Reave the Just and Other Tales (43 page)

Then alarms began to howl, and the damage readouts on Temple’s board began to spit intimations of disaster.

Training took over through her panic. Her hands danced on the console, gleaning data. “We’ve been hit.” Through the shield. “Some kind of projectile.”
Through the c-vector shield.
“It’s breached the hull.” All three layers of the ship’s metal skin. “I don’t know what it was, but it’s punched a hole all the way to the outer-shell wall.”

Gracias interrupted her. “How big’s the hole?”

“About a meter square.” She went back to the discipline of her report. “The comp is closing pressure doors, isolating the breach. Damage is minor—we’ve lost one heat exchanger for the climate control. But if they do that again, they might hit something more vital.” Trusting the c-vector shields,
Aster’s Hope’s
builders hadn’t tried to make her particularly hard to damage in other ways.

The alien ship did it again. Another tearing thud as the projectile hit. Another small flash of light from the attacker. More alarms. Temple’s board began to look like it was monitoring a madhouse.

“The same place,” she said, fighting a rising desire to scream. “It’s pierced outer-shell. Atmosphere loss is trivial. The comp is closing more pressure doors.” She tapped commands into the console. “Extrapolating the path of those shots, I’m closing all the doors along the way.” Then she called up a damage estimate on the destructive force of the projectiles. “Two more like that will breach one of the mid-shell cryogenic chambers. We’re going to start losing people.”

And if the projectiles went on pounding the same place, deeper and deeper into the ship, they would eventually reach the c-vector generator.

It was true:
Aster’s Hope
was going to be destroyed.

“Gracias, what is it? This is supposed to be impossible. How are they doing it to us?”

“Happening too fast to scan.” In spite of his torpor, he already had all the answers he needed up on his screen. “Faster-than-light projectile. Flash shows after impact. Vaporize us if we didn’t have the shields. C-vector brings it down to space-normal speed. But then it’s inside the field. She wasn’t built for this.”

A faster— For a moment, her brain refused to understand the words. A faster-than-light projectile. And when it hit the shield, just enough of its energy went off at right angles to the speed of light to slow it down. Not enough to stop it.

As if in mockery, the speakers began to blast again. “Your ship is desired intact. Surrender. Your lives will be spared. You will be granted opportunity to serve as goodlife.”

So exasperated she hardly knew what she was doing, she slapped open a radio channel. “Shut up!” she shouted across the black space between
Aster’s Hope
and the alien. “Stop shooting! Give us a chance to think! How can we surrender if you don’t give us a chance to think?”

Gulping air, she looked at Gracias. She felt wild and didn’t know what to do about it. His eyes were dull, low-lidded: he might’ve been going to sleep. Sick with fear, she panted at him, “Do something! You’re the ship’s puter. You’re supposed to take care of her. You’re supposed to have ideas.
They can’t do this to my ship!
”

Slowly—too slowly—he turned toward her. His neck hardly seemed strong enough to hold his head up. “Do what? Shield’s all we’ve got. Now it isn’t any good. That”—he grimaced—“that thing has everything. Nothing we can do.”

Furiously, she ripped off her restraints, heaved out of her seat so that she could go to him and shake him. “There has to be something we can do!” she shouted into his face. “We’re human! That thing’s nothing but a pile of microchips and demented programming. We’re more than it is! Don’t surrender!
Think!
”

For a moment, he stared at her. Then he let out an empty laugh. “What good’s being human? Doesn’t help. Only intelligence and power count. Those machines have intelligence. Maybe more than we do. More advanced than we are. And a lot more powerful.” Dully, he repeated, “Nothing we can do.”

In response, she wanted to rage at him, We can refuse to give up! We can keep fighting! We’re not beaten as long as we’re stubborn enough to keep fighting! But as soon as she thought that she knew she was wrong. There was nothing in life as stubborn as a machine doing what it was told.

“Intelligence and power aren’t all that count,” she protested, trying urgently to find what she wanted, something she could believe in, something that would pull Gracias out of his defeat. “What about emotion? That ship can’t care about anything. What about love?”

When she said that, his expression crumpled. Roughly, he put his hands over his face. His shoulders knotted as he struggled with himself.

