Repair Me (26 page)

             
Davien stood patiently waiting for me. His eyes lit up when I wrapped my arms around his neck. Lacing my fingers together, I looked around his shoulder and spot Justin. He shot me a wink and nodded his head as he smiled towards me. I winked back “Everything okay?” I nodded as I looked to Davien. “You find out how much money you got?”

             
“I was just told... it's enough.” Davien smiled as he reached for the same lips that Justin had just touched. I wanted to pull back, but this was the the man that I truly loved. The man that cared about me more than anything in the world.

             
Loud steps came from the stairs as Vince threw the door open. We all stopped our conversations and looked to the new couple. Vince looked around the room smiling at the group. “What?” We all chuckled. Khloe stood behind him, keeping her head hid slightly. “What the hell?” The guilt was in the laughter of his voice.

             
Davien dropped his arms from me and walked to Khloe, pulling her to the front of Vince. He used Vince's arms and wrapped them around Khloe. Vince moved to the same position as Scott and Natalia, with his arms wrapped possessively around Khloe. Davien of course cleared the obvious. “Hope you guys cleaned up my damn man cave. Thank God I locked my bedroom... that's for me and Avery only.” Davien returned to me and swung his arm over my shoulder, pulling me tightly against his side. “No other woman has ever laid on that bed and no one else ever will.” We both exchanged smiles towards each other.

             
Every guy in the kitchen had a partner except for Justin. Which left me to feel guilty since it was Justin's night that we were celebrating. I pulled Davien across the room as we walked to Justin's side. Holding Davien's hand, I stood next to Justin and I pat the palm of my free hand to Justin's back. “Good fight Justin.”

             
He looked down on my smiling face as I held Davien close. “Thanks, Baby girl.” Justin said.

             
Davien nudged his chest with his free hand, never leaving mine, “Yeah, good job, Bro. That was the best I've ever seen you. Guess my girl really is your lucky charm.”

             
With pride in his smile and not a drop of guilt after our relief. “Yeah, you got a good one. Don't let her go man.” They both nodded their heads with agreement.

             
A few months ago, I had a man that thought he cared about me, then I found a man that loved me, now I had a man that wished he could have me, but wanted his friendship more. And I wanted Davien more than anything possible. I had dropped the man who thought he cared about me and gained a group of friends that I didn't know was here. In the last few months I had person after person telling me that things will get worse before they get better... but I think I was at the best possible. I loved this group at a level I didn't know even existed.

             
Natalia ended up spending the night with Scott and Vince walked hand in hand out the door with Khloe. Since she rode with Natalia I was assuming she wasn't returning home. Vince seemed more happy than I had ever seen before. But I still felt bad for Justin. He was one of the greatest guys I had ever come across and he was going home alone. Vince and Khloe had already made it out the door and Davien was already jumping in the basement shower.

             
I stopped Justin at the door. His eyes looked hurt when I yanked his arm back. “I'm sorry Justin.” My eyes swelled with tears.

             
“No, Baby girl,... I'm sorry.” He covered his eyes with both hands and ran his hands backwards through his buzz cut. “It should have never gone that far.”

             
“We had to. We needed it.” I reminded him. “You deserve a good girl... she's out there.” I pat his shoulder.

             
“Yeah, I know.” His head dropped from shame. “I hope she's like you.”

             
“Me too. I hope she's better.” I smiled at his moist eyes.

             
Wiping his tears away, “Don't break his heart, Baby girl.”

             
I shook my head “I won't, Justin.” I whispered as I fought that familiar feeling. “He's too good.”

             
Before stepping from the door, Justin left one last emotional kiss to my cheek. “Good night, Baby girl.”

             
I waved as I closed the door. With a heavy sigh, I turned the kitchen light off and walked the steps to the basement. Davien was in the shower singing like always, instantly putting a huge grin on my face. I looked at the messy pillows on the couch and shook my head. Obviously Vince and Khloe had opened up to each other in one way or another. They looked super cute together and I saw them as a great couple.

