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Authors: Isobel Irons

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I was five or six at the time, I think. I can’t really remember.
Man, I hate that word, flesh
.

“Grant?”

Jeanne is looking at me expectantly again, waiting for another short answer to another question I zoned out and missed.

“I’m sorry?”

“I asked if you’ve had any more attacks since the last time we talked.”

Of course I have. But I’m not telling her that. First of all, because she doesn’t really care. She’s only being paid to ask these questions. My 50 minute ‘sharing’ session is almost up, and unlike my dad, Jeanne gets paid no matter what. Even if she doesn’t ‘fix’ me. Even if I walk out of here every time every bit as broken as I was when I walked in, she gets paid.

Maybe I should become a psychiatrist, instead of a surgeon. Wouldn’t that be ironic?

But then hey, no flesh to deal with.
Bonus
, as Tash would say.

I still haven’t answered Jeanne’s question, but she’s got to be getting used to that by now. We’ve been doing this one-sided dance for almost eleven months. Forty-four 50 minute sessions of pointless Q&A, 19 prescription refills—including two changes in medication and dosage, because of negative side-effects—and if I’d been keeping track, which I now realize I should have been, probably about 2,000,000 shrugs on my part, followed by the word ‘good,’ or ‘fine.’

I shrug again, number 2,000,001.

“No, it’s been a while since I’ve had any attacks.”

“That’s great, Grant.” Jeanne smiles again, her face encouraging, like she believes my lie and is proud of me. Or maybe she’s just happy that the hour is up, like I am. “I guess the medication is working, then.”

I don’t answer. If by ‘working,’ she means that the pills keep me from feeling normal human emotions, like fear, or pain, or happiness, or lust…then yeah, I guess they are.

 

 

Sexual Abuse Resources and References

(Courtesy of
www.RAINN.org
)

 

 

Child Abuse/Sexual Abuse

·
        
1in6 (men sexually abused as children)
·
        
ChildAbuse.org
·
        
Childhelp USA
·
        
Child Pornography CyberTipline
·
        
Child Sexual Abuse Statistics, Research and Resources
·
        
Darkness to Light (child sexual assault)
·
        
Justice for Children
·
        
National Center for Missing and Exploited Children
·
        
Pandora's Box
·
        
Sidran Traumatic Stress Foundation
·
        
Stop it Now
·
        
War Zone Study Guide

Domestic Violence

·
        
National Domestic Violence Hotline (1.800.799.SAFE)
·
        
National Coalition against Domestic Violence
·
        
National Network to End Domestic Violence

Drugs and Rape

·
        
Drug Enforcement Administration
·
        
Medline Abstract on GHB(requires registration)
·
        
National Institute on Drug Abuse (National Institutes of Health)
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Project GHB
·
        
Rape Treatment Center
·
        
Samantha Reid Foundation

Federal Government

·
        
Bureau of Justice Statistics
·
        
Center for Disease Control
·
        
Office of Justice Programs
·
        
Office for Victims of Crime
·
        
Office on Violence Against Women

Incest

·
        
Darkness to Light
·
        
The National Children's Alliance
·
        
Stop It Now

International Resources

·
        
RAINN Links
·
        
International Directory of Services
·
        
Protection Project

Legal & Legislative Information

·
        
Findlaw
·
        
Find your member of the House of Representatives
·
        
Find your Senator
·
        
Protection Project
·
        
US Congress
·
        
US Supreme Court

Male Rape

·
        
1in6 (men sexually abused as children)
·
        
Child Sexual Abuse Statistics, Research and Resources
·
        
Men's Voices Magazine

Mental Health

·
        
Post Traumatic Stress Disorder
·
        
PTSD Alliance
·
        
Sidran Traumatic Stress Foundation
·
        
GoodTherapy.org

Military Resources

·
        
Safe Helpline

Other Sexual Assault Resources

·
        
Act for Kids
·
        
Cavnet (Communities Against Violence)
·
        
End Violence Against Women (Johns Hopkins)
·
        
Feminist.com
·
        
Girl Thrive
·
        
Learning Publications Inc.
·
        
National Alliance to End Sexual Violence
·
        
National Online Resource Center on Violence Against Women
·
        
National Organization for Victims Assistance
·
        
National Sexual Violence Resource Center
·
        
National Violence against Women Prevention Research Center
·
        
National Women's Health Information Center
·
        
Project Respect
·
        
Rape Treatment Center
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www.911rape.org
·
        
Sexual Assault Training & Investigations

Prevention Efforts

·
        
Campus Outreach Services
·
        
The Date Safe Project
·
        
Good Touch/Bad Touch
·
        
Men Can Stop Rape
·
        
Partnerships Against Violence Network
·
        
Security on Campus

Professional Organizations

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American Congress of OB/GYNs
·
        
American Prosecutors Research Institute
·
        
International Assoc. of Forensic Nurses
·
        
National Commission on the Future of DNA Evidence
·
        
SANE/SART Info

Sex Offenders

·
        
Association for the Treatment of Sexual Abusers
·
        
Center for Sex Offender Management
·
        
State Sex Offender Registry Websites
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Stop it Now
·
        
U.S. Department of Justice: National Sex Offender Public Website

Stalking

Statistics

·
        
RAINN Stats page
·
        
Bureau of Justice Statistics (US Justice Dept)
·
        
FBI
·
        
College Rape Statistics (US Education Dept)
·
        
Federal Justice Statistics Resource Center
·
        
National Center for Health Statistics
·
        
Statistical Assessment Service

Support for Victims of Sexual Assault & Incest

·
        
Faces of Survivors
·
        
Homesafe Rape Crisis Center Survivor Listserve
·
        
It Happened to Alexa Foundation
·
        
Office for Victims of Crime (US Justice Department)
·
        
Promote Truth Online Counseling
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Soar (Speaking Out About Rape)
·
        
Victim Compensation Programs
·
        
Welcome to Barbados

Other Links

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American Social Health Association
·
        
Kristina Brooks Hope Center

 

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Table of Contents

FORWARD  (Please Read First)

Part I: “Dirty”

CHAPTER ONE

Part II: “Nasty”

CHAPTER TWO

CHAPTER THREE

CHAPTER FOUR

CHAPTER FIVE

CHAPTER SIX

CHAPTER SEVEN

CHAPTER EIGHT

CHAPTER NINE

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