Private 06 - Legacy (20 page)

I knew that laugh. That was Cheyenne's laugh. Someone brushed by me. I forced myself to turn around. Once again, my vision blurred, but this time I was prepared for it. I closed my eyes, took a deep breath, and opened them again. And there she was. It was her. Picking her way down the hall of stoners with three other girls. Laughing. Her hair. Her smile. Her figure. Her chin beneath the pink sequined mask. She wore a gauzy white gown with a pink sash. Pink. Cheyenne's favorite color. Her hand was on another girl's back as they navigated along. In two seconds they'd be gone.

I forgot about Josh. I had to. For that moment he ceased to matter. I had to find out what the hell was going on. Was Cheyenne alive? Was I insane? Hallucinating? Hearing things?

No. I couldn't be. She was right there. My head pounded. I couldn't think straight. But I had to know. I had to know for sure. "Wait! Cheyenne! Wait!" I shouted.

They didn't stop. Didn't look back. "No! Wait! Come back!" I followed after them. Tripped on someone's outstretched leg. Braced my hand against the guardrail. Her laughter floated back to me. Even as the hallway turned beneath my feet, I kept moving. "Cheyenne!

Wait!

Why are you doing this? Please, just stop!" Through the haze of smoke and sweat and heat,

I saw Cheyenne hug one of her friends, then duck into one of the rooms down the hall. Perfect. She was alone. She couldn't get away now. Working on pure adrenaline, I shoved aside a pair of giggling girls, kneed some guy in a George W. mask in the balls when he tried to grab me, and lurched for the door.

My heart pounded in my throat as I slipped inside, turned, and closed the door. I waited for my brain to stop turning in my skull and took a breath. I was petrified to turn around. Irrational fears flooded my mind and brought out goose bumps all over my skin. Fears of vengeful spirits and specters and zombies and death. I was petrified to turn around. But I did. And the room was empty.

* * *

I really was losing my mind. There were no other doors at this end of the hallway. I could have sworn she had come through here. And yet... nothing. That was when I really started to cry. I groped my way to the queen-size bed in the center of the room, convulsing, clutching my stomach, choking for air. I cried like I'd never cried for Cheyenne. Like I'd never really cried for Thomas. Something even bigger had died tonight. My heart. My love.

My future. Selfish, I know, but true. And when I realized this, I curled into a ball and cried some more, now thinking of those people I had lost. Thinking of the total uselessness of their deaths. Thinking of how I'd have given anything to have them back.

For the past few weeks I had distracted myself with tasks. With the presidency, with the Legacy, even with school and Dash. But there was nothing here to distract me now. Nothing but this empty room. And the weight of it all pressing down on me. I don't know how long I stayed like that, curled up on the deep red comforter, tearing and snotting all over some stranger's bed. But after awhile, the sobs subsided. I realized I was exhausted. All I wanted was a tissue, some aspirin, and to curl up here and wait for morning. Pushing myself up, I glanced around for the first time. There was a cabinet next to the bed with a lamp and several issues of Paper and Nylon stacked on top. No tissues. I crouched down and opened the doors, and out slid three photo albums, one of which fell open at my feet.

My heart seized up. There, right in the center of the page, was a glossy five-by-seven photo of Ivy Slade and Cheyenne Martin. They were young. Maybe thirteen. Cheyenne had braces. Ivy, glasses. They were both beautiful. Adorable and fresh-faced and grinning. Their arms were flung around each other's shoulders and each held a tennis racket in her free hand. A handwritten caption underneath read, "Cheyenne and Ivy, Doubles Champs!"

My throat was so dry I started to cough. Dropping back on my butt, I looked around the room. The wall directly across from me was a collage. The entire wall was covered with words and images. Some clipped from magazines, some printed on photo paper, some on flimsy newsprint. They were partial images. Lips, but not faces. Petals, but not flowers. Wings, but not birds. Clouds, but not sky. Still, it wasn't the jarring disconnect of the images that made me stop cold. It was the word, painted in red script against the black wall in the center of the collage, that stopped me. The word IVY.

This was Ivy's room. I was in Ivy's room. And Ivy had pictures of Cheyenne. My hand shaking, I turned the page. There were several, smaller photos on this one, but Cheyenne and Ivy were a major theme. I turned the pages. On every one, images of the two girls greeted me. Cheyenne older, no braces now, clinging to the bow of a boat. Ivy and Cheyenne, maybe fourteen or fifteen, trying out water skis. Ivy and Cheyenne in formal attire, full-body hugging with their legs kicked up in back. The two of them on horses, on the beach, standing in front of Bradwell.

