Secrets Amoung The Shadows

SECRETS AMONG THE SHADOWS

Sally Berneathy

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SECRETS AMONG THE SHADOWS

Prologue

She poured wine into two glasses and handed one to him. The glass was cheap. Probably something she'd found at a discount store. The wine was cheap, too, like her apartment and the sofa they sat on. Like her.

Turning back to her, he put one hand on her throat and stroked her chin with his thumb. Her pulse beat rapidly beneath his fingers. His own heart rate increased, and his smile became genuine as he thought of how he had the power to stop that beating. He possessed control not only of his life but of hers, too. It was a heady, exhilarating feeling.

She lifted her face to his and closed her eyes. Her eyelashes were black and caked with too much mascara. She always wore too much makeup. Her hair was too red, her fingernails too long. But none of that was important.

He cupped the side of her throat with his other hand, then lowered his lips to hers. Her lipstick was cheap and would be all over him, but it was a small price to pay for the ultimate thrill.

She returned the kiss, and he wanted to laugh. She offered him passion but not the kind he wanted, the kind he was finally going to get.

Slowly he increased the pressure of his hands on her throat. His heartbeat accelerated, and he felt himself becoming aroused.

He took his lips from hers and watched her face as he pressed his thumbs against her windpipe. Her eyes flew open, filled with surprise then terror and disbelief. He drank it all in, savoring the taste.

Her hands flew up like white birds with red-tipped wings. Without power, they flailed against him. He was taking her power. He was taking the life force from her, taking it into himself, increasing his strength.

He stood, not wanting to touch her now, and looked around, basking in the flowing energy he'd released. There was so much to experience, and he was going to have it all. This was only the beginning.

On his way out, he paused at the door and looked back. Her empty shell sprawled among the gaudy, lifeless flowers of the sofa, unable to move from that spot while he was free with no restraints.

Chapter 1

The last place in the world Eliot Kane ever thought he'd end up was a shrink's office, but, he reflected grimly, after Kay Palmer turned up dead the night he dreamed about killing her, he really had no choice.

When he entered Dr. Leanne Warner's fourth floor office in North Dallas, he strode purposefully across the room, as if he were still in complete control of his life, and offered his hand.

The doctor rose from behind her polished wooden desk to greet him, extending her own long, slender hand, and for an instant he considered canceling the whole thing.

You can't trust her! Leave now.

The thought was his, yet it seemed to come from someone else. The voice that sometimes whispered in his mind in moments of great stress was just another reason he had to trust this woman, had to find a way to stop what was happening to him.

He focused on blocking the voice, ignoring the angry, fearful feelings that came with it.

Spilling his guts wasn't going to be easy, and the fact that she was a woman intimidated him further, made him want to protect her from the sort of things he was going to tell her. But he was desperate, and she was the only psychiatrist who'd agreed to see him immediately.

Even so, he'd expected an older, substantial type with gray hair and glasses. This woman was young and slim with soft blue eyes and shiny brown hair that swung casually about her slender neck. The severe lines of her dark blue pinstripe suit were relieved by a peach-colored silk blouse and by the gentle curves of her body. She looked like someone he'd want to take to dinner, but not someone he'd trust with his sanity.

"Mr. Kane," she said, smiling easily. "I'm Leanne Warner. Please have a seat."

Her hand was smooth and cool in his, her grip firm but not aggressively so. Her voice was the same—smooth, cool and firm. That quality made it a little easier to think of her as a doctor, not as a woman.

He handed her the form her secretary had requested he complete, took the seat she indicated in an over-sized gray leather recliner and attempted to appear calm. Her office was spacious, but the curtains were drawn over the wall of windows, closing them in, calling forth his claustrophobia.

A dark blue sofa rested across from his chair, flanking the other side of the door through which he'd come. In the far corner of the room was another door, the private door through which all patients left, he assumed. The office breathed quiet, slightly detached, professionalism. Other than the closed curtains, the atmosphere was conducive to tranquility.

"I've been having memory lapses for the past month," he told her, going directly to the point.

She nodded, studying the three-page form that told her his name, address, Social Security number and other equally inconsequential information. She flipped the last page over, laid it down and reached across her desk to switch on a small recorder. "Do you mind?" she asked.

