Room 212 (9 page)

I cried out, loudly. Oh, God, what have I been missing?

Seth guided me through my very first orgasm with such ease that I melted into the bed. I quickly came to my senses, worried about his reaction.

“Fuck, baby, you are so wet,” he whispered, his head still between my thighs, his fingers rubbing me again, in and out, scraping against the sides of me. He seemed pleased with his progress as he studied his fingers. At this point, I was not above begging.

“Seth, please, please, PLEASE.”

“Not yet. I’m going to give you what you’ve been missing.” He stuck his head between my thighs again and the wave came instantly. It was almost as intense as the first. I heard him rip a condom wrapper and knew my wait was almost over. He lowered himself between my thighs and whispered softly, “You’re not ready for me. We’re going to have to take this really slow.”

“Seth.” I took his mouth and arched my back in another attempt to beg. He slid a small amount of himself inside of me and I gasped. It HURT.

“Oh, ow. Oh. Oh.”

“Baby, I don’t think we are going to—”

I shoved most of the length of him inside of me as I felt a blinding pain in my stomach and behind my eyes. I wanted this man. I wanted him so desperately. I felt him gasp and call out my name.

“Laura, are you okay?”

“No, and don’t stop.”

He slid himself in and out of me slowly. I won’t lie, it was uncomfortable the whole time. It felt like I was losing my virginity all over again. I had never been with a man this big. It seemed I had been scraping the bottom of the barrel until tonight. He kissed me everywhere his lips could land and I finally started to experience a small amount of pleasure. He bit my lobe and moaned out my name as he came, collapsing on top of me with all his weight. It was a closeness I wanted to feel with him. When he had recovered, he was quick to question me.

“You okay, baby?”

I just smiled at him as the tears slid out of my eyes. I was anything but okay. I had just had my first orgasm and been made love to for the first time at age twenty-one. No, I was not okay, I was awesome.

He wiped my streaks away as if he understood. Smug bastard probably knew I was a virgin to all of it. Well I had tricks, too. The next turn was mine. The last thing I wanted to do right now was give him any of my smart mouth. He had just given me a gift. I fell asleep on his chest with his fingers strumming my lower back. I was laughing at something he said as I drifted off.

*****

I woke to the sound of a condom rapper ripping next to my ear.

“I’ve given you enough recovery time, Laura.”

My eyes popped open and I saw he was lying next to me with a hot gaze. I was lying stomach down on the bed and the sheet was just below my thighs. I was completely bare-assed to him and he seemed to approve of it.

“Good morning.” I smiled looking around for sunlight that wasn’t there. “What time is it?”

I quickly realized he was in no mood for conversation. He was stroking my ass with his fingers and planted a wet kiss on my shoulder. He turned on his back to get the condom on and grabbed my hips bringing me on top of him, straddling his length.

“Can I handle it like this?” It was only with Seth that I had realized how insanely inexperienced I really was and looked to him for guidance. I saw a look of satisfaction cross his face.

“I have to break you in, baby. This is the best way.”

I kissed him. I couldn’t resist. I lowered myself onto him, still wet from our last session. I quickly started choking out his name as I took him inside of me.

“Seth, I can’t do this, it’s too much.”

He lifted me off of him and kissed me. My heart stopped. I was devastated I couldn’t give him what he needed. He sat up on the bed and spread his legs into a V. He positioned me in the same way opposite of him so that our legs overlapped each other and pulled me to him, putting only a small amount of himself inside of me. Our arms were supporting us behind our backs and we were able to see the whole of our bodies and the way they connected. I was instantly hot all over and panting. I greedily took more of him before I was ready and cried out in pain.

“Patience, baby.”

We were face to face, only the most intimate parts of ourselves connecting. It was delicious. Before I knew it, he had buried himself inside of me and our hips were thrusting to meet. The feeling was incredibly intense as we stared each other down and I met his thrusts. He was on the verge of his finish when he quickly laid himself down, grabbing my hips and pulling me onto him. I lingered above him as he thrust all of himself inside me. I tilted my head back and let a loud moan escape me. I slid my hips in a back and forth motion, feeling him deep, so deep inside of me. He lay beneath me perfectly still, allowing me to explore this new feeling.

