Raging Hard: A Stepbrother SEAL Romance (With bonus novel Based!) (39 page)

Instead, I lay in my bed early in the morning, running my fingers over my swollen clit, thinking about him. I couldn’t stop myself, couldn’t help it. He was everywhere in my mind, from the way his muscles flexed when he moved to his cocky grin and confidence to the way he carefully kept any signs of pain away from his expression.

I wanted to feel his skin against mine. I wanted to feel his dick slip inside me. I wanted to hear him grunt and groan as he fucked me deep and hard.

Instead, I settled for my own hand slowly rubbing my clit in careful circles. Pleasure wracked through my body as I pictured him holding my hands up above my head and kissing down my neck.

I wanted to ride him until I couldn’t breathe.

I wanted every inch of him inside me until there was nothing left but him and only him.

I wanted to watch his face as he came, sweat dripping off our bodies, our hips moving in rhythm together, pleasure destroying everything and rebuilding it better.

As I pictured his strong arms grabbing my hips, I came, my back arching and my legs kicking slightly.

I came to the thought of fucking Lincoln.

As it slowly subsided, I pulled my hand out of my underwear, frowning. I wasn’t satisfied, not even close, but it was better than nothing. I couldn’t let myself get too close to him. It was way too dangerous, especially with his level of fame and the cameras around him all the time. Frankly, I was afraid of him.

I was afraid of how I felt about him. I was afraid of what that meant, both for him and for me.

Finally, I climbed out of bed, washed my hands, brushed my teeth, and got dressed. I checked the time, making sure that Lincoln would be busy with PT, and went downstairs to have some breakfast.

Carefully, I stayed away from the room where he was working out. I didn’t want to risk hearing him grunt with exertion; I knew from experience that it would lead to me fantasizing about him all afternoon, and I really didn’t want to do that again.

I poured myself some cereal and sat at the island. As I began to dig in, I heard a noise and looked up.

“Morning, Aubrie,” Jules said.

“Good morning, Jules.”

She swept into the kitchen, all frilly clothes and flowing skirts, and grabbed a yogurt from the refrigerator. She leaned up against the island and smiled at me.

“How’s it going?”

“Fine, I guess. A little bored.”

She laughed. “That’s perfect.”

Inwardly, I sighed. “Why is my boredom perfect?”

“I have a job for you.”

I had been waiting for this. It was unlike Jules to go longer than a day without giving me some task, let alone five days. Those five days were probably my gift for working on the first event.

“Okay, let’s hear it.”

She smiled sheepishly. “I don’t think you’ll like it.”

“What, do I have to kill someone?”

She laughed. “No, nothing like that. Not exactly anyway.”

“Okay, you’re freaking me out. What’s the job?”

“I need you to convince Lincoln to donate some signed memorabilia and to attend a charity auction.”

I blinked at her. “Why do you need me to do that?”

“You two seem to be getting pretty close. Everyone remarked at the last event how good of friends you two seemed.”

I struggled to keep my expression neutral. “I guess we’ve been talking more, yeah.”

“Well, he doesn’t listen to me, so I thought maybe you could help.”

“He doesn’t exactly listen to me, either, Jules.”

“I’m sure he doesn’t. But could you try anyway?”

She had no clue what she was asking of me. If she did, she’d probably scream and go running for the hills. Or at least she would shun me for being such a weirdo.

“Okay, fine,” I said reluctantly. “I’ll try. But no promises.”

“Great!” she said, perking up. “It’s going to be so good for the cause. He made such a splash at the last one.”

“Really?”

“Oh, sure. Lincoln hasn’t exactly been out in public much since his injury. I think there are rumors that he had died or something silly.”

“That he died,” I said flatly.

“Oh yes, you know, crazy stuff. So him showing up at the event was a big deal.”

I hadn’t realized that Lincoln wasn’t doing public appearances, but it made complete sense. He wasn’t the type of guy to let people see him at his most vulnerable, which made the whole documentary thing seem a little off. But it made sense that he was only doing it to keep my dad off his back. So why show up at the event?

True, I had cashed in my favor, but he could have easily just said no. It wasn’t like I had some real binding contract or something.

