Revenge of the Lawn, the Abortion, So the Wind Won't Blow It All Away (16 page)

"That would be wonderful," she said. "It took me five years to write this book about flowers. I've worked very hard on it. I love flowers. Too bad my room doesn't have any windows, but I've done the best I can with candles. Tulips do all right."

Vida was sound asleep when I went back to my room. I turned on the light and it woke her up. She was blinking and her face had that soft marble quality to it that beautiful women have when they are suddenly awakened and are not quite ready for it yet.

"What's happening?" she said. "It's another book," she replied, answering her own question.

"Yes," I said.

"What's it about?" she said automatically like a gentle human phonograph.

"It's about growing flowers in hotel rooms."

I put the water on for the coffee and sat down beside Vida who curled over and put her head on my lap, so that my lap was entirely enveloped in her watery black hair.

I could see one of her breasts. It was fantastic!

"Now what's this about growing flowers in hotel rooms?" Vida said. "It couldn't be that easy. What's the real story?"

"By candlelight," I said.

"Uh-huh," Vida said. Even though I couldn't see her face, I knew she was smiling. She has funny ideas about the library.

"It's by an old woman," I said. "She loves flowers but she doesn't have any windows in her hotel room, so she grows them by candlelight."

"Oh, baby," Vida said, in that tone of voice she always uses for the library. She thinks this place is creepy and she doesn't care for it very much.

I didn't answer her. The coffee water was done and I took a spoonful of instant coffee and put it out in a cup.

"Instant coffee?" Vida said.

"Yes," I said. "I'm making it for the woman who just brought the book in. She's very old and she's walked a great distance to get here. I think she needs a cup of instant coffee."

"It sounds like she does. Perhaps even a little amyl nitrate for a chaser. I'm just kidding. Do you need any help? I'll get up."

"No, honey," I said. "I can take care of it. Did we cat all those cookies you baked?"

"No," she said. "The cookies are over there in that sack." She pointed toward the white paper bag on the table. "I think there are a couple of chocolate cookies left."

"What did you put them in the sack for?" I said.

"I don't know," she said. "Why does anyone put cookies in a sack? I just did."

Vida was resting her head on her elbow and watching me. She was unbelievable: her face, her eyes, her...

"Strong point," I said.

"Am I right?" she said, sleepily.

"Yup," I said.

I took the cup of coffee and put it on a small wooden tray, along with some canned milk and some sugar and a little plate for the cookies.

Vida had given me the tray as a present. She bought it at Cost Plus Imports and surprised me with it one day. I like surprises.

"See you later," I said. "Go back to sleep."

"OK," and pulled the covers up over her head. Farewell, my lovely.

I took the coffee and cookies out to the old woman. She was sitting at a table with her face resting on her
elbow and she was half asleep. There was an expression of dreaming on her face.

I hated to interrupt her. I know how much a dream can be worth, but, alas..."Hello," I said.

"Oh, hello," she said, breaking the dream cleanly.

"It's time for some coffee," I said.

"Oh, how nice," she said. "It's just what I need to wake me up. I'm a little tired because I walked so far. I guess I could have waited until tomorrow and taken the bus here, but I wanted to bring the book out right away because I just finished it at midnight and I've been working on it for five years.

"Five Years," she repeated, as if it were the name of a country where she was the President and the flowers growing by candlelight in her hotel room were her cabinet and I was the Secretary of Libraries.

"I think I'll register the book now," I said.

"That sounds wonderful," she said. "These are delicious cookies. Did you bake them yourself?"

I thought that was a rather strange question for her to ask me. I have never been asked that question before. It startled me. It's funny how people can catch you off guard with a question about cookies.

"No," I said. "I didn't bake these cookies. A friend did."

"Well, whoever baked them knows how to bake cookies. The chocolate tastes wonderful. So chocolatey."

"Good," I said.

Now it was time to register the book. We register all the books we receive here in our Library Contents Ledger. It is a record of all the books we get day by day, week by week, month by month, year by year. They all go into the Ledger.

We don't use the Dewey decimal classification or any index system to keep track of our books. We record their entrance into the library in the Library Contents Ledger and then we give the book back to its author who is free to place it anywhere he wants in the library, on whatever shelf catches his fancy.

It doesn't make any difference where a book is placed because nobody ever checks them out and nobody ever comes here to read them. This is not that kind of library. This is another kind of library.

"I just love these cookies," the old woman said, finishing the last cookie. "Such a good chocolate flavor. You can't buy these in a store. Did a friend bake them?"

"Yes," I said. "A very good friend."

"Well, good for them. There isn't enough of that tiling going on now, if you know what I mean."

"Yes," I said. "Chocolate cookies are good."

Vida baked them.

By now the old woman had finished the last drops of coffee in her cup, but she drank them again, even though they were gone. She wanted to make sure that she did not leave a drop in the cup, even to the point of drinking the last drop of coffee twice.

I could tell that she was preparing to say good-bye because she was trying to rise from her chair. I knew that she would never return again. This would be her only visit to the library.

"It's been so wonderful writing a book," she said. "Now it's done and I can return to my hotel room and my flowers. I'm very tired."

"Your book," I said, handing it to her. "You are free to put it anywhere you want to in the library, on any shelf you want."

"How exciting," she said.

She took her book very slowly over to a section where a lot of children are guided by a subconscious track of some kind to place their books on that shelf.

I don't remember ever seeing anyone over fifty put a book there before, but she went right there as if guided by the hands of the children and placed her book about growing flowers by candlelight in hotel rooms in between a book about Indians (pro) and an illustrated, highly favorable tract on strawberry jam.

She was very happy as she left the library to walk very slowly back to her room in the Kit Carson Hotel and the flowers that waited for her there.