"If at any point you want me to turn it off, just let me know." He nodded. "Now, can you give me some examples of your memory lapses?"

He sat erect, crossed his arms over his chest, then realized she was probably reading his body language, thinking he was shutting her out from something—which he certainly had every intention of doing. He leaned back, rested his hands on the chair arms and shrugged—casually, he hoped.

"Inconsequential things for the most part," he replied, trying to sound as if forgetting one's actions, no matter how small, could be inconsequential. "The first one was picking up my dry cleaning. When I went by, the owner, a man I've done business with for years, told me I'd already taken it. I didn't believe him, but when I got home, the clothes were in my closet."

Leanne—Dr. Warner—nodded, waiting silently for him to continue. Her expression showed concern and caring.
It's her job
, he reminded himself.

"I find food in the refrigerator that I don't remember buying," he continued. "I think I have half a bottle of after-shave, but it disappears. I get up in the morning and find my car on the street when I distinctly recall putting it in the underground parking garage of my condo complex, and I don't remember going out again."

Still she waited, and he no longer thought her eyes were a soft, languorous blue. They were intense, brilliant sapphires, gem-sharp, aware. He felt as if she could read his thoughts, could see what he wasn't telling her.

His palms against the leather were becoming damp, but he didn't move them. She'd be sure to notice. "And some things of more consequence," he continued, looking away from her, toward the curtained wall of windows on the far side of the room. He could imagine his own thoughts hiding in the folds and shadows of those curtains.

"I'm an investment banker, an occupation that requires stability and reliability. Recently I called a client to change an appointment, then forgot about doing it. I went to meet him, phoned him when he didn't show up. If that kind of behavior continues, I won't have many clients."

He turned his gaze back to her, erecting a mental shield. That was all she needed to know. Surely she'd be able to do something based on that much information.

"I don't get headaches." Until a week ago. Until he'd become afraid to go to sleep at night for fear he'd see himself murdering another woman then wake to find her picture in the morning newspaper.

"After you discover one of these memory lapses—finding your dry cleaning in your closet, for example—do you then recall the event, or does it remain a total blank?"

"Recently I dreamed about doing something," he said, and realized the words had come out in a monotone, so great was his effort to keep any emotion from his voice. "The next day I found out it really happened."
It really happened,
he'd said. He couldn't bring himself to say,
I did it.
He couldn't have done it. He was no murderer.

He wanted to take his handkerchief and blot the perspiration forming on his upper lip and forehead, but he knew she'd correctly interpret the sign as nervousness.

"The event isn't important. The fact that it happened is the problem."

She said nothing for several infinite seconds, merely sat there toying with a pencil, studying him. An involuntary tic started under his left eye. He had no doubt she'd notice with those piercing, searching eyes of hers, but, try as he might, he couldn't seem to make it stop.

"I'm sure I don't have to remind you that everything you tell me is privileged information," she finally said. "If you want me to help you, you're going to have to trust me. If you're not willing to tell me your problem, we're both wasting our time."

He knew she was right. Still he hedged. "What do you think about the possibility that I could have another personality, like Dr. Jekyll and Mr. Hyde or Sybil?"

She gave him a small, comforting smile. "Certainly that's a possibility, but it's much rarer than television and the movies would have us believe."

It was his turn, and he knew what she wanted to hear. His jaw muscles clenched tightly. Damn it, he had told her his problem. She didn't need to know all the specifics. Maybe it hadn't been such a good idea to come here after all.

He lowered his gaze, sighed, and ran a hand through his hair. Exhaustion suddenly overwhelmed him. He was going to have to give it up. Much as he hated it, she was right. He couldn't ask her to solve the puzzle if he didn't give her all the pieces.

The office seemed to close in around him, suffocating him. He needed to take a deep breath but couldn't seem to pull air into his lungs.

"Do you mind if I open the drapes?" he asked.

"Not at all." She rose from her desk. "I prefer them open myself." She strode to the window and tugged on the cord, opening up the room, and his breathing came easier.

"Better?" she asked, resuming her seat.

"I have an aversion to closed spaces." He might as well admit to his phobia. She was sharp enough to have already picked up on it, and it was certainly the least of his problems.