“Anyway, I’m off to work out. Have a good day, dear.”

“Okay, sure. Enjoy.”

She walked quickly out of the kitchen, probably so that I didn’t have time to change my mind. Which was a real possibility.

I sighed, finishing my breakfast, and looked around the kitchen. I checked the time again and realized that I had spaced out, thinking about what I was going to do with Lincoln. He would be finishing PT soon, and I needed to get out of the kitchen.

In a hurry, I put my bowl in the dishwasher and moved out into the hall. As I turned the corner, I almost smashed headfirst into a totally surprised human. As I stumbled to one side, Lincoln’s cameraman, Brent, gave me a bashful smile.

“You’re in a hurry,” he said.

“Shit, sorry about that.”

“It’s fine. Take it easy.” He turned to keep heading toward the front door.

“Hey,” I said, and he turned back. “Are you guys on a break?”

“Yep. Boss gives us a few minutes every day to ourselves.”

“Must be nice,” I mumbled.

“Seems to work so far.”

“Do you know where Lincoln is?”

He shook his head. “Nope. I lose track of him as soon as the camera is off.”

“Sick of staring at him?”

“Yeah, but it’s nothing personal. You film the same thing over and over all day long, you’re bound to get tired of it.”

I laughed. “Yeah, that makes sense.”

“Anyway, want me to tell him you’re looking for him?”

“Okay, sure. Thanks.”

“No problem.”

I turned and left, though I could feel his eyes linger on me for a second. As I made my way upstairs, I realized that I barely knew the camera crew, despite them being around all the time.

Brent was probably a few years older than I was, and he seemed like he was the leader of the crew. Jess was the director, but he was the guy that people seemed to turn to, or at least from what I had seen of them. Although we were all in the same house all the time, that was the most I had ever spoken with him.

Then again, I was working pretty hard at avoiding them. So it wasn’t really a surprise that I didn’t know Brent very well. It wasn’t his fault.

I stood at the top of the landing and sighed. I hadn’t told Brent where I’d be all afternoon, so I decided to go to the one place where I was reasonably certain Lincoln would check for me: the music room.

I stopped in my bedroom, grabbed a book, and then sat with my back against the wall in the music room. It was warm and comfortable, sunlight drifting in through the lace-covered curtains.

Five days and I hadn’t said a word to him. Five days was a long time when you had something as huge as our kiss lingering in the air. I had no clue what it was going to be like, if he was going to be weird or not. But I couldn’t just keep pretending like he didn’t exist. Helping Jules with her event was as good an excuse as any to try to move past whatever was happening between us.

Although I wasn’t sure I wanted to move past it. That was the whole problem.

I didn’t get much reading done. I hadn’t really planned on it. After maybe half of a chapter, I heard the door push open. I looked up to see Lincoln standing there grinning at me.

“I heard you were looking for me,” he said.

“I might have been.”

He took a few steps inside and crossed his arms. He was still slightly damp from the morning’s workout, and I had to admit that he looked pretty damn sexy. Between the muscles, the sweat, and the cocky grin, I suddenly was pretty sure I was making a mistake.

“What’s up, Brie baby?”

I closed my book and sat up. He crossed the room and sat down on the piano’s bench.

“Quit calling me that. Makes me sound like a little kid.”

“I was going for sexy adult, but whatever.”

I refused to let him bait me. “Your mom wanted me to ask you something.”

“Oh yeah? Why isn’t she asking herself?”

“She thinks you’ll listen to me.”

He laughed. “Why would she think that?”

“Apparently, you made a big splash at the last charity event.”

He paused. “Is that so?”

“She wants you to help out with her upcoming charity auction.”

He frowned. “I only went to the last one because I owed you.”

“I know. But I couldn’t exactly tell her that.”

“What does she need?”

“I’m not totally sure. Some memorabilia, I guess. You’ll sign some stuff. Probably just make an appearance.”

He looked thoughtful. “What’s in it for me?”

I sighed. “The feeling that you’ve made your mother happy.”

“Almost tempting. But she’s not the woman I want to please.”

I looked away. “Stop doing that.”

“Stop doing what, Brie baby?”

“You know what.”

