Authors: Tessa Bailey
Tags: #police, #Romantic Suspense, #brazen, #line of duty, #erotic, #new york, #Contemporary Romance
standing there. In her muddled state, it
took a moment to place her. Ruby.
Bowen’s sister looked between them,
her expression leaving no room for
doubt she’d heard every shouted word.
She laid a hand on Bowen’s shoulder
and he turned his tortured expression on
her, making her visibly flinch.
“Come on.” Ruby nudged Bowen
gently. “Let’s get you off the street.”
Sera grabbed Bowen’s arm as he
turned to follow Ruby inside, but he
pulled away. “Come on, Sera.” His
outburst seemed to have sucked the
remaining life out of him. “Let’s make
this quick.”
She didn’t pause to take in her
surroundings as she followed him inside,
only registering the smell of wood,
sawdust, oil. Her full attention was
centered on Bowen’s stiff back. Then he
started talking and her world came to a
grinding halt.
“Give me a head start, then call Troy.
Tell him Sera is here and to come pick
her up. He needs to take her directly to
the station. To her uncle, the fucking
police commissioner
.” He pulled at his
hair as he addressed a horrified Ruby.
“All right? Can you do that for me?”
Devastation rolled over Sera in a
wave.
You can lie to me, lock me up…
Lock me up. She thought of her uncle in
the alley last night, his parting words of
“this isn’t over
.
” Bowen thought she
wanted him locked up and there was
only one way he could have come to that
conclusion. That had been her uncle on
the phone. She’d never been so sure of
anything in her life. For the first time, it
occurred to her she had reason to be
scared of her uncle. He would sabotage
her life, the lives of others, to protect his
prestigious position.
And Bowen was sending her right into
his hands, where her future would be his
to dictate. Where he would find a way to
keep her quiet about what she knew.
No, this couldn’t be happening. She
should have told Bowen everything last
night. The conversation between him and
her uncle had mentally sent him packing,
out of her reach. Made him incapable of
being reasonable. She could see it in his
jerky movements, the thousand-yard
stare he kept directing at her. Could she
even get through to him at this point? Or
had every ounce of trust between them
been destroyed?
“Bowen.” She planted herself in front
of him, but he fixated on some spot on
the wall behind her. “You don’t know
what you’re doing. There so much you
don’t know, about my brother—”
“Did you tell your
uncle
you wanted
me arrested?”
She swallowed hard. No more lies.
“Yes, but obviously not for the reason
you think.”
He’d stopped listening after she
confirmed it, his expression slamming
shut, jaw hardening. She opened her
mouth to keep going, to explain she only
wanted him safe from the men who
wanted him gone, even though his face
told her nothing she said would get
through. Before she could speak, he
silenced her with his mouth.
Yes, yes, yes
. If he wouldn’t listen to
her, this was her only hope. He couldn’t
kiss her and not realize how she felt. She
went up on her toes, threaded her fingers
through his haphazard hair, and put her
soul into the kiss. A broken noise in the
back of his throat wrenched her heart in
two, but she kept kissing his mouth,
hoping to get past the wall he’d built. He
framed her face with his hands and
kissed her back with an aching
thoroughness. A different kind of kiss.
No less passionate than before, but he
wouldn’t give himself over to her
completely. With a final blast of dread,
she realized it felt like good-bye.
One hand dropped from her face to
take her wrist. Before she could process
what he intended to do, her hand had
been secured to the wall. She broke
away with a gasp, her gaze flying
upward to see what he’d done. No.
No
.
He’d attached her to some kind of rack
with an industrial-sized zip tie. A rack
full of pool sticks. What was this place?
“Let me go.
Please.
You don’t know
what you’re doing.” She implored him
with her eyes. His breathing was
labored, eyes more tortured than before.
She’d been damned since last night,
hadn’t she? Damned by her silence. A
sob worked its way free of her throat.
“Bowen—”
He clapped a hand over her mouth. “I
don’t blame you, Ladybug. You did the
right thing. I’m going to go somewhere I
can’t hurt anyone else. Didn’t I tell you
I’d always give you what you want?” He
tucked a hair behind her ear. “No
smoking, okay? Ever. You promised.
And stay out of dark alleys from now on.
I won’t be there to keep you safe.” His
voice shook on the last word. As if he
couldn’t help it, he pressed a final kiss
to the center of her forehead. “You were
the best part of my life, Sera. Even if it
wasn’t real.”
She couldn’t see him through the tears
clouding her vision, the denial rising in
her throat. Defeat, thick and abhorrent,
crashed into her as he turned and walked
away. In a move of desperation, she
reached out to grab him, but her
imprisoned wrist prevented her and she
only caught air. She’d lost. Somehow all
the hope and resolve between them last
night and this morning had been ripped
to shreds. Helplessness shone through it
all, the pain of knowing anything she
said right now would be construed as a
lie.
“Please don’t go,” she tried to scream,
but it came out sounding strangled. “You
asked me so many times if I trusted you.
I said yes and I meant it. Give me the
same trust now.”