"Me and Che at the Regatta" "Ivy + Cheyenne = BFFs" "Me and Che, first day at Easton!" Ivy and Cheyenne, Ivy and Cheyenne, Ivy and Cheyenne. This didn't make any sense. Cheyenne and Ivy hated each other. Cheyenne had all but spit when Rose and Portia had suggested we offer Ivy an invite to Billings. And Ivy detested all of us, but especially Cheyenne. She sneered whenever the girl's name was brought up. But now, suddenly, I was finding out they were BFFs? I slammed the album closed, shaking now with anger. More lies. Everything was lies. Everything was secrets. It was just like last year, when perfect Thomas had turned out to be a drug dealer, and sweet Ariana had turned out to be a lovesick murderer, and Natasha had been secretly dating Leanne Shore, and Taylor had disappeared in the middle of the night, with no explanation, never to return. This world was nothing but rewritten histories. It was all about what you could get away with. Who you could deceive. Had anyone been honest with me ever? Was it some kind of Easton law that people couldn't tell the truth? Was there a secret course being given in deception that I didn't know about?

Instantly, Josh's devastated face came back full force and I laughed ruefully. Way to be a hypocrite, Reed. I didn't need a course in deception. What the hell had I been doing since the beginning of the year? Flirting with Dash. Lying to Josh. Lying to Noelle. I was just as bad as the rest of them. Josh was right. I had become one of them.

I shoved the books back into the cabinet and stood up. This was it. I was done. No more lies. I was going to find Noelle and tell her what had happened with Dash. I was going to tell her I had feelings for him, no matter how muddled and confused those feelings were. I was going to 'fess up and take whatever was coming to me. Noelle was going to go ballistic, I was sure, but at that moment I didn't care. I was sick of the lies. And I was going to do something about it.

"Noelle! Noelle!" She was gabbing with some girl I'd never seen before. Tall and willowy, with red hair and a distinctly regal air. As I raced toward her, Noelle nearly spit out a mouthful of her green apple martini. "Reed! What happened to you? You look like shit," she said. The willowy girl flicked her eyes over me like I'd just rolled in off one of the fishing boats in the harbor. She quickly, silently moved away. "I know," I said, trying to ignore the warning siren going off in my head. The siren screaming at me that this was a bad plan. A bad idea. That if I told the truth I was a dead woman. But it didn't matter. I didn't matter. All that mattered was the truth. "Listen, I have to talk to you. Like, now." I gripped both her arms and pulled her toward the wall.

"My God, Reed. What's the matter?" she asked me, her brown eyes concerned. "Wait! Good news first!" she announced. She took a sip from her drink and placed it on a nearby table.

"You have good news? " I said weakly. Bonus. Maybe her good news would defray the sting of my weapon of mass destruction. "The best," she said, grasping my hand. "Dash and I got back together!" And so the world stopped turning.

* * *

When? When? When? For the rest of the night that one word kept repeating itself in my mind. Sitting on a chaise waiting for my friends to finish up with their debauchery...

When?

Clutching my bare skin against the frigid air as our limo made its way to the head of the line of a thousand limos...

When?

Sitting on the velvet limo seat with Gage's head in my lap while Noelle and Portia applied lipstick and mascara and bronzer to his drooling face...

When?

When had Noelle and Dash gotten back together? Was it before he grabbed me, before he kissed me, before he felt me up and pinned me down and helped me shatter Josh's heart? Or after? Which was worse? If it had been before, then he was an asshole. An asshole who was using me and cheating on his girlfriend. If it was after, then why? Did he decide he didn't want to be with me? Had my body repulsed him back into her arms? Or did he think Ididn't want to be with him, because I'd gone after Josh? Had he meant to go back to her all along and was just waiting until after he had his way with me?

I was going to be sick again. Only this time I was going to be sick all over Gage's unsuspecting face. "Reed, smile!" I looked up. Noelle was holding Gage's clown face up in my lap as Tiffany wielded her camera. The flash blinded me. Everyone laughed. I turned to stare out the window, and at the purple spots floating before my eyes. "I've never been kissed like that in my life," Sabine gushed to Constance. "And I never even got to see his face! Do all American boys kiss like that?" "Lay one on Gage and find out!" Noelle joked. More laughter. They were still having fun. Still buzzed. Still high. The Legacy had been a success. For them. But I... I had lost my boyfriend and my potential boyfriend, all in one night. Zero for % on Legacy outcomes for me. Next year I was staying home.