“Feel good now, baby?”

“Yes, yes.”

He lifted up to meet my lips and cupped my butt with both hands, separating me to make me more accessible to him. I groaned again and felt a tingle spread as he rubbed himself inside of me. Surprised by the feeling, I let out a gasp and quickly looked down at him.

A broad smiled covered his face as he began to move, hitting the spot that was weakening me by the second. I was letting out one moan after another. I had never felt anything so good in my life. My legs began to shake and Seth quickened his pace. I laid my hands on his chest as he pumped himself harder, deeper. I lost the ability to breathe as my pulse began to pound in my ears. The feeling was so intense I tried to stop him, tapping my hands on his chest, fear in my eyes. He quickly swatted my arms away and lifted himself off of the bed thrusting further inside of me. A tidal wave hit me, sending me higher and higher. I began bucking my hips, rocking myself down on him to meet his thrusts. I cried out to him and collapsed on his chest, completely drained. I felt him quicken and let go inside of me pulling my hips back and forth on top of him, rocking me to ride it out, with my name on his lips.

“What the hell was that?”

“That was us, Laura.” He kissed my lips softly as he lifted himself out from under me and went to the bathroom. I was too weak to move. I drifted off again.

*****

I woke up alone, naked, and sore as hell in Seth’s bed. I called for him, but got no answer. I quickly went to the bathroom to relieve myself and put on his t-shirt and shorts. I walked out of the bedroom and immediately heard his voice.

“No, it doesn’t mean I don’t love you, it means what I said. Not now. Listen, I have someone here, I can’t do this with you now. I’ll call you back. No, it’s not a she.”

Well shit, goodbye Seth. I hate TEXAS! I blamed everything on this state. It was my scapegoat and I knew it. Still, I hated it. I was positive if I moved I would have better luck in more areas of my life. I had spent months staring at the US map when I was eighteen, but never had the courage to go through with leaving. I couldn’t deny that things were looking up for me. Well they had been. I had no choice but to confront him. I wasn’t leaving without him knowing I heard his conversation.

I grabbed my work clothes and folded them in my arms and kept his clothes on. I was determined to keep them now. I just really didn’t want to put my boots back on. I walked into the living room and he quickly ended his call, a smile on his lips for me. Well that wasn’t going to last long.

“I heard you talking to your girlfriend. I know we never said exclusive, but I am no one’s other woman. I’ll see myself out. And thanks, it was fun while it lasted.”

“Really?”

“Yeah, I mean, fuck you Seth, really. You couldn’t be smart enough to talk to her when I left? I was just starting to enjoy you.” I turned and walked out of his front door, muttering I was keeping his boxers and shirt, when he fisted my t-shirt from the back and pulled me into his house.

“Don’t say ‘fuck you’ to me, ever. I hate that. And you will give me a chance to explain. You owe me that.”

“The hell I do. That is obviously the truth of it. Please don’t lie about it, I heard you deny there was a she here.”

“She is my ex-girlfriend and I do love her, but I’m with you now, so why does it really matter?”

“You’re kidding right? I don’t like liars.” What a hypocrite. I lied daily.

“Is that all?”

“No, I’m in love with…your penis, and I want it all to myself.”

He lifted his head back, letting out a huge bout of laugher and pulled me to him.

“I feel the same about this,” he said, cupping me. Instantly my anger dissolved. I let out a small sigh.

“Well, if you love her why aren’t you with her?”

“It’s complicated.”

“How?”

“In a way that allows me to see whoever I want and I want to see you, Laura, a lot of you. So what do you say?”

“Explain further, please.”

“She was my ideal. She was everything I was looking for, you know, for the future. She fucked up royally and I’m not sure I want her back.”

She was his Barbie. And what was I? These were too serious of questions to ask on date two. “Just be honest with me, and when you want to see someone else we call it quits, deal?”

“Deal, but I am afraid I am going to have to ask a little more from you.”

“You are in no position to demand anything, sir. I wasn’t just busted talking to my ex after a great night of sex.”

