Renegade (Bad Blooded Rebel Series) (6 page)

“I
do trust you, but-”

“No
buts, baby. I will do anything I have to do to keep that cock sucker away from
you. He will never hurt you again, okay?” he said, taking a strand of my hair
and twirling it in his fingers.

I
nodded my head, still uncertain that I was truly safe. I think until Scott was
permanently behind bars I wouldn’t be able to relax and feel at ease no matter
how hard Ryder tried. “Okay.”

“Listen,
I think our recording session is pretty much finished for the day. Do you want
me to take you and Danni home so she can get settled?” he asked me.

I
nodded again. “Yeah, that sounds fine,” I said with a frown.

“Okay,”
he said, tossing a few large bills on the table. “Let’s go tell everyone we’re
going to head back home.”

I
scooted out of the booth and as soon as I stood, I felt a cold chill race down
my back again and the hair on my neck stood on end. I quickly turned my head
around, looking for what could have caused that reaction but I found nothing.
It almost felt like someone was watching me but I didn’t see anyone. I was
getting paranoid…I needed to calm myself down.

After
Ryder helped me into my coat, we walked outside where Jude, Beau, and Danni
were all standing in a group. “Hey you two,” Danni said, “everything okay?”

“Yeah,
it’s fine. Listen, we were going to head back to the apartment and get you
settled in. Are you ready to go?” I asked her.

Beau
looked like he obviously didn’t want her to go and looked at Jude, almost
pleading for a reason to keep her out. “Actually, since this is Danni’s first
time in the city, I was thinking maybe Beau and I can show her the sites while
you two have some alone time,” Jude said, winking at me.

“Come
on, we have alone time every night. I’ve missed my best friend!” I whined.

Danni
smiled at me. “Ev, you look tired and I’m guessing that no matter what Ryder
said to you in there you’re still worried. Go back with him to the apartment
and let him take your mind off of everything,” she said, nudging me. “Jude and
Beau will make sure I get back to you both safely.”

“Well,
let us take your luggage for you then so you don’t have to lug it around all
afternoon,” I said and she nodded.

“Okay,
thanks, Ev. I won’t be gone long, okay? I’m sure we have a lot to talk about
and I still want to see that tattoo of yours,” she said, grinning.

Jude’s
eyebrows shot up. “You got a tattoo? Virgin skin isn’t so virgin anymore, huh?
What did you get? Where is it?” he asked.

Ryder
flipped him off. “Somewhere you will never see, ass wipe. You have fun today,”
he said, nudging Danni on the arm. He turned to Beau and said, “Make sure she
gets to the penthouse in one piece.”

Beau
looked pointedly at him but before he could answer, Jude interrupted. “Yes
sir,” Jude said, saluting Ryder. He held out his arm and Danni weaved her arm
through it. “Let’s go, little lady. We’ve got some sightseeing to do.”

Looking
thoroughly annoyed, Beau tapped my arm and gave me a wave. “See you later,
Everleigh,” he said before walking after Jude and Danni.

Ryder
turned to me and held out his hand. “Are you ready, baby?”

I
furrowed my brows together and reluctantly placed my hand in his. “Yes, let’s
go,” I said, letting him lead me to find a cab.

As
soon as we were at the penthouse, I walked through the door then Ryder closed
and locked it behind me. I had barely unbuttoned my coat before I felt his big
warm hands sliding it off my shoulders. “Evie, you haven’t said anything since
we left the restaurant. Please talk to me, baby,” he said, kissing my hair as
he took my coat the rest of the way off.

I
shrugged my shoulders and said, “There really isn’t anything to say.”

“I
know you are upset with me for keeping the break in from you, but-”

“Upset?”
I said, my voice a little more shrill than I had intended. “I’m not upset,
Ryder. I’m terrified,” I admitted, my bottom lip quivering. “My friend who has
become a second mother to me was at my house when my ex boyfriend broke in. If
she hadn’t been carrying a gun he might have attacked her and done God knows
what to her and you felt like you didn’t need to tell me just to keep me happy.
Well, news flash, rock star. I’m not happy.” Angry tears started to fall down
my cheeks.