             
Slowly opening the bathroom door, I inhaled the luxurious scent of my Davien. Although I crept in, he still heard me and peeped from the side of the curtain. “Everything alright, Avery?”

             
I didn't respond, but he smiled as I sat on the closed toilet and slowly nodded my head as I smiled back to him. He crooked his finger for me to join him, his grin covering his entire face as I agreed. As I undressed myself, I looked at his body that shimmered with drops of water. Water that I was jealous of. It ran in places that I could dream of all day. His well defined arm pulled the curtain to the side as the stream released from the shower.

             
Stepping in, his hand immediately wrapped around my body, pulling me hard against his drenched body. I loved the feeling of his wet body covering my dry, bare skin. He covered my body possessively with his mouth instantly at my neck. “Can I sing to you tonight?” I nodded my head with the vibrations of my moves running to his tempting lips. “What do you wanna hear?”

             
“Something that reminds you of me... our relationship.” I answered. The water falling from the shower was washing away my guilt. Davien loved me so much and I couldn't imagine betraying him. I loved him even more. I had betrayed one man, but Anthony was different and Davien was clear that he wouldn't allow it until I was single. That intensified the guilt. I reminded myself over and over for the last hour that the moments I shared with Justin were relief only. I repeated those words over and over.

             
“Somethings wrong, Avery. I can feel the tension tonight.” He looked at my face searching for answers.

             
Speaking clearly, I begged. “Sing to me, Davien. Tell me how you feel. Remind me about our love for each other. I need to hear it.”

             
I didn't know what Davien was thinking to his self. He had sensed the tension. He was quiet for long moments as he pulled one of my thighs above his hip, guiding me against his swollen excitement. His free hand moved between my thighs to tease me and release my strains. I moaned against his chest and begged for more touch. “I love you, Avery.” He spoke into my crook of my neck as he nibbled at my body.

             
“I love you more, Davien.” I replied as I reached for his growing erection. I could hear from the vibrations of his groans that he was waiting for my touch. He was begging for his needs.  He moved my limp body backwards until he had me pinned against the wall. His eyes were on fire as he teased my swollen nerves.

             
Davien had such a unique voice, I couldn't compare him to a single artist. But a familiar sound repeatedly played in my car and he knew it reminded me of him. It was as close as I could hear. The words to those songs sounded like Davien had begged someone to write the lyrics just for us. With a smile across his voice, he comforted me with his words as I watched his lips. He began singing 'It Will Rain' by Bruno Mars. It really was meant for us or at least that's what I told myself. Davien only chose songs that filled his lips with his thoughts. Was there really any other man that could do that. To not only come up with the words as he was thinking quickly, but to match them to a song as well. Never skipping a single word. Many songs started with a story that I wasn't familiar with, a story that wasn't ours, but it always ended with the same as the relationship I shared with Davien. I just knew it, he knew it.

             
The entire song was ours though. From beginning to end and I wondered if he had picked it out long before this moment. It was our song. He softly shook his head as he sang the words to me. We had pulled apart enough to look into each others eyes. His dropping occasionally as he fought with the story he was telling. Near the end he followed similar actions to the words he was singing and dropped to his knees as he begged me for his love. I smiled as I nodded to his request.

              When he finished the song, he reached for the bottle of his high quality hair products and washed both his and mine. Running his fingers through the back of my hair, we stood chest to chest. My fingers trailed up his chest and as I had wanted the second night in his bed, I continued my trail until I reached my destination. With a grin on his face, he rinsed my hair and the water was off immediately.

             
Stepping to the bath mat, he reached for my towel before getting his own. We didn't even have a chance to make our way to the bedroom. Backing, he pulled me along him as he sat at the closed toilet. He pulled me to his lap where I straddled him. My body was tingling from the build up of swollen pleasures. “Don't ever leave me, Avery.”

