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“That’s right,” the Big Bad Wolf answered. He dug about in his satchel and produced the bloody-knife paperback. “Here,” he said, with a grin.

“Dramatic proof. And a gift.”

The detective took it and stared at the jacket.

“Cool,” he said. “I don’t read many mysteries. Mostly sports books—

you know, like about championship basketball teams or famous coaches or breaking the four-minute mile. But my sister’s husband, he’s like addicted to these things. I’ll give it to him . . .”

“I’ll sign it for him,” the Big Bad Wolf said, producing a pen.

“He’ll get a kick out of that,” the detective replied.

The Big Bad Wolf finished with a flourish. Then he produced the small digital recorder. “You don’t mind?” he asked.

“Nope,” Detective Moyer answered, smiling.

The Big Bad Wolf smiled in return. “I really like getting my research right,” he said. “You really don’t want to make mistakes on the pages.

Readers are sensitive to every word. They’ll call you on an error faster than . . .”

He let his voice trail off. Detective Moyer nodded.

“Hey, it’s the same for us. Get second-guessed all the damn time. Except for us, well, it’s real. Not made up.”

“That’s my luxury,” the Big Bad Wolf joked. Both men smiled, as if sharing a small secret.

The Big Bad Wolf pulled out his notebook and pen. These items were more like props. They allowed him to avoid eye contact when he wanted to. The digital tape recorder would capture every answer accurately.

“And sometimes it’s really helpful to have both notes and exact words,”

he said.

“Sort of redundant systems,” the detective said. “Like on an airplane.”

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“Exactly,” the Big Bad Wolf replied.

“So what is it you want to know?” the detective asked.

“Well,” the Big Bad Wolf said slowly, hesitantly, before beginning to probe. “In my new book, I have a character stalking a person from afar. He wants to get closer, but he doesn’t want to do anything that will attract the police, you see. Wants it to be just one-on-one, if you get what I’m driving at. Got to have it all play out before the cops get involved.”

The detective nodded. “Sounds tense.”

“That’s the point,” the Big Bad Wolf answered. “Got to keep readers on the edge of their seats.” He smiled and clicked on the recorder and bent to his notebook, as the detective rocked back and forth in his desk chair before starting to describe in friendly, substantial detail just exactly what the police were—and were not—capable of doing.

As a general rule, Mrs. Big Bad Wolf always took an entire hour for lunch away from her desk in the dean’s office. When the weather was nice, she would make a quick salad or sandwich in the school’s dining hall, then go outside and sit beneath the trees, where she could be by herself and idly watch students pass by. When the weather was poor, as it was this day, she would head inside with her meal to any of the small spots around the campus where she knew she would be left alone: an alcove in the art gallery, a bench outside the English department’s offices.

This day, she hunkered down in an empty lecture room. Someone had written on a blackboard:
What does Marquez mean at the end?
Honors Spanish, she told herself, but she was just guessing the assignment had been
One Hundred Years of Solitude
. She tore through her light meal and then sat back in her chair and opened up a copy of her husband’s last book, which was the novel with the serrated-knife jacket. She had already read the book at least four times, to the point where she could actually quote some passages verbatim. She had not let him know she could do this—it was a part of her love that she liked to keep to herself.

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that house a furious letter, underscoring the same problem. They had been married barely a year, but loyalty, she thought, was an integral part of love.

She had harangued the editor that the jacket was misleading and inappropriate and told him that she would never buy another novel from that publisher again. Uncharacteristically, she had filled her letter with violent threats and rampaging obscenities. Carried away, she at least had the good sense to not sign her name.

The lecture room was hot. She closed her eyes for a moment. When she allowed herself to daydream, she often imagined herself in some sort of public setting—a restaurant or a movie theater or even a bookstore

—where she would have the opportunity to loudly verbally assault the editor—all the editors—who hadn’t seen her husband’s genius. In her imagination, she was able to gather them together, alongside all the film producers, newspaper critics, and occasional Internet bloggers who had failed him or been snide and less than complimentary.

When she painted this inward portrait, the men—they were always small, sallow, balding men—reeled under her volley of criticism and humbly admitted their mistakes.

It gave her great satisfaction.

Every author’s wife would have imagined the same scenario, she believed. It was her job.

Mrs. Big Bad Wolf opened her eyes and let them drop onto the open pages and creep over the words gathered in front of her. She placed her finger in the midst of a paragraph describing the very beginning of a car chase.
The bad guy gets away,
she reminded herself.
It’s very exciting.
When she was a little girl she hadn’t been popular in school, and so she had descended into the safety of books. Horse books. Dog books.
Little Women
and
Jane Eyre
. Even after she grew up, titles and characters remained her truest friends.

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decidedly mediocre in all. That invention had always eluded her, saddened her. But she gave herself credit for coming up with the next best thing: life at the side of someone who
could
create magical things.

She stopped reading. She could feel a quivering inside of her. What she held in her hands was beautiful—but it was familiar. She left the book open on her lap and leaned back and closed her eyes a second time, as if in her darkness she might picture her husband’s new story unfolding right before her. There would be a relentless killer, she knew, and a clever detective hunting him down. There would be a woman at risk. Probably a quite beautiful woman, although she hoped that after the expected large bust and long legs, he’d modeled the character after her. The book’s pace would be steady, filled with unexpected and surprising twists and turns that, no matter how outlandish, would build toward a dramatic confrontation.

She knew all the requisite elements of a modern police-thriller.

She kept her eyes closed, but reached out with her hands as if she could touch the words she knew were being created almost in front of her.

Mrs. Big Bad Wolf stroked nothing but empty air.