The tunnel seemed tighter on the way back to campus. Tighter and colder and devoid of air.

Like when you take a trip and it takes no time to get where you're going, but forever to get home. I just wanted out of there, and so it seemed it would never end. And then it happened. Up ahead, someone started coughing. Seemingly at the same time, smoke filled my lungs. And not pot smoke this time, but real smoke. Thick and black and suffocating.

"Turn around! You guys! Turn around!" someone shouted. There was a scream. I turned around.

Constance, who had been in front of me, but was now behind, was shoved into my back. I tripped and fell into Vienna, who hit the floor. It was a stampede. Mayhem. My pulse pounded in every vein as panic took over. We were all dead. We were all going to get crushed and suffocate and die.

"Stop!" Noelle shouted at the top of her lungs. She was a few people behind me now. She had been leading the way. "Everybody calm down!" she said in her authoritative tone. Nobody moved. "Now pick yourselves up." I helped Vienna to her feet in front of me. The smoke was getting thicker now. Vienna was crying. "Now cover your nose and mouth with something and walk. Walk fast, but walk," Noelle said. "We're not that far from the opening." And so we walked. I gripped my feathered skirt to my mouth and tried to breathe.

Vienna grasped my hand with her sweaty fingers behind her, but she kept moving. Someone in the tunnel was whispering a prayer over and over again. I supposed when the privileged were trashed and scared, they got religious.

Soon the smoke started to thin, and the vibe calmed considerably. When I finally found myself back out in the fresh air, I was almost numb with relief. "What was that?" Tiffany asked as Portia and Noelle, the last of the group, emerged from the tunnel. Their faces were streaked with black, and Portia bent over in a coughing fit. Rose stepped forward to help her. Clearly they had gotten the worst of it. "I don't know," Noelle said. "But we're going to have to walk back and go in the front gate." A sort of grim resignation settled upon the group. This was it. We were going to go through the gate, with its guard and its cameras, and we were done for. I looked around at all of them, and hoped it had all been worth it. For me, it definitely had not.

The guard let us in. He was not surprised to see us. He simply nodded, buzzed the gate open, and watched as we trudged through, our couture dirty and soot-stained and ragged.

The walk up the hill was excruciating. Not only did those of us who were less trashed have to help drag the semiconscious along the steep road, but we all dreaded reaching the top.

Who knew what we would find? Who knew whether we'd be instantly expelled? And how bad was the fire? Had people been hurt? And--my own personal torture--where was Josh? Had he tried to get back that way? Was he okay? Would he ever want to see me again?

As we finally reached the first dormitory circle, the sky was turning a nice, rosy pink. We wouldn't even have the cloak of night now so that we could sneak back to our dorms and delay the inevitable. We were beyond dead.

And then we all saw it at once. The black plume of smoke rising above the trees. "It's Gwendolyn Hall," Rose said grimly. We knew this. Of course we knew this. But someone had to say it. "Let's go," Noelle ordered. Together, we all walked around Bradwell and came into the quad. No one even tried to hide or hang back or sneak off. The guard had us all on tape. Might as well stick together. Unlike with all the other tragedies I had experienced on campus, there was no crowd of students this time. Only teachers, firemen, cops, and EMTs. The students, clearly, had been ordered to stay in their rooms, but their faces were visible in every window, pressed to the glass, staring down at us. Four fire trucks were parked around what remained of Gwendolyn Hall. They had cut ugly, jagged turrets in the grass and kicked up dirt and mud all over the pathways and lawns. One hose still poured water over the smoking remains. Blackened stones were strewn everywhere. Crumbled mortar, singed trees, broken glass. A mountain of busted rock. Gwendolyn Hall, the original Easton class building, the oldest edifice on campus, was no more.

We had done this. This was our fault. Who lights up in the basement of an ancient building with hundreds of aged wooden desks pushed against the walls? Those things were kindling. A conflagration waiting to happen. One match left behind. One smoldering joint. That was all it took. We had brought down Gwendolyn Hall. A few police officers moved aside and I saw Headmaster Cromwell, dressed in a full suit and tie, nodding gravely as one of the firemen spoke to him. What had we done? What had I done? "We should probably get out of here,"