“That’s just it. I want you to free yourself with me. I want to do things with you in bed and I want you to relax and let yourself go.”

I was instantly game. I had no reservations whatsoever with my answer. “That’s a given.”

“Good. I’m not telling you that this thing between us is just sex, Laura. Please don’t think that. I really like you and want to spend time with you. I love her because that’s the only woman I have ever loved. It’s a habit. One I want to break. I really like…us.”

“I’m just escaping a two year relationship and I don’t expect anything from you. But your penis and I will be very close.” I’d made a joke, but the truth is I loved every word he just said to me.

“There is kiss me Laura.”

“Yeah, she’s here.”

He leaned in and kissed me softly on the lips.

“I have some stuff to do at my place. I’m going to go.”

“You haven’t asked for my number yet.”

“I don’t want it yet. When you stop calling, I’ll know.”

“Know what?”

“That you took her back,” I said honestly. I knew he was hiding more than he told me.

I quickly made my exit before he could see my eyes swim. “See you soon, Seth.”

*****

“Okay, Laura, get a grip.” I felt my heart sag. Oh how I wish I hadn’t slept with him. It wasn’t just that. It was Seth. He was perfect in every way. I found myself attracted to every single thing about him, his tastes being the most surprising. What the hell had I gotten myself into? I already knew my heart was involved, though I wasn’t sure why. I turned on Alice in Chains
Nutshell
and let my windows down as I braved I-75 traffic. I was in a desperate mood. The best sex of my life and he was only on loan to me. Some woman already had her hooks into him. I was an idiot for thinking I could have Seth. He was an overachieving Ken doll and I was a self-proclaimed social pariah. It was the first time in my life I didn’t feel good enough for a man, and it felt terrible.

*****

Another week passed and I quickly realized I was helplessly under Seth’s spell. I hadn’t heard a word from him since I’d left his house. I had only managed to work and go home. I had become a boring human. I spent all of my time and money making my apartment a haven for me. It was coming together in an amazing way. It was almost the apartment of a respectable girl. I got my phone installed and when I got his page, I was excited that I no longer had to drive to a pay phone to dial out.

“Hey, baby.”

“Hey, what are you up to?”

“I just thought I’d call my favorite girl in the world. Are you busy today? By freak accident, I don’t have to work.”

“Actually, I was just getting ready to go find some trouble to get into. What did you have in mind?”

“I’ll pick you up in thirty. Dress for the heat.”

“Aren’t you going to tell me where you’re taking me?”

“No.”

I gave him my address and simple directions from his place.

“Laura,” I could hear a smile in his voice.

“Yeah?” My smile matched his, I was certain of it. I couldn’t wait to see him.

“Nothing, see you in a bit.”

The drive from his house to my apartment was a little under twenty minutes at noon in Dallas on a weekday. I knew I had at least that and used every bit of it to transform my appearance from mousy to downright sinful. I put on the shortest pair of cut-offs I could find and a pale yellow doll cut top that was slightly revealing. I slid into my cutest pair of flip flops and curled my hair. I spent the rest of my time putting my new scented lotion over every inch of my body. I was so ready for another shot of him and entertained the idea of waiting for him naked on my new bed. When he arrived, he lightly knocked on the door and I shouted from the bathroom for him to come in.

“I like it. Looks like you’re getting settled pretty quickly.” I managed to paint my living room and kitchen a soft pale yellow and put some black framed pictures on the wall. My TV was small and sat on a stand I had to put together myself. He was the first person to come over and I couldn’t contain my proud smile.

“Thanks, I think so, too.”

I made my way down the hall to meet him halfway and saw him appreciate all the attention to detail I had put into my appearance.

“You look beautiful, baby.” He was wearing soccer shorts and a t-shirt, a look similar to the one the day we met.

I didn’t have a chance to thank him. His mouth was on mine so quickly, he took my breath away. My heart sighed and I let out an appreciative moan. He wrapped his arms around me and walked me over to the wall. I cupped my hand around his neck and tilted my head, giving him full access to my mouth, wrapping my spare arm around his waist, pulling him closer to me.

“Laura,” he said between kisses, “we have to make it out of the house to get to where we’re going.”