, their fantasy world was protected.

They’d been married two weeks, and Leah woke to a beautiful late summer morning The sky was clear. The cicadas hummed with abandonment. All was right with the world.

After only a quick meeting with the other harvesters at the grove once she’d taken Charlee to kindy, she decided to head back to the apartment.

Deciding she deserved a bit of pampering, she headed to the bathroom, and within minutes, the scent of lavender wafted around her, the cascade of hot water quickly turning the bath into a frothy pond of iridescent bubbles. Shutting the door, she sank into the bath, relishing the instant release of tension as the water lapped around her.

For weeks her life had been spinning out of control, taken over by nights filled with passion, only to wake to days where distrust and fear of the future fueled her hours. How much more could she take? What did she have to do to make it all right?

She wanted peace. Serenity. Just for now…

“A sleeping beauty, no less.”