Authors: Linda McLaughlin
"Very well, madame. You may have the knife." Jacques walked to his trunk, pulled out the hunting knife,
and offered it to her.
"Thank you," she whispered, dropping it in her pouch.
He should have searched the damn thing before they left the cabin, but hed let her distract him with that gown. He grinned ruefully. "Im sorry I never saw you in the blue silk."
Mara glanced at Alain Gauthier, who said nothing but seemed fascinated by their conversation. Jacques made a mental note to straighten him out later.
"As I said, I shall wear it when the French are defeated." Her face was pale but her chin was set, and her eyes shot blue sparks.
But not for me, never for me.
He felt a sudden pang in his chest. Could it be regret?
Impossible. One thing was clear. He had to get this woman out of his mind while he still had some sanity left.
When Brother Denys returned with the news that the Bernards had agreed to take her in, she picked up her pack and left without a backward glance.
* * *
"I should never have brought her here," Jacques murmured.
Alain looked up from his shaving. "What other choice did you have?"
Jacques rubbed a hand over his eyes. "None, really. I couldnt let Gray Wolf and Crazy Badger kill her after shooting her husband."
Alain crossed himself.
"I insisted we take prisoners, but Dupré fired first."
Alain clapped him on the shoulder. "You did what you had to, old friend. But from now on, stay at the fort with your cannon. You dont have the stomach for wilderness warfare."
Jacques smiled faintly. "Dont let anyone else know that. I have a reputation to maintain." He turned away to stare into the fire. "Alain, she has such spirit. She ran away from us, into the forest, not even knowing where she was going, and when I found her
"
"She tried to stab you."
Jacques chuckled. "In all my life, I have never been as angry as I was that day. I almost left her there to die in the forest, but I didnt want to look weak in front of Gray Wolf. So I dragged her back with me." He glanced at his friend. "She called me a savage."
Alain grinned. "Perceptive as well as beautiful."
Jacques rubbed the sore spot on the back of his neck. "Do you think she will ever stop hating me?"
Alain paused in drying his face with a towel. "What difference would it make? She is not for you, my friend."
Jacques raised an eyebrow.
Alain put down the towel and faced him squarely. "Let me speak frankly. You, my friend, are a bastard. The only reason youre wearing that uniform is because your father pulled the right strings at Versailles and no doubt made a large donation to the royal coffers."
Jacques could not deny it. Hed been surprised himself when his natural father had managed to get him a commission. But when the Comte dArchambault wanted something, no one could stop him.
"There are many who feel you have no right to be an officer," Alain pointed out, "no matter that you were born to be a soldier. You have had to work twice as hard, be twice as competent, and twice as honorable as any other man."
Jacques rubbed his forehead. Oh, hed worked twice as hard, but as for being honorable, that had been a dismal failure. "Give it up, Alain. I have no reputation left in this army, so there is no use in pretending otherwise. Everyone expects me to behave badly. Why should I disappoint them?"
Alain shook his head. "I shouldnt have to point out that in wartime it is what a man does that counts. You have a chance to redeem yourself. Take some advice from an old friend. Dont jeopardize your career again over a woman."
Jacquess temper flared. "Mara is not like that. She is still loyal to her dead husband. She would never betray the man she loved."
"I did not mean to question her virtue," Alain said with a shrug, "but in my opinion, you need a woman who will bring joy into your life, not a grief-stricken widow. And she needs a man who can bring her stability and respectability."
Jacques stared into the flames, pondering his friends words. That his career could be easily jeopardized was true, but he had plans to resign as soon as the war was over. As for joy, that was fleeting, as he had told Mara just that morning.
Mara.
With an unexpected twinge of disappointment, he realized that on one point Alain was right. She needed a steady, respectable man. Without a doubt, she deserved better than a dishonorable bastard.
* * *
The trading post was a long rectangular building opposite the main gate of the fort. Mara followed Brother Denys across the parade ground, trying to ignore the stares and whispered comments of the soldiers. She felt vulnerable without Corbeau to shield her from them.
Inside the building, it took her eyes a few seconds to adjust to the dim light. Looking around, she spied a counter behind which stood the largest man she had ever seen. The chaplain introduced her to Claude Bernard who welcomed her with a huge grin. He appeared to be about fifty years old with a luxuriant black beard sprinkled with gray. But his brown eyes sparkled with good humor and
joie de vivre.
While he went to get his wife, Mara wandered around looking at the trade goods in the storeknives, blankets, kettles, combs, and tobacco. In one corner stood a table covered with scattered scraps of paper and writing materials.
