Private 09 - Paradise Lost (7 page)

"Nothing! Nothing," I said, flipping onto my back. I tried to shove my hands into my hair, and then realized it was pinned up and carefully extricated my fingers. "I just... needed some air."

Upton's fingertips trailed up and down my inner forearm, sending pleasant shivers throughout my body.

"Have you gotten enough yet?" he asked, inching closer and bringing his face toward mine.

I giggled and looked at him in a mock-stern way. "I'm thinking we should go back to the party."

Upton's eyebrows rose. "Why? I'm having plenty of fun right here."

"Me too," I said, racking my brain for something I could say that wouldn't offend him and wouldn't make me sound like a complete prude. "It's just... I came down here to hang out with my friends, and I feel like I'm neglecting them." Upton smiled. "All right then. We'll go inside. But I plan on continuing this at a later date." I couldn't help but smile in response. I definitely wanted to hang out with him again. Upton pulled me up off the lounge in one swift motion. As soon as we were through the doors, it was obvious that something was up. Almost everyone at the party was gathered near the front door of the suite, and there was an enthusiastic din coming from the center of the crowd. The only person who didn't appear to have any interest in what was going on was Sawyer Hathaway, who was leaning against the wall near the verandah doors, picking at his fingernails.

"It's so good to see you!" a girl's voice squealed. A girl with a British accent. "Really? Do you like it? I just had it cut."

"I love it," I heard Taylor say. "I've been thinking about chopping mine, too."

"Oh, you definitely should. It's so freeing!"

Finally, the girl with the accent made her way out of the crowd and into the open. She had short blond curls pushed back from her face with a skinny headband, a sun-kissed tan, and seriously defined arms. She wore a tiny spaghetti-strap boho dress with swirls of brown, red, and orange all over it, and at least half a dozen beaded necklaces of all different lengths. She linked arms with an athletic-looking girl with long black hair, tan skin, and a regal air about her.

They both giggled as they faced the partygoers, their backs to me and Upton.

"Who's that?" I asked.

"That would be Poppy," he replied with an amused look in his eye. "And it appears as if she's brought along a friend."

"Everyone, this is Sienna Marquez. Sienna, this is . . . everyone!"

"Pleased to meet you," Sienna said in a thick Spanish accent. She and Poppy both laughed as if sharing some private joke.

"Are you all enjoying the parry?" Poppy asked, lifting her free arm. Dozens of skinny gold bangles jangled down to her elbow.

The crowd answered with a general cheer of approval. Daniel Ryan broke away from his friends and was about to hug her when Poppy's eyes fell on Upton. She lit up like a sparkler on the Fourth of July, dropped her friend's arm, and clapped her hands together in glee.

"There's my yummy boyfriend!"

I glanced at Upton, whose face broke into a smile as he released my hand and the girl came sprinting across the room. She launched herself into his arms from about three feet away, wrapping all four limbs around him like a koala and sticking her tongue so far down his throat that she must've tasted his lunch.

I was so surprised I actually stumbled aside a few paces. I found myself staring at Daniel, who was standing directly across from me, his mouth hanging slightly ajar, looking as dumbfounded as I felt. Upton had a girl friend?

CHAPTER 10 NOT A JERK

The next morning I woke up with a start, my heart sprinting. For a moment I had no idea where I was, and I was seized by the disturbing sensation that I was being watched. Then I saw the ocean outside my open windows and remembered. St. Barths. The Lange family's house. I was fine. I was safe. I must have had a bad dream. The sky was just starting to brighten, the darkness giving way to lighter shades of blue and gray. I listened for a moment to ascertain whether anyone in the house was up and about, but I heard nothing. No early risers in the Lange family. Not that I was surprised. Noelle had never been a morning person. I lay back on the thick feather pillow. There was no way I was going to be able to fall back to sleep, because now I was thinking. Thinking of Sabine and Ariana and Thomas and Josh and Ivy. Lots and lots to think about.

Including Upton. Upton, Upton, Upton. My mind recalled the image of Poppy koala-bearing him, and my chest constricted. About two seconds after that little display I had fled the party, come back here, and had gone directly to bed. There was no way I was messing around with a guy who had a girlfriend. I had learned that lesson with Dash.