I looked back and he was grinning at me. “I let you avoid me for days now, and suddenly I can’t even tease you?”

“I haven’t been avoiding you.”

He laughed. “You haven’t? So you aren’t timing your schedule around my PT?”

I paused. “No. Not exactly.”

“Right. Okay. We can play it that way if you want.”

“Look, I’m just the messenger here. Okay?”

“My original question still stands: what’s in it for me?”

I clenched my jaw. He could be so stubborn and selfish sometimes. “I don’t know, Lincoln. It’s a chance to do something nice for once.”

“I do plenty of nice things. Not interested.”

I sighed, exasperated. “What do you want?”

He raised an eyebrow and got that mischievous look again. “Now we’re talking. There is something that I want.”

I blushed. “That’s not on the table.”

He paused and then laughed out loud. “Come on, Brie. You think I’d blackmail you into fucking me?”

“Not sure what you’re capable of.”

He got serious for a second. “If I’m going to fuck you, you’re going to beg for it first.”

I blinked, feeling the heat spread between my legs at the intense look he was giving me. For half a second, I believed him.

“Uh, okay. What do you want then?” I managed to say.

“Actually, it’s something you’ve already agreed to. I need another interview.”

I let out a breath. “Is that it?”

“Turns out, filming me working out all day long isn’t exactly compelling stuff. Jess is pushing me to go outside my usual comfort zone. I’m hoping another interview with you will get her off my back.”

“And if I do this, you promise you’ll do whatever your mom wants for this charity thing?”

“Fine. I’ll do whatever you want.”

I ignored that. “Okay. You have a deal.”

He grinned and then stood up and walked over to me, his hand held out. I paused. Then I reached out and shook, his hand firm in mine, his face a playful grin. His touch lingered for a second, and I thought he might try to pull me to my feet, but instead he let my hand drop and he stepped away.

“Pleasure doing business with you, Brie baby.”

“Wish I could say the same.”

He walked over toward the door. “Interview is tomorrow, around noon. Dress nice.”

“I always dress nice,” I shot back.

“Perfect. Bring that fire and wit, too.”

I rolled my eyes as he left the room. I watched him go, my heart racing in my chest.

I kept putting myself through this, kept pushing him away only to get drawn back in. And as much as I hated it, I also couldn’t get enough.

It was only an interview. We’d be in a room full of people. It would be too dangerous for him to try anything or to say anything about what had happened.

So why was I already nervous?

Interview #2

I
shouldn’t have been nervous. I adjusted myself on the uncomfortable stool and cursed under my breath. I had a theory that Jess chose the most awful seats possible for the interviews just to make sure that people could never get their balance.

Which wasn’t helping my nerves. Jess had agreed that the interview would be a good thing, another check mark in the “helpful Lincoln” category. Hopefully it would keep her and Cliff off my back for another week or two.

But I was still nervous for some insane reason. I had already done this with Brie, had already sat in these seats and pushed her buttons for fun. For some reason, though, things were different. I didn’t know what to expect.

All because of that kiss. That perfect fucking cock-stiffening kiss.

“How you feeling?” I asked Brie under my breath as the team bustled around us, setting up the lights.

“Fine. Nervous.”

“Don’t be nervous. I’ll be good this time.”

She gave me a look. “You better be. I’m doing this as a favor.”

I grinned. “You’re doing this to get me to help my mother out.”

“Yeah, okay. That too.”

Jess came over and began to clip a mic onto Brie. When she was finished, she came over to me, but I held my hand out for it instead. She handed it over, walking back to her chair. I clipped the thing on myself.

“We almost set?” she asked the crew.

“Lights, camera, action,” Brent said. Brie laughed and he smiled at her.

“I’ll take that as a yes,” Jess replied.

“Yeah. Just need to check the mics.”

“Test test test. Fuck me sideways with a telephone pole. Susan sells porno down by the seashore.”

“Got it,” Brent said. “Aubrie?”

“Testing testing. One two three four.”

“Boring,” I mumbled.

“All good,” Brent replied.

“Okay,” Jess said, leaning back in her chair. “Let’s do this thing. Cameras up?”

“Cameras running,” Brent called out.

“You two ready?”