Claudes wife, Sophie, was a thin, tired-looking woman with the wisdom of the ages in her eyes. A blond girl of about six years peeked from around her skirts.
"Is this your daughter?" Mara smiled at the child who stared solemnly back at her.
Sophie patted the girl. "No, she is an orphan, taken in a raid."
The haunted look on the childs face tugged at Maras heartstrings. She knelt down and lightly touched her arm. "Then we have something in common, little one. I, too, am a captive."
When the girl still said nothing, Sophie explained, "She does not speak French very well yet."
"Is she English?" Mara asked.
"German, we think," Claude answered.
"What is your name?" Mara asked her in German.
The girl smiled suddenly. "Barbara." This was followed by a torrent of German that Mara could not follow.
"Slow down," she said to the girl.
"Not now, Babette," Sophie said in French. "You can talk with Madame Dupré later. Now go play with your doll."
With a shy smile, Babette ran out of the room.
"How is it that you speak German, madame?" Brother Denys asked.
"I am Swiss," she explained. "Though I grew up in a French-speaking city, my grandfather insisted I learn German as well. His family was originally from Bern."
"Can you read and write, madame?" Claude asked with a gleam in his eye.
"Yes, my grandfather believed that all children should be taught to read."
"Excellent." Claude clapped his hands together. "Then you can help me with my correspondence and accounts."
"Yes, of course."
The big man beamed at them all. "Now I will not have to trouble the good chaplain with my worries."
"But why
" Mara began, then broke off at the warning look on Sophies face.
The older woman leaned over to whisper in her ear. "My Claude cannot read and write. I can figure well enough to keep the books, but when it comes to writing letters
"
"I understand," Mara assured her. "I will be glad to help you in any way."
"Let me show you where to put your things."
Sophie led her into the small room off the main store, which served as the familys living area. It was similar to Corbeaus quarters, only a bit bigger. Instead of bunks built into the wall, a rope bed large enough for two occupied one corner. A table stood in front of the fireplace, where Barbara sat, holding a rag doll in her arms.
"I am afraid you must share the loft with Babette," Sophie apologized.
"That will be fine," Mara reassured the woman. Anything would be preferable to the tension of living in the same room as her self-styled protector. No more arguments, no more attempts at seduction. In Corbeaus presence, she had to stay constantly on guard. He was a difficult man to understand, sometimes harsh and domineering, at other times gentle and considerate. Like yesterday, when he brought the soft moccasins for her battered feet.
Mara shook off her thoughts. This was not the time to ponder the puzzle that was Jacques Corbeau.
Sophie invited Brother Denys to stay for dinner, and they all crowded around the table to enjoy Sophies beef stew and cornbread.
Claude kept them entertained with stories of his early days as a
coureur de bois.
Mara listened avidly to tales of his travels in search of pelts for the lucrative fur trade, amazed that anyone would willingly go into the wilderness for months at a time without contact with civilization.
"Would you not have been safer staying in Canada?" she finally asked.
"Safer, perhaps, but less prosperous," Sophie explained. "There is good money to be made in trade. And Fort Duquesne is not such a bad place. Our food supply comes from the Illinois country. By the new year, the Canadians will be starving."
"Was the harvest bad?" Mara asked.
"It doesnt matter," Claude said with a wave of one beefy hand. "Good or bad, a great deal of the harvest will be diverted, shall we say, into the black market."
"Disgraceful," Brother Denys muttered through a mouthful of stew.
Claude nodded. "But that is the way it has always been. Every year, fortunes are won and lost in New France."
"Why doesnt someone stop it?" Mara asked.
He shrugged his massive shoulders. "As long as Bigot receives his share of the profits and the Governor General turns a blind eye, what can anyone do?"
"Who is Bigot?" Mara asked.
"He is the
Intendant
of New France." At Maras frown, Claude explained, "The
Intendant
is the official in charge of finance and trade for the colony. He is also responsible for seeing the army gets the supplies it needs. And if some of it ends up lining his pockets
"
Mara shook her head. She had never heard of such a corrupt system, but then what else could one expect of the French? "I understand how a fortune can be made that way, but how are they lost?"
"At the gaming tables, madame.
Intendant
Bigot is a compulsive gambler, and one who is not always lucky. I hear Corbeau won a fortune off him the last winter he spent in Quebec."
"Really?"
Claude chuckled. "Bigot was not well pleased. He pulled some strings and,
voilà,
your friend found himself transferred to the outer fringes of the empire."
"He is not my friend," Mara replied, but couldnt help asking, "Did he cheat?"