“Well, then,” she went on, too desperate to hold back, “we can use the self-destruct. Kill
Aster’s Hope
”—the bare idea choked her, but she forced it out—“to keep them from finding out how the shield generator works. Altruism. That’s something they don’t have.”

Abruptly, he wrenched his hands down from his face, pulled them into fists, pounded them on the arms of his seat. “Stop it,” he whispered. “
Stop
it. Machines are altruistic. Don’t care about themselves at all. Only thing they can’t do is feel bad when what they want is taken away. Any second now, they’re going to start firing again. We’re dead, and there’s nothing we can do about it,
nothing.
Stop breaking my heart.”

His anger and rejection should have hurt her. But he was awake and alive, and his eyes were on fire in the way she loved. Suddenly, she wasn’t alone: he’d come back from his dull horror. “Gracias,” she said softly. “Gracias.” Possibilities were moving in the back of her brain, ideas full of terror and hope, ideas she was afraid to say out loud. “We can wake everybody up. See if anybody else can think of anything. Put it to a vote. Let the mission make its own decisions.

“Or we can—”

What she was thinking scared her out of her mind, but she told him what it was anyway. Then she let him yell at her until he couldn’t think of any more arguments against it.

After all, they had to save Aster.

_______

Her part of the preparations was simple enough. She left him in the auxcompcom and took the nearest shaft down to inner-shell. First she visited a locker to get her tools and a magnetic sled. Then she went to the central command center.

In the cencom, she keyed a radio channel. Hoping the alien was listening, she said, “I’m Temple. My partner is crazy—he wants to fight. I want to surrender. I’ll have to kill him. It won’t be easy. Give me some time. I’m going to disable the shields.”

She took a deep breath, forced herself to sigh. Could a mechanical alien understand a sigh? “Unfortunately, when the shields go down it’s going to engage an automatic self-destruct. That I can’t disable. So don’t try to board the ship. You’ll get blown to pieces. I’ll come out to you.

“I want to be goodlife, not badlife. To prove my good faith, I’m going to bring with me a portable generator for the c-vector field we use as shields. You can study it, learn how it works. Frankly, you need it.” The alien ship could probably hear the stress in her voice, so she made an extra effort to sound sarcastic. “You’d be dead by now if we weren’t on a peace mission. We know how to break down your shields—we just don’t have the firepower.”

There. She clicked off the transmitter. Let them think about that for a while.

From the cencom, she opened one of the access hatches and took her tools and mag-sled down into the core of
Aster’s Hope,
where most of the ship’s vital equipment operated—the comp banks, the artificial gravity inducer, the primary life-support systems, the c-vector generator.

While she worked, she didn’t talk to Gracias. She wanted to know how he was doing; but she already knew the intraship communication lines weren’t secure from the alien’s scanner probe.

In a relatively short time—she was
Aster’s Hope’s
nician and knew what she was doing—she had the ship’s self-destruct device detached from its comp links and loaded onto the mag-sled. That device (called “the black box” by the mission planners) was no more than half Temple’s size, but it was a fully functional c-vector generator, capable from its own energy cells of sending the entire ship off at right angles to the speed of light, even if the rest of
Aster’s Hope
were inoperative. With the comp links disconnected, Gracias couldn’t do anything to destroy the ship; but Temple made sure the self-destruct’s radio trigger was armed and ready before she steered the mag-sled up out of the core.

This time when she left the cencom she took a shaft up to the mid-shell chamber where she and Gracias had their cryogenic capsules. He wasn’t there yet. While she waited for him, she went around the room and disconnected the chamber’s communications gear. She hoped her movements might make her look from a distance like one furtive life-form preparing an ambush for another.

He was slow in coming. The delay made her fret. Was it possible that he had lapsed back into half-somnolent panic? Or had he changed his mind—decided she was crazy? He’d yelled at her as if she were asking him to help her commit suicide. What if he—?

The door whooshed open, and he came into the chamber almost at a run. “Have to hurry,” he panted. “Only got fifteen minutes before the shield drops.”

His face looked dark and bruised and fierce, as if he’d spent the time she was away from him hitting himself with his fists. For a second, she caught a glimpse of just how terrible what she was asking him to do was.

Ignoring the need for haste, she went to him, put her arms around him, hugged him hard. “Gracias,” she breathed, “it’s going to work. Don’t look at me like that.”

