Reckless Rescue (38 page)

“Oh right. You’re ready to blindly obey when your council lays down a rule, but when I want to abide by the rules on my planet, it’s unfair and means I don’t love you. It doesn’t only work one way.”

“But we’re not on Urslat, and we may never get there. You could try to fix the Hylista for years and still be stuck here!” Marlee sat up in bed and reached for his hands, but he pulled back. She kept talking. “Is it really so important? I thought we had something special here, something worth trying to keep. I thought you agreed. But now you’re ready to throw it all away for such a small chance to get back to Urslat. Is it this ‘Milandra’? Is she the reason you’re so desperate to get home? Did you ever really care about me, or were you just pretending?” Tears glistened in Marlee’s eyes.

“Why do I have to make a choice? If the council would let me have the parts for my ship, then we could leave here. We could be together even if we couldn’t have a baby.” A sudden thought hit him. “Or is that the problem? On Urslat, I can’t have children. Is that all I am, just a way to have a baby?”

“Of course not!” Marlee denied, but Tyris couldn’t quite believe her. Why did having a baby matter so much? He would never feel right having a baby here, without the Colonies permission. The only way to get the chip removed, legally, was to get back to Urslat with the anysogen find.

He threw back the covers. “I need to be alone,” he mumbled. He stumbled out of the house blindly, not even thinking where he might go. Marlee called out something behind him, but he didn’t want to hear it.

M
ARLEE FLINCHED AS THE DOOR
slammed behind Tyris.

He was gone.

Tears slid down her cheeks. It was all such a mess. If only she hadn’t brouth up the topic of a baby.

He’d swung from hope to desperation so much in the last couple of weeks. Of course he needed time to process it. If only she didn’t feel the pressure so intently. Yes, their time was limited, but another week, even another month, wouldn’t have hurt. Not much anyway.

But would the conversation have gone any differently in a few weeks? Tyris seemed set on fighting the council. Set on one solution to their problems—getting off the planet. He didn’t want a baby. In fact, he’d rather give up their relationship than remove his contraceptive chip.

She understood his reluctance to break the rules on his home planet. But they couldn’t obey both sets of rules, not if they wanted to stay together. Right now, they were here on Zerris. They had no choice but to obey the council’s rules.

It was so unfair that it came down to this. When did it become their choice? When did she get to choose if she had a baby or not? Or how long she wanted to be with someone.

When did she get to live her life?

The council’s rules weren’t working anymore. She could see that. Everyone was starting to feel it. All of the younger generation anyway, those who hadn’t been part of the decision making. Jaimma and Beren’s decision to make sure they could have a baby—even if it wasn’t with each other—was evidence of that. And she’d felt she had no other choice than to stop caring for anyone, because it hurt too much.

These were the choices they shouldn’t have to make. Choices that weren’t helping them live better lives.

But what could she do about it? Would talking to the council do any good? She’d been ready to defy them to choose to be with no one. Was it any different to defy them and insist on staying with Tyris even when they said it was over?

Marlee sat up in bed and hugged her knees.

Could she do it? Could she just tell the council she wasn’t going to leave Tyris? She’d decided to defy them after her breakup with Nelor, but that was different. Then, she’d only planned on not getting involved again. And if she admitted the truth to herself, she hadn’t expected to hold out for long. This was different. This time, she wasn’t going to let anyone convince her to change her mind.

Before fear could talk her out of it, Marlee jumped out of bed and marched across to the village hall. Everyone gathered there, discussing what needed to be done for the day. Marlee ignored all of them and walked straight up to Kalim.

“I want to speak to the council, in private,” she said before her courage could desert her.

The council members exchanged looks. No one ever requested a private meeting with the council. Problems were solved informally through general discussion.

“Of course, Marlee,” Kalim’s voice was steady, despite his surprise. He and the other council members followed Marlee into the back room. 

“Marlee, what’s going on?” Her mother caught up to her. “You should have come to me first, before talking to the council.”

“You wouldn’t have listened to me.” Her mother always dismissed her concerns, told her not to rock the boat and to do what she was told.

She was tired of doing what she was told.

Kalim cleared his throat, and her mother stepped back, frowning. “Marlee, what did you wish to speak to us about?”

Marlee took a deep breath. “I’m not going to leave Tyris.”

There was a long silence.

“You and Tyris still have twelve months before that is even an issue, why are you bringing it up now?” Nerris asked.

“It’s not going to matter how long we have,” Marlee said, “Tyris can’t have children.”

This silence lasted even longer. The council exchanged glances. Frowning, worried, concerned glances.

Had she made a mistake? Had she just cut their time together from twelve months to nothing?

“That does change things,” Kalim said finally. “Where’s Tyris? I’d like to hear from him why he’s deceived us for this long.”

“I told you he was trouble, right from the start,” Weiss said, a smug smile on his face. “He only cares about himself.”

“And why should he?” Marlee demanded. “He isn’t here by choice, he never agreed to the rules you set. In fact, there is a whole generation of us who didn’t agree to those rules. When do we get to have our say?”

The council exchanged glances again. It was left to Kalim to talk. “Marlee, the decisions we made weren’t for our benefit but for yours.”

“Then we should have a say in them.” Marlee tilted her chin up.

Weiss laughed. “What, you think we should let every little hormone riddled teenager decide how the community is run? Fat chance.”

Marlee felt her face burn, but she didn’t back down. “We’re not children. We’re perfectly capable of making rational decisions. Just because we don’t agree with the choices you made doesn’t make us stupid.”

“Are you saying that there are more people who feel this way?” her mother asked.