"Corbeau? Oh, no, madame, he doesnt have to. Hes the luckiest bastard Ive ever met."
"Perhaps not so lucky," Mara observed. "He ended up here."
"Does this seem so bad to you, child?" Brother Denys asked, a sympathetic expression on his face.
Mara looked around at the kind people who had taken her in and felt a pang of guilt. "Please, do not think I am ungrateful. But I am afraid of what may yet happen."
The chaplain nodded in understanding. "The British are not far away. Soon Captain de Ligneris will have to decide whether to abandon the fort or prepare for a siege."
Mara felt a sudden chill. Neither alternative gave her any comfort. What would happen to her if the French decided to abandon the fort? Would they take her to Canada with them or leave her to the mercy of the Indians? And if the British attacked first, all their lives would be in danger.
"Why do men fight?" she murmured, not expecting an answer.
"For God," said Brother Denys.
"For king and country," Claude added.
"Bah." Sophie set down her spoon with a clatter. "They fight for money, or plunder. Or because they have been conscripted and have no choice in the matter."
Mara looked around the table at her new friends as an idea struck her. Perhaps these people could give her some insight into the man who so puzzled her. "What about Lieutenant Corbeau? Why does he fight?"
Brother Denys looked sad. "Ah, that one. He fights to regain his lost honor."
Mara woke to the sounds of drums and shouting. She hadnt slept much since being taken captive, but last night, with Babettes warm little body curled up next to her, she had fallen into a deep sleep. Sunlight peeked into the loft through chinks in the roof, and she realized that dawn was long past.
Why hadnt Sophie awakened her sooner? Why was the fort in such a stir?
Hurriedly, she dressed and climbed down the ladder to the kitchen where she found the Bernards. Once again, Babette clung to Sophies skirt, her head buried in the folds.
"Whats going on?" Mara asked.
"The British are outside the gates," Claude said. "Only a mile away."
Maras heart began to pound in her chest. The attack had come. Perhaps Gideon was out there now. A surge of hope that her ordeal might be almost over brought tears to her eyes.
Please, God. Lead the British to victory. Deliver me from mine enemy.
Unexpectedly, Corbeaus face flashed into her mind. But she realized with a jolt of shock that the vision was not the forbidding face of her captor. Instead, she saw the man who used his strength and authority to protect her.
She choked back an angry sob. He was her enemy, but she had no wish to see him hurt. Nor did she wish any harm to the Bernards or Brother Denys or Alain Gauthier. Why did everything have to be so confusing?
"Madame Dupré, are you all right?"
Mara looked up to see Sophie looking at her, a worried frown creasing her brow. "Im just worried about what will happen."
Claude bent to lift the now-sobbing Babette and cradled her in his arms, crooning to her. "Poor little thing, she has seen too much death for one so young. There is nothing to fear," he assured her. "Our soldiers will beat back the English."
That is what I am afraid of, Mara thought. Or was it what she wished for? Either way, she had to find out what was happening. She would go crazy if she stayed inside.
"Im going out," she said and turned to go.
"Wait, madame," Sophie called after her. "Monsieur Fourgue will need our help in the surgery."
"Very well, I will meet you there," Mara said. "Please understandI have to find out what is going on for my own peace of mind. Dont worry, I wont do anything rash."
With that assurance she dashed out of the trading post.
* * *
Jacques stood on the ramparts, squinting into the sun, deciding whether to order an artillery barrage. To his left stood the remnants of a storehouse the British had set afire early that morning. Straight ahead, less than a mile away, was the enemy: about four hundred men, half Highlanders, half colonials, drawn up in ranks. Jacques hadnt seen such a textbook formation since arriving in America.
He glanced down inside the walls at the forts defendersCanadian and Louisiana militia, and Indians, about eight hundred in all, mingled together, blood fired and ready for battle. No, his big guns would be unnecessary today.
A furtive movement caught his eye. A woman was making her way toward the ramparts. It couldnt be, but it wasMara. What the devil was she up to?
Jacques hurried to meet her at the top of the ladder. "What do you think youre doing?" he yelled at her. "Go back to the trading post."
"Sophie said that we will soon be needed in the surgery. But first I have to see whats going on." She glanced up at him, a pleading look on her face.
"Are you mad?" he demanded. "Do you have any idea of what is about to happen?"
He grabbed her arm and tried to steer her back to the ladder, but the little minx eluded him. He followed her to the ramparts where his attention was caught by the sight of the enemy. The British had begun to advance, scarlet uniforms ablaze in the sunlight, drums beating and pipes skirling. It was a brave and beautiful sight, he thought, and altogether foolish. Had their commander lost his mind?
