Promoted to Wife (Destiny Bay) (8 page)

He smiled, a sudden picture of those halcyon summer days flashing before his mind’s eye. He and his cousins had been golden boys back then. The world was their oyster. Or so it seemed. Why did it all have to turn out to be such a lie? Why couldn’t life just get better and better--the way it looked when you were young?
 

“Tell me about the men in your life,” he said suddenly.

She gave him a level look. “Like my father, you mean?”

He winced. “Not like your father,” he said. “Not like any stray friends or brothers either.”
 

She sighed. “Brothers I don’t have. And I’ve never been married.”
 

“I have. Don’t bother. It’s not worth it.”

“That’s not true!” she said, eyes flashing. “Look at your beautiful children.”

He gazed at her as though she’d started speaking Martian, just for kicks. But he understood what she was saying, and he backed off.
 

“Yes, I have beautiful children,” he agreed. “But we aren’t talking about me. We’re talking about the men you’ve loved.” He shrugged and gave her a lopsided smile. “And you’d better get started. We don’t have much time.”

She started to snap at him, but she stopped herself quickly. Something about this conversation was beginning to remind her of the Mad Hatter’s tea party. Taking a deep breath, she forced herself to calm down.

“All right. Shorthand version. I've just abandoned a relationship that lasted almost three years.” There. She’d finally admitted it to herself. She and Craig were probably over. Funny how that had been too painful to express until just now.

But she suddenly remembered what he’d said when she’d loaded up her car and prepared to leave.
 

“It would probably be best if we didn’t try to contact each other for awhile,” he’d told her, trying to look wise and above it all. “You’ve got your new job to fit into, and I’ve got this screenplay I’ve got to pour my heart and soul into. I guess we might as well take a break from all this.”
 

He’d swept the scene with his hand as though it encompassed all they’d meant to each other.
 

Thinking of it now, she felt her throat tighten. He’d been saying goodbye and she hadn’t let herself realize that at the time.
 

No doubt about it. Craig was no longer her guy. That relationship was over. She caught her breath and tried not to let it overwhelm her.
 

 
“And I'm not in the market to begin another one,” she added with firm emphasis, forcing herself to stay strong.
 

“Relationship?” He sat up a little straighter. “Who said anything about a relationship?” Despite his words, his grin was disarming. “I was thinking more along the lines of a nice, tidy little affair. Just you and me.”

She flashed him a cool, appraising look. She was pretty sure he was joking, but he didn’t seem the sort to turn down a snuggle if she offered.
 

“ 'Nice, tidy little affairs' are not my style,” she told him.
 

He shrugged, still totally at ease. “Does this mean we're incompatible?”

“Probably.”

His smile showed how little he believed that. “Tell me about him. The one who just broke your heart.”

She moved uncomfortably. “My heart is fine. His... his name is Craig Annison. He's in films. He's been a casting director for a number of years, but he's finally got a film of his own in production, which has been his dream for a long time.”

“A movie producer and a butler. The two don’t seem to go together somehow.”

“Here’s where they meet up. I spent the last eight years of my life beating on the entry doors to Hollywood. I’m an actress.” She made a face. “Or at least, I tried to be.”

“Get any good parts?”

“I was in a few films. Nothing you would recognize.”

“Not career builders?”

She shrugged. “Obviously not. I’m now a butler.”

“You don’t go for the easy wins, do you?”

Funny. She’d never thought of it that way, but he was right. Still, she pulled back a bit. They were getting too close to the truth here. How could she explain to him that Craig’s vote had put it over the top—if it weren’t for him, she might not have had the nerve to try to be a butler.

When she’d floated the idea as kind of a silly thought, he’d jumped on it.
 

“Do it,” he’d said. “You go be a butler. See if you can pull it off. And if you can, I’ll make sure you get a good, juicy part in ‘Can’t Miss’.” That was the film he was making and he’d been noticeably hesitant to give her a chance so far. “You prove it,” he’d said. “Show me. Make me hire you.”

The really puzzling thing was, she’d been so angry with him for giving her that challenge, it had made her look at things differently, and in the end, she’d decided it was just what she had to do. Was she proving things to Craig, or to herself? Good question. But bottom line, she was doing it for her father. And that was all that really counted.
 

“Were you married?” Rick asked her.

“No.” She frowned at him. “I just told you that.”

He nodded. “I was trying to trick you,” he said, eyes sparkling. “You’re holding up well.”

She bit her lip and shook her head. He was an odd one, but for some reason, she was surprised to find she could talk about things like this pretty easily with him. “We weren’t married,” she said, “but we lived together.”

“I see.”

“That's all over now.” She took a deep breath and smiled. “I'm starting a new life.”

He nodded, looking as though he was suppressing a smile. “As a butler.”

She raised her head and met his gaze steadily. “Yes.”

He looked skeptical. “And definitely not on the lookout for a new man.”

 
“No!” She shook her head. “No relationships. No little affairs. I'm going to be my own woman from now on.” She took a deep breath and stared into the fire. They were silent, the crackle from the fireplace the only sound in the room.

When she finally looked at him again she found he'd leaned back even farther into his end of the couch, so
relaxed she was afraid he was in danger of falling off. She
glanced at him, and despite all resolutions, leaned down to take up a glass of the wine. She took a sip, then looked at
him again.
 

His head was tilted back and he was regarding
her steadily from beneath his neat, dark brows. He didn't
say a word, but his gaze spoke volumes.

This man
, she told herself,
like most men, thinks he’s
a master of seduction
.
He’s working out just what gambit to use to get me into his bed. And he’s going to be disappointed.

She risked another searching glance at him. It was all a game to him. Like polo or golf. Rebellion rose in her. She
didn't like being thought of as a sporting challenge.

