Restless in Carolina (3 page)

Bonnie tilts her chin forward. “That makes me plain sad, so take off the ring.”

Now? That’s asking too much. “I will when—”

“Take it off.”

“But—”

“You made my little girl cry!”

I did. And though I don’t care to look too deeply into myself, here I am, still holding tight to my interrupted life with Easton.

“Give me your hand.”

I don’t want to, and yet I raise my arm.

With surprising gentleness, Bonnie cups my fingers in hers. “It’s for the best. I promise.”

I hold my breath, and she tugs. And tugs. Then wrenches.

“Ow!” I try to pull free, but she sets her jaw and lifts her foot, as if to brace it against me for leverage.

“Stop it!” As I push her away, the ring comes free.

“Got it!”

Staring at it between her thumb and forefinger, I feel the air go out of me. How long before my deflated self pools on the floor? It doesn’t happen. I miss the constriction around my finger, and I may be a bit numb, but that’s it. Am I in shock?

“You okay, Bridge?”

“I think so.”

She presses the ring into my palm. “Put that in a good place where you won’t be looking at it every day.”

I close my fingers around it. How’s that for a good place?

She smoothes her blouse. “Now let’s go outside so everyone will see I didn’t yank out those ugly dreadlocks of yours.”

“They aren’t ugly.”

“They aren’t beautiful. Just”—she waves at my head—“more widow’s weeds.”

She’s not the first to call them that, seeing as Easton had dreads and always wanted me to try them. Unfortunately, God didn’t give him a chance to see how well I wear them. No, God had other plans for my man, and they didn’t include me. If ever there was a reason not to talk to Him or His Son, there it is.

“Those are next,” Bonnie says.

“What?”

“The dreads have to go.”

I want to argue, but I don’t have the energy. Besides, maybe she’s right. Since that night on the mansion’s roof months ago when a dread caught in the telescope and I had to cut it free, I’ve considered returning to my formerly undreaded locks that once fell soft and fluid down my back.

“Bridget?” She worries her bottom lip. “I know you have a business to run, but when Miles and Birdie come to stay in September, you will help Mama, won’t you?”

“Of course.”

Her gaze intensifies. “I mean really help—take them off her hands overnight and some weekends.”

Overnight? Weekends? Visits to the park, nature walks, and occasional lunches out are what I had in mind. Though Maggie’s daughter, Devyn, sometimes sleeps over, she’s the only one I’ve allowed to do so since I lost Easton. And she either shares the bed in the guest room with me or
crashes on the couch. There’s no way Birdie, Miles, and I will fit into the guest room’s full-size bed.

“It’s going to be a long eight weeks for”—Bonnie’s voice cracks—“everyone.”

I can’t remember the last time I saw her so sorrowful. Was she ever? I have a sudden impulse to give her a hug, but she’s not a hugger, and since Easton’s death, I’ve related to this side of her.

“So?” She prompts.

She’s not asking much. And it’s not as if she even knows what she’s asking
. Or does she? Keeping Birdie and Miles overnight fits nicely with her demand that I remove my wedding ring.
Which is only a problem if you plan to live the rest of your life in mourning and persist in making little girls cry
.

“Bridget!”

Out of my mouth pops, “I’d be happy to keep them overnight.”

Bonnie’s body eases. “Thank you.”

I can handle it—once I get used to my bare left hand. And it is six weeks before my niece and nephew return to Pickwick. Surely between now and then I can … well, reset my life.

“Eight weeks didn’t seem long when we started planning the study a year ago, but now …” Bonnie sniffs, only to snort. “My period must be coming. We won’t be gone that long, for goodness’ sake! And this
is
our last opportunity to conduct a full-fledged study abroad before the children start school.”

Is the study the reason Miles and Birdie aren’t enrolled in school this year? The newly minted five-year-olds certainly seem bright enough to start kindergarten.

Bonnie points a finger at me. “No more tales of heroes dying.”

“I won’t make that mistake again.”