Before he could guide her away, the gates of the fort flew open and a flood of men ran out, firing their muskets and shouting.
Mara took one look at the charging horde and buried her face in Jacquess shoulder. For all her brave talk, she was unable to watch. He held her tightly, but didnt move as the French and Indians overwhelmed the smaller British force. The colonials faltered first and ran for the rear. A valiant few put up a spirited resistance in an attempt to protect the retreat, but they were soon driven back toward the river. The air filled with the crack of musket fire, war whoops, and the screams of the wounded.
Mara pushed away from him and clapped her hand to her ears. He took hold of her arms and forced her to look up at him. "Mara," he rasped. "What were you thinking of to come up here?"
She sobbed and pulled away, then bent over and retched.
He helped her to straighten up. "Come, I will take you back to the trading post."
"I cant." She grabbed hold of his lapels. "Dont you understand? Gideon could be out there!"
Gideon. Always Gideon.
Jacques felt his jaw clench. "I will look for him."
"But you dont know what he looks like."
"I know, I saw him. He is tall and blond and" Something struck him suddenly. Something wonderful. "He looks like you."
She wet her lips and nodded. "He is my brother."
Her brother.
Hed been jealous of her brother? What a fool he was, and a lovesick fool at that! How Alain would laugh at his folly. "Why didnt you tell me that sooner?"
"I did not think it was any of your business."
"But now you do?"
She flushed, but made no reply.
Jacques gripped her by the elbow and steered her none too gently toward the ladder. "Fear not, madame. I will save your brother if I can, whether it is my business to do so, or not."
Back on the ground, he escorted Mara to the surgery located in the outer perimeter of the fort, then left the fort to look for her brother, the infamous Gideon.
The field of battle was a scene straight out of hell. Warriors swooped down on wounded men, looting and scalping. The screams of the dying rent the air, and the acrid scent of gunpowder mingled with the metallic smell of blood.
Grimly, Jacques wove his way through the field, watching his back all the while. But he saw no one resembling Maras brother. He came across Crazy Badger, who had collared a Highland officer with a bleeding wound in his thigh. The Delaware had one hand at the mans throat and brandished his bloody tomahawk with the other. Something about the man was familiar. Jacques suddenly realized that he was the same young lieutenant they had seen at Maras cabin. With her brother.
"Stop," Jacques shouted and grabbed the Indians arm. "That man is an officer."
With an incredulous glare, Crazy Badger yanked out of Jacquess grasp. "He is my captive."
"Yes, of course," Jacques agreed. "But let us escort him to the fort for questioning. He may have information we need."
The wounded Highlander roused enough to glare at them. "I wont tell you a thing, you bloody frog," he shouted.
Crazy Badger waved his tomahawk threateningly.
"Shut up, you fool," Jacques hissed at the soldier. "Im trying to save your worthless hide." The Highlander looked from Jacques to the Indian and back, then closed his mouth.
Turning to Crazy Badger, Jacques tried once again to placate him. "You know you can trust me. I will see that you receive ransom for this prisoner."
Crazy Badger grunted his assent and moved off.
Jacques threw an arm around the other officers waist and started toward the fort. "A wise choice," he told the man. "Madame Dupré would have been most disappointed had you decided not to live."
"Madame Dupré?" The mans pain-filled eyes focused on Jacquess face. "She is alive?"
"Yes, and concerned about her brother. Have you seen him?"
"Not in weeks."
"Then he was not here today?"
"No," the man mumbled. "Wish I wasnt, either."
Jacques grunted his agreement. He imagined most of the attackers felt that way. Thank God, Maras brother had been absent. Jacques doubted she could bear any more tragedy right now.
He half-led, half-carried the wounded man to the surgery where Mara, Sophie, and several other women helped Monsieur Fourgue.
Mara ran to Jacques the moment she saw him enter with the wounded officer. "Did you find him?"
Jacques shook his head. "The lieutenant assures me he is not here."
Mara turned to his companion and recognition lit her face. "Lieutenant Shaw!"
"Madame Dupré. We meet again." He managed a weak smile before passing out.
* * *
Late that afternoon Jacques went back to the surgery, took one look at Maras wan face and led her from the building. He should never have left her there for so long. No matter the atrocities the war had dealt her so far, she wasnt used to the violence shed witnessed this day. Ignoring her protests, he took her behind the fort, beside the river.