She set the wineglass back down on the table with a thump. “Is something wrong?” she asked at last. This
constant scrutiny was driving her crazy.

“Are you kidding?” His smile was slow and infinitely tantalizing. “Something is very, very right.” And he con
tinued to watch her.

She swallowed. It was working. She could feel his gaze sizzling across her skin and she knew she was responding
to him. He was seducing her with silent promises, and
she was finding out he was darn near irresistible. That
excited and scared her, but it made her angry too. She’d told him again and again that she wasn’t interested.
 

“Stop it,” she said, getting jumpy. “Don’t try your mind games on me. You’re very appealing, and you know it. But I’m not going to fall for you, no matter what you do.”

He sighed as though her words made him very sad. “Are you about to launch into an a capella version of ‘I am Woman, Hear Me Roar’?” he asked, looking wary. “Just a warning, I hate that song.”

“You would.” She gave him a smug look and blatantly lied to him. “I know all the words by heart.”

But she was almost laughing and so was he. He smiled ruefully, his eyelids heavy with a languor
that reminded her again of what a rich, spoiled playboy he was.
 

“I can see that,” he said with regret. “You look like a suffragette with a cause in hand.” He sighed. “Just don't picket the estate, please. Grandfather wouldn't like it.”

Terry lifted her chin stubbornly. She was tempted to say something very un-servant-like about his grandfather's wishes being no more important than her own, but he cut her off.

“But I forget,” he said lightly. “You’re the butler. A proper butler would never stoop to picketing. Arsenic in the marmalade is more like it.”

“Oh please!”

He grinned. “Just don’t poison the children,” he said. “That’s all I ask.”

How was she supposed to answer a request like that? She didn’t even try.
 

“Your children are beautiful,” she pointed out again, feeling a little off balance. It was time she made a get-a-way. She glanced warily toward the door. The couch was comfortable—too comfortable—and she wasn’t sure how she was going to get up again without looking like a total klutz.
 

“Yes, aren’t they?” he said in response to her comment about his children. But he had a way of slightly narrowing his eyes that made her think he was ready to take any comment on his kids as a criticism.
 

“You're going to have to help me tomorrow,” he added with a slight frown. “Johnny is going to find some insane way to deliver my card. I'll need you to help discover where it is.”

She felt her edginess melt away and shook her head, intrigued in spite of herself. “What makes you so sure he'll do something crazy again?”

“He always does. One year his card arrived in the belly of a twenty-five-pound salmon. I never could figure out how he got it in there. Then there was the time it came in the middle of dinner, molded into the center of an enormous cranberry gelatin salad. I was supposed to eat my way to the card.”
 

“You’re lucky it wasn’t an aspic mold.”

“I suppose so.” He shook his head, remembering the day fondly.
 

Pulling herself together, she managed to rise from the couch in one smooth move instead of lurching, as she’d expected to do. With a sigh of relief, she smiled again. “And now, I think I’ll go to bed. So if you’ll excuse me…”

“Not yet,” he said, but it was more a complaint than an order. He stood and slipped an arm around her before she could escape. Startled, she looked up into his eyes and felt a swoon coming on. His arm tightened and he bent in to taste a tiny piece of her neck, sending out sparks through her system.
 

“Just remember,” he breathed against her skin, “tomorrow is my birthday. And I've thought of the most wonderful present you could give
me.” He kissed her earlobe gently, sending shivers down her back
again.

Taking a deep breath, she hardened her heart.
 

“It's not quite your birthday yet,” she reminded him, firmly pushing him away and starting toward the door.
“And I haven't promised you anything.”

He reached out and pulled her back, looking down into her eyes. She looked up and suddenly she couldn’t breathe. His eyes were smoky and his mouth looked wonderful in the lamplight.
 

Suddenly she wanted his kiss more than she’d ever wanted anything. She waited, yearning toward him, feeling the strength of his bicep under her hand, feeling the heat of his body as it curled around her. His lips came closer. She arched into him, her own lips parted and ready, her heart beating so loudly, it seemed to fill the room.
 

“
Now
,” she was thinking wildly. “
Oh, kiss me now
!”

His face came closer. He was almost there. And then he stopped.

She stretched toward him, but he was drawing back. Frowning at her, he shook his head, looking as though he were waking from a dream and was slightly puzzled as to why she was still there.
 

“Uh..okay. I’ll see you in the moring,” he said, drawing away.
 

She took a quick breath and turned bright red. It was so obvious that she’d wanted him to kiss her. And so obvious that he had other things on his mind. She turned from him and headed for the doorway.
 

He didn't try to stop her. She escaped to her room and
closed the door, leaning on it as she closed her
eyes and tried to wish away everything that had happened in the last five minutes.
 

Had he purposely played her for a fool? Or was he making some sort of weird point? She didn’t know and she didn’t need to know. She just had to remember to stay away from him in the future. Far, far away.
 

But then, beyond all reason, she was flooded with the memory of what it had felt like to be in his
strong arms.

“Oh, Terry,” she whispered to herself, “you are walk
ing on quicksand.” How had she gotten herself into this situation? When she'd had the idea to come here, some
thing like this hadn't even entered her mind. Now she
was stuck.

Suddenly she started to laugh. This was the classic ser
vant-master affair. Shades of
Tom Jones.
Shades of'
Pamela!
How utterly ludicrous!

That was the way to look at it—it
was
ludicrous. If she
laughed, she couldn't fall for him, right? Laughter punctures
false dignity every time. So she made a vow to laugh a
lot.

But as she slipped between the cool sheets and
switched off her lamp, the memory of Rick's warmth swept over her again, and then Craig’s cool grey eyes filled her mind’s eye and laughter was nowhere to be
found.