Private Scandals (44 page)

“You killed her. And you turned the cameras on.”

“I was angry with you.” His mouth quivered, his eyes lowered. Deanna gripped her fork again with some idea of using it as a weapon. The effects of the drug were wearing off, and she felt stronger. She thought she could thank fear for that. But his eyes lifted to hers and the searing light in them had her fingers going numb.

“I knew it was wrong, but I wanted to hurt you. I nearly wanted to kill you. You were going to marry him, Dee. I could understand your sleeping with him. Weak flesh Uncle Matthew explained all about how sex can pervert,
and how weak people can be. Even you.” The hand that covered hers tightened, tightened, until bone rubbed bone. “So I understood, and I was patient, because I always knew you’d come to me. But you couldn’t marry him, you couldn’t take vows. I knew it was you when you opened the door. I always know when it’s you. I hit you. I wanted to hit you again, but I couldn’t. So I carried you to the chair, and I put Angela in the other one and turned on the camera. I wanted you to see what I’d done for you. I’d already been upstairs, in your office.” He compressed his lips, sighed and gently released her throbbing hand. “It was wrong of me to wreck your office. I shouldn’t have gone to Finn’s house, either. I’m sorry.”

He said it as though he’d neglected to keep a luncheon appointment.

“Jeff, have you ever told anyone about your feelings?”

“Just my uncle, when we talk in my head. He was sure you’d understand soon, and come home with me. And after I heard what that creep did to you in the parking lot, I knew it was nearly time.”

“Marshall?”

“He tried to hurt you. Joe told me how he’d acted, so I waited for him. I killed him the same way I’d killed the others. It was symbolic, Deanna. My vision destroyed their vision. It’s almost holy, don’t you think?”

“It’s not holy to kill, Jeff.”

“You’re too forgiving.” His eyes scanned her face, adoringly. “If you forgive people who’ve hurt you, they’ll only hurt you again. You have to protect what’s yours.”

He remembered the dog that had come into their yard time after time, digging up Uncle Matthew’s flowers, spoiling the grass. He’d cried when his uncle had poisoned the dog. Cried until Uncle Matthew had explained to him why it was right and honorable to defend your own against any intruder. With that in mind, he got up and went to the bureau. He opened the top drawer and took out a list.

“I’ve planned it,” he told her. “You and I always make lists and plan things out. We’re not the type who run off
without thinking, are we?” Beaming again, he offered the list to her.

LEW MCNEIL
ANGELA PERKINS
MARSHALL PIKE
DAN GARDNER
JAMIE THOMAS
FINN RILEY?

“Finn,” was all she could say.

“He’s not for sure. I put him down in case he hurt you. I nearly did it once before. Nearly. But at the last minute I realized I was only going to kill him because I was jealous. It was like Uncle Matthew was there, and he jerked the rifle at the last minute. I was really glad I didn’t kill him when I saw how upset you were that he’d been shot.”

“In Greektown,” Deanna said through trembling lips. “That day in Greektown. You shot him?”

“It was a mistake. I’m really sorry.”

“Oh God.” Horrified, she cringed back. “Oh my God.”

“It was a mistake.” His voice was sulky, dangerously so. Jeff looked away from her. “I said I was sorry. I won’t do anything to him unless he hurts you.”

“He hasn’t. He won’t.”

“Then I won’t have to do anything about him.”

Her palm dampened against the paper, and her heart began to beat heavily in her throat. “Promise me you won’t, Jeff. It’s important to me that Finn’s safe. He’s been very good to me.”

“I’m better for you.”

There was a child’s petulance on his face now. Deanna exploited the moment. “Promise me, Jeff, or I’ll be very unhappy. You don’t want that, do you?”

“No.” He struggled between her needs and his own. “I guess it doesn’t matter now. Not now that you’re here.”

“You have to promise.” She clamped her teeth together to keep the desperation from her voice. Reason, she told
herself. Calm reason. “I know you wouldn’t break your word to me.”

“All right. If it makes you happy.” To show his sincerity, he took out a pen and scratched Finn’s name off the list. “See?”

“Thank you. And Dan Gardner—”

“No.” His voice sharp, he folded the page. “He’s already hurt you, Dee. He’s said terrible things about you; he helped Angela try to ruin you. He has to be punished.”

“But he doesn’t matter, Jeff. He’s nothing.” Calm, she reminded herself. Calm but firm. Adult to child. “And Jamie Thomas, that was years and years ago. I don’t care about them.”