They clambered down the bank and watched the water flowing peacefully downstream. After a few minutes, Mara knelt and splashed her face with water. But when she reached for her apron to dry off, she froze at the sight of the dried blood on it.
Jacques saw the look of horror, her glazed eyes, and trembling lips. He knelt beside her and gently wiped her face with his own handkerchief, smoothing back tendrils of hair that had escaped from her braid.
"How do you stand it?" she asked in a choked voice. "The f-fighting. The blood." A shudder shook her frame, and she clenched her trembling hands together.
"It is my job."
Her eyes filled with tears. "Its barbaric."
Jacques could stand it no more. He drew her into his arms, her head on his shoulder. Smoothing her hair with one hand, he tried to comfort her. She felt so fragile in his arms, slender and fine-boned. But she had an iron will, he knew, probably the only thing that had kept her on her feet all day.
It was a moment to cherish, to give thanks for just being alive. The sun was setting in the distance, turning the river golden. A light breeze freshened the air, filling his nostrils, washing away the stench of blood, if not the memory. On this side of the fort, it was deceptively easy to forget the mornings battle where nearly three hundred men had died. Easy to forget everything but the soft, warm woman in his arms.
Mara clung to him, soaking up the comfort he offered until she stopped shaking. He could have held her forever, but all too soon she drew away, and Jacques reluctantly let her go. He urged her to her feet and led her to a rock large enough for them to sit on.
"Thank you," she said.
"For what?"
"For saving Lieutenant Shaws life."
Jacques shrugged. "One does what one can." He and his comrades had tried but managed to save only a half dozen of the British officers. The western Indians had taken one young ensign prisoner and refused to give him up.
"Alain came by earlier to see how I was doing," Mara said.
Jacques felt his gut tighten.
Alain.
So she and that rogue were on a first name basis, yet she still called him Corbeau. He could keep still no longer. "Madame, I feel I must warn you about Alain Gauthier."
Her brows knit in a puzzled frown. "Whatever do you mean? He seems very charming to me."
Jacques ground his teeth. "That is precisely my point. He is an accomplished rogue who will take advantage of you if given half the chance."
She smiled faintly. "Unlike yourself, of course. Why should I be more wary of Alain than of you?"
"For one thing, I do not have a fiancée in Paris."
Her smile faded. "I see. Well, thank you for the warning, though I can assure you I was in no imminent danger of succumbing to Alains charm."
Did that mean she was vulnerable to his charm? Jacques breathed a sigh of relief. "Good. Mara, I worry about you. Do you like your new situation? Have the Bernards been good to you?"
"Yes." Her eyebrows raised. "Why do you care?"
He touched her hand lightly. "I feel responsible for you, and I cannot help but sense that there is something between us, even if it is only hate on your part."
Mara saw the troubled look on his face and, in a dawning revelation, knew she did not hate him after all. "It is not you I detest, but what you stand for."
"What is that?"
"The nation that killed my
husband."
And my father, and his father, and so many other Huguenots. So many deaths, already. Will the fighting and the hatred ever end?
She wrapped her arms around her middle and looked away.
When he spoke, his voice was gentle and tinged with regret. "I cannot change who I am."
"Neither can I." She choked out the words as she tried to banish the tumultuous images in her head. Her fathers memorial stone covering an empty grave. Emile dying in her arms. The bodies of the British soldiers strewn across the field of battle.
Corbeau took her chin in his hand and turned her toward him. "Mara, is there any chance that one day you may begin to like me? Perhaps a little?"
She shivered at the husky tone of his voice. "Does it really matter what I think of you?"
"Oh, yes, it matters."
As he caressed her lower lip with his thumb, she realized he was going to kiss her. "No," she whispered, remembering that overpowering kiss after shed run away. She had felt violated afterwards. Punished. But why would he wish to punish her now?
She tried to pull away, but he took her face between his hands and lowered his mouth to hers. The abrasion of his unshaven jaw rubbed against her cheek. Lightly, he pressed his lips to hers in a kiss that was warm and tender, full of a bittersweet yearning that she was unable to resist. This gentle persuasion was no punishment, no punishment at all. She felt herself relaxing, leaning into the comfort of his embrace.
She was so tired in body, so sick in heart and mind, so soul-starved that she drank in everything he had to offer her. His strength, his vitality, his passion, brought her battered senses to life. She felt the gentle breeze fanning her hot face and listened to the rhythm of the river as it flowed on, unmindful of human pain.
Her lips parted under the tentative probing of his tongue. She placed her hands on his chest and felt the furious pounding of his heart, echoing her own. His scent filled her nostrils, a heady combination of soap, wool, leather, and man.