Marlee paused. Tyris thought others would back him up in his need to leave the planet. Recalling her conversations with Jaimma and Nelor, she was pretty sure she wasn’t the only one feeling this way. “Of course there are. You tell everyone what to do and who they can and can’t be with. How are we supposed to feel? I may be the only one speaking out, but I don’t think I’m alone in my opinion.”

Kalim sighed. “What do you think will happen, Marlee, if we remove the rules? We have so few children as it is. You must see why this is necessary?”

Eleven children in ten years. Yes, the numbers were telling. But…

“It’s not working,” she said. “All your rules and scheming and controlling everyone’s lives. It’s still not enough. Our numbers are still getting smaller and smaller.”

She saw the recognition in their eyes. They knew, even without her saying it. For some reason, that made her inexplicably angry. “You know. You know it isn’t working, yet still you persist with forcing everyone into situations they hate. Well, I won’t do it anymore. I’m staying with Tyris even if we have to live in the Hylista and grow our own food.”

She turned to storm out the door before tears caught up to her and ruined her declaration.

There, standing in the doorway watching her, was Tyris.

*****

T
YRIS HAD STUMBLED OUT OF
Marlee’s house, not sure where he was going, until his gaze fell on the huge bulk of the Tenacity, always present on the skyline, now joined by a smaller shadow. The Hylista! What better place to hole up until he felt able to cope with all of this.

He keyed the sequence he’d set up before he left. The door slid open, and he stepped gratefully inside. Here was his own space. Old, familiar, safe.

What he wasn’t ready for was the fact that it was now filled with memories of Marlee. He sighed and sank onto the bunk. They’d snuggled here just days ago, choosing to sleep in the same narrow bunk rather than in separate beds. Where had things gone wrong?

He knew Marlee’s question this morning spoke of how much she had come to care for him, that she was willing to risk everything for that one chance, however small.
This could be their perfect life.

That thought surprised him. How had this come to be a perfect life? Stuck on some planet miles from everything he knew and every creature comfort? What was perfect about that?

Marlee.

The rest of it didn’t matter. Here or on Urslat the only thing that would make it perfect was her presence. Apparently, somewhere along the way, while he wasn’t looking, he had fallen in love with her. Why hadn’t he seen it sooner?

Instead, he’d pushed her away. He winced, remembering the pain and confusion in her voice when she had told him she wanted to be with him. He hadn’t seen the truth in her eyes. He’d judged her by the standards set by the women he’d known on Urslat. But Marlee wasn’t like that. She deserved better.

He stood, his mind made up. Feeling better than he had in days, he looked around then frowned. Dawn had been breaking when he’d arrived, yet it was still dark.

He hit the button and the door slid open. He glanced towards the sun to gauge the time more accurately, but his view was completely obscured. The whole area was in the shadow of the big ship towering above him. The Tenacity was so big it could easily engulf his whole ship…

His whole ship!

Goodness. The idea was so simple he didn’t know why it hadn’t occurred to him before. Not even pausing, he headed down the stairs, leaving the auto sequence to close the door behind him as he ran back to the village.

When he arrived, everyone milled around the hall, looking uncertain.

His eyes scanned the crowd. “Where’s Marlee?”

“She’s requested a meeting with the council,” Beren said, curiosity in his eyes.

What was she doing? Hopefully not anything rash. He stepped forward.

“The council won’t like being interrupted,” Beren warned him.

Tyris nodded and pushed his way into the council chambers anyway, closing the door on all the villagers trying to peer in behind him.

He was just in time to hear the end of Marlee’s speech. “I’m staying with Tyris, even if we have to live in his spaceship and grow our own food.” Fire mixed with tears in her eyes. She’d never looked so beautiful. Her impassioned words dissolved the last of his doubts.

The only thing he wanted was to spend the rest of his life beside her. Be it together on the Hylista, ignoring the village, or raising a family (if they were lucky) and working beside her within the village rules.

Or…

“And what do you have to say to all this, young man?” Kalim demanded. “Marlee seems willing to give up the security of our community for you. Are you going to let her take that risk? Are you willing to do the same?”

They hoped he’d talk some sense into her. He could see it in their eyes. “I’m with Marlee, whatever she wants,” he said firmly. “I love her, and I’m willing to give up whatever I need to in order to be with her.”

He stepped forwards and took her hands. “Whatever I need to,” he repeated softly.

Tears rolled down her cheeks. He reached forwards to wipe one away with his thumb. “I love you, Marlee,” he said to her. “If you want to try for a baby, I do too. And if you want to live in my ship, that’s fine by met.” He hesitated over offering the last choice, but he couldn’t withhold the possibility from her. “And if you want to leave here, I think I can do that too.”

She smiled shyly at him. “I love you, too.”

“What are you talking about?” Weiss demanded. “You said you tried everything you could, and you failed. The Hylista can’t break orbit.”

“I know what to do now,” Tyris looked over Marlee’s eyes to Nerris’s. “That is, if you’re willing to honour what you said about helping me?”

The other council members stared at Nerris. It was plain they hadn’t been involved in his offer. Maybe he’d made it in the belief that Tyris would never achieve it. Either way, he hoped Nerris would honour his promise.

Nerris stared at the other council members then back to Tyris. “Just what do you have in mind?” he asked.

Tyris looked down at Marlee. He pulled her into his arms. “It depends on what Marlee wants. Do we stay here, or go to Urslat?”

She’d wanted to come with him a few days ago. Would she still? He was surprised to find he was calm. He would be happy with whatever choice she made. So long as she was with him.

There was silence in the room around them as the whole council waited to hear her decision.

“I want to go to Urslat,” she announced. She smiled at him. “It doesn’t matter where we are, so long as we’re together. And I want to meet your family and see your world.”