I turned out the lights in the library and took the tray back to my room. I knew the library so well that I could do it in the dark. The returning path to my room was made comfortable by thoughts of flowers, America and Vida sleeping like a photograph here in the library.

T
HIS
library came into being because of an overwhelming need and desire for such a place. There just simply had to be a library like this. That desire brought into existence this library building which isn't very large and its permanent staffing which happens to be myself at the present time.

The library is old in the San Francisco post-earthquake yellow-brick style and is located at 3150 Sacramento Street, San Francisco, California 94115. though no books are ever accepted by mail. They must be brought in person. That is one of the foundations of this library.

Many people have worked here before me. This place has a fairly rapid turnover. I believe I am the 35th or 36th librarian. I got the job because I was the only person who could fulfill the requirements and I was available.

I am thirty-one years old and never had any formal library training. I have had a different kind of training which is quite compatible with the running of this library. I have an understanding of people and I love what I am doing.

I believe I am the only person in America who can perform this job right now and that's what I'm doing. After I am through with my job here, I'll find something else to do. I think the future has quite a lot in store for me.

The librarian before me was here for three years and finally had to quit because he was afraid of children. He thought they were up to something. He is now living in an old folks' home. I got a postcard from him last month. It was unintelligible.

The librarian before him was a young man who took a six-months leave of absence from his motorcycle gang to put in his tenure here. Afterward he returned to his gang and never told them where he had been.

"Where have you been the last six months?" they asked him.

"I've been taking care of my mother," he said. "She was sick and needed lots of hot chicken soup. Any more questions?" There were no more questions.

The librarian before him was here for two years, then moved suddenly to the Australian bush. Nothing has been heard from him since. I've heard rumors that he's alive, but I've also heard rumors that he's dead, but whatever he's doing, dead or alive, I'm certain he's still
in the Australian bush because he said he wasn't coming back and if he ever saw another book again, he'd cut his throat.

The librarian before him was a young lady who quit because she was pregnant. One day she caught the glint in a young poet's eye. They are now living together in the Mission District and are no longer young. She has a beautiful daughter, though, and he's on unemployment. They want to move to Mexico.

I believe it's a mistake on their part. I have seen too many couples who went to Mexico and then immediately broke up when they returned to America. I believe if they want to stay together they shouldn't go to Mexico.

The librarian before her was here for one year. He was killed in an automobile accident. An automobile went out of control and crashed into the library. Somehow it killed him. I have never been able to figure this out because the library is made of bricks.

A
H,
it feels so good to sit here in the darkness of these books. I'm not tired. This has been an average evening for books being brought in: with 23 finding their welcomed ways onto our shelves.

I wrote their titles and authors and a little about the receiving of each book down in the Library Contents Ledger. I think the first book came in around 6:30.

 

MY TRIKE by Chuck. The author was five years old and had a face that looked as if it had been struck by a tornado of freckles. There was no tide on the book and no words inside, just pictures.

"What's the name of your book?" I said.

The little boy opened the book and showed me the drawing of a tricycle. It looked more like a giraffe standing upside down in an elevator.

"That's my trike," he said.

"Beautiful," I said. "And what's your name?"

"That's my trike."

"Yes," I said. "Very nice, but what's your name?"

"Chuck."

He reached the book up onto the desk and then headed for the door, saying, "I have to go now. My mother's outside with my sister."

I was going to tell him that he could put the book on any shelf he wanted to, but then he was gone in his small way.

 

LEATHER CLOTHES AND THE HISTORY OF MAN by S. M. Justice. The author was quite motorcyclish and wearing an awful lot of leather clothes. His book was made entirely of leather. Somehow the book was printed. I had never seen a 290-page book printed on leather before.

When the author turned the book over to the library, he said, "I like a man who likes leather."

 

LOVE ALWAYS BEAUTIFUL by Charles Green. The author was about fifty years old and said he had been trying to find a publisher for his book since he was seventeen years old when he wrote the book.

"This book has set the world's record for rejections," he said. "It has been rejected 459 times and now I am an old man."

 

THE STEREO AND GOD by the Reverend Lincoln Lincoln. The author said that God was keeping his
eye on our stereophonic phonographs. I don't know what he meant by that but he slammed the book down very hard on the desk.

 

PANCAKE PRETTY by Barbara Jones. The author was seven years old and wearing a pretty white dress.

"This book is about a pancake," she said.

 

SAM SAM SAM by Patricia Evens Summers. "It's a book of literary essays," she said. "I've always admired Alfred Kazin and Edmund Wilson, especially Wilson's theories on
The Turn of the Screw.
" She was a woman in her late fifties who looked a great deal like Edmund Wilson.

 

A HISTORY OF NEBRASKA by Clinton York. The author was a gentleman about forty-seven who said he had never been to Nebraska but he had always been interested in the state.

"Ever since I was a child it's been Nebraska for me. Other kids listened to the radio or raved on about their bicycles. I read everything I could find on Nebraska. I don't know what got me started on the thing. But, any way, this is the most complete history ever written about Nebraska."

The book was in seven volumes and he had them in a shopping bag when he came into the library.

 

HE KISSED ALL NIGHT by Susan Margar. The author was a very plain middle-aged woman who looked
as if she had never been kissed. You had to look twice to see if she had any lips on her face. It was a surprise to find her mouth almost totally hidden beneath her nose.

"It's about kissing," she said.

I guess she was too old for any subterfuge now.

 

MOOSE by Richard Brautigan. The author was tall and blond and had a long yellow mustache that gave him an anachronistic appearance. He looked as if he would be more at home in another era.

This was the third or fourth book he had brought to the library. Every time he brought in a new book he looked a little older, a little more tired. He looked quite young when he brought in his first book. I can't remember the title of it, but it seems to me the book had something to do with America.