Sean (13 page)

“I’m going to try my damnedest not to be one of those insanely jealous boyfriends whose gorgeous girlfriend is a dancer, but it’s going to be a challenge. I’ve got to be honest about it. As your feelings grow for someone, so does the need to protect and shield them. I know how damaging jealousy can be in a relationship, so I’ll do my best, but you may need to check me periodically. Let me know if I’m crossing the line.” I knew in the back of my mind that she planned to quit dancing and start school next year, so I had to focus on that if I wanted to be with her.

“So far, so good,” she said. “Just imagine that I’m at an office job or retail store when I work. Don’t even think about the details. It’s just a job.”

“I’ll try,” I told her. Again, I reminded myself she’d quit next year.

Brynn sat up slowly and smiled down at me. Her hair had come undone when she did and it looked sexy
. She climbed over me and went into the bathroom. I sighed as I turned to my side and stared at the closed door. I wondered what she was thinking in there.
Does she feel different? Do I mean more to her now? Will she want to experiment with other guys?
Fuck! My stomach did a flip. I suddenly regretted it. I didn’t want her to want that. I should’ve insisted we wait the month like we’d talked about. At least by then she’d have developed more feelings toward me and I would’ve felt more stable. I shook my head. No, it wasn’t like that. We did have feelings for each other and she said it wouldn’t have been like that with anyone else. I had to quit being an over-analyzing pussy and be the man she was going to fall for. The door opened and she looked different.

“Brynn? What’s wrong?” I jumped out of the bed and reached for her.

She gave me her sweet, innocent look and shook her head softly. “Nothing,” she said. “I’m fine. I knew I might bleed a little, so I don’t know why it’s affecting me like this. I’m a little overwhelmed by everything. Fuck, I think I might cry.” She wasn’t one to say ‘Fuck’ or to cry, so I was concerned, yet slightly amused.

“Brynn
.” I smiled and took her hands, leading her nakedness back to the bed. “It’s okay to show emotion.” I set her on the edge and pulled my boxers on. I grabbed my shirt off the floor and pulled it over her head as she reached her arms up and into the sleeves. “Of course you’re a little overwhelmed.” I found her panties and put them on her. “You’ve had a lot of new experiences in the last few days, give yourself a break.” I sat next to her and held her tight as I kissed the top of her head. “You’re so open and honest with me through your words. Don’t shut me out when it comes to showing your emotions.”

“I’m not shutting you out,” she said. “I just don’t get emotional.”
The words stung. Why hadn’t I seen it before? All the times she so openly talked about her lonely childhood and unfollowed dreams, without tears or emotion. I didn’t see it because I didn’t want to be a therapist with her. I wanted to be her boyfriend and her lover. I wanted my own real-life romantic comedy and ignored the fact that she wasn’t ready. I was supposed to go slow and let her concentrate on her treatment. Fuck! I couldn’t press rewind; it was too late for that. So I had to press pause.

“I’m sorry. I didn’t mean it like that. One of my favorite things about you is that you
are
so open and honest when you talk to me. I was afraid for a second when you came out of the bathroom that you were regretting what we’d done. Then, you told me exactly what you were feeling and it eased my mind, so let’s focus on making you feel better.”

“
Like I said, I’m fine. I definitely don’t regret it. It was amazing and I want to do it again…and again.” I kissed the top of her head. “I just need a moment. I don’t think I’m gonna cry now.” She seemed so sweet and fragile, unlike the way she was when she was being physical. All of it made me want to know more about her.

“Do you want to lie down?” I asked.

She scooted back and slid under the covers. “I love this bed,” she said. “Someday, when I have a bigger place, I’m gonna have a king-sized bed, maybe even one with a canopy like this.” She closed her eyes. I wanted to slide in next to her, but when she said she needed a moment I assumed she meant alone.

I put our wine and glasses away and grabbed a beer. I sat on the porch and listened to a couple of songs from the concert that was going on. I hoped Brynn would feel better when she got up. I wondered how long she’d sleep. As if on cue, the door creaked open.

“Sean?”

“Yeah, baby, I’m right here.”

She sat on my lap, huge smile on her glowing face. I held up the bottle and she took a swig. “I think it’s poker night,” she said.

“You’re feeling better? You didn’t take much time.”

“I learned some great techniques in meditation,” she said. “I can zone everything out and focus completely on myself in less than a minute. While I’m there I can relax and find peace, usually. In five to ten minutes, I’ve figured out what I needed to and carry on.”

“Can I ask what you figured out this time?”

She smiled and nodded. “Sure. This time I needed a reality check and a confidence boost. I was overthinking this, and us, and I had to re-convince myself that you’re still the good guy and that you’re actually interested in
me.
I have to keep being myself, you seem to like it.” Her face was pink when she shrugged and took another swig from the bottle.

“Oh, I do. More than I think you realize. If you ever need convincing again, just ask me.”
I kissed her lips as I held her face.

She ran her hands up my chest and into my hair before she turned my head and had my lobe in her mouth, sucking and biting. I raised my hips as I felt the
pulsing sensation travel down between my legs. Her breath was warm and hitched as I felt it on my neck and across my shoulder. “I can’t wait,” she whispered and my body tightened with anticipation of the words she was about to breath. “To kick your ass in poker.”

I laughed and wrapped my arm around her waist as I picked her up and carried her inside. “How can you think of poker at a time like this?”
I said as I sat on the couch with her still snugly in my lap.

“And what time is it?”
she teased even more as she straddled me.

I looked at my bare wrist.
“Making-love-to-my-beautiful-girlfriend-thirty.”

“Mmm. I love when you use those two words together. My. Girl. The first time you called me that, in your kitchen, I got weak in the knees. I’ll never forget that.” She smiled as she held my face and stroked her thumbs against my cheeks. “Don’t think just because you noticed the time that you’re going to get out of playing poker with me
.”

