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The rest of the week went by great, and Cole was released on time. He was still sore, and might be for a while until everything completely healed, but he was up and walking out to the car on his own. Travis had helped me move my things into Cole's place last night when I was done with class for the day.

Emma and Becca decided they wanted to take over the lease on my apartment even though it was only a one bedroom they said they would make it work. So really I just had to move the stuff from my closet and bathroom because all the furniture and dishes were staying there for them until I ever needed it in the future.

I was excited to walk into the place for the first time knowing it was ours. Cole held my hand in the back seat as his dad drove. He pulled around back and told Cole he got his car a few days ago and it was parked in his garage, then he told us both bye as we got out of the car and made our way to our home.

Chapter 28

Cole stood in front of me as he unlocked and opened the door, my arms wrapped around him lightly making sure not to put too much pressure over his bandage. He walked in keeping my arms around him with his hands, but when I was inside too he moved over.

The entire living, dining, and kitchen rooms were covered with white roses. There were vases of every size filled, some were hanging down in bundles from the ceiling. Petals were placed on the floor, the table, the island in the kitchen. It smelled like vanilla, and that's when I took in the soft glow of the room. Hundreds of small candles were placed everywhere.

I turned to Cole and saw the nervous, yet excited, look on his face as he worried his lip ring between his teeth. “Cole,” I breathed out lightly. “This is beautiful, how did you, I can't believe,” words escaped me and I was overcome by the knowledge of just how much this man loved me. He was gentle, loving, and passionate. He made me see myself in a different light, a better stronger one, where I was beginning to find my confidence. But most of all, I loved him for just accepting me, all of me, for exactly who I was.

He nodded his head at me, “Get over here.” His hand gripped my waist pulling my body to his as his soft full lips touched mine before moving to my neck. His tongue left a blazing trail down my neck as his hand came up and cupped my breast. A moan left my lips, my palms running up his chest and into his hair.

There was a need to our touches now and I knew they would only be satisfied one way. I crushed my lips to his, then pulled his lip ring with my teeth before sucking it into my mouth. “Kahlen,” he growled my name lightly as he spun me around pressing me against the wall. There was an almost frantic need between us, like nothing would ever be close enough, no amount of touching would ever satisfy our need for each other.

Cole grabbed the back of my thigh bringing my leg up around his waist so the part of him I craved most was pressed up against where my body was throbbing with need for him. As his hand cupped my ass he pulled me into his hard cock and the groan that escaped my lips and his at the same time couldn't stop.

He pulled back from my mouth cupping my face with his hand. “I love you, so much, Kahlen.” Those green eyes shone with the emotion he held for me. I wasn't nervous for what I hoped tonight meant for us, tonight I wanted Cole to claim me, make me his, for the first of thousands of times to come. “You are my whole world.” I moved off the wall as he spoke and, taking his shirt in my hands,  walked backwards down the hall toward his room bringing him with me.

When we got inside the bedroom, Cole paused searching my face. “Kahlen I didn't do this so that you would,” but I silenced him with my lips on his, my tongue moving across his, my hands at the hem of his shirt pulling it off. I stood just staring at him, running my fingers down his stomach, gently placing my entire hand over his bandage.

“Make love to me, Cole. I need you close to me, as close as you can be, and it still won't be close enough.” His eyes studied mine. “I trust you,” I whispered against his lips. “Please, baby, I need to feel you inside me, all of you.” My lips trailed down his chest as I slowly and lightly flicked my tongue out tasting his skin. I continued moving to the bed, and as my lips came to the waistband of his pants, I unbuttoned them and pushed them down off his hips.

He pulled me up and crushed my mouth to his, stripping me of my dress and bra quickly, he captured my hard nipple in his mouth sucking and pulling lightly as his fingertips delved into the skin at my hips pushing my underwear down. His fingers came back up the inside of my thigh and I felt the coil in my stomach tightening at the thought of being touched my him, but he stopped at the top of my thigh, releasing his mouth from me.