He returned her embrace so roughly he made her gasp. But almost immediately he let her go. “Keep your suit radio open,” he rasped while he pushed past her and moved to his capsule. “If you go off, the comp will take over. Blow you out of space.” Harshly, he pulled himself over the edge into the bed of the capsule. “Two-stage code,” he continued. “First say my name.” His eyes burned blackly in their sockets, savage with pain and fear. “If that works, say ‘Aster.’ If it
doesn’t
work, say ‘Aster.’ Whatever happens. Ship doesn’t deserve to die in her sleep.”

As if he were dismissing her, he reclined in the capsule and folded his arms over his chest.

But when she went to him to say good-bye, he reached out urgently and caught her wrist. “Why?” he asked softly. “Why are we doing it this way?”

Oh, Gracias. His desperation hurt her. “Because this is the only way we can persuade them not to blow up
Aster’s Hope
—or come storming aboard—when we let down the shields.”

His voice hissing between his clenched teeth, he asked, “Why can’t I come with you?”

Tears she couldn’t stop ran down her cheeks. “They’ll be more likely to trust me if they think I’ve killed you. And somebody has to stay here. To decide what to do if this all goes wrong. These are the jobs we’ve been trained for.”

For a long moment, he faced her with his dark distress. Then he let go of her arm.“Comp’ll wake me up when you give the first code.”

She was supposed to be hurrying. She could hardly bear to leave him; but she forced herself to kiss him quickly, then step back and engage the lid of his capsule. Slowly, the lid closed down over him until it sealed. The gas that prepared his body for freezing filled the capsule. But he went on staring out at her, darkly, hotly, until the inside of the lid frosted opaque.

Ignoring the tears that streaked her face, she left him. The sled floating on its magnetic field ahead of her, she went to the shaft and rode up to outer-shell, as close as she could safely get to the point where the faster-than-light projectiles had breached
Aster’s Hope’s
hull. From there, she steered the mag-sled into the locker room beside the airlock that gave access to the nearest exterior port.

In the locker room, she put on her suit. Because everything depended on it, she tested the suit’s radio unit circuits four times. Then she engaged the suit’s pressure seals and took the mag-sled into the airlock.

Monitored automatically by the comp, she cycled the airlock to match the null atmosphere/gravity in the port. After that, she didn’t need the mag-sled anymore. With hardly a minute to spare, she nudged the black box out into the high metal cave of the port and keyed the controls to open the port doors.

The doors slid back, leaving her face-to-face with the naked emptiness of space.

At first, she couldn’t see the alien ship: everything outside the port was too dark. But
Aster’s Hope
was still less than half a light-year from home; and when Temple’s eyes adjusted to the void she could see that Aster’s sun sent out enough illumination to show the attacking vessel against the background of the stars.

It appeared too big and fatal for her to hurt.

But after the way Gracias had looked at her in farewell, she couldn’t bear to hesitate. This had to be done. As soon as the alarm went off in the port—and all over
Aster’s Hope
—warning the ship that the shields were down, she cleared her throat, forced her taut voice into use.

“All right,” she said into the radio. “I’ve done it. I’ve killed my partner. I’ve shut down the shields. I want you to keep your promise. Save my life. I’m coming out. If we’re within a thousand kilometers of the ship when the automatic self-destruct goes, we’ll go with it.

“I’ve got the portable field generator with me. I can show you how to use it. I can teach you how to make it. You’ve got to keep your promise.”

She didn’t wait for an answer: she didn’t expect one. The only answer she’d received earlier was a cessation of the shooting. That was enough. All she had to do was get close to the alien ship.

Grimly she tightened her grip on one handle of the black box and fired her suit’s small thrusters to impel herself and her burden past the heavy doors out into the dark.

Automatically, the comp closed the doors after her, shutting her out.

For an instant, her own smallness almost overwhelmed her. No Asterin had been where she was now: outside her ship half a light-year from home. All of her training had been in comfortable orbit around Aster, the planet acting as a balance to the immensity of space. And there had been light! Here there were only the gleams and glitters emitted by
Aster’s Hope
’s
cameras and scanners—and the barely discernible bulk of the alien, its squat lines only slightly less dark than the black heavens.