“I wouldn’t dream of it. I’m looking forward to watching you strip down to nothing when I go all in.” She sat straight up and moved her hips against my hardness. Then she looked down at her own bare wrist.

“Will ya look at that?” she said. “It’s already my-turn-to-be-on-top-forty-five.”

“Time flies when you’re having fun.” I said as I pulled my shirt off her and ran my hands over her breasts and swelling nipples. She leaned her head back and rubbed against me again, harder. I reached between her legs and put my middle finger in her as my thumb massaged her clit. She moaned and arched
as I relieved her ache for a minute. Then she stood and took my hands, leading me to the bed.

She pushed me down and pulled my boxers off. She dropped to her knees and took me deep down her throat as I watched. She licked, sucked, moaned and played until I warned her of my upcoming release.
She stood then and stared down at me as she pushed her panties off. I scooted back onto the bed and she watched me put a condom on. Then she lubed me up and straddled me.

Her hips went forward and back as she rode my cock against her clit. She leaned forward, kissed me, and I got the feeling she liked being in control.
That was hot as hell and fine by me. I was completely at ease and willing to do whatever she desired.

I pulled my head up and kissed her breasts. She gasped as I bit her nipple but she pulled my head closer so I kept it up.
Her skin was soft and tasted like vanilla. Since I’d met her it’d become my favorite scent. I rolled one nipple between my thumb and finger as I suckled the other.

“Sean, you make me crazy
.” She pulled my head back and kissed me. Her tongue was hungry as it tried to catch mine. She sucked it in her mouth and I felt the movement on my cock as she rode me with the same rhythm. As she pulled away, she took my bottom lip and smiled.

“Are you gonna fuck me soon?” I panted into her neck as I sucked on it.

“Are you tired of playing?” She seemed surprised.

“I’ll play with you all night,” I told her. “
But the condom is a bit of a downer during playtime.”

“Aww, shit,” she said. “I’m sorry.” She giggled as she pushed me down and slid her body to my thighs. “We’ll just get rid of this,” she said as she pulled off the condom. “Poor t
hing.” She stroked and kissed my cock before she ran her lips up and down the shaft.

“Who are you talking to down there?”

She slid back up my body, pausing as her breasts heaved against my cock. “Do we even need to use a condom?”

“Probably not, but better safe than sorry.”

“Okay.” She got another one and the lube. “Would you like to share a beer?”

“Are you
stalling?”

“Didn’t you say you’d play with me all night?” She hopped out of bed and went to the fridge. Who gets up in the middle of foreplay to get a drink? She opened the beer and took a gulp before she hopped back in and straddled me.

“Yes, I did say that, and I stand by it, but my balls are turning blue here.”

She giggled before she filled her mouth again. She leaned down and let it flow from her mouth to mine. Then she licked off the spillage. “Mmm. You see, I was thin
king back to our popsicle party…” She pulled me up to a sitting position. “…and thought it would be hot…” She filled her mouth again and let it run down my chest as she sucked my nipple. The sensation of the coldness as it ran down made me shudder. “…to try another edible on our bodies.” She held the back of my head as she tipped the bottle against my lips. I followed her lead and went for her nipple. As the cold liquid raced down and over her flat stomach, she gasped.

I took the bottle and had a swig. I held it up and ran it against her neck and chin. I pushed it until she leaned her head back and then ran it from her chin all the way to her belly button before I took another swallow. When her eyes met mine
, they were full of hunger and I kissed her as we began to rock against each other.

“I want you, Brynn.”

“Yes,” she said. She put the bottle on the nightstand and opened the condom. I put it on and she lubed it.

I laid back and she kissed me as she positioned herself above me. She slowly eased me into her and she felt unbelievably good. “God, Brynn,” I moaned.

She found a rhythm she liked and kept it sweet and slow as she stayed locked into my eyes. She took me deeper and experimented with the way she moved her hips. It was amazing to watch her and feel her as she very openly shared something so personal with me. She picked up the speed once she tested it all and I was about to explode. I had to help her get to where I was.

“Brynn, baby, you feel amazing. Kiss me.”
When she leaned to me, I pulled her hips tight against my body. She moaned in my mouth as her sensitive spot rubbed against me. She kept it tight as she built up her release. I sucked her tongue and bit her lip before I moved to her neck and ear. She quickened again and pressed harder. I knew she was getting close. “That’s my girl,” I whispered.

She came as beautifully as ever and it gave me my own release. She
collapsed on top of me, panting and smiling. It was a pretty awesome moment for us.

I rolled her over and got rid of the condom in the bathroom. When I crawled back into bed
, she snuggled up to me, nice and tight. Her body was warm and naked and I was content. I wanted to spend the rest of the night just like that. She had her head against my shoulder as she ran her finger around my pecs, tracing shapes and drawing lines.

“Your body is perfect,” she said.

“I’m glad you think so.” I chuckled, knowing my body was far from perfect. “I’ve thought the same thing about yours, especially when I watch you move.”

“Than
k you.”

“And that giggle…I love hearing
you giggle.” I squeezed one out of her.

“Thank you, Sean, for everything. I’ve been on an adventure since I met you and it’s been so much fun.”

“You sound like you’re dumping me or something.” I felt a knot in my stomach. “The adventure has just begun with us.”

“Oh, I know. I didn’t mean it like that. I just want you to know I appreciate you giving me a chance, us a chance, and I’m having a lot of fun.”

“Me too.” I kissed the top of her head as she continued drawing on my chest. I still had an unsettling feeling from her comment, but I had to trust her. She’d been nothing but honest with me so far. I reminded myself that I was still in pause mode and I had to keep it slow. “Are you tired?”

“Yeah. You?” she asked.