Out of the corner of my eye, I saw something careening toward the window and I sat up straight, my heart in my throat. Just then a beautiful blue-and-yellow bird alighted on my windowsill and jumped from side to side, checking me out with its little black eyes.

"Hey there. You scared me," I whispered, letting out a breath. The bird jumped back and forth, back and forth, and then started to sing. I blinked, surprised. It was almost as if he had done his assessment and decided I was worthy of a private morning concert. I was about to lay down again and listen to his song when suddenly someone stepped up to my window, scaring the breath out of me. The bird took flight with a squawk.

"Good morning," Upton said with a smile.

My hand was over my chest. "Upton! What the hell are you doing? " I whisper-shouted. My stomach was tied in frightened knots that relaxed only slightly now that I realized I knew my surprise visitor. I pulled up the blankets to cover my navy blue Easton Academy T-shirt and couldn't help wondering what my hair was doing.

But wait. I didn't care. He had a girl friend.

"So this is the Langes' new house, huh?" he said, leaning on the windowsill and looking around my room. "Nicely done."

"How many windows did you pop into before you found the right one?" I asked, my heart still pounding.

"Only two. Someone should check on the housekeeper. I may have given her a stroke," Upton said.

"Upton!"

"Kidding! Kidding!" he said, lifting his hands.

I took a deep breath and silently told my pulse to calm itself. "What are you doing here?'

"I had to see you," Upton said, running his hands through his tousled hair. "You left so quickly last night that I didn't have a chance to say good night."

"I thought that was because your tongue was otherwise occupied," I said sarcastically. I rolled away from him in the bed and hung over the far side to retrieve my jeans from the floor.

"I thought Poppy might have been the cause of your sudden departure," he said with a frown. I shimmied into my jeans under the covers and swung my legs around the edge of the bed to face him. He was only about four feet away, but the wall separated us.

"Wow. You're even smarter than I thought," I said.

Upton's frown deepened. "Reed, Poppy is not my girlfriend," he said in a quiet but firm voice. "She's simply a good friend with whom I've . . . for lack of a better word . . . hooked up with a few times this past year."

"She seems to think it's more serious than that," I said, crossing my arms over my chest and glancing at the clock on the nightstand. I needed something to look at other than those deep blue eyes. Otherwise I was in danger of blindly believing everything he said. Upton laughed in a fond way. "Well, that's just Poppy. She's used to getting what she wants--and doesn't take no for an answer. Just one of her many endearing quirks."

"Obsessive delusions are an endearing quirk in your world?" I asked. Upton smirked. "When it's Poppy Simon, yes." He took a deep breath. "Look, she wanted something more serious and I didn't, but she's persistent. I think she believes that if she calls me her boyfriend over and over again, I'll somehow start believing it's true." I snorted a derisive laugh. "Whatever. I just don't want to get involved in some twisted love triangle," I told him. I got up and walked over to the window. Big mistake. The closer I got to him, the higher my body temperature rose. "I'd just like to pretend that last night never happened," I lied.

Upton reached for my hand. He pressed his thumb into my palm, causing my heart to skip an alarming number of beats.

"That's not acceptable to me," he said. "I can't pretend last night never happened." I hazarded a glance at his face. God, those eyes. A person could die happy in those eyes.

"Upton," I said. It came out in a sort of begging tone. I had lost all conviction.

"Just let me take you out for breakfast," he said. "I must prove to you I'm not a jerk." I smiled inadvertently. His accent made everything sound so endearing.

Don't do it, Reed. Don't do it, a little voice in my mind warned. I stared at him, trying to picture a flashing neon sign in the center of his forehead that read CAUTION! GIRLFRIEND haver!

But I couldn't do it. Another look in those eyes and I was a goner.

"Fine," I said finally, "breakfast."

CHAPTER 11 UPTON THE WISE

An hour later I met Upton on the beach, about a ten-minute walk from Noelle's house. As he saw me approach, he got on his knees and pushed up the sleeves of his navy-blue cotton sweater, exposing his perfect forearms.

"I've brought you three types of croissants," he announced. "That has to earn me some points."

He pronounced "croissants" with a flawless French accent. Could this guy be any sexier?

