Renegade Father (4 page)

Her fingers trembled in his and he realized too late why he did his best to avoid touching her—just the simple contact of her hand in his filled him with wants and needs he had absolutely no business wanting or needing.

What would she do if he reached across that scarred pine table and pulled her to him, if he dug his fingers into that sinful hair and devoured that luscious mouth of hers like he imagined doing a dozen times a day?

Easy. More than likely, she'd kick him off the ranch herself. She'd barely survived being tangled up with one Redhawk brother and she sure didn't need the other one messing things up for her now.

But wasn't he doing just that by taking this job in Wyoming? Putting her to the trouble of having to find a new foreman and leaving her to deal with two upset kids?

He shifted on the hard chair. “Maybe I ought to just call Waterson and tell him to forget it.”

Relief flickered in her eyes for just a moment, then she shook her head vigorously. “I won't let you do that. You've sacrificed enough of your life for us. You're right, you need to move on and this sounds like a wonderful opportunity for you, a real chance to make a new start. It will be good for you. And whether we like it
or not, it will be good for us not to depend on you so much.”

She was ready to cut him loose, he thought as he said his goodbyes a few moments later and headed back out into the blizzard. So why was he suddenly not so sure he wanted to be free?

 

She was becoming a pretty darn good liar.

Her conversation with Joe the night before ran through her head over and over while she tried to catch up on the mounds of paperwork that seemed to pile up like January snow.

Since the kids were still in school and the men were out repairing damage from the storm the night before, she had the ranch house to herself. She should have been able to make a real dent in that month's bills, but she couldn't seem to concentrate on much of anything.

On anything except a dark-eyed Shoshone who would be blowing out of her life on the last of the winter storms.

She sighed and forced herself to concentrate on all the work she had to do. It wasn't doing her any good to brood about Joe's leaving. If she didn't stop it, she would be completely worthless for the two remaining months she had left with him.

She was just wincing over the check she had to write to the vet when the door off the mudroom suddenly creaked open, sounding abnormally loud in the stillness of the empty house. Just as abruptly, it closed again with a quiet click.

She glanced at the digital clock on the command line of the computer. Odd. The kids weren't due home from school for several hours and Joe said he thought the men would be tied up most of the day fixing the roof
of the hay shed in the far pasture. They'd taken lunch with them but maybe they forgot something or finished up earlier than expected.

“Hello?” she called out. “I'm back here in the office.”

She was met by silence, unbroken except for the low, ubiquitous whir of the furnace. A shiver sneaked down her spine and she frowned. “Hello?” she called again.

No one answered.

Was somebody playing some of kind of trick on her? She didn't think any of the men had that kind of cruel streak in them, but Patch could be mischievous and his sense of humor sometimes veered off into warped territory.

Puzzled, she rose from the computer and walked out of the office, through the empty family room and toward the kitchen at the other side of the house. In the thick silence, her pulse sounded loud and strident in her ears. She was more edgy than she cared to admit, a realization that sent fresh anger coursing through her.

This house, with its softly weathered logs and its wraparound porch, was her haven now. She had no reason to be afraid here anymore and she hated that someone could dredge up all these old feelings. If it was Patch playing a trick, she planned to give him an earful he wouldn't soon forget.

She walked into the big kitchen, expecting somebody to jump out any minute with a gleeful “boo,” but the room was empty.

She scratched the back of her head, baffled and uneasy. Was she going crazy? She
had
heard the door open and close, hadn't she?

Maybe not. Maybe she was hearing things. Maybe
she was just overwrought from all the stress of the day before.

It was the only explanation, since there was obviously no one in the house and a quick glance out the kitchen window showed no one between the house and the outbuildings except a few chickens scratching through the snow looking for lunch.

She couldn't see any tracks on the walk either, but C.J. had cleared most of the snow away this morning and the rest was so packed it probably wouldn't show anything.

This was too creepy. Maybe she ought to go take a look upstairs….

The phone suddenly jangled loudly in the silence, sending her jumping at least a foot into the air. She grabbed at her chest where her heart threatened to hammer through her rib cage. “It's just the phone, you big baby,” she chided herself, and crossed to the wall unit next to the refrigerator.

“Hello?” Despite her best efforts to calm herself, her pulse still fluttered wildly.

“Hey. I hear you're on the lookout for a new foreman.”

She slumped against the counter at the familiar voice of her closest neighbor and pushed away the rest of her lingering unease. “Hey, Colt. News travels fast.”

“It does when it's bad news. What the hell is Joe thinking? He can't leave you in the lurch like that, right before spring planting.”

“He's given me two months' notice—more than anyone else would. I can't ask for more than that.”

“I can. I'm coming over to talk some sense into him.”

She ground her teeth. Lord spare her from arrogant
men who didn't think she was competent enough to brush her teeth without them standing over her checking every last inch of enamel.

Colton McKendrick grew up on the adjacent ranch, the Broken Spur, where Joe's father had worked. And just like Joe, he thought it was his mission in life to watch out for her. Even though she had been four years younger than the boys, they were the only other kids for miles so the three of them had been inseparable, always tumbling into one scrape after another.

Before her divorce, Joe had run the Broken Spur for him while Colt devoted himself first to the military and then to FBI undercover work, trying to outrun his ghosts.

She loved him dearly and was thrilled that his days of running were over, but she wished just once he and Joe would both realize she was all grown up and could take care of herself.

Most of the time, anyway.

“Colt, stay out of it. This is something Joe wants to do and I've accepted that. You should, too.”

“Bull. You need him.”

“I need a foreman,” she answered. “But it doesn't necessarily have to be Joe Redhawk.”

“He's the best there is. Dammit, how can he just run out on you like this?”

“You'll have to ask him that.”