“Good. Let’s get back to the party.”

Over the next two hours, I stand on the sidelines, watching happily married couples as my finger silently mourns the loss of its constant companion. Time and again, I touch it through the dress’s crisscrossed top where I slipped the ring into my bra. I know it’s just a symbol of the love Easton and I shared, but on
my
wedding day, I’d believed I would wear it to the grave after years and years with the man I loved. I didn’t even come close. And as I watch Trinity with her Bart, Piper with her Axel, and Bonnie with her Claude, I force myself to put a name to what earlier made me retreat inside the big house.

Envy.

An ache opens at my center and radiates out to the ends. I want what they have—one another. All I have is “one.” My “another” is gone, and every time I think about opening my eyes to other men, I’m set upon by guilt and uncertainty. After all, it may have been four years, but Easton wasn’t a coffeepot that needs replacing every so often. He was my love. How could I ever have another? And yet …

My cousin Maggie puts her head on the shoulder of what’s-his-name. I frown. What
is
his name? Since it looks like he plans on being a major part of her life, I ought to make more of an effort to—Reece! That’s his name. Reece, who runs his fingers through her red curls, tilts her chin up, and kisses her.

My hand goes to my ring, but the feel of it does little to ease my longing for a shoulder on which to lay my head … a mouth to make mine flush … a heart to make mine jump …

S
he did not do that. Oh yes, she did—chucked her gum out the window, which landed on my windshield, after she crossed a double yellow line into the oncoming lane and flew past me, after she honked at my unavoidable deceleration up a particularly steep rise on Pickwick Pike. If that doesn’t beat all, according to her magnetic door sign, she’s a real estate agent.

Let it go, Bridget
.

“I know,” I mutter, doing my best to reduce the gum in the corner of my windshield to a blur, “but …” It’s been one of those days, and so near a total loss I don’t see how anything I do can make it much worse.

Bringing the gum back into focus, I put the pedal to the metal, causing Buchanan’s Nursery truck to lurch and growl. Fortunately, with a bit of prodding and flattery—and now that I’m on the other side of the incline—I can always count on my trusty Ford to pick up speed. “You can do it. You’re strong. And not bad lookin’ either.” Beauty is in the eye of the beholder.

Before long I’m riding the bumper of the sporty little Cadillac, honking and blinking my lights and motioning for the litterbug to pull over. But she pays me no mind, just keeps yakking at her passenger—probably a client, and it looks to be a man.

Time to take it to the next level.
Far better you get home to Reggie and let this day wash itself away
.

As the pike curves to the right, the sinking sunlight zings off the roof of the car ahead, nearly blinding me, but I flip my sunglasses on and I’m good to go. Gaining momentum, I swerve into the opposite lane that is empty as far as the eye can see and roar past the Caddy. I’m not rash, so I give the woman plenty of warning, gradually decelerating as I straddle the two lanes so she can’t get around me on the narrow road. When I stop, she has no choice but to brake or mess up that shiny grille of hers.

I push open the moan-and-groan door, swing my legs out, and drop to the asphalt, only to remember I’m barefoot—and still wearing Maggie’s dress that poufs up around me like an open umbrella. I whack it down as I approach the car.

When I’m twenty feet out, the driver’s door swings open, and the woman says, “Gracious no, it’s just one of those good ol’ girls I told you about. I can handle her.”

Oh yeah?

“Besides, I know how important it is we maintain your anonymity.”

Obviously, someone full up on himself. As the asphalt heats my feet, almost making me wish for Piper’s pointy shoes, I attempt to make out the man on the other side of the windshield. However, he’s mostly in shadow.

The woman, jacked up on three-inch heels, steps from the car, closes the door with a swat, and saunters forward to meet me at her front fender. She cants her glossy head to the side, revealing a talkie thing in her ear. “What is your problem?”

Man, the asphalt is hot! I pull off my sunglasses, the better for her to read my eyes. “That would be the gum you tossed out the window a ways back. It’s called litterin’. And it’s illegal.”