“I do. I care. I’d have killed him first, right away, but he was in Europe. Hiding out,” he said scornfully. “It’s not easy to get a weapon through customs, so I was patient.” Now he beamed. “He’s back now, you know. He’s in New Hampshire. I’ll be going there soon.”

The drug was no longer making her ill, but the nausea rolled greasily in her stomach. “I don’t care about him. About any of them, Jeff. I don’t want you to hurt them for me.”

He turned his face away, sulking. “I don’t want to talk about this anymore.”

“I want—”

“You have to think about what I want, too.” He shoved the list back in the drawer, slammed it hard enough to rattle bottles. “I’m only thinking of you.”

“Yes, I know. I know you are. But if you go to New York to kill Gardner, or New Hampshire for Jamie, I’ll be all alone here. I don’t want to be locked up alone, Jeff.”

“Don’t worry.” His tone gentled. “I’ve got plenty of time, and I’ll be very careful. I’m so glad you’re here.”

“Would you let me go outside please? I need some air.”

“I can’t. Not yet. It isn’t part of the plan.” He sat again, leaning forward. “You need three months.”

Horror drained her blood. “You can’t keep me locked up like this for three months.”

“It’s all right. You’ll have everything you need. Books, TV, company. I’ll rent movies for you, cook your meals. I’ve bought clothes for you.” He sprang up to slide open another panel. “See? I spent weeks choosing just the right things.” He gestured inside to the closet full of slacks and dresses and jackets. “And there’s shirts and sweaters, nightclothes and underthings in the bureau. Over here . . .” He pushed open another hidden door. “The bathroom.”

He flushed, stared at his shoes. “There aren’t any cameras in there. I swear. I wouldn’t spy on you in the bathroom. I stocked your favorite bath oils and soaps, your cosmetics. You’ll have everything you need.”

Everything you need. Everything you need.
The words spun around and around in her head. She couldn’t keep the hitch out of her voice. “I don’t want to be locked up.”

“I’m sorry. That’s the only thing I can’t give you right now. Soon, when you’ve really come to understand, it’ll be different. But anything else you want, I’ll get for you. Whenever I have to leave, you’ll be all right here. The room’s secure, soundproofed. Even if someone came into the house, they wouldn’t find you. Outside the door is a bookcase. It’s really cool. I designed it myself. No one would ever guess there was a room in here, so you’ll be safe and sound whenever I’m gone. And when I’m busy around the house, I can watch you.” He pointed toward the cameras. “So if you need me, I’ll know.”

“They’ll come and find me, Jeff. Sooner or later. They won’t understand. You have to let me go.”

“No, I have to keep you. Do you want to watch TV?” He crossed over, picked up the remote from the nightstand. “We have full cable.”

Fighting back a hysterical laugh, she pressed her fingers to her eyes. “No, no, not now.”

“You can watch whenever you want. And the shelf is full of videos. Movies, and tapes I’ve taken of you. And the scrapbooks.” He bustled around the room, an energetic host anxious to entertain. “I’ve kept them for you. Everything that’s ever been written up on you is in here. Or there’s
the stereo. I have all your favorite music. There’s a little refrigerator in the bathroom that I stocked with drinks and snacks.”

“Jeff.” She could feel that bubble of panic swelling. Her hands shook as she stood. “You’ve gone to a lot of trouble. I understand that. And I understand that you’ve done what you thought you had to do. But this is wrong. You’re keeping me prisoner.”

“No, no, no.” He came to her quickly, grabbing her hands when she jerked back. “You’re like the princess in the fairy tale, and I’m protecting you. I’m cherishing you. It’s like you’re under a spell, Dee. One day you’ll wake up and I’ll be here. And we’ll be happy.”

“I’m not under a spell.” She yanked away, fury simmering under fear like an exotic stew. “And I’m not a goddamn princess. I’m a human being, with the right to make my own choices. You can’t lock me up and expect me to be grateful because I’ve got bathroom privileges.”

“I knew you’d be angry at first.” Disappointment sighed through his voice as he reached down for her dinner dishes. “But you’ll calm down.”

“The hell I will.” She leaped at him, striking out with her free hand. The first blow glanced off his cheekbone. China shattered on the floor and flew like bullets. Snarling, she scrambled after a shard.

She screamed, fighting like a madwoman as he wrestled her to the floor. He was strong, so much stronger than he looked with those long, gangly arms. He made no sound, no sound at all, simply clamped a hand painfully on her wrist until her fingers opened to release the makeshift weapon.