After a moment, she felt a little cold, as if the heat in the room had suddenly slid away. She sighed deeply and packed up her paperback and her lunch utensils and took a quick look at her watch. Her lunch hour was almost finished; it was time to return to work. There was a faculty meeting that afternoon, which her boss, the dean, would surely be attending.

Maybe she could steal a few moments to read familiar passages when he was out of the office.

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After dark, cool air settling over the campus, Jordan slipped into torn jeans, old running shoes, and a black parka, and found a threadbare navy watch cap which she pulled down over her hair as tightly as possible. She waited in her room until she heard some of the other girls in her dormitory gathering to head out to an evening lecture—the school was forever bringing in writers, artists, filmmakers, businessmen, and scientists to speak informally to the upper-class students. Jordan knew the other kids would gather in the vestibule of the converted house and then launch themselves out in a giggling, tight-knit group. Teenagers tended to travel in packs, she knew. Wolves did as well, except she doubted that the wolf that concerned her joined any group.

Lone wolf,
she thought. The phrase made her shudder.

Jordan exited her room and hesitated at the top of the stairs until she heard four other girls, voices raised, laughing and teasing each other, barrel loudly through the front door.

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without getting so close that they would turn and draw attention to her.

She wanted to make it seem to anyone watching that she was hurrying to catch up with her friends.

She trailed a few feet distant, but as they turned left, heading toward the lecture halls, she abruptly ducked into the first deep shadow she could find, pinning herself against the side of an old redbrick classroom building, scrunching up against twisted knots of ivy branches that poked her in the back like an unruly child vying for attention.

Jordan waited.

She listened to the sounds of her classmates disappearing into the evening and waited for her eyes to adjust to the night. Hidden in shadow, she counted seconds off in her head:
one, two, three
. She did not know if she was being followed, but she assumed she was, even though the rational side of her told her loudly that this was completely impossible. No wolf, no matter how clever, how dedicated, or how obsessed, could spend all his time outside her dorm room just waiting for her to emerge and then trail after her.

She repeated this to herself insistently, but she was unsure whether she was reassuring herself or lying to herself. They seemed equal possibilities.

Yes he is. No he isn’t.

She wondered if she should be scared, and then realized that the mere act of wondering made her muscles tense up and her breathing grow shallow. It was cold, but she felt warm. It was dark, but she felt like she was beneath a spotlight. She was young, but she felt old and unsteady.

Jordan squirmed closer to the side of the building. She could still feel the Wolf ’s presence, almost as if he was jammed into the ivy branches beside her, hot breath on her neck. She half-expected to hear his voice whispering
“
I’m right here
” in her ear and she exhaled sharply, the
whoosh-ing
noise seeming as loud as a train whistle. She clamped down on her lips.

When silence—or
enough silence,
because she could still hear distant voices echoing across the quadrangles from other students, and a Winter-pills song she really liked playing inside a dormitory—surrounded her she stepped out of her shadow, and hunching her shoulders up against 109

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the chill, keeping her head lowered and her pace fast, she wove her way rapidly across campus, zigzagging erratically, avoiding every light, turning up one dark path, then cutting across the grass to another, backtracking before racing inside a dormitory, and then using a different door at the far end of the building to exit back into the night.

Finally, persuaded that no wolf could successfully follow her drunken trail, she sprinted out through a set of tall black wrought iron gates that marked the school’s entrance. She quickly turned onto an ink-shadowed side street. She slowed slightly to a jog as she headed toward the center of the small town that encapsulated the school. She felt a little like she was acting in some Hollywood spy movie. It was cool enough so she could see her breath.

Antonio’s Pizza was lit up. Bright lights and multicolored neon signs.

There were a half-dozen schoolmates of hers gathered around the stainless steel counter in front of the oven, waiting for a slice or two. She watched two men wearing white smocks and aprons serving up the orders. They did this with a flourish, using large wooden paddles to shoot the pizzas into the oven and then remove them moments later.

From where Jordan lingered on the street, she could imagine happy voices and the sound of the cash register. The pizza joint was like that—a difficult place to be depressed or distracted. There would be a happy buzz inside, laughter and raised voices mingling with the enticing smells of roasted meat and spices and the welcoming blasts of heat that rolled from the ovens each time they were opened.

She waited, half-hungry in that way that teenagers are; she could easily have stuffed herself with hot pizza. Except every time she thought about the Wolf, her hunger fled, replaced with a gnawing sensation in her stomach. Fear versus food. An unfair fight.

A cold breeze rattled an awning above the sidewalk in front of an antique store that was shut down for the night. Jordan was about to glance at her watch when the spire that rose above the small town’s offices chimed seven times.

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She looked up and saw a small station wagon pull up in front of the pizza place. She hunched back, once again seeking a shadow to conceal herself in, and waited.
Right on time,
she thought. She didn’t know whether this was good or bad.

The car put on its flashers. Yellow lights painted the sidewalk. She could see the driver leaning across the front seat, staring into the restaurant, searching hard.

That was where Jordan had said she would be.

But instead, she was just down the street, in a vantage spot between two buildings where she could see without being seen.

She waited, holding her breath.

Jordan watched the figure in the station wagon sit upright and undo the seat belt. Then the figure opened the car door, stepped out and stood close to the car, continuing to stare at the group of teenagers inside the restaurant.

It was dark and the bright neon lights from the few stores open threw odd rainbow colors across the street, reflecting off glistening black macadam. Yellow sodium vapor streetlights tossed sickly shades down on the cement. It was a confusion of color; blacks and reds and greens and whites all mingled together, making lies of realities: A green car looked blue. A scarlet parka seemed brown.