Her copper-colored lips part as she stares at me. “All this because of a little piece of gum?”

“That and your reckless driving.”

Shifting her gaze past me to my truck, she drawls, “Right, and there’s nothing at all reckless about parking in the middle of a two-way road, hmm?”

I open my mouth to tell her there’s good line of sight in both directions, that I’m not the one who crossed a double yellow line, and Pickwick Pike is rarely traveled since the new highway exit went in, but she does have something of a point. So I close my mouth and raise my eyebrows.

She plants her manicured hands on her hips. “Look, I have a very important client in the car, and people like you, putting on displays like this, make people like him think Pickwick is uncivilized and unfit to live in.”

“I’m okay with that.”

She looks me up and down. “Well, of course you are, darlin’.”

My imagination momentarily transports me out of my body, and I see myself as I appear before this professional woman and her client—barefoot, wearing a fancy dress a bit too long, a bit too wide, and way too stiff, no makeup, and dreads hanging down my back. And mustn’t forget the backdrop of my battered Ford. Oh, to be in a pair of jeans, not too long, not too wide, and soft as peach fuzz. And my Crocs. If I don’t get off this asphalt soon, I’m gonna be blistered.

The woman checks her watch. “I need to get back to Asheville.”

I shift my weight to my right foot to give my left a break. “Just as soon as you take care of the gum.”

With a chicken bob of her head, she says, “You expect me to go back and scrape it off the road?”

“You’re in luck. It’s stuck to my windshield.” I hitch a thumb over my shoulder.

She rolls her eyes. “Honestly!”

“I have all day.” I fold my arms over my chest.

She peers beyond me, as if to calculate the likelihood of squeezing past my truck without scraping the guardrail on one side and the chiseled-out mountain on the other. Of course, if she waits long enough, eventually a car will come down the pike and I’ll be forced to move out of the way.

She huffs. “Fine.”

As I start to follow her to my truck, I glance through the Caddy’s windshield and catch sight of reflective sunglasses. And a wedge of white teeth.

Yes, this is a peculiar situation, and I might find humor in it if my feet weren’t blistering, two five-year-olds hadn’t manipulated me into saying
H.E.A.
, and my wedding band wasn’t burning a hole in my bra.

I hurry after the woman. “You know, if your gum hadn’t landed there, it could have become a deathtrap for some critter that got it caught in its craw.”

“Uh-huh.” She reaches to my windshield only to snatch her hand back, whip around, and splay that same hand in my approaching face. “Oh. My. Word. Hold it!”

I do, ensuring her white-tipped fingernails don’t come within a foot of my face. “What?”

“I know you.”

I look closer at her. “No, you don’t.” Unless she knows
of me
, what with me being a scandalous Pickwick, more specifically, she of The
Great Crop Circle Hoax that gained worldwide attention years ago before I exposed my creation for what it was.

With a satisfied smile, she drops her hand. “You’re Bridget Pickwick—”

Buchanan.

“—tree-huggin’, animal-lovin’ prankster.”

“Your point?”

“Cotillion.”

Oh. That. “Yes, that was me.”

“And your skunk—was it Stripe?”

I’m surprised she knows his name. But then it was in the Asheville newspaper, along with the headline: “Pickwicks Raise a Stink at Cotillion.” More accurately, Bridget Pickwick, who foiled her mother’s attempts to transform her into a Southern lady by loosing her skunk on the ballroom.

I reconsider my once-fellow debutante—her wide mouth, narrow nose, and heavily lashed eyes. “I suppose you were there.”

“I was. Sprained my big toe and tore my new dress in the stampede.”

“Sorry about that. He was deskunked, you know.”

“Found that out after the fact.” She narrows her lids. “You haven’t changed much, have you?”

Not a compliment. “Thankfully, no.” I point at the windshield. “Do you mind?”

She gives a throaty laugh. “If you ask me, we’re more than even.”

But—Oh, all right! “Even we are.”