He dragged her to the bed, stoically suffering her flailing feet and fists. When she was pressed under him, his erection hard against her thigh, her terror doubled.

There were worse things than being locked in. “No!” She tried to buck him off, her fingers fisting and unfisting while he clamped her hands over her head.

“I want you, Deanna. God, I want you.” His fumbling kiss dampened her jaw. The sensation of her body writhing
beneath his had a red haze of need cloaking his vision. Her heart was chugging like a piston against his, and her skin was soft as water, hot as fire. “Please, please.” He was almost weeping as his mouth covered hers. “Just let me touch you.”

“No.” Sickened, she turned her head. Control. She grasped onto her only hope. “You’d be no better than Jamie. You’re hurting me, Jeff. You have to stop hurting me.”

Tears tracked down his cheeks when he lifted his head. “I’m sorry. Deanna, I’m so sorry. It’s just that I’ve waited so long. We won’t make love until you’re ready. I swear it. Don’t be afraid of me.”

“I am afraid.” He wouldn’t rape her, she realized, and was almost ashamed that she was willing to settle for that. “You have me locked up. You’ve told me no one can find me. What if something happened to you? I could die here.”

“Nothing’s going to happen. I’ve planned everything, every detail. I love you, Deanna, and I know under it all, you love me too. You’ve shown me in hundreds of ways. The way you smile at me. The way you touch me, or laugh. The way you’ll catch my eye across the room. You made me your director. I can’t begin to explain what that meant to me. You trusted me to guide you. You believed in me. In us.”

“It’s not love. I don’t love you.”

“You’re just not ready yet. Now you need to rest.” He braceleted her wrists in one hand, fought the hypo free with the other.

“No. Don’t.” She twisted, wrenched, begged. “Please don’t. I can’t go anywhere. You’ve said I can’t get away.”

“You need to rest,” he said quietly, and slid the needle under her skin. “I’ll watch out for you, Deanna.”

Her head lolled back, and his tears fell to mix with hers. He waited, miserably, until her struggles to fight off the drug ceased. When her body went limp, he clamped down on the urge to stroke his hands over it.

Not until she’s ready, he reminded himself, content to brush the dampness from her cheeks. Gently, he shifted her onto the pillows and placed a chaste kiss on her brow.

His princess, he thought, studying her as she slept. He’d built her an ivory tower. They’d live there together. Forever.

“Isn’t she perfect, Uncle Matthew? Isn’t she beautiful? You’d have loved her too. You’d have known she was the one, the only one.”

He sighed. Uncle Matthew wasn’t speaking to him. He’d been wrong to allow sex to twist his plans. He’d have to be punished. Bread and water only for two days. That’s what his uncle would have done. Meekly he crouched down to clean up the broken dishes. He tidied the room, turned the lights down. With one last, longing glance at Deanna, he slipped out of the room, shutting the panel silently.

“I think it would be best if you’d take Miss Reynolds home.” Jenner rode up in the elevator with Finn. He still resented Finn’s earlier pressuring but he covered it with quiet dignity. “I’d prefer that she was out of the office when we re-interrogate her staff.”

“The minute she finds out that’s what you intend to do, she won’t budge.” Pleased that matters seemed to be moving forward, Finn leaned against the wall. “I’ll do what I can to convince her to stay out of the way, but that’s the best I can offer. Deanna’s fiercely loyal. She won’t want to accept that one of her own people is involved.”

“She may have to.” Jenner headed out of the car the moment the doors opened. “If she kicks up too much of a fuss, we can take her people in to the station. She’ll like that less.”

“You can try. You don’t know her the way I do, Lieutenant. Cassie,” he said as he walked into the reception area. “She in?”

“No.” Baffled, she stopped gathering the stacks of mail she’d intended to post on the way home. “What are you doing here?”

“Cassie Drew?” Jenner inclined his head. “We’d like to ask you some more questions. I wonder if you could get the rest of Miss Reynolds’s staff together?”

“I—I don’t know who’s still in the building. Finn?”

“Why don’t you buzz everyone,” he suggested. “And find Deanna for me, will you?” He wanted to get her out, and quickly. Some instinct told him to hurry. He intended to heed it. “Tell her I’m in the mood to cook.”

“She’s gone home. She left right after you called.”

“I called?” He felt uneasy. “Did Deanna tell you I called?”