Do not get sucked in, I told myself, tucking my hands under my arms as I sat down on the gray flannel blanket. There was a stiff wind coming off the water, and my green hoodie was zipped up all the way to my chin, which had the added benefit of sending a clear message--not here to flirt.

"Maybe. We'll see," I said, checking out the rest of the spread. Laid out on the blanket were four separate platters heaped with fruit, croissants (butter, chocolate, and strawberry), eggs Benedict, and all manner of breads and cheeses.

"Are you a tea person or a coffee person?" he asked, holding up two silver thermoses.

"Coffee, definitely," I said, pulling my knees up under my chin.

"All Americans are," he joked, pouring some into an actual ceramic mug. I noticed that he also had somehow managed to transport a glass carafe of grapefruit juice without breaking it. As picnics went, this was pretty gourmet. Back in Croton the word "picnic" conjured images of soggy PB&Js and Minute Maid fruit punch juice boxes.

"Okay. I'll admit I'm impressed," I teased, tying back my hair in a ponytail. A few clouds had rolled in off the island side, encroaching on the sun. I hugged my sweatshirt closer to me, wondering if Upton felt the same way as Kiran did about Old Navy. I took a sip of my coffee and resolved not to care.

"Thank you," Upton said, settling in next to me with his tea. His thigh grazed mine and, even through my jeans, I felt the heat. Damn. Being near this guy was definitely dangerous.

"I'm glad Noelle brought you here," he said.

"Why? Need some new meat?" I blurted.

"What does that mean?" he asked, pulling back slightly.

"Nothing. Sorry," I said, taking another sip of my coffee. "It's just... I like you." Didn't get much more transparent than that.

Upton grinned. "I like you, too."

"But you're a player," I said, my heart slamming against my breastbone. His brow knit as he considered this. "I don't have to be." I laughed. "Yes, you do. People don't change."

"That is such a load of bollocks. People change all the time," he protested, setting down his tea and turning toward me. "Look at Madonna. She loves the U.S., then she loves England, then she loves the U.S. again. Or politicians. They flip-flop all the time. And look at Brad Pitt. You cannot tell me that man was not a player before he met Angelina." I laughed loudly and raised my hands. "Okay, okay! You made your point."

"Good," Upton said, settling in again. He reached for the platter of fruit and popped a grape in his mouth. "I thought I was going to have to whip out my BlackBerry and start searching Wikipedia for more examples. The point is, right here, right now, I want to be with you. No one else. Okay?"

I took a deep breath and audibly let it out. "Okay." I couldn't help but smile. He'd had me at

"load of bollocks." I tore off the end of a croissant and nibbled on it. It was clearly time to move on from the player conversation.

"So what's your deal, Upton Giles?" I asked. "Where're you from? What do you do? What do you like? "

"My deal?" he said with a laugh. He propped his hands behind him and gazed out at the ocean. "Well, let's see, I grew up in Essex, where my family owns quite a bit of land. My grandfather did well with some technology investments and used his earnings to snatch up every foreclosed estate he could get his hands on, so we're new money pretending to be old." He lowered his voice as if sharing a dark family secret. "So because of this grand charade, I am supposed to make something of myself, which basically means that when I was five I knew I was going to have to graduate from Oxford and become a medic or a lawyer or a businessman of some kind. Whatever would get me quoted in the London Times at least once a month, which is how my father measures a person's success."

I laughed, pushing away a stray lock of hair from my face. "Sounds like a lot of pressure." Upton grabbed a plain croissant and covered it with some sort of greenish-white cheese.

"You'd think it would be, but you're missing one important detail."

"What's that?" I said.

"Expectations mean bugger all to me," he said with a grin. I smiled and took a sip of my coffee. "What's Oxford like?"

"Why? Thinking of matriculating?" he asked, leaning on his side now. He gave me a leading look that made me shiver "We'd love to have you," he said in a jokingly husky voice.

"I think Oxford's a little out of my reach," I said, putting down the coffee and dusting some stray sand from my hands. "I'm kind of starting to stress about college. Everyone I know has to get into an Ivy League school, like it's going to make or break the rest of our lives. I never even thought about the Ivies until I got to Easton, and now it's, like, 'Omigod! What if I don't get in?'" I said, raising my shoulders and spreading my fingers wide. Upton laughed and took another bite of croissant. "You don't have to go to an Ivy to have a life."