“I plan to, right now. I'm on my way.”

Colt severed the connection before she could argue with him. She had barely returned the phone to the receiver and put more coffee on when she heard the crunch of truck tires on snow out front, followed by a vehicle door slamming.

She opened the mudroom door before he could knock
and was pleased to see Colt helping his very pregnant wife up the walk.

“What did you do, call from the mailbox?” she teased when they were safely inside.

“Just about. Aren't cellular phones something?” He grinned and pulled her into a quick hug.

When he released her, she turned to his wife. “No office hours today, Maggie?”

“I don't have any patients scheduled until this afternoon since I had my own appointment with Dr. Marcus.”

“And what did he say?”

“Everything's fine. He moved my due date up to mid-April. It won't be a moment too soon, as far as I'm concerned. I feel as big as one of those Herefords out there.”

Annie smiled. Colt and Maggie had married just weeks after her divorce and in the time since, she had come to love Colt's sweetly elegant wife almost as much as she did him. There was a bond between the two women, forged of shared pain and rare understanding.

“You look absolutely radiant,” Annie said.

“Everybody always says that to fat old pregnant women.”

“Because it's true.” It was. Maggie's eyes were soft, serene, and her skin glowed with an inner tranquility that had to come from knowing her husband adored her and was thrilled about the child they had created together.

For just a moment, Annie tasted bitter envy in her mouth. She hadn't experienced that contentment with either of her pregnancies. Instead, she had known only that trapped, powerless fear.

Dammit. She wanted to pinch herself, hard. Couldn't she even be happy for two of her closest friends in the world over the upcoming birth of their child without this blasted self-pity taking over? She had two beautiful children, a ranch some men would kill for, and good friends like the McKendricks. Why couldn't she let that be enough?

“Where's Joe?” Colt asked.

She swallowed the envy and poured coffee, black the way he liked it. Maggie, she knew, was staying away from caffeine for the baby's sake, so she put water on to boil for herbal tea.

“We lost the roof on one of the hay sheds in the wind last night,” she answered. “The men are doing their best to patch it together. What about the Broken Spur? How did you fare in the storm?”

“Lost three calves but it could have been a lot worse.” He sipped his coffee. “Now suppose you tell me what burr Joe's got in his britches about taking some fool job in Wyoming.”

She busied herself rifling through the cupboard for the tea bags. “It sounds like a good opportunity for him.”

“What does he think he's going to find at some stranger's ranch in Wyoming that he can't get in Madison Valley?”

“You'll have to ask him that,” she said quietly.

“I'm asking you. What happened between you two?”

“Nothing.” She shut the cupboard door with a little more force than necessary. “Absolutely nothing. Why would you think that? Things are just fine between us.”

Unless you count the way he couldn't stand to touch
her and the way he sometimes went out of his way to avoid even looking at her.

“So why is he in such a big hurry to leave?”

She thought of those moments in the barn the day before and that rare vulnerability she had glimpsed in Joe.

Would she be breaking a confidence to talk to Colt about it? No. Colt cared about Joe. The two men shared a friendship closer than blood. Maybe if he knew the truth, Colt wouldn't push him to stay against his will.

She almost laughed. Was she really going out of her way to defend Joe for taking a new job? Yes. She wanted him to stay, but she wanted him to find peace more. “He has a chance to start his own herd and to buy land of his own. I can't match this Waterson's offer, and I'm not sure I would even if I had the means.”

“Why the hell not?”

“Colt, he told me he wants to start over some place away from Madison Valley.” She paused. “Somewhere he can be just another rancher, just like everybody else.”

He was silent for a moment, his mouth set in a hard line, then he swore softly, pungently. “How can we argue with that?”

“Exactly.”

“I don't understand,” Maggie interjected with a frown.

Colt turned to his wife. “You know what it's like for him in town. How people talk. He tries to pretend it doesn't matter, but it obviously affects him more than any of us thought.”

The kettle whistled suddenly, shrilly, and Annie rose from the table to pour water for Maggie's tea. “It just makes me so mad,” she muttered. “Why can't people
forget, just stop judging him for what happened years ago, for heaven's sake? Why can't they look at the man he's made of himself?”

“We don't have all that many murders around here, Annie. Of course people are going to remember it.”

“It wasn't murder and you know it! And so does everybody else in town.”

“Not everybody. There are a lot of people who think Joe killed his father in cold blood and got off easy.”

In cold blood. It was an odd term to use for something as violent as taking the life of another human being.

“It was an accident.” She couldn't help her vehemence, even though she knew she was preaching to the choir. “That's why he pleaded guilty to involuntary manslaughter. The only reason he served prison time at all was because he had alcohol in his system, even though it was under the legal limit, and because he was already on probation for that stupid bar fight when he was just a kid. Everybody with a brain in his head knows Joe was trying to protect his mother after Al beat her half to death.”

“You've heard the rumors that there was more to it than that.”

Yes, and she knew exactly who was behind them. She frowned. Charlie had kept his promise after he married her and hadn't gone to his boss at the sheriff's department with his version of events that night. But he hadn't had any qualms whipping up the rumor mill in town.

Just another sin to lay at the door of her ex-husband.

She knew Joe hadn't meant to kill his father when he had delivered that fateful punch. But even if he
had,
Albert Redhawk deserved everything he got and more.

He had spent his whole life and two marriages physically and emotionally abusing his entire family, turning one son into a mirror image of himself and the other into a stoic little boy who buried all his emotions so deeply it took nothing short of a cataclysmic event to ever bring them gushing out.

“It's funny what people choose to remember of the dead.” Colt's low voice jolted her back to the conversation. “Selective memory, I guess. Al was a real son of a bitch to just about everybody, but if you listened to some people in town, you'd think he was the next best thing to Santa Claus.”