             
I shook my head. “I never will, Davien.” He pulled me tight against him as I joined his body. I sunk around him as his muscular chest dropped with a struggled moan. “Oh, Davien.” I screamed with self induced vibrations in my voice. Our bodies worked against each other as he pulled me up, I pushed down simultaneously.

Chapter 14

              Another three weeks had gone by with our relationship growing daily. Vince and Khloe were quite the couple. Yet they were in the same position as Scott and Natalia where he couldn't spend the night and she rarely stayed with him, except for a Friday night or so. She had opened up enough to where Natalia and I brought her with to CJ's every so often. She smiled the entire time Vince was on stage. After a few rounds of drinks, she had blurted out that 'Vince makes love to the same beat of his drums'. Natalia and I cracked up so hard, but I knew what she meant as I loved the feeling I had when Davien always sang to me during sex. It was more intimate. But I had to admit the story of Vince moving like a pair of drumsticks in rhythm, was quite amusing.

             
As I had promised months ago, I joined him with a visit with his Mom. She was nothing like I had imagined. I had expected some drunken old lady. So I was quite surprised to walk into a small, yet well taken care of apartment and a beautiful woman cooking a hot meal for her son and his girlfriend. Davien opened the apartment door without knocking. He walked to the kitchen as he Mom stood over the stove stirring the meal. His hand never left mine as he pulled us to the exquisite woman. With one hand still attached to me, he wrapped his free arm around his Mom's waist.

             
She looked back in surprise. He kissed her cheek. “Hey Ma, whatcha cookin?” He sounded like a young child when he talked.

             
“Chicken and rice.” She replied. She looked at our attached hands then raising his eyes to meet mine, she smiled.

             
“This is the lovely Avery Addison Mom, my girlfriend.” He introduced us.

             
“Thank you for having me over, Mrs...” I stumbled at my words as I was left with no clue to her name except for 'Mom'.

             
She smiled, relieving me at my embarrassment. “Ms. Dodge. He has my last name honey. I never married.” She pleasantly chuckled. His Mom was softly aged with beautiful features. She came across as a middle class woman, unlike I had assumed. I figured she must have struggled being a single parent. Davien had once told me that his Dad was another Anthony and his Mom left him early in his childhood. I tried picturing Davien as a young boy and laughed to myself as I could see him being the loud and energetic boy. Running around with a guitar.

             
Dinner was simple, but amazing. It wasn't the food. It was the family. Ms. Dodge was obviously proud of her amazing son. He had accomplished so much over the last few years. I was proud of him.

☼

             
The following Friday, Natalia picked me up for our usual night at CJ's.  Khloe was unable to make it since she was returning home to Iowa for a quick visit with her parents. I was more excited that night compared to the other Fridays. The guys weren't playing because Justin was scheduled for a fight that was canceled. Being the normal routine, we still met up at CJ's to have a few drinks. I was thrilled to spend time with Davien in a relaxed setting. As I knew I would miss his dreamy eyes from the stage, I never minded those same eyes across the table from me.

             
The guys met us there and it seemed weird to walk in as the guys were already at competition by the dart board. Davien spot me as I stepped in the door. Winking at me and smirking as he left goosebumps traveling through my arms. He looked just as amazing as normal. With faded jeans and a tight fitted black shirt. His hair was styled perfectly with gel in the style I always preferred. The vintage cigarette ad look as I had called it the first night. With the sides shorter than the top which was gelled and combed up and slightly back. It was a wild bad boy style as he matched it with a simple look. He always left me drooling over the man I shared a bed with. The man that I had just made love to hours ago. The man than wouldn't let me escape the bed without being pleased.

             
“Hey, pretty girl, what's your name?” Davien yelled over the background music. I shook my head as my cheeks heated. “Yeah, I'm talking to you.” He pointed to me as he looked over Vince's head.

             
I ignored him as I followed Natalia to our usual table. “Weirdo.” I said as Natalia and I both laughed at the gorgeous man.