Ryder
moved closer to me and tried to wipe my tears but I backed away. Frowning, he
said, “Everleigh, I was only trying to protect you. I know I should have told
you but in the past month you have lost so much and I didn’t want you to lose
anything else. I only want to make you happy.”

“Ryder,
if we are going to be together, you have to know that you can’t keep secrets
from me, no matter how big or small they are. I would never keep something like
this from you,” I said.

“I
know, baby, I know. I’m so sorry if I hurt you by not telling you. I promise I
will tell you everything that happens with Scott from here on out, I promise,”
he said, sounding a little desperate. “Please forgive me, gorgeous?” He took a
step toward me again and instead of backing away, I stayed still.

As
he closed the distance between us I whispered, “Don’t lie to me again, Ryder.
Please. I love you and I will always be honest with you. Please give me the
same respect from here on out.”

Wrapping
his big, strong arms around me, he pulled me as close as he could and leaned
into my lips. With his lips barely touching mine, he murmured, “I will. No more
secrets.” Then he softly covered my mouth with his own.

As
scared as I still was and as much as I wanted to resist him in that moment, my
body gave me away and I just couldn’t fight him. Ryder was so intoxicatingly
sexy that I had no strength around him. He owned me, body and soul. I opened my
mouth to him, inviting his tongue inside. I whimpered as his hot, sweet tongue
danced with mine and I felt myself melting into him.

“Evie,”
he groaned, breaking our kiss for just a moment, “let me make love to you?”

Panting,
I nodded. “Please,” I answered him, gripping his shirt with my fist. At that
moment I wanted nothing more than to forget about Scott, at least for a little
while.

He
swallowed hard and in one swift movement, he lifted me into his arms and
carried me to the bedroom. As soon as we were inside, he carefully placed me on
the bed. Gently nudging me back, he covered my body with his hot heavy one and
placed his lips on mine again.

Our
sex life had become very hot and vocal lately but the way Ryder was being with
me right now, so sweet and loving, was already making me drenched. It was like
he was apologizing not only with his words but with his body as well.

As
his fingers slowly traced the curve of my breast, I felt my nipples pebble
beneath my bra. It was suddenly very confining and I couldn’t think of anything
but getting it off. I let go of Ryder and started to pull my shirt up but he
stopped me.

“Let
me,” he said, his voice animalistic. He leaned up and I automatically raised my
arms. He slowly pulled my top off and tossed it to the floor. I reached back
and unsnapped my bra and quickly tossed it to the floor next to my shirt. I
started to pull him roughly back to me but he laughed softly and said, “Slow
down, gorgeous. We have all afternoon.”

“I
know, but I want you. I appreciate that you want to take your time with me,
Ryder, but my body is screaming for you right now and I can’t stand it. I need
you,” I moaned.

He
smiled a crooked smile at me and sighed. “Okay, I think we’re at an impasse
here, so I say we compromise.”

I
blinked at him in confusion. “Compromise?”

“You
want this fast and hard and I want to go slow. How about we both get what we
want and experiment with something new? Something we’ve never tried before?”

Tingles
shot down my spine and I felt like I was going to start drooling. “Like what?”
At this point I was so turned on and wanted him inside me so badly that I would
probably agree to pretty much anything.

He
smiled and walked to the nightstand. “I bought a few things when we first got
here and I’ve been waiting to ask you if you might want to try them. Do you
trust me?”

“You
know I do, Ryder,” I answered quickly. “I know you would never do anything that
would hurt me.” Taking a deep breath, I asked, “What did you want to try?”

He
pulled out a little black bag from the nightstand and brought it back to the
bed. Sitting beside me, he took each item out of the bag one by one while I
studied them. There was a bottle of personal lubricant, a black silk blindfold,
a pair of handcuffs, something that looked like a massager, and something else
that looked like a silver bullet with a handle on the end. “What…what is all of
this?” I asked, my mouth watering at the sight of everything. I squirmed in my
seat, my body already burning with desire.