Cole stood in front of me and pushed his boxer briefs down, and when his eyes met mine I noticed a smirk on his lips, probably because my eyes grew wide when I took in his hard length. He was physically gorgeous, and he definitely did not disappoint with this part of his anatomy either. I had never wanted to put something in my mouth so bad in my life.

Pushing him lightly, I moved him to sit on the side of the bed. I kneeled in front of him and saw the passion and pure lusting need on his face before I moved over him and ran my tongue over the top of his hard cock. Then I slowly lowered my mouth down over him, sucking lightly as I made my way back up. Moving my mouth faster over the glistening head, he let out a deep moan before pulling me up and slamming his tongue into my mouth and kissing me deeply, lightly biting my bottom lip.

“The first time I come for you I want to be buried deep inside you, Kahlen.” I swear I felt the slick wetness from him turning me on increase ten times over when he said that to me as he pulled me up to lay next to him on the bed. “I know this is your first time, but I'll be careful, I promise.” The way he kissed me now was sultry and slow, he wasn't rushing anything, instead he took his time moving his lips over mine, brushing his tongue over mine, he sucked on mine lightly.

My body arched into him automatically and need pooled low in my belly. “Tell me, pretty girl, tell me what you want me to do to you.” Just hearing him speak, his voice lower now, thick with sexual tension and arousal, made me feel like I was losing control.

“I want you inside of me,” I said as my eyes closed when his hand moved down my stomach. He told me to open my eyes, and when I did he just absorbed the image of my naked body for minutes before his hand began moving lower exactly where I wanted it. His fingers trailed over the inside of my thigh as his tongue moved over my breast, my nipple immediately getting harder with the nearness of his mouth.

One finger lightly trailed over my slick folds, back and forth, but never going any further. Then as his thumb brushed my swollen nub he sucked the nipple he'd been teasing into his mouth and then slowly slid two fingers inside me. I was screaming is name within seconds, as I began to come.

He moved between my legs then, positioning himself near my throbbing entrance still riding out the most intense orgasm I'd had. Moving his hands under my butt, holding me up slightly, he began slipping inside me. “Look at me, baby, don't close your eyes, not now, not for this.” The farther he went in the harder he got, and I felt like my body was pulling him in farther because the aftershocks of the orgasm were barely subsiding. “Kahlen, I love you so much,” Cole said as he stared into my eyes and pushed deeper into me quickly.

A moan escaped my lips as I felt him inside me, not moving, but letting my body adjust to having him stretch me. I gazed at him, knowing this was the man I wanted to spend the rest of my life with, and as the orgasm wore off I missed it too much to stay still under him, so I slowly rocked my body up taking him in farther. “Cole, please, move. I need you to move, I want to feel you moving inside me.”

Cole started to move gently, slowly, as he raised my hands above my head and held my wrists with one of his hands. His head dipped down, his mouth moving over my neck, his tongue flicking out to hit every single sensitive spot. Our breathing was coming faster now, and he was moving faster, but still so gentle, and every time he moved he hit the spot deep inside me making me moan out loud.

My body was climbing closer and closer, I'd never done this, but I
knew release was coming, and so did Cole. “Tell me, Kahlen, tell me what you want.” His voice so low, his breathing rough, but his eyes stayed locked on mine.

“Harder. Oh, god, Cole,” and he gave me exactly what I asked for, he began slipping into me with a little more force, not enough to hurt me, oh god, this was the farthest from pain I could get. It felt too good, but I knew I was so close. Looking at him, trying to convey to him how much he meant to me, “Faster, Cole. I love you so much. Please, baby, faster.”

“Oh, Kahlen you're going to make me come, come with me,” he said as he moved in me faster and harder. Hearing him telling me I was making him come pushed me over the edge. I screamed out his name as my orgasm set his off, and I could feel him emptying inside me as the moan that escaped his lips almost had me coming again on its own, it was that fucking sexy.

He kissed me softly, with as much love as I knew he had for me, his still hard cock buried deep in me. “Best first of my life, pretty girl.” He said against my lips. “I've never made love before, so we both had a first tonight.” Then his tongue moved into my mouth and the taste of him had me wanting him again right away.