             
He jogged to my side as Scott followed short behind. His arms rest above my shoulder. “Hey, I was talking to you, sexy.” I looked at him with amusement. “You got a man?”

             
I shook my head, as he questioned my fake answer. “Good... then maybe I'll get a dance with you tonight.” I jumped from my bar stool, more than willing to have a dance with this gorgeous man. “Hey guys,” he yelled around the growing crowd “found me a cute one tonight.” They all shook their heads with his stupidity.

             
Scott and Natalia followed us to the dance floor where I had many memories. Many different memories. The first dance with Davien on the second night with him, the actual night I slept in bed with him for the first time in fact. We had shared many love songs in each others arms. But I'd never really admit that my favorite moment on the floor was actually the night that Justin took over the mic and Davien and I danced to the fast beat with our arms tangling as the crowd spread out for us. It wasn't Justin's voice that made it so special it was the energy in Davien's body that he was never embarrassed to show off. The feeling that used all that energy to show off his girlfriend, left me with stronger memories than ever.

             
Davien held me tight as I wrapped my hands around his neck. Standing on tippy-toes I kissed him as we carried our bodies to the song. It was a modern country song with good lyrics that only Davien would have requested. He loved a song with a great beat but the songs with a strong story was his favorite. As the song ended, Natalia shot me a look to follow her to the bar as she nodded in that direction. We hooked our arms together, pulling my dress in place, we skipped like young girls to the loosening station. After ordering our drinks, I leaned my back on the bar and smiled as I looked for Davien. But my smiled instantly dropped when I spot him at the normal table. The table that I had just left. He was sitting with a woman who was standing within inches of him. Her back faced me and I was unable to make out her features.

             
I took long deep breaths as I watched him politely nodding at the woman, not attempting to brush her away. She was tall with gorgeous loose curled blonde hair. Although I couldn't make out her entire body, I could tell that she was beautiful, yet trashy. Her hand placed on Davien's shoulder as he continued to nod at her. I straightened my posture and crossed my arms over my chest. Looking at Natalia as she finished gathering our drinks from the bartender, I poked her back painfully. “Who the fuck is that ,Natalia. She's not a fan.” I knew she wasn't a fan. Davien would have politely autographed anything appropriate and then left their side. This woman continued with his conversation. “Do you know who that is?”

             
She flipped over her shoulder “Who? Where?” I pointed in Davien's direction. Natalia's eyes immediately widened and her breathing was quiet as she studied the pair. “C'mon, Avery. Let's go to the bathroom. I need to check my make up.”

             
“
No,
Natalia. Who the hell is that? Tell me.” I could tell by her voice and her facial expressions, that the lady was someone she knew and it wasn't a family member. “You go with me or I go by myself”. Ignoring her, I stepped to balance my shaky body and she pulled me back.

             
“I'm going with you.” She demanded.

             
As we walked closer, Davien noticed my annoyed look. I was beyond annoyed, I was pissed. Yes, in the beginning I was a little jealous, I had questions, but I kept trying to tell myself she was probably a cousin since he allowed her hand on his shoulder. He never did that, at least not in front of me. Davien placed his hand over the blondes and dropped it to her side. Seeming annoyed, she shook her head with disgust. Davien's eyes never left my blackened eyes. The three other men sat across from him as they watched my intense looks. Surely the woman had noticed Davien watching and turned to see what he had been looking at.

             
Looking over her shoulder, our eyes met. She gave me a smile, not a happy smile, a laughing smile with betrayal behind it. I followed her body down to her over flowing cleavage as I squint my eyes in disbelief. There was no introduction, so as I had assumed by the way Natalia had spoke and the look on Davien's face, this woman was not what I wanted to meet. As she made a full turn, I grabbed my stomach as I gripped to help myself from throwing up. Natalia placed her hand on my back when she noticed the same swollen belly that I had just seen.