He
picked up the one thing I didn’t recognize and said, “Well I’m pretty sure you
can figure out what most of this is but this,” he said, holding up the little bullet-looking
toy, “is an anal plug. I know that you are very inexperienced in most areas of
sex but I will admit to you that this is something I really want to ease into
trying with you.”

I
gulped and took another deep breath. “H-have you ever done this before?”

He
looked down for a moment before his eyes met mine and he said, “Yes I have, but
it’s been with women that have had anal sex and were experienced. I’ve  never
done this with someone that hasn’t done it before. If you don’t want to try
this you don’t have to, but if you do this little plug will help you get a feel
for what it will be like with me when the time comes.”

My
cheeks felt hot and I reached out and took the little plug into my hand. “So,
obvious question here, but how will you fit? You are a pretty big guy,” I
paused and he smiled, “and most of the time you have to make me come in the
middle of sex just for you to fit right. Won’t that hurt?”

He
tucked my hair behind my ear and said, “I won’t lie to you…it will probably
hurt and burn when I first go in, but that’s what the plug and the lubricant will
help with. I can use my fingers to loosen you up and then when I slide the plug
in it will help stretch you even further. Then, if you like the feel and you
want to continue, we can try full anal sex. Once you get past the burn and it’s
all the way in, it will be the most intense pleasure you’ve ever felt.” I
shifted even more…just talking about this was making me so wet I was about to
explode. “We don’t have to do anything at all, Evie, and the decision is yours.
If you don’t want to, then the plug and the lube are gone and all talk of this
is over and won’t be brought up again. But, if you want to try, we will start
slow and ease into it. I promise I will do everything to make this as easy and
pleasurable for you as possible.”

I
knew beyond the shadow of a doubt that Ryder would never, ever hurt me and he
was always trying to make sex incredible for me (in which he was always
successful). I trusted him completely and I wanted to make him as happy as he’d
made me. I bit my lip shyly and said, “I want to try.”

He
raised his eyebrows. “Really? You’re sure?”

I
nodded and stood up. Unzipping my jeans, I pulled them down along with my
panties until I stood naked in front of him and said, “I’m sure. I’m already
yours, Ryder, and I want to be in every single way. I trust you with my life
and I want to try this with you.”

A
feral growl escaped his lips and he pulled off his shirt. He stood in front of
me and shrugged out of his pants and soon we were both naked and panting, his
strong length bobbing up and down between us. He pulled me to him and I gasped
at the feel of our warm bodies pressed against each other. He moved me back to
the bed and I crawled backwards toward the middle, lying on my back and my legs
falling apart.

He
wasted no time in getting things going and he touched me around my wet folds
before quickly moving his mouth down and pressing his tongue hard onto my clit.
“Mmm, I’ll never get tired of the way you taste. Best I’ve ever had,” he moaned
between licks.

I
twisted the blanket on the bed in my fists and arched my back. I cried out as
his sinful tongue kept moving faster and faster until I was on the verge of
collapse. “Oh God…”

He
slid two fingers into me and started to move them around. “Let go, baby. Come
for me,” he said, and his words were my undoing. I exploded in a strong orgasm
and he moaned loudly and lapped up every bit that erupted from me. “So
responsive to me. We’re off to a good start, baby,” he said, his breath against
my sensitive skin giving me goose bumps. I started to grab for him, unsure of
what I wanted him to do next, but he said, “Turn over.”

My
legs felt like jelly as I rolled my satisfied body over until I was lying on my
stomach. I felt his hard, hot body cover mine and just as I turned my head I
felt his lips kissing their way from the base of my spine all the way up until
he reached my lips. He thrust his tongue into my mouth and I groaned as his
body rubbed against mine, his hard cock nestling right above my ass. “Are you
still sure you want to try this with me?” he asked, carnal desire in his voice.