Bowen ignored her once again,
pointing a finger at Ruby. “You tell Troy
that if anything happens to her, I will
burn that precinct to the ground.
Tell
him
.”
Sera swiped at her eyes, turning her
attention to Ruby. Bowen’s sister looked
visibly shaken, tears coursing down her
own cheeks. “
I’ll tell him
,” she shouted
back, when he refused to budge without
an answer. “You’re about to do
something stupid, aren’t you? Ask me for
help. Just ask and I’ll give it.”
The door slamming was his only
answer. He hadn’t even looked back.
Sera sank to the ground, dimly
registering another woman walking out
of the back room. Bowen’s mother. Her
face appeared stricken, but Sera couldn’t
summon the will to care. So much
unbearable pressure existed in her chest,
she couldn’t believe it hadn’t cracked
wide open yet so her insides could spill
out. Any second, though, it would
happen. She’d welcome it. Anything,
anything
, had to be better than this
freezing sensation. Loss. She’d lost him.
He’d left her in danger.
He
was in
danger. And he had no idea.
When Ruby reached into her pocket
and drew out a cell phone, Sera came
out of her stupor with a burst of
adrenaline. “
No
. No, wait. Don’t make
the call yet.”
Ruby spared her a disgusted glance. “I
don’t break my word. Not to him.”
“You make that call, you’ll get him
killed.”
She
stopped
dialing.
“Explain.
Quickly. Just because my boyfriend’s a
cop doesn’t mean I trust all of you. From
what I heard, you set him up.”
Sera stood on wobbly legs, taking in
her surroundings vaguely. Pool sticks.
Everywhere. They were in some kind of
factory. “I wasn’t setting him up, I was
trying to save his life.” She sucked in a
breath, gesturing toward the door. “I
couldn’t get him to listen to me. He
wasn’t in his right mind.”
The other girl considered her closely.
“I’ve never seen him act like that,” she
admitted softly. “He wasn’t…there.”
More cold permeated her, making her
feel brittle. Somehow that frozen feeling
gave her a moment of clarity. She
wouldn’t let anything happen to him. No
way in hell. She’d broken him, and she
would fix him. Fix herself. This entire
situation.
Responsibility
weighed
heavily on her shoulders, but she
accepted it gladly. It gave her something
to focus on.
“Call Troy,” she directed Ruby,
grateful for the steel in her voice. “Ask
him to come here without letting anyone
know. Just ask him for ten minutes to
hear me out.” She tested the zip tie
holding her hostage, had the feeling
she’d be in it until they believed her. “I
have a plan.”
CHAPTER
TWENTY-FIVE
Bowen stared through unseeing eyes as
the crates containing stolen computer
hardware were loaded into the backs of
rented vans. Some had been provided by
Hogan, some by him and his men. They
worked in complete silence, tension
thick in the air. Nighttime had fallen
hours earlier, but to Bowen it had been
dark much longer. His body felt tired, as
if he’d expended actual, physical energy
trying to block out thoughts of Sera and
her betrayal. Had it even been a
betrayal? He’d known she was a cop
since the beginning. There’d been a
dawning
apprehension
when
she
wouldn’t talk to him, let him help her
with his eyes wide open. Maybe he
deserved to feel like this. Like someone
had taken a sledgehammer to his ribs and
left him to rot.
God, he was one pathetic son of a
bitch. He should be thinking about
getting the stolen merchandise to the
distributer in Queens, out of his hands.
All he could think of was her. Was she
safe? Had her feelings been genuine or
had it all been in his fucked-up brain?
Perhaps he’d taken one too many
punches and these were the gruesome
side effects. Seeing things that weren’t
there. Hoping for a future that was
laughable for someone like him. His
future had been mapped out before he
entered this world. It had been stupid of
him to lose sight of that.
An image of Sera sitting on his
windowsill, bathed in sunshine as she
sipped coffee, hit him hard and it took an
effort not to double over and shout until
his vocal cords gave out. On its heels
followed the sensation of her fingers
sifting through his hair, the husky sound
of her voice telling him he felt so good
inside her. How long? How long could
he live like this? A hole gaped in his
chest, yawning wider by the moment. He
knew if she were standing in front of him
just then, he would beg her to let him try
again. Beg her to come with him when
he left Brooklyn.
He had to leave. For so many reasons,
not the least of which was the beautiful
girl he’d left tied to a pool stick rack this
morning. No, there was more. The end
was coming. A tingling at the back of his
neck that didn’t go away anymore. It had
graduated to a roaring in his ears, and
combined with his grief over losing
Sera, threatened to kill him on its own.
An invisible weapon, instead of a real
one. Part of him would rather take the
bullet he suspected he had coming than
to let this gut-wrenching feeling drag him
under. It would be quicker and less
painful. Merciful, really.
Ten yards away, Hogan blew warm
air into his hands and rubbed them
together, nighttime having brought a cold
front. Beside him stood Connor and two
other men Bowen knew only by sight.
Wayne stood by the van with a
clipboard, making sure they were
receiving their fair share of the
merchandise, but Bowen could feel the