             
Dropping my drink to the next table, I fought my way through the crowd. Natalia chased after me, calling my name repeatedly. As I had hoped, the bathroom was empty when I fell to the floor. Natalia dropped to her knees in front of me. “When did they date Natalia?” She wouldn't answer though. “When in the hell did they date?” I screamed loud enough for the rest of the bar to hear over the bathroom door.

             
Long seconds passed as she did math work in her head. Whispering the answer. “They didn't date,” She said, but I knew it wasn't the answer I had asked. “but they stopped having sex about 8 months ago. A few months before you even met Davien.” Standing from the floor, I walked to the closest stall and threw up as my body shook from the truth.

             
Holding my hair from my face, Natalia stood over me as I leaned in the toilet. With a loud bang, I heard the screaming of Davien's voice. “Let me see her, Natalia.” He yelled while pounding at the door.

             
She released my ponytail and looking over the bathroom, she opened the door, allowing Davien to see me. “Leave me alone, Davien.” I cried. My voice was full of pity towards him.

             
“I'm sorry, Avery.” I shook my head in disgust. He stepped behind me and I lowered myself to sit on the dirty bar bathroom floor. His hand ran over my back. “I don't know what to say. I know it looks horrible.”

             
I screamed as I looked dead into his eyes. “Its looks horrible? That's all you can say? You're having a baby with a woman that looks like a damn whore and all you can say is 'sorry'... go fuck yourself, Davien Dodge.” He tried to grab my hand, but I snatched it back. “I'm through.”

             
“You can't.”

             
“Watch me!” I squint my eyes and my middle finger flew high enough to touch his face. He didn't make another move, but he pulled his lips in to fight his tears.

             
With Natalia helping me to my feet, Davien backed away, allowing me to walk past him. I threw another look and he stood with his head dropped. Swinging the bathroom door open, I stomped to the many watching patrons. I followed Natalia to the table where Scott was waiting for her. She was having a small conversation but my mind was in a different world.

             
Looking behind me, I saw Davien approaching the same table. The swollen bellied lady was no where in sight but I still had no desire to even look at Davien. He was a stranger in my present thoughts. As he came within arms reach, he spoke to me with clenched jaws. “Avery, please talk to me.”

             
“Leave me alone!” I screamed until the crowd quietened and more faces followed to my attention. “Please, just leave me alone.” His hand ran over my crossed arms, but I pushed him away.

             
Justin was watching me as he knew the truth, but sorry for my pain. Stepping from his stool, Justin walked to Davien's side and placed his hand on Davien's shoulder. “Just leave her alone for a little bit man.” He was the mutual friend that didn't want to see either of us hurt. Sometimes the truth hurts though. Davien shook his head without agreement. “I'm asking you as a friend to give her sometime. She's hurt. She loves you.” Not being his normal self, Davien pushed Justin's hand off his shoulder until Justin had to catch his balance. I could tell that Justin understood his anger, but he understood mine as well. He walked away from Davien as he eyed him up and down. Then ran his arm around my waist, pulling me against his side. Justin kept his cool and tried to warn Davien to follow the same. “C'mon, Baby girl. I'll take you to your place.”

             
Without another option, I followed Justin. With his arm still wrapped around my body, I looked over my shoulder and spot Davien. His eyes were filled with tears and his throat was swelled as he tried to keep them from falling. With his hands meeting at the bridge of his nose and his mouth covered with those same hands, Davien begged with his eyes. Justin yanked at my arm until I followed him. As we made it out the door, I immediately began sobbing, holding my body against Justin's for comfort. He soothed my back with the palm of his hand. “No, Justin, please tell me I'm dreaming. Tell me it's not true, please.” I cried out. Everything was happening so fast.

             
He didn't say anything as he rocked me against his chest. His lips touched the top of my hair. “It's gonna be okay, Baby girl.” He pulled my face away so he could wipe my tears. “I promise.” He led me to his candy apple car and opened the passenger door for me.