“Cole?” I asked, my cheeks turning slightly pink. He looked at me with a smirk wondering what I could possibly be blushing about. “Can we, um, can we do that again?” His laugh rang through the room and he kissed the tip of my nose as he started moving a little inside me again, telling me we could do whatever I wanted. Feeling him inside me moving again was amazing, it felt so good I could barely ask, “Can I,” but I stopped feeling stupid and turned my head to the side not looking at him anymore.

His hand cupped the side of my face, bringing it back to look at him, and his rock hard length was moving in and out of me still, deeper now and around a long moan I asked, “Can I be on top?” The smile on his face made my heart race and as he moved harder and faster inside me he told me he couldn't wait.

Rolling over onto his back, but making sure he never slipped out of me, Cole positioned us so I was on top. Looking at him I really felt stupid. “I don't know what to do, Cole.” He didn't look at me like he thought I was stupid, he looked at me like he was going to help me, he would build my confidence in myself.

“Just move, Kahlen. Do whatever feels good to you, up and down, circle your hips, push me deeper into you and just rock, slam down on my cock...it's all up to you baby.” And so I tried a little bit of everything, but when I really seated myself on top of him pushing my weight down on his hips, that was the best.

“Cole, oh my god, you feel so good.” I said at the same time he was saying, “I'm so deep inside you, baby, just being this deep and feeling how tight you are you're going to make me come.” And I knew exactly what he meant because I barely had to rock my hips at all and the orgasm was already almost there. Cole's fingers grabbed my hips and he helped me grind into him, eyes locked on each other, our breathing and heart rates raced. We both called out the other's name as we fell over the edge together.

Cole rolled us over to our sides slowly, and then gradually pulled out of me. I missed the feeling of him being so close immediately, and I threw my arms around his neck, being careful for the wound and bandage. “I love you, Cole Westwood. In so many ways you saved me because you accepted me, believed in me, and you helped me save myself. I can't do life without you, okay?”

His brilliant smile with the one dimple played on his face. “I love you, too, Kahlen.” He kissed me long and soft. “Come on, let's get cleaned up.” I knew he wanted to pick me up and carry me to the bathroom, but he just couldn't right now, and the disappointment clear on his face hurt my heart. He was contemplating doing it anyway, but I knew he was already going to be in pain later from what we'd just done. So instead I took off, running naked toward the bathroom, telling him to come catch me.

Cole ran water in the huge tub that sat alone in the middle of the bathroom, the shower and toilet were over against the wall farthest from the door.  As we sat he rubbed my shoulders, asking how I was feeling. “I'm better than okay,” I said as I turned my head to place a kiss on his lips. “I'll probably be feeling it tomorrow, but that's fine by me. Plus, the more we do it, the more my body will be,” I couldn't think of the right word.

“Mine, Kahlen. Your body will be mine.” I knew what he was saying, he had claimed me as his tonight. He didn't want to use a condom, and since I was on birth control all ready we agreed not to, and so every part of him was inside me. No barrier, I was a part of him now, and he'd successfully claimed me and made me his tonight. I would forever be Cole's.

Chapter 29

The next couple of months went by so fast, too fast. I got back in a rhythm with my classes, and started working in the library on campus Mondays and Wednesdays after class. Travis also asked if I could help with paperwork at the shop on one of my days off, which I was excited about and loved doing, so I was there Tuesdays. Having to make up for all the work I missed the two separate times I was in the hospital so far this semester had been challenging in itself, but mostly because it took even more time away from me being with Cole. Between all of that I felt like my free time was nonexistent.

Even though we lived together, woke up with each other every morning, had lunch and dinner together, and were able to go to bed at the same time, it was still just time also spent doing something else. Cole would visit me while I worked or I would study while he worked on his car in the garage out back. But every night he'd strip me down and ravish my body with love and attention, and usually wake me up in the morning by pushing his hard arousal inside me, or running his tongue over my body. Some of my favorite times with Cole have been the spur of the moment, run up to our place in the middle of the day, throw me on the island or kitchen table and make love to me, times. I'm one seriously lucky girl.